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thanks to doctor who for showing me the most fucking useless gravestone in the entirety of fiction

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today was the first time in my 23 years of life that i’ve ever told anyone about shit that happened to me as a child. i am so happy with my new therapist. 

she also informed me that what i had experienced was actually abuse. i am feeling so validated right now.

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You ever been tied to a bed?

Only by my depression

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I think this is good news

But I'm also very anxious.

For the first time in my life I started being completely open to a psychologist. I feel comfortable with her and I'm happy with that.

But she also seemed really concerned and told me that going inpatient is a good idea and I should think about it. And just the idea of telling my family that i might need to go inpatient makes me feel sick

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Desire paths are just the best human invention because cities will spend millions on sidewalks and yet. Our little foraging brains will think ‘too far cut thru grass for food’ and others will be like ‘other human have good idea. I follow’ until there’s a beaten path when there’s perfectly acceptable sidewalks to either side

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when freud said bisexuality is what happens when you dont fully develop a brain he was right and im proof

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The difference between a bisexual person and a pansexual person is that a bi person identifies as bi and a pan person identifies as pan and you don't get to fucking tell them that their understanding of their own sexuality is wrong

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background practice that took on a life of its own

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i will literally do meth if my life gets even a little worse

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having a tumblr blog with more than 500 followers deserves to be in the dsm-6

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If you want to psychoanalyze me just follow me on spotify

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babe get ready for a night on the town, i just found an old Subway gift card and there’s still $9.45 left on it

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Educate yourself.

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being a bi man getting the chance to date a bi woman has tbh been such a fulfilling and amazing experience for me. it’s been so freeing for me to finally be able to get over many parts of my internalized biphobia and share my life with another bi person who cares for me so deeply and intricately.

bi men and women dating each other is an experience that is so nuanced and unique i can’t even really explain it properly — the both of us share a deep understanding with each other due to our shared bisexuality (and the fact that i’m a nb trans man, but that’s besides the point) that cishet m/f relationships simply do not have. quite frankly, it is unfair and not based in reality to think that the two could ever be the same or similar in dynamic.

it just rly goes to show how people who aren’t bisexual will continue to misunderstand how we as bisexuals have extremely complicated relationships with sexuality, sex, and gender, and us being in different gender relationships does not and will never take away from that.

ppl who aren’t bisexual i encourage you to rb this but please dont be a clown in the notes