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Man oh man..

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I’m so sorry for everything

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Please don’t hate me...

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Today is December 2nd, 2019.

This will be my last post to this blog, for I’m switching to a new one. A fresh start. The only reason I wish to keep this page up is to remind myself of my struggles, good times, and ultimately to look back on in the future.

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I just want to love and to be loved. That is all. I constantly jump between leaving you in the dust and giving you nothing but my soul and pouring everything into you. But with that I risk self destruction, I’m weighing my options, but part of me doesn’t even have to think, I just know it’s the right thing to do. The other part of me, the old me, is frightened...

Oh Brandon. I love you, and I need to start acting like it. Unconditional. Unwavering. Love

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If I was a magical girl I would’ve been a witch by now

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He’s my drug

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I need to stop being hopeful. I need to leave you alone.

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I want you back so badly, but I know you want this. I know this is what you see is right, and I’m trying to see that too.

But I am so miserable and lonely. I try to put on a tough front to you and everyone around me. But at night, I cry, so much. My eyes burn and I pass out from all the shaking and heaving.

Maybe I’m still paying for sins I forgot about. Maybe this is what I need to be better for you later.

All I know is I am so very saddened. And I’m trying desperately to keep my cool.

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I wish you everything this world could give.

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Healing is the hardest part.

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🎵 My only sunshine, you make me happy when skies are gray. 🎵