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hello!!! just checking in. hru today? r ur collarbones, getting better now? have u drink enough water for today?

have a great day moot !! <3

HAII OOMFI!!! I was so caught up in life that I completely forgot to update people on here （(-_-;)

I've gone though a lot of physiotherapy and have gotten significantly better, there's but a dark scar on my clavicle now that I do think looks pretty cool

I've been staying healthy and got super caught up with my university studies (never become an architect) , thank you so much for checking in on me I hope to come back more active!

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Sorry for being IA I did the fanfic author thing of getting beat up by life and broke both my collarbones had the metal thingies they put in get rejected by my body and had to get more surgeries but I'm fine now

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💌 rentry template — like or rb if using 💖

requested by @angel1cvivi ★

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Vday commission! Zato and Venom from Guilty Gear.

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some gallagher headcanons ~ ♡

fully gn  ੈ✩‧ cw : none! mostly rambling

the epitome of a gentleman, wants you to hold onto his arm when you walk together, holds open the door for you takes your shoes off for you, if you're having a bath together he'll massage you wherever your soar and handle you so gently while getting out of it too, dries your hair, helps style it if you're into fashion he'll always weigh in his opinions on your outfits and what he thinks looks good on you (though no matter what you choose he'll always be supportive)

calls you sweetheart darling and love 100% they're classic, maybe a bit cheesy but he's allowed to enjoy some corny things right? He also enjoys it. I also thinks he'll call you hun or honey and he's not a big fan of babe or baby they don't feel as intimate as the others.

at the start of your relationship he wouldn't touch you much, citing his rough callused hands would discomfort you, though after some careful convincing and him being a huge physical touch fanatic he'd grow more comfortable holding you when you're by each other

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a stars stories  ੈ✩‧ - the star says she apologises for disappearing and assumes she's been cursed by an evil witch (i got pneumonia) but she's recovered now

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TOP BOYS by @QUEERGARDEN

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FF7 Fandom PSA

This is not a callout post, this is a warning about a genuinely dangerous abuser who uses fandom spaces to acquire victims.

Apparently my abusive ex is ingratiating himself into fandom spaces again, so if you're in the FF7 fandom please keep an eye out for someone calling himself Pix or Pixeled.

The details of what he did to me specifically are available in a post from almost exactly two years ago, readable here. Other people have shared their own stories, but I don't have the energy to dig up all of them. Trigger warnings for gaslighting, emotional abuse, violent threats, forced isolation, manipulation, and more that I'm definitely missing.

Known usernames:

Instagram: midgardsomrnights, pixeledartsy, okgoosefus, pixeledpalace

AO3: pixeled, pixeledxxx

tiktok: pixrexpen, gaywrathlet

FFXIV: sarielperedhil (on Brynhildr)

ko-fi: pixrexpalace

Other: pix pendragon, pixeled pendragon, pixrexpendragon

Some of these are current, most of them are not; he's no longer active here or on Twitter that I'm aware of, so I'm not referring to his usernames there, but he uses some combination of parts from these for his usernames everywhere so they followed the same theme.

This is not "fandom drama," this is a sincere warning to anyone in his orbit to be careful and be safe. Please love yourself more than he wants you to.

With that in mind, there are more personal details under the cut, discussing the fallout of going public with his abuse and more of his behavior; no screenshots on these because it's years in the past, not all of the related accounts and spaces still exist, and back when I was first gathering evidence I had to stop before it lapsed into the territory of emotional self-harm.

Same trigger warnings as above, plus racism, (implied) sexual exploitation, sexual manipulation, and discussion of Body Dysmorphic Disorder.

I want to be very clear that I was not the first person to go through this, I was just the first to go public afterward. I have lost relationships with people I thought were friends by doing so, and actually been referred to as abusive in response to my initial thread on Twitter letting people know what he'd done. I've had people who used his treatment of me as an excuse to join in with hurting me go on to co-opt my abuse to make themselves look like victims, claiming that we were best friends until he drove us apart—or worse, to use him as a complete stand-in for their own behavior, implying or outright stating that he forced them to isolate me from friends and fandom activities and treat me like shit, all while these people have me blocked on every possible platform where I could reconnect with them.

Pix was the Bad Guy of early 2022 on FF7 Twitter, and while he deserved the title, not everything everyone said about him was true. Not everything everyone said about me was true, either, but people tend to take anything connected to fandom as "drama," even when it involves literal abuse.

One thing I never told anyone except my closest friends is that Pix drove me to the verge of suicide multiple times. He put up videos insulting me to be "funny" and got friends laughing along, when I asked him to stop teasing me all the time he exploded and said that he was allowed to express himself however he wanted and if I had a problem then I should break up with him so he could finally kill himself guilt-free, he told me that he wasn't going to placate me anymore by saying "I love you," he told me in public spaces to shut up because I didn't know anything. He used racist slurs against Asian people behind my back and told everyone who called him on it that I'd told him it was all right, leading to a continuing belief among some circles that I have some deep internalized racism toward my own fucking ethnicity.

He told me that his mother saw me as a whore and a homewrecker, because I'd seduced him away from his boyfriend of eight years—in spite of the fact that I told him outright I did not want a romantic relationship with him because he was already in one, and I wouldn't be party to cheating. When I went public with what he did, he claimed that I pressured him into a romantic relationship, neglecting to mention that he'd been pushing for one almost since we met and that I'd shot him down because he was already with someone else. He said that I'd forced him to break up with his boyfriend, and seemed to be implying that I'd somehow sexually exploited him because I'm a cisgender lesbian and he identified as an aro/ace trans man at the time we broke up. When we got together, he identified as a bisexual nonbinary person.

To be completely honest, though, his orientation and gender identity doesn't even fucking matter with regards to the implication that I exploited him because we never had any form of sexual contact—unless you want to count RP, which I don't, and if I did I would be calling him a cheater because I was not his only RP partner.

To be completely clear, we were in a long distance relationship, thousands of miles apart, and we had no sexual contact. We never sexted, we never had phone sex, we never even exchanged dirty pictures. Our relationship had no sexual element whatsoever. He eventually told me in no uncertain terms that if/when we got married, he wasn't going to sleep with me because he didn't have a sex drive anymore due to trauma, and that since I loved him so much I'd have to be happy with that.

He would remind me of this when my Body Dysmorphic Disorder began to relapse constantly from the amount of stress he had me under, because my experience with the condition is rooted on my lack of physical femininity and leads me to see myself as completely sexually repulsive. When I was triggered and trying to untie the knot in my chest that made me want to throw up at the thought of my own body, he would remind me that I didn't have to worry about being too ugly for sex with him, because he was never going to fuck me anyway. That it didn't matter if I was disgusting, because he found all bodies disgusting, so really I was lucky to have him. He didn't even care that I was disabled and that my arms and legs are too long, that my joints slip out of place all the time, that the way I have to move sometimes to keep from hurting makes me look "weird and stupid." I was so lucky to have him, because even though he was very aware of all those things, he didn't actually care. He wasn't going to fuck me anyway.

The last Christmas card he sent me literally had the words "You deserve a high-five!" printed on the front, and on the reverse he'd written something along the lines of "okay but you know I'd be sure to miss and slap you in the face, sorry not sorry."

He made my life hell in every possible way, and people said it was drama because we met through fandom—and that I deserved it, honestly, since I was so fucked up and he was such a good person for even caring about me in the first place. I deserved it, people said, since I turned around and stabbed him in the back after he'd done so much for me for the years we were together. It was just fandom drama, they said, and I was just thriving off the social capital it allegedly earned me.

And now he's back and making new friends, but it's fine because this all happened years ago, and everyone with a brain should be able to see that it's just fandom drama. But it's not. It never was. Don't let him convince you otherwise.

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my friends have collectively called him dilf

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more gallagher headcanons :3 (nsfw and sfw this time)

note : gallagher looks like a dilf to me tbh

sfw :

wants to hold your hand EVERYWHERE, the bar, when going out on dates, going out on late night strolls, js everywhere tbh

he would look tough and intimidating because of his appearance but turns into a total softie when he's around you

melts into your touch, he would ask to cuddle after a long day

gives you a morning kiss when you wake up from sleeping, and then clings onto you for the rest of the day

he calls you petnames like; 'honey' or 'darling'

nsfw :

he tried being a power bottom but FAILED. he ended up crying about how he wants you to take over

he complains that it's too big and then whines that you pulled out when he told you not to

i feel like he'd hate toys sometimes, he wants to feel you and not just some piece of plastic

whines when you pull out to tease him :((

wants you to do the work, he's too tired to do all of it anyways

end note : i did NOT expect my last post to get attention. thank you guys so much 🥹 I'll try to make more headcanons about him !!

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smoke & gallagher ~ ♡

cw gn smoking ! inspired by this art

he usually smokes cigars but with you he'll switch to cigarettes to share with you, though does comment on them being weaker but doesn't actually mind.

he leans back on an alley wall lighting up his cigarette, if you have one he won't even bother to light yours just leans in closer touches the ends of your cigs together to light yours.

oh and if you don't have one he'll share the smoke with you don't worry, won't directly hand you it though. He leans in close thumb under your chin lips close to yours as he blows out the smoke into your mouth; he'll repeat this a few times until he eventually has enough and kisses you smoke trapped between your two mouths or the more boring option of handing you the cig

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— To be mutuals w/ you (a really cool person)... It's an honor ToT (LOLLL THIS IS SO LATE OF AN ASK)

thank u sm ૮ ˶ᵔ ᵕ ᵔ˶ ა i really emjoy your reblogs whenever i see your smth reblogged by u i know that fic is gonna hit LOL

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gallagher headcanons !! nsfw

note : I'm sorry but i tried to control myself but couldn't 💔 DO YOU SEE HIS TITS.

another note : mentions of somnophilia, etc.

cries when you stuff him full to the point where his belly bulges a bit, he can't help it.

i feel like he would let out a few grunts and THEN would be loud later on

cannot stand being alone after sex :((

grips onto anything he could lay his hands on, your forearms, the sheets, the pillow, etc.

he loves it when you play with his chest

absolutely LOVES getting his hair pulled

hates when he ends up in positions where he can't hold you close or kiss you, he's so touched starved

another note : i know he was js announced but I couldn't control myself, i MIGHT add more hcs in the future anyways :3

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As a loserfemale does I was rewatching the Dr ratio trailer, and I noticed something odd... why is he in a bathtub in the middle of a random room in the station? He's not in a bathhouse or even a bathroom, just a random room with a bathtub in the middle. There is a deep lore implication here, as the player, we see plenty of random bathrooms around the station, no fosets or bidets or showers OR BATHROOMS. THIS MEANS EVERYONE IN THE STAION USES A PUBLICALLY SEEN / ACCESSIBLE TOILET OR TUB AND DOESNT WASH THEIR HANDS.

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Continuing the soft Veritas I'd like to present a new thought! Dr ratio can't cook. I don't know how to rationalise this hc but I genuinely think he can't cook, like it's so bad he basically needs constant supervision in the kitchen from you. Or you'd just do it yourself and I'd you do, he's there with you the whole time; you'd be chopping vegies while he hugs you from behind. You're working with oil or something you need more space for that's okay he'll sit at the kitchen island with a book and wait for you. No matter how good or bad the food turns out he'd always eat it all (if it's particularly bad he might drop a cooking book off in your room) and get a warm relaxing bath ready for you both as a way to say 'thank you'

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dvattra doodle dump

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op is looking op is waiting patiently

Emotionally I require someone to draw him with a lace bra like a black lacey one... and it like peaks through his stupif chest window too but he tties to hide it. I think he'd look so good

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Emotionally I require someone to draw him with a lace bra like a black lacey one... and it like peaks through his stupif chest window too but he tties to hide it. I think he'd look so good