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They did NOT ☠️☠️☠️☠️☠️

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being at work while your personal life is falling apart has to be among the top 3 worst human experiences. You’re at your absolute lowest and someone wants to circle back on an email…… unreal

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i need my mom to stop sayin im being overdramatic when im worrying abt my money and ability to find housing. “ur only 23, u aren’t behind at all! plus u work so much, u should find a place just fine!”

lady, i work more than full-time and pull in less than $30k a year. there is no hope💀

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treated myself to a little 'sleeping for eight hours' last night but i need to be careful lest i grow dependent on such luxuries

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being traumatized is so embarrassing sometimes like oooogh my mom was mean to me when i was little so now i want to eviscerate myself anytime i think i’ve done something wrong. fuck you

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when men’s shirts ride up just enough and you see just their lil tummy and edge of their adonis belt and there’s maybe a liiiiil tiny happy trail and then their shirt just drops back down and you have to keep having a normal conversation??? like you did not just see god

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The fact that im getting raw dogged by life everyday. Don’t have any medication to take the edge off. Nor any addiction, I don’t even got a religion or spirituality to fall back on. Im facing this life stone cold sober every goddamn day??? Why???

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jobs for girls who can't focus and are tired all the time and aren't rlly that good looking and get startled easily

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having a uterus SUCKS man bc all day you'll be feeling the "hey bestie check your pants 😃 check it right now 😃 you might be getting your period 😃 hey bestie i think youre bleeding 😃" and then when you check if you got your period and your body is like WRONG ❌️ its The Slime

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Sleepless Nights

I desperately try to grasp onto the darkness that would bring the next day. But sleep eludes me. It hold me awake in a sleeping world. I toss and turn in my bed in hopes it will tire me, but it doesn't work. Every minute the darkness morphs shadows in ever corner, in hopes to haunt me. A branch tapping on the window slowly forms the shape of a hand, seemingly trying to reach through to grasp me, to drag me into the dark outside world.

Tired eyes stare up at the ceiling, buring with every blink, red veins more prominent. Tears start to form in the red eyes. Head pounding with every movement it makes. Body stiff and sore, hoping it would get a goodnight rest. The hours pass by unbearably slow into the next day, the sun slowly peals back the night to bring an orange glow into the dark room. I claw desperately at the sheets in anger.

Why can't I sleep.

I close my eyes trying to force myself to sleep, but nothing comes. Nothing but sadness. As the shadows start to fade and the light gets brighter, the world starts to awaken. The birds singing, the neighborhood starts with a fresh new day, the sound of my father going off to work; all these sounds make me want to cry out in agony from my restless night.

Getting up, my limbs feel week and useless. My eyes blurring, trying to hard to focus on the world around me. I know that it's going to be hard, to not be tempted by the dark, and ghostly hands trying to pull me back into the dark, unconscious of sleep. But I go through the day hoping tonight will be different, that tonight I will fall into a heavy dreamless sleep.

~AcePumpkin~

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i need josh hutcherson in a way that sets back womens right

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"SURVIVING"

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Big man. Strong arms. Tall. Soft tummy. Thighs. Thighs. Thighs. Tummy. Dhbfbnfnjfjdnn.