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"Would you peel an orange for me?"

I would peel a pomegranate for you.

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i wish i had friends. im so lonely and sad. i really wish i had girl friends to spend time with and do things together. i wish i could make connections but im awkward and really introverted. i feel like idk how to socialize. its so hard finding new ppl when the only public places u go to is school and work. i dont do clubs or stuff like that i hate loud places and music and crowded areas i get really overwhelmed and get anxiety. the only friend i made in the past 5 years moved to a different state. and my best friend is states ways. i dont like nor talk to any of my coworkers besides a japanese woman twice my age, but she has a boyfriend and a family.

i tried a friendship finder app but all the girls are educated, well polished, have well established careers, and wouldn’t even look at me twice. theres no chance.

:((((

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"Loneliness is when you sit on a bench for four hours but no one knows you're there."

A. "Urielle"

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i cry a lot when your not around

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“I want you under me. On your back.

I'm sorry. You deserve more respect than that. But I can't stop thinking of it. Your arms and leg's around me. Your mouth, open for my kisses. I need too much of you. A lifetime of nights spent between your thighs wouldn't be enough.

I want to talk with you forever. I remember every word you've ever said to me.

If only I could visit you as a foreigner goes into a new country, learn the language of you, wander past all borders into every private and secret place, I would stay forever. I would become a citizen of you.”

— Lisa Kleypas, A Wallflower Christmas

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i miss you more than my words can explain. i miss watching you walk through the front door, the biggest smile on your face, i miss your laugh, i miss the jokes and stories you tell, i miss when i would see your car pull around up front at school and i use to run to the fence and yell “theres my papa!”, i miss when you would play pranks, i miss when you would get in the pool with us, i miss driving you to publix and help you grocery shop, i miss being with u. i miss you i miss you i miss you i miss you. your just the sweetest most gentle soul. thank u for everything u did, your the greatest man to ever walk in my life. i love you so much. i wish i could just have one day with you. i wish it was 2010 and im helping u and grandma decorate the house and christmas tree. i wish i could see u papa. :((((

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praying i get a new job with a hefty raise that doesnt make me want to end it all.🧎‍♀️ god have mercy on me

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hmm

Let's play a game called "how skinny can I get until my mum genuinely apologises to me"

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worrying is like worshipping the problem

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yeah, no. wrong bitch.

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im depressed but atleast i got a cute cat on impulse today

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Sandeep Karunakaran

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relatable.

“Ah sorry I’m just dumb” (having ADHD my whole life has meant that I’ve been criticised heavily for making mistakes that come part and parcel with the condition. Even the people I love most in the world have chastised me for mistakes that I spend much of my life worrying about and trying to avoid. It’s much easier to tell you I’m just a silly guy than explain to you that no matter how much effort, how much thought, how much stress I put into avoiding these same mistakes, I will keep making them over and over again. My brain is structurally built to thwart me throughout it all.)

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ive been 4 months nicotine free and yet i still get cravings even tho they’re mild. andddd its the fucking reason why i gained weight and have an actual appetite now god dammit depression is watchinng urself gain weight and not having portion control anymore :((

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ToiVarg

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losing you terrifies me.