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𝘠𝘢𝘩𝘸𝘦𝘩 𝘮𝘺 𝘳𝘦𝘥𝘦𝘦𝘮𝘦𝘳 ⁣

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The year is 2020⁣

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I was prideful, broken, lost and hopeless. ⁣

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In 2020, the world shut down, I broke up with someone who I thought I’d spend my life with, I was diagnosed with depression, anxiety and an eating disorder. I was prescribed antidepressants, and I felt like I lost and was not a “good Christian”.⁣

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Fast forward to June 2021. My sister and best friend moved herself and her family to Johnson City TN. And my life began shifting. ⁣

In October of 2022, I attended a church that would lead me to meet two people who would forever change my view of Yeshua. This wonderful couple saw the hurt that weighed so heavy on me, and loved on me the way Yahweh does. ⁣

In October of 2023, my other sister and best friend moved her life to Johnson City TN. ⁣

“𝙒𝙚𝙡𝙘𝙤𝙢𝙚 𝙃𝙤𝙢𝙚” Yahweh whispered. Scared and frankly naive, I believed that Yahweh was saying that to my sister. After flying back to my life in CA, Yahweh continued to tug on my heart to return to Johnson City. That following December, I did just that. While flying into the small airport of Tri-Cities, I heard “𝘞𝘦𝘭𝘤𝘰𝘮𝘦 𝘏𝘰𝘮𝘦”. Now I knew I couldn’t say that word was for anyone else but me. ⁣

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Fast forward to April 15th 2024, 𝘐 𝘢𝘮 𝘧𝘪𝘯𝘢𝘭𝘭𝘺 𝘩𝘰𝘮𝘦. ⁣

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Remember that wonderful couple back in October ‘22, yeah, Yahweh used them to prophesy that I would be fully healed of my depression. ⁣

On May 8th, I couldn’t handle the pain, loneliness, and emptiness that I felt. I knew that I needed to be obedient to the prophesied word that was spoken over me. I asked Yahweh to heal me. He said that I needed to be bold and ask for prayer from someone else. Again, scared, I did just that. I got prayed over, and didn’t feel anything different. ⁣

On May 9th, the weight I have been carrying all of my life was lifted. Not just lifted, but removed with such force that there was no denying that I was healed. ⁣

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My friends, Yahweh is not finished. He still does the impossible. ⁣

People thought I was crazy for moving across the country to be apart of a church. But I saw, felt and experienced the Holy Spirit was rushing mightily through that place. ⁣

The Altar Fellowship is filled with Yeshua’s love. It is filled with Kingdom minded people. It is filled with family. ⁣

There’s so many things I wish I could say to that sad, hopeless and broken girl from 4 years ago. The things I would tell her are that, Yahweh loves you. He sees you and He is preparing you for what’s to come. ⁣

If you are in season where it doesn’t feel good, just remember Lazarus, or Jesus Himself. Homeboy died. It wasn’t good. But it was about to be. ⁣

God doesn’t allow “bad” seasons for no good reason. He is building character, pruning the dead and growing you. Sometimes, broken bones need to be reset to heal fully. If it’s not good now, it’s about to be. ⁣

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𝙔𝘼𝙃𝙒𝙀𝙃 𝙈𝙔 𝙍𝙀𝘿𝙀𝙀𝙈𝙀𝙍

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Until JESUS is enough, nothing else will be.

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You’re never too broken to be restored by God. He is able to make all things new for his glory.

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Zoya Nazyalensky in Rule of Wolves (Leigh Bardugo)

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gotta remind myself that i’ve done enough watering for others. i’m the garden this time around.

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“Who will fix me now?

Dive in when I'm down?

Save me from myself

Don't let me drown

Who will make me fight?

Drag me out alive?

Save me from myself

Don't let me drown

'Cause you know that I can't do this on my own”

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“Go on, then, to your journey’s end, “rejoicing in hope of the glory of God” (Romans 5:2). Go on, rejoicing in the thought that though you are a poor sinner Jesus is a most gracious Savior, and that though you have trials here for a little season, heaven shall soon make amends for all.”

— J.C. Ryle

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The broken will always be able to love harder than most. Once you've been in the dark, you learn to appreciate everything that shines.

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