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abbey: hey, do you wanna go out for dinner tonight?

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abbey: I'm..that's not fair. I told you the past was the past and I did mean that, I told you what was on my mind, I don't know what else about it..do you wanna talk about something specific from then? mine?

rudy: then we'll talk about it. your place or mine?

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abbey: no, I know. I was calling myself the asshole, that time. I didn't say that. but did we really talk about it? no. and I'm also not saying that's your fault, either.

rudy: pretty sure i didn't call you an asshole. just... there's nothing i'll ever be able to say that will ever prove i want you and not her, huh?

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abbey: then I'm wrong and I'm the asshole. I don’t know? I'm sorry.

rudy: no, i didn't. because there's no reason to. if anything was going to happen with us, it would have back when we were hooking up. it's done and over with.

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abbey: I know you were, so was i. so much so that I just wonder or feel like the what-ifs are haunting around again. did you even try to go and see if you could have made things work with Madison when we were apart? what if you could have? don't you wonder? I can't help but to..

rudy: i wouldn't have gotten back together with you if that was the case. i was miserable when we were broken up. but what am i doing that makes you think that?

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abbey: I didn't say your making me miserable, but it's not just about that..maybe it's just my over-active imagination but part of me worries you feel like we got back together too soon..

rudy: yeah, because it feels like yet again, all i can do is make you miserable. when i literally thought i was doing the right thing by encouraging you to go out with your friends without me. but clearly i don't know what the right thing is anymore so... feel like i should just shut the fuck up.

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abbeycowen: me too, kid. me. too.

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abbey: bc I feel like we're on the edge of something again and I'm scared and I don't know what to do, either. I figured that was me giving you space.

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