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the day i finally release my inhibitions and feel the rain on my skin it’s over for you bitches

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Nature butch feelings

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Dealing With Executive Dysfunction - A Masterpost

The “getting it done in an unconventional way” method.

The “it’s not cheating to do it the easy way” method.

The “fuck what you’re supposed to do” method.

The “get stuff done while you wait” method.

The “you don’t have to do everything at once” method.

The “it doesn’t have to be permanent to be helpful” method.

The “break the task into smaller steps” method.

The “treat yourself like a pet” method.

The “it doesn’t have to be all or nothing” method.

The “put on a persona” method.

The “act like you’re filming a tutorial” method.

The “you don’t have to do it perfectly” method.

The “wait for a trigger” method.

The “do it for your future self” method.

The “might as well” method.

The “when self discipline doesn’t cut it” method.

The “taking care of yourself to take care of your pet” method.

The “make it easy” method.

The “junebugging” method.

The “just show up” method.

The “accept when you need help” method.

The “make it into a game” method.

The “everything worth doing is worth doing poorly” method.

The “trick yourself” method.

The “break it into even smaller steps” method.

The “let go of should” method.

The “your body is an animal you have to take care of” method.

The “fork theory” method.

The “effectivity over aesthetics” method.

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BORING! BANAL! PREDICTABLE! CLICHÉ! AND WORST OF ALL… PROFOUNDLY UNCHIC!

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I really wish butchhood wasn't conflated with being a protector so much, honestly.

I'm a very vulnerable butch. I'm chronically ill, invisibly physically disabled, and have a lot of mental health issues. My masculinity doesn't inherently make me more strong or powerful.

But there's a huge amount of butch culture built on butches being protective of femmes, or just being strong and working in very physically laborious jobs. It feels disheartening to be locked out of a major part of my culture, just because I'm disabled.

So here's to all the disabled butches who want, or are expected to, be strong because toxic masculinity has taught us the mascs are the protectors, but we can't be.

We're the ones who need people to slow down for us. We're the ones who need to sit down and catch our breath after walking a bit. We're the ones who need help. And that doesn't make us any less butch.

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yearning for lesbian spaces rn !!! yearning for a community !! really wish i could find people i resonate and can actually form a connection with !!! just want to feel like i belong !!

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igual eso fue el mejor momento de la TV Argentina. la mina salió del encierro de gran hermano y solita le dijo mirá que hubo un ataque terrorista en las Torres gemelas. cómo reaccionas ahí, yo me reiría de los nervios

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Taken in 2000 about a year into our relationship.

Taken in 2024 (last weekend). Didn’t quite get the pose or positioning right, but hey, we’re older and our memory ain’t what it used to be!

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Yo vine a este mundo a comer cojer y acariciar perritos y pretenden que trabaje??? Que haga tramites?????

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I love old media warning society of ✨ dangerous butches ✨ bc it’s always

“this woman WILL wear mens shoes and will STEAL YOUR WIFE”

“butch dykes are HANDSOME and GOOD IN BED”

“you WILL be seduced and they have a HIGH SUCCESS RATE”

“they prey on women DISAPPOINTED IN MEN and give them WAY MORE ORGASMS”

“DON’T let your loved ones receive LOVE from AFFECTIONATE LESBIANS”

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y'know, the most healing part of my journey through my own masculinity and what it means to me has been getting to sit and talk with the 14-year-old dyke that started it all. next i hope to talk with the 10-year-old tomboy who just asked her grandmother if the lady on Who Wants to Be a Millionaire said 'wife'. i already know the 18-year-old genderfluid person that just wants to know why they feel so drawn to change, they're lovely. these girls in line behind them are lovely, too. i just need to learn to love them and recognize them all as just the same as the man i am today.

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these days

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Mask of Mascs

Strong. Like a rock, short perhaps but I worked harder for that. I don't cry as much. One day in November, three years since, they tried to take my shield. You're a man now, dear. Am I? I thought I was something else, I thought I was myself, and soft, sad on thursdays, loneliness. I can't fight. I'm in the business for a hero, apparently, I'm a bad one. I don't care if you're masc or femme or they/them, trans, queer, or something else, something new, or all of the above. I'll trade you, my love for your love, my shield for your shield. My mask, for yours.

Caelan Scott

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Ode to a Teenage Dykehood

I was a kid, a minute ago. A month ago. A year ago. I’m still a kid. 

Still a kind of deep-down scared most of the time. Deep-down lonely. Not that deep down. 

Eyes down, in the change room, still sticky-faced from gym class. Not looking, never looking. Looking away. 

Still haven’t moved away, still at home, still in my princess pink bedroom. I chose the colour myself. I was four, I think. 

Not thinking about me at eighteen, me at nineteen, me creeping up on twenty. Still in the same room, with the same walls, princess pink. 

Pink cheeks and a heart that’s beating too loud when she presses her shoulder into mine on the couch. When she turns to me in the dark. When she sways a little closer. I’m not sure which one of us looks away this time. It was probably me. It’s always me. 

Always nervous. Always checking the time. Checking the weather. Checking the wrong box on all the forms at the doctor. Signing a name that doesn’t belong to me. That I don’t belong to. 

Will it be long, what I’m waiting for? 

What am I waiting for?

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Butch

is it in the way i carry myself?

in my short hair, or my men’s-section outfits?

is it in the chivalry i aspire to?

in the words i speak, or who i love?

it is, i think, in these and more

it’s in the way i love (gently, painfully)

it’s in the way i walk (shoulders proud, head down)

it’s in the way i see the world (rose-colored, dirty)

it’s in my filthy jeans, my old work boots

it’s in my flannel shirt, my painted nails

butch is sleeping in nothing but boxers

it’s laughing loudly

it’s loving intensely

it’s being too masculine too be a girl and to lesbian to be a boy

butch is caring

it’s being a shoulder to cry on

it’s giving her flowers

it’s my heart breaking again because i care too much

it’s in everything i do

so much more than “tomboy” (freak)

i see it in the foggy post-shower mirror

ismell it in musk and lavender

i taste it lingering in my mouth

i feel it when she smiles at me

i hear it when i sing

it’s in me (the way i am, the why i am)

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HOW TO(KILL YOURSELF) PERFORM DIVINE FEMININITY-nina andrej

transcript:

HOW CAN I BE A GOOD TRAD WIFE?BECOME THAT GIRL A WOMAN WHO PRIORITIZE WELLNESS, PRODUCTIVITY, BEAUTY AND MINDFULNESS 20 WAYS TO LOSE TEN POUNDS!FACIAL HAIR REMOVAL GUIDE BEGINNER FRIENDLY 

WAYS TO TAP INTO YOUR DIVINE FEMININE AND YOUR TRUE GODDESS SELF WAYS TO KILL YOURSELF!HOW TO KILL YOURSELF HAVE YOU CONSIDER THAT THE ANSWER LIES IN THE AFTERLIFE?HOW TO KILL YOURSELF KILL HOW TO PERFORM DIVINE FEMININTY HOW TO PERFORM  FEMININTY FEMININTY?HOW TO PERFOM

how to perform blasphemous masculinity:

step 1)get a knife

step 2)realize you have your mother's teeth but your father's bite

step 3)patricide 

step 4)get a bigger knife

step 5)try to use it 

step 6)fail

step 7)try again

step 8)become friends with addicts they are your brothers in arms(not optional)

step 9)become an addict yourself(optional)

step 10)wear the stupidest thing you can find

step 11)don't shave

step 12)shave your head

step 13)find god

step 14)lose god

step 15)get heavy boots.you will never outrun them,you will never outfight but you can always break their fucking noses

step 16)fuck everything that moves

step 17)wear a mask 

step 18)wear a fucking condom

step 19)matricide(optional)

step 20)become lightweight

step 21)find salivation in her body 

step 22)give away your last dinar 

step 23)ask for someone's last cigarette 

step 24)always have a lighter on you

step 25)curse your grandfather's existence 

step 26)find a new god

step 27)build yourself new saints 

step 28)realize your father is all bark and no bite

step 29)kill yourself to build yourself

step 30)get an ax and with your shaky hands kill your father,kill your grandfather,kill your great grandfather,kill your bloodline,for we are not mere men we are writers we are faggots we are great whores we are cunts and bitches we are vultures we do not deal with fiction of fathers we deal with the naked truth we do not deal with honorable masculinity,we are all bite and no bark,

now take the hand that fed you nothing but scraps all your life and bite it off