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Alfred's not having the greatest time in The Year of Our Lord 1016

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A temple caretaker watching a volcano eruption in Bali [s]

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Nicky: Ew. What kind of tea is this?

Andrew: I boiled Gatorade.

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hello renee i would like to know the EXACT words andrew used after he “clocked Jeremy immediately” like how did that conversation go??

renee: hi andrew how was california?

andrew: fine. (beat). captain of the sunshine court is gay btw.

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Exy Magazine Cover with Andrew!!

Happy The Golden Raven release day! I hope I‘ll find time to read it soon.

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On Seth Gordon; first to join and the last to leave.

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To noones surprise matt managed to catch up to aaron and make him join in with the cheerleader outfits

Part 10(I think) of my cheerleader outfit swap mini comic 👌

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anyway do we think when Andrew was in the hospital post-thanksgiving and he’d been taken care of and was more lucid and and Bee and Wymack are sitting with him he had a moment of like…

“Where’s Aaron?”

He’d been silent until that point. At the sound of his voice, Wymack and Bee exchanged a concerned glance. Bee sat forward and laid a gentle hand on the sterile sheets of his bed, careful not to touch his arm where it lay hooked up to a drip.

“What do you mean, Andrew?” she asked softly.

Andrew blinked at her, as though it should have been obvious. “Where is he? I’ve only seen Nicky. I want to check him.” He waved a bored hand at Wymack. “Go get him.

Realisation dawned slow and heavy, though Bee desperately hoped she was wrong. “Andrew…

Wymack stepped in front of the end of the bed. There was a grim, hard set to his mouth, and his arms were folded tight over his chest. “Aaron is in holding,” he said, and let that sink in before adding, “At the police station.”

For a moment Andrew just stared at him. Then, “You’ve got that mixed up, Teach.” The hard edge to his tone sounded like a threat - a demand for Wymack to correct himself at any and all costs. “Neil is in holding. Go and get Aaron.”

Wymack opened his mouth to respond, but at that moment the door to the room swung open with devastating timing. Neil and Kevin were mid-conversation on their way in, heads bent together and talking in rapid, low French. Neil glanced up as they approached the bed, and immediately turned an accusatory glare on Wymack.

“You didn’t tell us he was awake.” He looked towards Andrew and approached the end of the bed slowly. “Hey. Sorry, we were down at the vending machine to get you something to eat.”

Andrew didn’t respond. He stared at him, brown eyes boring into blue, looking through him instead of at him. It couldn’t be right. They had to be lying. Or he had to still be asleep. It had been Neil’s racquet, that much he was sure of. He’d seen it in the corner of the room, bloodied and blurry through misty eyes and a fogged-up head but unmistakable all the same. Neil had been first in the room. Neil had called out. Neil, it was Neil who had hit him. Neil who had killed him.

Because Neil could. Because Neil was capable, and could weather it. Because Neil had already walked away and rebuilt a million times, because it was a skill to him. Because Aaron…

Because why would Aaron have done it?

Visions of a crumpled, ruined car laying upside-down in the street flashed in front of his eyes. Sitting in the open back of an ambulance watching a woman’s body get zipped into a bag. Visions of a bathtub full of food and the look of pure betrayal on his brother’s drugged-up face as he’d slammed the door and locked it. Visions of a vapid girl in a too-short orange skirt and Andrew’s threats against her.

He thought about a career in medicine and a full-ride scholarship. Of a delicate, desperate future that was wholly incompatible with a murder charge.

Aaron couldn’t have done it. He had less of a reason than anyone else in the world.

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andrew wasn’t fast enough this andrew wasn’t fast enough that — what about aaron

aaron who was faster than neil. aaron who watched someone try to kill his brother the same way he killed his brother’s rapist. aaron who managed a panicked warning before they swung on andrew. aaron who was on the strikers a heartbeat later, fists flying.

aaron who wasn’t fast enough

do you think he had nightmares after it. do you think the nightmares ever stopped. do you think they were exacerbated by the trial. you think he woke up clinging to katelyn. do you think andrew woke up from surgery and asked where aaron was. do you think aaron studied clavicle injuries and clavicle surgery because he needed to know exactly what was going to happen to andrew while he was under. do you think he told andrew what he’d learned to reassure him even though andrew never admitted how anxious he was. do you think andrew made some sly comment that was only for aaron to interpret as appreciation. do you think aaron blamed himself anyway

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pt.37!! <pt.36

texts are from Kevin

prison Seth is real to me. he did not change his ways, much to the chagrin of the local cop who thought this was going to be the big turnaround in Seth’s coming of age movie. He actually just made some friends, got a spongebob tattoo on his ass, and learned how to make a bong out of 3 new things. he went to jail for drug charges and for trying to steal a hamster from a pet store (high as a kite, has no memory of this)

Katelyn mention as she will be making an appearance sooner or later <3

tags for the homies ❤️ @andrewsleftarmband @blurryhour @you-know-i-get-itt @notexactlythatgirl @longspacerat @tessasilverswan @minyard-05 @carbon-dated-gal @bisexualchaosdemon @stormiiflies @watercoloureyes01 @vampire-overlord @iron-sides @azure-wing @buffalo-fox @ohgodnotagainplease @pink-hydrangea @jaywalkerss @ohmynoggin-blog @cosmic-marauder @min-getoutofmy-yard @plazybones @disastersappho @leestars13 @the-witch-forever-lives @minyardsss @post-historical-posts @andabuttonnose @hidinginmyhands @aftg4l @allfor-thegames @kaleidoskuls @inafieldofstarflowers @snowcoming

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friendly reminder that according to the ec, aaron was already in wymack's radar before he found out about andrew. he had been watching aaron's stats (he was a top ten backliner. top. ten) for four years (four) before he was even aware of the other twin

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改图meme

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Aaron and Nicky

Okay so I vaguely discussed this on my previous post about Aaron and hatred, but I needed to say more on the topic bc it kinda just recently popped up in my head again and it's just...ugh so good.

When Aaron moved to SC, he was 13, and Nicky was like 17ish. So, depending on what year he was in, he would have been either in his junior or senior year of high school. Assuming he was in his senior year, Aaron would have only had around, let's say... around 7-8 months with him assuming they moved during the summer.

Aaron would probably have talked to Nicky a few times a year before this. Maybe once every month or two when Luther talked to Tilda, but not really anything special. They probably saw each other a few times for holidays when Luther would pay for their plane tickets. You know the classic long-distance cousins. You don't talk much, but you still know things about each other.

Then, once Aaron moved to SC after finding out about Andrew, he would have been reeling from that discovery, alone, and in a new city he'd probably only been in once or twice before. And even then, he'd probably only been to nickys house, church, and back again. So he would have clung to whatever familiarity he could find.

Him and Nicky would hang out or talk on the phone when Tilda was too high to care, and Aaron used him as an excuse to get out of the house and away from her heavy hands and the crushing silence that echoed in the new house that was already falling apart. He would have picked up on the type of language older kids used, even kids his own age really, would have tried to fit in by using it, and at the time homophobic or vaguely offensive language would have been the norm. Aaron himself may not have used them against Nicky specifically, but Nicky would have heard Aaron using things like "fag" or "gay" as an insult.

Whether Aaron knew Nicky was gay is up for debate, but it's probably likely he knew that Nicky had "strayed from the path of god" or so Luther would have put it. He'd probably heard about the conversion camp in passing, though he likely didn't know what it really was. I think it was mentioned too that Nicky tried to act straight after his experience at conversion camp somewhere in the EC, so Aaron was probably under the impression that Nicky was "cured" like Luther and Maria were.

But long story short, during those 7-8 months, nicky was Aaron's closest friend. I doubt Aaron was very social, so even after school started, he probably didn't make friends that easily, so he hung out with nicky most days, and they did their homework together or whatever. Very sibling like. I think Nicky was the one to convince Aaron to reach out to Andrew against Tilda wishes, and probably the one to comfort him when he recieved a big fuck you back. He was the closest thing Aaron had to real family.

He probably noticed nicky wasn't as happy as he liked to seem, but he was a kid and the most he could do about it was spend lots of time with him and try and get him to genuinely smile now and then.

And then there was the Germany trip.

Aaron wasn't happy Nicky was going on the trip, and Nicky was probably a bit guilty for leaving Aaron behind, but Aaron wouldn't have stopped him from going when Nicky so clearly wanted to. He thought it'd be 5 months or so, and then he'd be back. Just 5 months of crushing loneliness, and he'd have his cousin back.

I think Aaron started using properly for the first time while Nicky was gone on that exchange trip. He'd used a few times here and there before, but not regularly. And certainly not enough to crave them. But with nicky gone, he didn't have any other way to escape. He told himself he'd stop when Nicky came back, except Nicky didn't come back. Not really. He was back for maybe 2 weeks total to officially graduate and pack up his things, and then he was back to Germany because he'd found some perfect gay lovestory there. So he kept using.

I think Aaron resented Nicky leaving him for a long time. He left him alone to suffer his mother and their crazy family by himself. He may not actively realize it, but it also makes him resent nickys sexuality a bit too because if Nicky wasn't gay this wouldn't have happened, and he'd never have left him.

Then three years has come and gone, and andrew is there, Aaron's no longer alone, but Tilda dead. And then Nicky comes back to take care of them. Fights for them. Makes sure they stay with him. And he's nothing like the Nicky Aaron remembers. Well, he kind of is, but not really. He's more flamboyant and bubbly and waaay to talkative and sexual and Aaron isn't sure what to do about it. The first few times were an accident, tired and hurt, and going through withdrawal as he screamed insults at the locked bathroom door. He heard nickys voice and begged him to let him out and then insulted him when he didn't.

But he also notices afterward how they make nickys smile turn a little bit tight. And then the insults become a test. A way to push even more to see if Nicky would break. If he would hit and scream like Tilda or glare and use the stick like Luther. But he didn't. Not even a little bit. Not even once. And slowly, Aaron forgets that that's what the words were supposed to be. He just uses them casually, the insults at the tip of his tongue whenever nicky does something he can comment on. It just becomes normal. And he sees the way nicky brushes them off, but not really. He can see through the mask. But he just can't stop.

It takes years of practice and therapy and more than a few seriously uncomfortable conversations for Aaron to properly get his tongue under control. But he tries. And trying is enough for nicky when it comes to them. After all, nicky had dealt with Andrew, too, who was arguably worse in some ways.

Nicky and Aaron's relationship is infinitely complicated in so many ways. They went from distant family to friends, to strangers, guardians, and children, to finally being just cousins. It takes a long time and probably isn't until after both of them have graduated and Nicky is back in Germany, but they get there in the end, and that's the important part.

(Credit to creamka_ on ig for the art love them)

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Im sorry but aft series has too much potential for memes like that

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authors!!

quick question...

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Comfy ✧ ⋆

Welcome to my new account :)

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Al has definitely done this to Matthew.