a-girl-has--no-name

[a-girl-has--no-name]

Putting on my headphone so I won't hear them shouting at each other and continue reading like that so I can escape from this all.

Except I always fell the tears falling from my face no matter that it's not the first nor the second time this happens, or how much I try to keep them from falling.

[a-girl-has--no-name]

My biggest fear?

That me and my boyfriend will become just like my parents when we'll be at their age.

My father always being edgy and shouting at us (but mostly at my mom), always being condescending to her.

And my mom being a wreck bc of him. She usually stand up for herself but, it's not like it changes anything. I wish she would do something about this. For herself and for her happiness. But she never did and I think never will.

[a-girl-has--no-name]

I'm so scared. Scared of myself.

I have some really bad thoughts and I have them for awhile now but first I was like nevermind I'm just overthinking things as always. It's not a big deal.

But they are not gone. Like at all, if anything they're just more deeply in my mind.

I feel bad just thinking about these things...like if my he would know, or anyone close to me would know...I can't. They can't. And they won't bc these are just thoughts and I feel like I'm too much of a coward to put something like this into action.

[a-girl-has--no-name]

Honestly? To be honest? tbh? Truthfully? I’m so tired

[a-girl-has--no-name]

“The scariest thing about distance is that you don’t know whether they’ll miss you or forget you.”

— Nicholas Sparks, The Notebook

[a-girl-has--no-name]

Haszontalan vagyok. Haszontalannak érzem magam.

Mindig.

Hasztalan otthon, hasztalan a munkában, hasztalan melletted.

Olyan mintha mindenhol csak léteznék. Állok egy helyben és kívülről nézek mindent. Nézem, ahogy mások alkalmasak.

Mások hasznosak.

Te hasznos vagy.

Te minden vagy.

Én semmi.

Rám sehol sincs szükség.

[a-girl-has--no-name]

i love when i “make a mental note” of something. it’s gone within 20 seconds

[a-girl-has--no-name]

you ruined me for anyone else to have

[a-girl-has--no-name]

[a-girl-has--no-name]

I just think its better to find out my own life before i put someone in it.

[a-girl-has--no-name]

What pleases u in bed?

sleep

[a-girl-has--no-name]

[a-girl-has--no-name]

yall ever miss your own energy?? like damn wtf happened to me??

[a-girl-has--no-name]

FREE ME!!!!!!! Idk from what...I just want to be free from literally everything

[a-girl-has--no-name]

source

[a-girl-has--no-name]

All I need right now is a mascarade ball, a pretty dress and a howl night of dancing

[a-girl-has--no-name]

losing people is so interesting bc like. no i don't want to speak to you ever again. yes i think about you on your birthday.