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camp counsellors again

part one

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oh my god they were camp counsellors

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« The first time he'd turned in bed and draped an arm over my waist, I lay there half- asleep for a moment, not knowing what to do: staring at my old socks on the floor, empty beer bottles, my paperbacked copy of The Red Badge of Courage.

At last - embarrassed - faked a yawn and tried to roll away, but instead he sighed and pulled me closer, with a sleepy, snuggling motion. Ssh, Potter, he whispered, into the back of my neck. Is only me. It was weird. Was it weird? It was; and it wasn't.

I'd fallen back to sleep shortly after, lulled by his bitter, beery unwashed smell and his breath easy in my ear. I was aware I couldn't explain it without making it sound like more than it was.

On nights when I woke strangled with fear there he was, catching me when I started up terrified from the bed, pulling me back down in the covers beside him, muttering in nonsense Polish, his voice throaty and strange with sleep.

We'd drowse off in each other's arms, listening to music from my iPod (Thelonious Monk, the Velvet Underground, music my mother had liked) and sometimes wake clutching each other like castaways or much younger children. »

THE GOLDFINCH, Donna Tartt // THE GOLDFINCH, John Crowley

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Tiny Goldfinch details that make me feel insane:

-Theo getting a glass of water when coming up with a lie to tell Hobie and remarking it’s what his father always did

-Theo telling his mother off for talking to someone and her saying he’s like his father and Theo’s immediate guilt

-Theo obsessively studying as if he could scrub away the guilt and shame and disgust he felt towards himself for no reason he could identify

-Mrs Barbour saying goodbye to Theo and looking like she was forgetting to say smth

-Boris taking his fathers gold lighter and putting it into Theo’s bag after he remarked on it once

-Theo and Tom cutting their palms, shaking hands and promising to be brothers 2 weeks before Tom betrayed him, leading to his mother’s death vs Theo beating Boris bloody until his knuckles were split and Boris kissing them to let him know all was forgiven, weeks before Boris stole the goldfinch. Theo remembering this all right before Boris came back and he found out abt Kitsey and Tom

-The clock being one minute to midnight in the photo of Andy and Mr Barbour.

-Andy’s innate almost prophetic fear of water. Being born with the knowledge of how he was going to die.

-Mrs Barbour inadvertently being the one to introduce Theo to drugs

-Theo’s mother saying the moon is home and Boris telling Theo his name means moon along with the quote “home is wherever I am. The center of my earth is you”

-Theo’s mother calling him puppy and the story in Theo’s suicide note of the injured puppy they couldn’t save

-Pippa being the “morphine lollipop”

-Theo’s terrifying dreams of his mother, trying to get home to her, only to realise he never could or it wasn’t actually her. Stuck haunting subway stations in his dreams never to return home again.

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STEVE HARRINGTON: our hero

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MORE WENT, MAGS, AND RICHIE - HOBBES STYLE!!!!!!

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Neibolt Losers

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mike is vibes (halloween (2/2))

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neibolt romance

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Richie is simply fucking vibing bro

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R+E

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illustration for a loser’s club zine from last year

i miss drawing these fools

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So I might be busy for the actual itfandomweek dates and got permission to post early for one of the prompts! I really liked the idea of “professional athletes” reddie and imagine Eddie (23) is a tennis player, Richie (26) a track & field runner, and they start secretly dating after both attending each other’s competitions being louder than anyone else when it comes to cheering lol

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reddie doodles

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oh man i really gotta get my cut...

decided to up the stakes =] another one layer drawing but for (early) halloween season 🎃 !

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here’s something old I never shared

i had intended to draw each of the losers with bill because they all had a crush on him as kids, only finished stan and eddie 😅