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my dearest malewife

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it could be that I’m just missing the subsection of the fandom that likes to play around with this concept, but I’m a little surprised I haven’t seen more people pulling at Vash’s fear and confusion at his own body and its transformations for angst material

it’s really unique to me, in the way that usually body angst and physical changing is accompanied by self-hatred of the body itself - but Vash doesn’t actually hate his body. He doesn’t hate that he’s a Plant. His self-hatred comes from the actions he is forced or stressed into performing when he no longer has any control over himself; when control is wrest away from him, often violently - and this is all signified by physical changes in his body; literally being shaped into a gun to be fired

and here’s the thing. Wolfwood is so special to me because he has to learn who Vash is and remind himself several times of his character in the face of his fear and of being in the presence of a being incomprehensibly more powerful than him. but Vash is scared too.

he didn’t understand what was happening to him in July. his own plantness is just as much a mystery to him as it is to most humans. he had no guide. he has no mother.

vash and wolfwood spend much of their journey in mutual fear - wolfwood for having no control, and vash for having already seen the consequences of losing it. because it really is about control in the end - and the way that Vash constantly has his stripped from him, the way that his scars (which he doesn’t hate either btw!) are the only proof he had for the longest time that his choices were his own, the way Vash cannot confront his brother for as long as his own body is the linchpin of Knives’ control over him.

and that’s why it’s significant that Vash’s triumph over his body was not an overcoming of self-hatred for being a plant (this was never an issue), but actually his ability to take control over his own transformation - to assert himself with a goal much stronger than resisting another’s influence, or preserving the memory of the dead - that Vash and Wolfwood overcome their mutual fear in volume 8 in order to save each other is the pinnacle of their shared development before the end, and there is so much more I could say to elaborate on this godDAMN

But yeah. The way Vash’s body transformations are a mystery to himself and symbolic of his lack of control is absolutely one of my favourite things about this manga

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I cleaned him up and added some friends. also did a wolfwood but he needs some revisions

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君のひかりを 君のひかりを ☆

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TRIGUN S1E26 | UNDER THE SKY SO BLUE

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Millywood is the queerest straight ship rb if you agree

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It's my 8 year anniversary on Tumblr 🥳 ive only been active for the last year tho LMAOOOO

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vash the stampede is such an artist

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Had to return my work keys today which my little Vash plushie held on to so now he feels so naked :(

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Vash The Stampede from Trigun would kill you!

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I was blessed with a wonderful vision for an acrylic keychain. I’m gonna be selling this as a 2 piece acrylic charm for the upcoming art sale.

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Arttober 2023 Day 4: Vash the Stampede

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This was during my precious cinnamon roll, too good for this world era btw

The trigun archive blog is so funny because I'm getting notifications for my old trigun sideblog now for stupid posts I made in 2016 but ultimately tho they are funny

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The trigun archive blog is so funny because I'm getting notifications for my old trigun sideblog now for stupid posts I made in 2016 but ultimately tho they are funny

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If you haven’t heard enough of how much I love Trigun…I love Trigun.

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THE HORRORS ARE ENDLESS BUT BY GOD DOES HE SERVE