5chwuffi

[5chwuffi]

some random thoughts i have on snape? i guess?

when i was little, my dad always said that snape was the true hero of the story or whatever. (looking back, it makes sense that my dad thought so)

then i started hating him with all my heart and decided he was the worst person ever.

at this point hes just a guy to me. like. he did some fucked up shit and i do dislike him for it, but i stopped looking at him as either hero or villain (i discovered the fact that people are nuanced, basically)

i do think there was space for redemption there. i think there was space for having him be extremely flawed but still in the end choosing to do the right thing for once.

i dont love when fanfic authors make him super good, and nice. of course youre allowed to do whatever you want with him, this is a fandom and i dont care, but i just really like it when people have him be a fucked up dickhead and still make him choose the "right" thing in the end.

(also i dont like when people justify his actions because he loved lily. he did. and from his perspective, i guess i get that. but your love doesnt justify your bad actions.)

i also dont like when people decide that simply because he was bullied, that justifies him joining the DE and stuff. i was on both sides of this, and it does not justify your bad actions. i got bullied and it made me kinder. idk.

i do think his obsession with blood purity was interesting. not justified at all, obviously, but interesting.

anyways im done yapping. i love seeing how different people look at him. even if i dont personally agree with it. ily fandom

[5chwuffi]

okay so. some thoughts on the black parade.

i think the patients lover is more important to the story than most people make them out to be. i think more of the songs have aspects that include them than i usually see people talking about.

my main thing, and what mostly even gave me the idea to really look at the story, are certain themes. the first one is religious imagery. the songs on the album that fit this the most are house of wolves and mama. house of wolves, from what i currently understand, talks a lot about the patients guilt; this is connected to another theme. mama talks a lot about hell, guilt as well. i think mama shows the guilt from the parader (or death, but i believe the parader to be a soldier who died in the field. i think his guilt made him unable to move on, made him stuck traveling the world as a spirit who has to guide lost souls.) i think he feels guilt over his actions during the war (wwI most likely).

the second theme is crime. the patient seems to have a rough past, and his lover seems to be involved. i think teenagers shows a lot of this, as well as the sharpest lives. my working theory ties emily into this. i think the patient, his lover and their friends were in some way involved in crime, and he feels guilt over his actions. especially considering the fact that his father wanted him to be a savior to the broken, and instead he became a criminal. his lover doesn't seem to feel the same way, which causes a lot of strain in their relationship.

the last theme is being lost/not finding a way home. there are multiple songs with lyrics that suggest that the patient, or even more his lover seem to be lost and can't go home. this would also make sense with the parader. he died overseas and never got to go home, he feels lost. this could also be a reason for why he wasn't able to move on into the afterlife.

now, this might be far fetched, but i think each of these themes has a specific song from the b-sides/single that represents it.

heaven help us - religious guilt

kill all your friends - his criminal past

my way home is through you - home

this is most likely coincidence but i still think it's very interesting to look at.

my current thoughts on the story: i think the patient had a rough past. he wasn't accepted by his parents or peers (teenagers, "you were always born a crime" (my way home is through you) etc. show this for me) and this made him fall in with the wrong crowd. he found his lover and her friends, and they became criminals. he seems to have been more hesitant about this life of theirs, she seems to have been more confident. when his diagnosis comes, he wants to make amends. he thinks back on his life, on the wrongs he's done. i think he was raised religious which leads to his religious guilt. he feels like a sinner, like exactly the type of person his father wanted him to save. he feels hopeless. the parader, who's job it is to guide him into the afterlife, can empathize with him. he relates to the patients strained relationship with his parents as he had a similarly strained relationship with his mother. he relates to the guilt the patient feels and the way that he feels lost, unable to come home. as the patient thinks about his life, all the choices he made, everything he did, the parader helps him accept his past and find peace. the patient talks to his lover and they part ways, not necessarily in a good way. when he finally dies, the parader appears to him in the form of the black parade. the parader leads him through his death and helps him move onto the afterlife. he reassures the patient that he will be fine, that he is no longer afraid to walk this world alone and help these souls, that he has accepted his fate. the patient manages to forgive himself, and moves on into the afterlife.

mind you, this is just what i currently think could've happened. idk. it's a complicated album but it is what i love so much about it.

(p.s. i believe that the songs we got with living with ghosts are more abt the lover. the patients father talks about appearing to him as a phantom, and i think living with GHOSTS means that these songs are about the lover, and her having to live with the ghosts of her past aka the patient.)

[5chwuffi]

figuring out what brother by gerard way is abt is the worst thing to happen to my mental state. i will never hear that song without crying again.