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feeling fake is killing me im fake thats not me its not how i act

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feeling fake

the fact that i write the notes and iam the only one who read it is making me laugh and feel safe

i didnt post a lot maybe 3times and they were from heart

my personality change a lot i cant even organize myself my behave the way i talk the way i treat people everything change about me

maybe cz my envirement effect is so strong on me ,idk, it just felt all fake

and somethimes i i had a conversation with myself ,and the conversation is silent everytime cz we dont even know what goin on what happen,why did we change ,why did we llose the old us ,im not going to say i lost my funny version or the happy one, no in fact im happier now but when i talk , when i do anything it just felt so fake cz this is not how i act

every movement or behave or act i *stole it* from someone in my envirement thats why feeling fake is killing me

i dont know what to do

looking in the mirror is making me feel sick not bc tha way i look no but when i face the mirror i can see a girl who is holding a lot of traumas ,a lot of feelings ,a lot of UNwanted feelings,a girl who is kidnappe a girl inside of her and she cant run away from that prison bz she is the prison it self

feeling sick looking at the mirror is ruining my mental health

but im looking prettier

i m looking more feminin

im looking more mature

but this wont allow that girl from escaping that prison

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dream ? why?

everybody have dreams , a good dream that makes u fell like u are in heaven, a nightmare that makes u fell like u are in hell, a simpl dream, a wierd dream u cant even understand it , and the something in common that u cant remembre it even u can u will just remember the most important part in it and u will never focus in the random things that happen in that dream .

what im trying to say that the dream is the second life

u focus at the important things in ur dream cuz the other things doesnt matter , deal with the first life like u deal with the second live

MORALE OF THE STOR:

*focus in the important things in ur life *

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that light in the dark

after i post the first night it didnt take any note .

i was exited to post the others nights but when none react on it i gived up , i open tumblr today and i found a note i dont know u can call this funny or wierd but this note made my day i fell that someone tells me to not give up and this means me a lot

there is always a littel light in the darkness (that littel hope)

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first night

this is my first night , dreaming to run away from reality.

this is what i going to show u my little angels in my account

i hope u like what i'm going to share with u