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Silence in the City (4)

Finals are over. School is almost over. We're getting back into writing.

Didn't know what to write at first, but I've been in an extremely fluffy mood lately so that's what we're getting! I admit, not my best written chapter (to me??) but I'm slowly getting back into writing more than just at 2 in the morning-

CW: None!

Word Count: 3.5k

4- Devon

They kept me in the same cold, desolate room for three days, only ever opening the door to give me food and to take it after I was done. Sure, it might be better than being hunted by a 600 foot kaiju, but at least give me something to do if you were going to shove me in a prison for the rest of my foreseeable future! If I were being honest, even if I was probably the most pathetic human that’s ever lived, I think I would’ve preferred being chased by that kaiju after all. Well maybe not unless I wanted to have another panic attack episode.

In the time that I was locked up, all I could ever retrace my mind back to was how Kieran was doing. I had at least hoped that he was okay, the last time I saw him he had a bad puncture wound and was bleeding all over. Kieran was a bit hard to read, but somehow I could just tell that he was grateful that I gave him my stuffed animal before I left. Sleepless nights for me but it was all worth it if I could at least make his time in this place a little more bearable than usual. Would it be bad to say that I missed him?

I had thought that today would be another day where I was going to be stuck, but I guess they had other plans for me. As much as I was relieved to be out of my prison, I honestly wasn’t ready for any more near-death experiences as much as I say that I was. It was a sad truth to admit but it is what it is.

It felt like I had been down this hallway plenty of times, going through the same rooms and seeing the same people. I was instructed to grab a tablet and then shoved into the same dark room, only this time I could barely see my own hands in front of my face. I clutched the tablet up to my chest, not daring to turn it on as I heard the slow, deep breaths coming from somewhere in front of me. Kieran was asleep this time, pretty heavily by the sounds of it. I clutched the tablet close to my chest, walking forward a little bit.

Walking wasn’t exactly my best idea but curiosity had a hold of me. I could just barely see anything, but as long as I stayed close to a wall I doubted anything would happen. After walking for a while I slid against the wall, sitting down in complete darkness. If I were being honest, I didn’t like the dark. Not at all. At least when I walked into this room I knew who was in here instead of just being thrown in with nothing like the first time I came here.

Kieran didn’t really sound like they would be waking up anytime soon, so I had no idea what they wanted me to do now. The other times it seemed like they were testing how he’d react to me being in danger. I was trying to figure out what they might be planning but I had no clue. The only thing I knew was that I didn’t want Kieran to go through anything more than they already have put him through. Sure, he looks like a terrifying monster and he can be terrifying when he wants to be, but once he opens up you find out he actually has more humanity than those sadistic psychos that treat him like an animal.

Now that I thought about it, why was he here in the first place? Sure to fight kaiju but what else was there? It felt like there was definitely something else going on here. I doubt they’d just tell me though. They haven’t so far anyway.

I held my breath when I heard something big moving, probably just Kieran stirring in his sleep, then returning to the same peaceful dark. I wonder if he still had my stuffed animal. The mental picture of him cuddling up with something so small was adorable. It was kind of funny to think about it though. Someone as sarcastic and tired as Kieran cuddling up with a stuffed animal. It only made me wish that they turned on the lights even more.

I opened up the tablet, trying to see what was all on it. A series of buttons that correspond with whatever chain is around him. Wrists ankles, neck. How did they even get all of the chains on him in the first place? Probably not willingly. Around each one of those chains, it made me sick to my stomach every time I saw the raw skin, almost like he couldn’t heal it enough before they tortured him even more. A shiver ran down my spine as I continued to check for anything else.

Time must have flown by, and I must not have been paying much attention because Kieran started stirring again. Air rushed past me, I heard him yawn, grateful that I didn’t see his fangs. It was pathetic of me to even be scared of them still, but the initial fear and shock just take over sometimes. When I say that being trapped in a room for basically days on end was excruciatingly painful,

I could hear him stop moving, letting out an annoyed huff through his nose before groggily opening his eyes, and I’ve never been more spooked in my life. I hadn’t exactly expected to be sitting right in front of his face. My heart hammered against my chest when his eye landed on me, giving off a very faint glow that wouldn’t be noticeable unless you were as close as I was. I sucked in a shaky breath, watching his pupil dilate just like a cat’s would. He didn’t seem to recognize me until he squinted, his pupil rounding just in the slightest bit when he put my face to a name.

He quietly groaned, picking himself up, and not long after the lights flickered on. He stretched his limbs as much as the place would let him, wincing when he would bang his head on the ceiling. They needed to do something about that.

Kieran stared at me for a second, bringing one of his hands close to his face and sighed. My heart dropped and my eyes widened when his hand started heading my way, hovering above a little before tilting it. He pulled away as soon as whatever he was holding fell, his eyes studying my reaction. Some part of me had a feeling that he was a little hurt that I was still scared of him, but I couldn’t shake the feeling that it had something to do with me too. That didn’t leave a good feeling in my chest.

When I looked over at whatever he dropped, I gasped, reaching for it and hugging my stuffed animal closely. So he didn’t forget about it? I smiled to myself, searching for his reaction but the second I turned to face him he turned away like he was embarrassed. I laughed quietly, waiting for something to happen. Not going outside today then? What were they planning on doing? This entire time I’ve been here trying to figure it out but I doubt I would be able to. They probably had a million secrets to keep. There was no way I’d be able to find whatever was happening here. Plus, I wasn’t even allowed outside of my room. How would I find out anything if I’m only here to get thrown into the same two rooms?

I sighed, hugging them closer and watching Kieran lay back down, constantly glaring down at me like he wanted to keep a certain distance. Well, so far as I know he wasn’t a fan of touching or being near me. I don’t exactly blame him for it either after the people here probably treat him like some wild animal.

Kieran studied me for a while before closing his eyes, “You look like you could use more rest.” His voice sounded tired per usual, but I could note the sadness behind it. And once again, a deep feeling of guilt settled at the bottom of my stomach for being the cause of it. So stupid of me to still be scared of him after saving my life multiple times.

“N-no. I’m fine.” I shook my head. He should really stop worrying about me. Well, unless there were kaiju involved. Then he’d have to worry about me. I had no way to protect myself and definitely didn’t know how to fight. Even if fists would do something against a kaiju.

Kieran opened his eyes, studying me more before rolling his eyes playfully, “Stubborn,” He let out another huff before picking his head up and holding it up with one of his hands, “Thank you I guess.” I was a little confused at first until I looked back at my stuffed animal. Right. I kind of just left him with it. Though, it seemed like he didn’t mind at all since he gave it back. Wait… did he sleep with it? I laughed a little at the idea, “You’re welcome.”

Taking another glance back at the stuffed animal I was holding in my hands. Kieran seemed… a lot better with it actually. For some reason, he didn’t look as sad or pained. Just tired. And even then it wasn’t that bad right now. Not as much as usual at least.

I stood back up and walked towards his face. Not too close where he’d loom so much over me, but to where he’d be able to see me either way. It still surprised me how he was able to see someone so small compared to him. Let alone hear me. Wouldn’t be surprised if his senses were heightened because of his kaiju side though.

“U-Um, he’s yours now. You can keep him.” I lifted my stuffed animal towards him. It hurt to think about not having anything from home with me anymore, but I’m pretty sure that Kieran would take good care of them. I mean he did while I was gone.

Kieran stared for a while like he was debating on taking the stuffed animal back. What more was there to debate? I’ve already decided that I was going to give it to him. If he doesn’t take it I might have to force him.

He groaned, using his arm as a pillow as he rested his head back down, “Mmm, no.” I took a few steps back, a little upset that he wasn’t accepting the one gift I could give him for saving my life besides giving him the “company” that he seemed to like. Was he really not going to keep the stuffed animal? I mean I was willing to give away the one nice thing I took from home.

I sucked in a deep breath and walked closer to his hand which acted as a pillow for his head. Kieran’s eyes closed again, letting out a sigh that ruffled my hair a little bit. A shiver ran down my spine, but I kept on walking slowly and quietly so he wouldn’t hear me.

This just seemed like a stealth mission at this point. Get to his hand, start climbing onto the back of it, and place the stuffed animal right on top of him. All of this hoping that he wouldn’t move and I’d inevitably fall off and onto my neck and break it. No that wouldn’t happen. Kieran wouldn’t do something like that. Maybe it would be smart to warm him first?

I kept on walking over, stopping every time I would step too loudly to make sure Kieran’s attention wasn’t focused on me. After being in a room for two days I forgot just how much bigger he was compared to me. A lot bigger. I sucked in a shaky breath, extending a shaky hand to let him know that I was nearby. He didn’t seem like the type to enjoy people touching him, but it just made sense to at least give him a warning of where I was.

His skin was soft rather than rough and hard like I had thought. The scales seemed tough from my angle, but as soon as he felt my hand, he flinched, sitting up slowly. I stared up, trying to figure out how I’d climb up his hand while holding the stuffed animal. Why was I doing this again? To spite him? Oh the things I do when my mind is decided. It just felt like ever since I’ve been here I’ve become less terrified. Well, of Kieran and a few other things. What was happening to me?

I shook my thoughts out and focused on his hand that hadn’t dared move an inch. I bit the side of my cheek and sighed, throwing the stuffed animal as far as I could on top of his hand. Kieran tilted his head, still not moving his hand. It was surprising that he didn’t just come back at me with some snarky comment or push me away. Was something wrong?

“What are you-” Before he could finish his sentence, I forced myself to climb up his hand a little. It was extremely weird considering I was climbing on his hand, but Kieran wasn’t moving in the slightest so it made it much easier.

It took me forever to climb up his hand by myself, and the second I finally did I was out of breath. I tried pulling myself up by swinging my leg over, but that was useless. I looked up at Kieran, my heart skipping a beat at how shocked he looked. His eyes were slit and wide, mouth just slightly parted that barely showed his fangs. A shiver ran down my spine as I tried one more time to get myself up, groaning when I almost fell back down. The fall wouldn’t kill me. Unless I landed on my neck or something. Maybe a twisted ankle. I could just be being dramatic. This was just like climbing a tree back at home. That was the best way to describe it to keep my mind off the fact that I still couldn’t believe I was just climbing on Kieran.

“U-Um, could you help? Please?” I asked, hoping that he could hear me through the apparent shock. I guess he really didn’t like anyone touching him. Maybe this was a bad idea? If he hated people touching him so much wouldn’t he have just moved his hand already to make me fall? Kieran was so confusing to read. He was so good at hiding things.

Kieran blinked a few times before slowly bringing a shaky hand closer, using his knuckle to lift me up. For once, I wasn’t scared. Not as much at least. Sure my heart was pounding against my chest but that was only because of the circumstances.

I sat on his hand, blowing some hair out of my face as I smiled, “What? No snarky comment?” Kieran blinked, then scoffed, instantly returning to his same tired look. Though, his hand underneath me began trembling. Was he scared? Was I… making him uncomfortable? It was a silly idea to think that someone so small compared to him made him act this way just by being on him. He never acted like this when he volunteered to hold me. So what was wrong?

The stuffed animal was only a few feet away from me. I grabbed it and held it up towards him again, “It’s yours. I refuse to take it back.” I set it back down and crossed my arms. Kieran stared at me like I was crazy, and laughed, using a hand to cover up his eyes. My attention, for a split second turned to his sharp fangs, a shiver running down my spine. As intimidating as he was, he was gentle with almost everything he did. My mind drifted off to him fighting the kaiju the other day, fear creeping up to me. Yeah, I don’t think I’d like being on Kieran’s bad side.

He grumbled under his breath, turning back towards me, glaring, “I-I’m re-gifting it.” He shut his mouth and covered it with one of his hands as if embarrassed by his stutter. Why? It was kind of weird for him to be so scared right now. I wasn’t doing anything. So why so timid all of a sudden? He must have something on his mind for him to be acting. Even more guilt built up in me, the bile threatening to come up my throat. Yeah, maybe getting off of him was a good idea.

I bit the bottom of my lip and leaned on the edge of his hand to see how far the drop was before turning to face him, “Are you okay?” His eyes widened for a split second before he moved his hand away from his face, “Yeah.” The hand I was on seemed to tremble even more, but I still didn’t understand how he was so good at hiding it.

With a sigh, I carefully turned back to getting off of him, sliding down and safely landing on my own two feet. Kieran let out a sigh of relief, sneakily placing a hand over his chest like he was checking his heartbeat before very carefully moving the hand I was just on towards his face and dropping the stuffed animal in one of his free hands. I sat down, my legs crossed as I fidgeted with my hands. So I did make him uncomfortable. That was just great. Another thing to add to my conscience.

Kieran rested his head again, the hand with my stuffed animal in a fist and up against his chest. The bags under his eyes seemed to somehow get even worse in that time span. How could he be so tired all of the time? I guess there wasn’t anything else for him to do in here other than to conserve his energy. Made sense really.

While I was wallowing in my self-despair at how stupid and inconsiderate a person I was, I didn’t notice the large shadow looming overhead. Embarrassingly enough, when something brushed against my back, I let out a squeak, turning around with wide eyes to see Kieran nudging me with his knuckle, a playful smirk on his face. I laughed, trying to push him away, earning a flinch the second I tried pushing him away, though he never pulled away, instead just sucked in a breath and very gently fought back against me, “Not fairrr you’re a lot bigger than me.” I giggled. Was he doing this to cheer me up? Wasn’t he the one who was sad? When I took one glance at him though, he seemed so calm and happy. Like he wasn’t trapped in this horrific scientists’ playground. Like he wasn’t being used…

“Hm. And I’m half asleep so who’s really the one here who has an excuse?” We both laughed, his eyes slowly closing.

“Still me. Not fair that I'm half as tall as your fingers are wide.” I stuck my tongue out playfully, watching him roll his eyes and push me gently onto my back. I laughed, watching a small smile creep up on his face.

“Yeah, whatever pipsqueak. I’ll give you this one,” He pulled his hand away and tucked it under his head letting out a long sigh as he closed his eyes, “Stop being stubborn and lay down.” Kieran ordered. Seriously? He was still going to make me fall asleep? I wasn’t even tired! It felt like it anyway. Or maybe I’m so sleep-deprived that I just don’t feel tired anymore.

Instead of coming up with a really bad comeback, I did as asked and laid down on the metal floor that was surprisingly not as uncomfortable as originally thought. Kieran hummed and curled up a little more, and a few minutes later he was asleep. It was crazy how fast he was just able to do that. It takes me about an hour to go through everything I’ve done wrong in my life before even shutting my eyes.

I sighed, about to get up before Kieran shifted slightly, mumbling just a few words, “-too nice.” He pressed the hand that held my stuffed animal closer. Oh how I wished I could have a camera or something to record this. Honestly, it was more adorable than embarrassing. Even though he’s the most sarcastic and teasing person I’ve ever met, he still somehow hides the fact that he’s the biggest softie I know. How does he do it? No idea, but it was nice to know that he was getting a little more comfortable and trusting me a little more. I’ve placed all my trust plus some into him, and so far nothing bad has happened. I’ll take that as a win any day.

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Again not my best written work but I did kind of enjoy writing this little scene! Kieran is just very conflicted as to why Devon trusts him so much already... andddd the fact that he is NOT used to physical touch in the slightest. A special thanks to @51lly-c3d4r for giving me ideas for this chapter that you didn't even mean to give me-

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Silence in the City (3)

We're back with the kaiju stories! (oh my gosh the amount of asks I had asking if you guys could get more of them is crazy) ask and I shall deliver! So here you guys go! I was in a angsty and fluff mood so this was fun to write-

Word Count: 6.1k

CW: Blood, mentions of death

3-Devon

I had been holed up ever since they finally gave me something to eat. They claimed that they “forgot” but I had a feeling that there was possibly just another reason. This entire place just seemed so shady to me. The way they treat people like replaceable objects, order everyone around, didn’t seem to have a care in the world about anyone else. No wonder Kieran had seemed so depressed every day. I had a feeling if he hadn’t been brought here, maybe he would’ve been treated better. I can’t believe he’s been here his entire life and survived. If I were him I think I would’ve just given up the second I arrived.

I had no idea what time in the morning it was. The clock on the desk needed batteries and I doubted they were going to give any to me. My body was tired and I felt bad for leaving Kieran alone, though the choice wasn’t mine. If I were being honest I would rather spend the day with him than be in a room all day with absolutely nothing to do. I was bored and I couldn’t do anything other than sleep. My backpack had nothing but my pills and a few clothes that should last me until tomorrow. My pills were on the desk and had enough for a while before I’d need to figure out how to get a refill. Half a bottle of water from the lunch they had given me. That was a long time ago.

My parents must be worried about me. Or… maybe relieved that they wouldn’t have to take care of me anymore. If I had just listened to them about moving away maybe none of this would’ve happened. I would’ve been with them, we would’ve had a home, and wouldn't have to worry so much about Kaiju attacks. If only I had just been a little stronger and made it into an underground bunker I wouldn’t be here. Light tears stung my eyes as I hugged my stuffed animal to my chest. I want to get out of here. Of course, now I know that I can’t no matter what happens now. Maybe one day? They couldn’t keep me from my parents forever, right? The thought alone made me shudder and encase myself even more.

It was only a few seconds later that my door opened after being stuck in here for an entire day. A guard stood outside while the other walked in. I sat up and tried wiping my face enough before they just grabbed me tightly around the arm and dragged me. I didn’t have time to throw my stuffed animal back into my room before they practically dragged me out and slammed the door, so I just had to keep the stuffed animal in my hands embarrassingly enough. I kept my head down and kept up with their fast pace before walking into the lab again, seeing some people looking at a countdown and others moving frivolously around like their lives depended on it. Countdown… I couldn’t tell if it meant a good or bad thing, but as soon as I saw the head scientist running all over the place seemingly getting things ready, I had my answer. They were getting ready for an attack today. She was obviously busy so what could she possibly want me for?

I stayed still, trying my hardest to hide my stuffed animal, even though I already heard the guards making fun of me. Well, it’s not like I was going to make a good impression on them anyway. She finally turned to me before sighing deeply, “Just give him the tablet and throw him in. He’ll be fine on his own… Maybe. I have more important things to worry about.” She waved me off before the guards dragged me off again, handing me a tablet like on the first day I arrived here before shoving me into Kieran’s room. I say room but… it’s more of a prison. A lot like a prison actually.

The lights were dim but I could still see in front of me as I stayed by the door, just trying to make out the huge shadow of a figure I knew was Kieran. There seemed to be a draft in the place, but I just thought it was him breathing. So he was asleep? I didn’t want to wake him up again like yesterday. They looked a lot more peaceful now. Or maybe that was just because I knew he never planned to kill me like I had originally thought.

It was an odd feeling though. Like I had finally felt a little peace without my parents being around. It was kind of weird that I felt calm when I was around someone who probably saw me as an ant. Literally. He looked calm too… his upper pair of arms acting as a pillow, hiding his mouth and his breathing slow and steady. His other pair of arms was tucked away under his stomach and his tail wrapped around himself like he was trying to make himself as small as possible. Kind of like what I do…

The lights suddenly flickered on, making me jump and watch with wide eyes as Kieran started to move, his face uneasy now. His eyes lazily opened, almost immediately closing back as he gave an annoyed huff. Was he annoyed with me or being woken up? Well, technically I’m the reason the lights were turned on so either way this was my fault… Nervousness took over me as he started moving a little more. He lifted his head, yawning. Somehow, it felt like my eyes grew even wider. Whether it was from shock or fear I couldn’t tell, but I’ve never seen his fangs before, or how sharp they were. I shuddered a bit, not realizing that I was in the way, and he didn’t even know I was there yet.

I thought I would’ve been okay if I just stood still, and because his hands and arms were currently in use right now as he rubbed his eyes and stretched. Well, apparently not because I completely forgot about the other pair of arms, his hand just narrowly missing me when he laid it out. I yelped, nearly falling over as I moved back. Okay, so that’s what… my third time nearly dying in the past three days?

Kieran looked over fast, his eyes widening for a brief moment when he noticed me, quickly pulling his hand away and returning to the same annoyed and tired look. I sucked in a shaky breath, hugging my stuffed animal closer while studying the tablet I forgot I was holding. A lot of buttons and frequencies for different things. I cringed at the thought of ever using this thing, turning it off.

It took him only a few seconds for him to get comfortable again, shoving his arms carefully underneath his stomach again, mindful of where I was. He held his head up with his arms, adjusting his position to face me a little bit. I was a little nervous, unable to speak until he did, “Could’ve told me you were there,” He sighed, “Sorry.” He glared over at the glass wall, letting out an annoyed huff before using his arms as a pillow again, opening his eyes slightly to study me. I was a little nervous under his gaze, shuffling my stuffed animal slowly so he wouldn’t see me try to hide it. I get the feeling he’d be the type to tease me for it.

I jumped when he tilted his head again, his eyes squinting. What was I even supposed to do? They threw me in here with no instructions, not that I listen to any of them anyways. I sucked in a deep breath as he studied me a little more like there was something different with me every day. Or maybe a habit of his?

He let out another huff from his nose, staring at the tablet in my hands. I jumped when his pupils slit, watching him back away just the slightest bit like he was scared. Oh! I threw the tablet a little ways from me, hugging my knees and stuffed animal close in case he was going to hurt me. I didn’t know how long it had been before Kieran let out a sigh, “You’re so strange,” He lifted his head, holding it up with one of his hands, “Why aren’t you… using it?” He pointed to the tablet that was face-down on the metal ground. Why I wasn’t using the torture weapon? Did he really think someone as pathetic as me would want to ever harm anyone?

“I-I don’t want you to think I’d want to hurt you.” I whispered, looking down and a little anxious about all the moving I was hearing. He wasn’t going to do anything to me. Yup. Well, that was if he could even hear me.

When I looked back up, Kieran was slowly moving the tablet closer towards me, his face twisted like he was debating something. He finally stopped pushing the tablet closer to me, “I…” He sighed, “Don’t think you’d hurt me. Don’t make me regret it.” He grumbled at the end, but I caught the hint of happiness in his voice. Kind of like Kieran hoped I wouldn’t use the torture device. No way. I didn’t even want to touch the thing. Though, I do like the trust he gave me. It made me worry a little bit about how he reacted, but I wouldn’t blame him for it. As far as I’ve seen the scientists or whoever takes care of him treat him terribly.

“Uh, what is that in your hand?” He pointed, squinting to try and see better. I held my stuffed animal closer, trying to hide it, but there was pretty much no use since he’s already seen it.

“S-stuffed animal…He’s a dog.” It was so embarrassing, and I could only just hope that he wouldn’t laugh. He definitely seemed like the type to. I didn’t know why it was so eerie just waiting for a response. I could hear my heartbeat through my ears, a tight feeling in my chest, and even feeling a little sick to my stomach.

Nothing was said for a while, only making me feel more anxious. It began to get to the point where I was starting to get dizzy. I couldn’t have an anxiety attack now! That’d just make this entire situation so much worse! The worst part about it was that all of this was happening just because I was worried about what he might say to me. Why did I care so much? Kieran doesn’t even like me! I’m just here to keep him company and that was it.

When I looked back up out of anxiousness, his face was twisted into confusion, almost immediately returning to his same tired expression when I looked up. What was he so confused about? I was worrying for no reason. Oh well, that’s not embarrassing at all.

My body started calming down, getting everything back to normal. Everything was going to be just fine… Definitely. Today was going to be a good day. It had to be. I couldn’t just keep barely making it out alive every day.

“Cute.” He shrugged, and almost on cue, the huge doors that led outside started to creak open, this time without the flashing red lights that would’ve scared me to death again. Kieran picked his head up, looking back down at me, then outside like he was deciding on something. “C’mon.” He moved out of my way to reveal the huge doors that revealed the outdoors, the sun almost at the center of the sky. But I was more focused on the part where he had to duck his head down low even just by sitting down. So big…

I forced my legs to start working again, trying to hurry so he wouldn’t get impatient with me. Of course I nearly tripped a few times but that wasn’t really surprising to me. As soon as I was outside I moved out of the entrance so Kieran could get out without killing me. Accidentally or not. Though, it was a little degrading that I was just following him while holding a child’s toy. But, if he wasn’t going to say anything to tease me about it then I guess it was fine. Though, I did find it weird how he reacted. Like he was confused or trying to remember something.

I let out a yelp when he started to crawl out, the ground slightly shook, but I could tell he was trying to be as careful as possible. I had no idea if that was for me or if he always does that but it was thoughtful of him. Though, a slight fear crept through me when he finally crawled out, stretching his limbs a little more and yawning again. He was huge. Scary. Somehow he was also, in his own way, kind. It was hard to imagine him hurting anyone, but it was a possibility that it could happen. Who knows with all the pent-up rage he has for the people who keep him trapped here?

Kieran glanced over at me, studying for a split second before staring at his hand. Was he going to carry me? I mean that’s what he did yesterday, right? And the first time we met. Why did he look so troubled about it? He was so hard to read…

“Mmm. Can you keep up if I walk slowly?” He asked. Keep up? Could I? I mean I’d probably have to walk really fast or run to wherever he was going. The spot from yesterday? That wasn’t so far. Could I still even do that though? Did he not feel like carrying me? Did I do something wrong? I mean it’d be a lot faster for him if he just did that, so I didn’t understand why he didn’t just take that route.

I nodded my head shakily, hurrying to get beside him. Last time I was in here they had kaiju out, and I wouldn’t be surprised if they had more out today. For some reason I just had a bad feeling about being here. I didn’t know what it was, but it was just too eerie, so it was safer just to stay close to the person who could keep me safe.

To my luck, he was crawling extremely slowly, kind of like a cat but with an extra pair of arms that were tucked in by his stomach. He was careful with where he placed his hands, constantly taking small glances over at me. I didn’t have to run thankfully, but I figured walking fast would help better the chances of him not getting annoyed. Even though he didn’t look annoyed or upset in the slightest. I wasn’t risking changing that.

It just remained silent as I stared at all the broken buildings, some even toppled over, several debris on the streets that I had to climb over at some points. I wanted to start a conversation with him, but I didn’t know about what. I mean it’s not like we knew each other all that much. Of course I’d like to ask about his past and how he arrived here, but it would be better if I just kept that question to myself. I didn’t need a reason to make him mad today. Though, maybe a conversation wouldn’t hurt.

“Um, so are you always allowed out here?” I wasn’t sure if he heard me, but I’m sure he did. He glanced down at me, blinking a few times before moving forward a bit with me, “Hm? Yeah,” He squinted, watching as I worked my way through some fallen debris, “They used this place to train me.” He explained, moving forward once again, his attention still on me.

Train? Well I guess you can’t fight an entire kaiju without some kind of training. It had me thinking about how they even managed that. Like when he was a kid? Did they seriously make him fight entire kaiju's as a kid? That didn’t even seem practical! It just seemed like torture!

“Train you?” I looked up questionably, confused. How did they even do it? I doubted they could teach him actual combat. So that would mean he had to teach himself. Did they treat him like an animal? I wouldn’t be surprised. It seemed like everyone here was sadistic enough to keep him away like he was some kind of monster. They did use that word a lot to describe Kieran, or what they always call him…

“Mhm. They keep some kaiju locked up in cells.” He explained, one of his hands pointing towards a side of the wall that looked like a huge door. Do they keep these things here? Fear crept inside me, involuntarily moving closer to Kieran. So basically I was surrounded by kaiju no matter where I looked. They could open one of those doors anytime they wanted and one would come bursting through. It would be that attack all over again. I shuddered at the thought, getting a little paranoid now. No- this would be perfectly fine. They were too busy with all of that countdown.

“Oh… that’s not scary at all.” I laughed nervously, hugging my stuffed animal closer to my chest. I wonder how they even managed to get other kaiju into the cells. I feel like they’d try to break free all day and eventually, that has to cause some sort of dent in their prison, right? The thought didn’t help with the overpowering fear that I was trying so hard to suppress.

Kieran sighed, “You’ll be fine. I’m not allowed to let you die, remember?” He laughed softly, making a joke. I knew that wasn’t the only reason he was keeping me alive from the conversation we had yesterday. He didn’t want to see me die and I doubt that he’d change his mind about that. Well, at least I hoped so.

We continued walking until we reached the clearing we were at yesterday. I could hear the distant clangs of the small kaiju running around. Each one spooked me, especially after hearing that this entire place was basically a training ground for violence. I sat down by a small tree, watching Kieran get comfortable in his spot, a little surprised when his tail created a barrier behind me. I looked around nervously, jumping when Kieran spoke.

“Just making sure you’ll be fine. I’ll move if you want.” He explained as if he knew I was nervous about where I was. Make sure I’d be fine? Did that mean that he wasn’t sure if anything would come over here? I shuddered, bringing my knees close to my chest. Nothing bad was going to happen. If I could just calm down that would be great though. I’ve been barely hanging on by a thread today and it just kept going south.

“You don’t have to.” I shrugged my shoulders. It was fine if he was just trying to protect me honestly.

He made a low rumbling sound to say okay, closing his eyes again, “I doubt they’ll open the doors with you in here, so don’t-” he was cut off by a loud creaking sound that echoed through the entire place. I turned my head, hearing the ear-splitting roar as something tried to claw the doors open wide like it wasn’t already opening.

Kieran groaned, growling a little before lowering himself even further to the ground, “Well I stand corrected.” He looked annoyed. Like he was about to just lash out in the worst way possible. I winced, pushing myself further against the tree, and covering my head with my arms. This wasn’t real. No way this was happening. Not again. One attack was enough. Why did I have to live through another one? I wasn’t as strong as the universe made me out to be. I couldn’t deal with this.

You could hear their loud movements as they walked around, the sounds getting louder and louder with each step like it was getting closer even though Kieran and I were both hiding. This was terrifying. It was like I was just being hunted. Again.

I looked over at him, opening my mouth to whisper something to him but nothing came out. I was terrified, but there wasn’t anything I could do here. I just had this stupid tablet, a stuffed animal, and whatever courage I had to run. If my legs would work.

My heart pounded in my chest, the uneasiness settling back into my stomach. My head screamed for me to calm down but there was no calming down when you were being hunted. Why would they open it up now? Did they think I was just going to be like their pilots and be unfearful towards the monsters that nearly killed me and destroyed my home?

Kieran glanced at me, worry showing on his face before he lifted himself back up. He wasn’t worried about me, was he? Cause I was totally fine. Totally. Not freaking out or anything. There was no reason to worry that a monster taller than a skyscraper was just released and now I have to relive what had happened a week ago. I couldn’t do this.

“Run.” Was all he said before the kaiju rammed through a building and tackled him. I yelped, dodging debris that was falling all while running. I didn’t dare look back, even as the growling grew more and more threatening between the two. I clutched my chest, running until my legs would give out from underneath me. I couldn’t stop. I didn’t want to die.

Eventually my legs did give out, and instead of hiding in a building like I had wanted to I just hid behind some rocks and broken concrete, bringing my legs to my chest and my arms over my head. This wasn’t actually happening, right? This was just some crazy nightmare. I would wake up at any second. Yup!

I yelped when I was launched in the air a little bit, landing on my back and banging my head against the rock. I groaned, rubbing the back of my head as I sat up. When my eyes opened, it took everything in me to hold in a scream. How did they get here so fast? I thought I had at least run far enough away. Was I really so useless that I couldn’t even run a few miles just to get away? I didn’t want to be here for any of this! It was terrifying to watch the two mountainous beings kick and lash out at each other, the kaijus’ growls practically making my ears bleed from how loud they were.

Tears pricked my eyes as I pressed my back further into the rock, pulling my hand away from my head and seeing blood all over my palm. My vision started to grow blurry, but I couldn’t pass out in a place like this. That would only increase my chances of death to 100% if it wasn’t already.

I watched with fearful eyes as Kieran was pinned again, trying to push the kaiju off of him. His eyes landed on my cowering figure trying to stay hidden, and immediately a low rumbling noise started coming from him, “I thought I told you to run.” I jumped from how threatening it had sounded, scurrying back up and running as fast as I could in the opposite direction, trying not to lose my balance from whatever the hell Kieran was doing.

My lungs threatened to burst from how fast I was running, my legs giving out on me just in time to run into a building. I slumped against a wall, wiping away the tears and checking out the damage. Well for one my head stopped bleeding, there were cut marks all over my skin from how many times I tripped on my way here, and pretty much I felt terrible everywhere. It hurt so much. What were they thinking? Seriously! I wasn’t in any way, shape, or form made for this!

I clutched my chest, my breathing fast and my stomach starting to hurt again. There was no point in me being here. Everywhere I went I was just in the way, keeping people back, burdening them. This situation isn’t much different! Kieran was having a hard time because he was worried about killing me in the process of killing that kaiju. If I hadn’t been here it would’ve ended quickly since he didn’t have to warn me or threaten for me to leave. If I could’ve just kept going, or better yet not have been saved by him none of this would be happening.

Tears came down my face as I silently sobbed, hugging my knees closer. Useless, useless, useless… My vision grew blurry before another ear-splitting roar echoed. I quickly covered up my ears, hoping that they weren’t anywhere near me but I doubt luck was on my side today. Was Kieran okay? Please tell me he was fine. Was he in more danger now because of me? My breathing sped up, my heart hurting from how fast it was beating in my chest.

“Please…” I whispered, failing to calm myself down. Was it so much to ask just for one nice thing to happen? Just one moment even!

It was silent for a while, my panicked nerves finally calming down, and just as I was about to crawl out of my hiding place to see what was going on, I felt the tiny tremors in the ground. In a panic, I clasped my hands over my mouth. Did the Kaiju come this way for me? Seriously! Fate really hated me. Or… at least I had thought.

“Devon?” I jumped at the sound of my name, peeking out the window to see Kieran looking around for me. I gasped quietly at the blood around his face, some even coming from his mouth. Though, a new look of panic seemed to have washed over him when I didn’t come out. Should I come out? Was he angry with me? Please tell me he wasn’t and I wasn’t about to make the biggest mistake of my life.

I used the nearby wall to lean on and stand up, forcing my legs to walk out of my hiding place, revealing my beaten figure, though Kieran looked worse than I did. Bite marks, bruises, scratches, deep cuts around his stomach. I’m surprised that it didn’t bother him as much as I’d think it would.

His eyes widened, lowering his body down with a worried look in his eyes, I backed away at the sight of blood, tripping and falling over. Was it… over? Did I have to run again? Tears pricked my eyes again, trying to hide them from Kieran, who winced and cringed away. I couldn’t do this anymore. My brain or heart couldn’t take any of this terrifying stuff anymore. It was making me go crazy. I’ve never felt so many mixed emotions before and it felt terrible. I started to hyperventilate again, clutching my chest.

“D-don’t be scared, I’m not gonna hurt you.” His voice cracked and sounded pained, but for some reason, I had a feeling that it wasn’t because he was probably in so much pain. As much as I wanted to calm down, I was struggling to. He was hurt because of me… if I hadn’t been here then he would’ve been completely fine. Wouldn’t have to worry about me either.

This was so embarrassing! What kind of a person freaks out this much in a singular day? This was so pathetic. My chest tightened even more, jumping when something soft fell on my head. I peeked out, seeing my stuffed animal, dusty and a little worse for wear, but still intact. I reached a shaky hand out, grabbing, and hugging them close. Embarrassing, pathetic, useless. Why was this all in front of Kieran? He was suffering more than I was right now. Why did I have to be so selfish?

No words were said for what seemed like hours as I tried to wipe away the tears that just kept coming. Nothing that I usually did was working, at least until Kieran tried something that would’ve probably scared me had I not already been scared out of my mind. Though, for some odd reason, it seemed like he was somehow even more scared than I was when he brought his finger closer, hesitating a bit before using his knuckle to rub against me.

I had no idea if he expected me to run or flinch away, but I did the exact opposite. I leaned into the touch, enjoying the subtle warmth for the split second that his knuckle was there before he moved it when I tried to get closer.

When I looked through teary eyes, I saw his eyes wide with shock, staring at his hand and then back at me. I sniffled, wiping the rest of the tears and hugging my stuffed animal as tight as I could. Kieran sighed, his breath ruffling my hair a bit as he used his arms as pillows again, “So… you’re not scared of me?” His voice sounded just as tired and annoyed as usual, but I noticed the slight crack in his voice again. Why was he scared? Well, maybe he had his own reasons.

I shook my head, “N-no?” I tilted my head, putting the puzzle pieces together, giggling like a child when I figured it out, “Aw you do c-care if I’m scared of you or not.”I was only freaking out cause I was scared of that kaiju. I was practically reliving the day we first met!

He rolled his eyes, “Whatever you say pipsqueak…” A smirk appeared on his face, “But, I am glad you’re not hurt. I know it was scary for you.” He cringed, one of his hands covering a wound on the side of his stomach that nearly made me vomit. Deep, red blood seeped through, like a huge stab wound and he was just holding his hand there like he wasn’t worried about the blood, he didn’t seem bothered much by it either.

“Thanks for c-caring.” I sucked in a breath, feeling my heartbeat die down a bit, my head still feeling a little dizzy but otherwise a little more bearable than usual. I jumped in surprise when he groaned a bit, squinting his eyes for a moment, “Whatever.” He scoffed, trying to hide the smirk spreading on his face.

Kieran messed with his wounds, and after a few minutes, the one that looked to have practically skewered through the side of his stomach didn’t look nearly as bad as it once was. Actually, it looked like it was healed already. When he realized that, he got back up staring at the hand that was covering his wound and wincing at the amount of blood on it. I looked away, laughing nervously. He stared at me like I was crazy, bringing his other hand lower to the ground so I could get on.

“A-are you okay?” I whispered, eyeing the hand with his own dried blood. He rolled his eyes in response, nodding his head anyways. Did he think it was normal to have had that bad of an injury? Did it even hurt as much as it looked like it did?

“We’re pretty far from the gates. Don’t expect me to keep doing this.” He grumbled, looking away with a slight playfulness. I nodded my head, remembering the last time that he said that he ended up saving my life again. Actually, this makes it like four times that he has now, so really he’s only been going back on his own words.

“Whatever you say.” I teased, struggling to find feeling in my legs, but once I did I forced myself to try and get on his hand, struggling a bit before I did. I checked to make sure I didn’t forget anything since I had this feeling that I was forgetting something, but once I realized what it was I was forgetting I didn’t care. The tablet. It was fine if I left it here, right? I mean this place is destroyed at this point there was no way I was going to be able to find it. Though, Kieran did find my stuffed animal and I should probably thank him for that.

“Thanks f-for finding him.” I held my dog up so he knew what I was talking about, hearing him scoff again, “He seemed important to you. Plus, I just happened to walk past him.” He mumbled, looking away as he hid the almost unnoticeable blush. Was he embarrassed? When I laughed, he glared playfully, sighing, “You seem to like the little thing.” He eyed it as I hugged it close again, trying to clean off some dust. Would it be weird to say that maybe he wanted it? I don’t know, but what if he just gave it back because he used to have one? Well, now I was just being a theorist. I could be entirely wrong. Then again, the way he kept looking at it like it reminded him of something. I was just going crazy, right?

“Do y-you not have anything t-to keep you company in your room. Like this?" I gestured towards my stuffed animal, seeing his pupils dilate like a cat would do when they’re comfortable or playful, “I’m not allowed to have anything.” Was all he said before he looked back again like he didn’t care. Somehow I feel like that has a double meaning.

He lifted his hand a little bit up and started crawling back just like the same way we came in here. It was kind of funny how he was almost like a cat. Less physically and more mentally though. Mean, grumpy, and teasing, but he can also be nice when he wants to be. Earlier it was almost like he was scared that I was going to be afraid of him. I mean sure I was for the first couple of days, and maybe just a tiny bit now, but I realize that he’s not going to try to hurt anyone. Or… try to hurt me specifically. I’m absolutely sure that if he were allowed to, he'd murder half the people in that research building. I shuddered at the thought, not realizing that we were already back.

Kieran walked in, getting himself comfortable before tilting his hand to let me off. I was surprised when I caught myself this time, especially since all of my limbs just felt like jelly at this point. I was going to be so sore tomorrow…

He was getting himself settled, using his arms as pillows once again. I guess whatever he could do to get comfortable. Just as I was about to sit down, the door flung open and two people stared down Kieran with an intensity that would’ve probably made me die right on the spot. Looking back, he was staring at them with bored eyes, like he had no care in the world before glancing down at me and letting out a short huff from his nose as if he was trying to tell me to hurry and go.

I did as asked, but before making it halfway back to the door, I ran back, finally making the decision. He needed it more than I did anyways, and I was just lucky that one of his hands was already laid out for me. I threw my stuffed animal in it without letting the guards see, somehow scaring Kieran from my sudden change of spirit, seeing the shock on his face was priceless though when he realized what I was giving him, “Y-you need him more than I do.” I whispered, hurrying back so they wouldn’t question me too much and so Kieran wouldn’t have the chance to give them back.

Before they brought me back to the room, they gave me something to eat that was surprisingly good and eventually was locked back in my room. I clutched at my chest and slid down the door. To think that I would’ve spiraled if it weren’t for Kieran. The fact that I would’ve died too many times to count if he wasn’t there to keep me safe? To think that all of this was because he decided to save someone pathetic. And honestly, I don’t think I would’ve had it any other way. I couldn’t thank him enough for saving my life. ——————

I just thought it’d be cute if Kieran had a stuffed animal cause why the heck not- I love their dynamic so much aghhhhh

Giant who’s cold and hard but softens up when he meets their little sunshine tiny? PLEASE. I need to see more of this it can’t just be me who wants to see this more often, but thank you for reading!

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