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Freud is so fucking stupid man like actually coked the fuck out and thinking 100% of his ideas on benders are true enough to take to the bank

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The fact that I can never beat Freud to death legitimately keeps me up at night. What the fuck do you mean a 14 year old girl responding negatively instead of with “excitement” to being sexually assaulted by a paedophile is an unquestionable sign of hysteria and disorder of the mind. I need to fucking rend you limb from limb and flesh from flesh until nothing but the spine remains

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Arthur Rimbaud, from "Qu'est-ce pour nous, Mon Cœur…", Collected Poems

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the Real Thing by Tom Stoppard

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…how strange is that clinging love we have of life even in the excess of misery!

—Mary Shelley, Frankenstein

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This script appeared before me at the library today & walking away with a different script instead felt like killing myself but even worse

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NEW FLAT HAS INTERNETTTTT I CAN FINALLY POST MY FUCKING BOOKREVIEWS

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Frankenstein as a concept and as an idea has tragically and dramatically outlived the novel itself & I think in praising the concept alone everybody has forgotten what an actually incredible novel it is

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I greatly need a friend who would have sense enough not to despise me as romantic, and affection enough for me to endeavour to regulate my mind.

—mary shelley

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arthur rimbaud

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I want to finish my rimbaud collection but I don’t want my rimbaud collection to be over EEEEIIIIIGGHHHHHH

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‘—Sometimes at night when he’s drunk he hangs around street corners or behind doors, to scare me to death. ‘I’ll get my throat cut for sure, won’t that be disgusting.’’

verlaine ‘confessing’ the devilry of arthur rimbaud [written by arthur rimbaud; ‘Delirium I’]

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We have visions of numbers. We are moving toward the Spirit. What I say is oracular and absolutely right.

—arthur rimbaud, “bad blood,” a season in hell

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The patient needs to read catch22 to live

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Finished house of leaves Feeling abnormal

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Would it be insane of me to say there are “gendered” roles in Koja novels that are based only on exploitation vs transcendence/artistry . And it’s at its barest in Skin where we see an almost classic tale of meaningless&false man exploiting talented&genuine women for their art and also sexually. Her story is about art and misogyny every time even if it’s about something else too. But applying this dichotomy with Skin as the hypothetical in physical, like a piece of theory to apply, there’s some interesting analysis of everything. Nakota is the man in the Cipher and Nicholas is the woman by these terms even though arguably their story is really gendered in terms of Nicholas as male and the half mocking portrayal of a certain type of man. Something to chew on, right? Inarguably there’s this dynamic of exploitation by total chance, convenience, which in the realm of Koja is a male-coded thing. And yet what is the Cipher if not a commentary on pathetic, violent, wanna be artist men? There’s some clash of inherent diametrics here which is exciting. Take Strange Angels. Grant is obviously in the man’s role, Robin in the woman’s. And What makes these assignments? In the Cipher it’s really just proximity to transcendence. For whatever reason Nicholas is chosen and then exploited for it. Strange Angels poses the question, is the dichotomy really man | woman? or is it man | any disadvantaged artist? But Koja’s portrayals of masculinity and also the inherent feminist statement of her body of work, which is seen in another very plain way in “the Neglected Garden”, probably the most direct, cut and dry example of this point, sort of refutes it’s anything but the dichotomy of these socialised gender roles. The Grant /Robin situation when given this gendered feminist reading provides really interesting insight on Grant’s behaviour and thought, I guess, and proves the fact that Koja’s ultimate exploiter is always, no matter towards whom, acting with assurance from some form of misogyny. I could say that Koja gives Robin “feminine” features to accentuate this dynamic like long hair and an attraction to men but that would be getting into some sort of skirtingly homophobic university essay bullshit . Basically, I just think playing around with this provides a neat way to look at her work and you’re fucking stupid if you don’t know by this point all my posts come fromthe mind of the futile critical essay writer . Just kidding, I love you. Smile