111theunhappyvegan

[111theunhappyvegan]

The Bad Vegan in Yi (lol phrasing)

I'm also not going to pretend that I'm perfect at remaining plant-based because I probably break it at least once a week for the following reasons: -I'm with family (if I don't eat meat around them then I have pretty much nothing to eat and also they don't consider fish to be meat and also cultural reasons blah blah blah) -I still have milk-based products that I bought before I went vegan and I don't like food waste -I'm out with friends or my sister and get offered (or shamelessly request) a bite of something cheesy and delicious -I order something veganized and it comes out not by accident. #nofoodwaste -I have a history of atyipical anorexia and bulimia and if I find myself restricting too much and using my veganism as an excuse (which I have been guilty of doing) or working out too much and not finding ways to fuel my body, I pretty much have to break it so that dietary restrictions aren't controlling my life more than usual -It has honey in it. I'm not against consuming honey and don't really think that it has a negative environmental impact so I'm like meh. Some vegans are like "ugh u r satan" but I want to support beekeepers and the bees. I don't even like honey that much I just don't think that I need to not eat it and allergen labels don't warn you if it has honey in it so I forget to check I will say that meat is starting to not sit well with my body and makes me kind of nauseated and eating egg is weird to me now, but it might be more of a mental discomfort as opposed to a physical.

[111theunhappyvegan]

You know how people are always like, "omg lol you can always spot the vegan bc they're always talking about how they're vegan"? Well I end up talking about veganism a lot too but I'm less-than-preachy about it by far. Most of the time I'm complaining about it (like a solid 97% of the time honestly), talking about how I accidentally fucked up and consumed cheese, or sharing a vegan recipe that I tried and wasn't mad about. I decided to go vegetarian for environmental reasons. Ever since high school I've been a huge eco-nerd and the drastic changes in weather that we had back in February were a huge slap in the face. It was super warm and I loved it, but it wasn't February weather. It was supposed to be cold and miserable but I was able to wear my skirts outside and for some reason that triggered a response in me that essentially went along the lines of, "you're happy right now but you shouldn't be because the environment is going to shit and climate change is real." Then I forced myself to face the fact that meat production DOES have a substantial impact on the environment and that not consuming meat would PROBABLY be for the best so I stopped purchasing meat products. Since I also don't believe in food waste I decided that it was okay to finish the meat stuff that I had. After doing the whole vegetarian thing for two weeks I realized that all I friggin ate was bread and cheese. Like, unhealthy amounts of bread and cheese. I really freaking love bread and cheese. And because of that, the part of me that is insistent on trying to properly nourish my body and take care of myself told me, "you're happy right now but you shouldn't be because you are not doing what's right for your body at all and it's going to shit." And so I stopped purchasing any non-plant-based food product and started eating more fruits, vegetables, and honestly more protein. Some preachy vegans like to say that they're "cruelty-free," or that meat is murder and fun PETA stuff like that. I... like to say that I'm "plant-based." I do it for the trees, man. I did research on animals for 3.5 years straight. I have no right to go around saying "meat is murder" and pretending to live a vegan lifestyle for the animals. I don't know how many animals I have single-handedly killed, let alone how many animals I have contributed to the deaths of from research alone, so to feel guilty about consuming meat and animal products because of what the animals feel would unleash WAYYY too much guilt that I low-key harbor inside. To end this on a happier note, this veganism stuff has contributed to me living a healthier and slightly happier lifestyle missing cheese aside. I eat more healthy green stuff, it's gotten me going to the gym a lot more because it reminds me that I'm trying to be healthy, and it has me trying to bake and cook more stuff because I'm curious as to how I can make this experience as non-miserable as possible. The goal is to make a yummy vegan cheesecake 😎✌🏼