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I should delete this but how can I just let go?

I can’t stop thinking where it went wrong or why you could keep hurting me.. How you were having a great day with me watching movies and laughing and holding each other.. Just for you to leave the next day and everything was as if it was fake. You only have love for me but that’s it? It’s just not what you said the night before and it will never make sense to me. How I’m hurting over you and you’re hurting over him. Not even a day of actually being broken up and you want to have a future with him.. The one you took away from us, from me, your best friend? The person you just said was your end game? I’ll never be the same.. but I guess neither were we huh? I guess this is goodbye. But deleting this and our pictures and our text will never be able to erase my memories and what’s in my heart. So much shit I want to say to you but I don’t have it in me anymore because you just don’t care, so much shit I want to say to you but it would be out of my character, so much fucking shit I want to say to you but it would never bring you back or fix what you have done.. and It won’t be able to make you unfuck him. So I guess I do have to let you go. Because you are not mine no matter what I did right or wrong, because you gave yourself away to another, because you don’t want to stay, because you are now a stranger. Even though I have loved every version of you.. Even now that I still love you, I am not in love with this version of you. You are a stranger, and I pray that my every cell sheds faster than usual. Even though you always will have touched my heart and my mind, I can’t wait until I’ve shed away your touch from my skin.

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To you, on an important day for us.

Jesus, I can’t believe we actually made it here. We’re going on 10 years of being in each others lives, but here today we’re celebrating a year of just you and me. An entire year. 365 days of constant, undeniable love. 52 weeks of your undying affection. 525,600 minutes of calling you mine. 31,536,000 seconds of knowing I have not only the most amazing boyfriend, but also having a best friend who without a doubt has my back in any and every situation. Lyric Isaiah, you are my rock. You’re my strength and weakness. You’re what God sent me to know that all the heartbreak, mistreatment, and trauma was over. That I have found my one. When we started we both said that we would give it one more chance, but that one more chance was all we needed. I can’t express enough how thankful I am to you. The universe really did move for us and I know I say this all the time but it’s true. We weren’t serendipitous. We didn’t stumble on to each other by chance and fall in love again because “life works in mysterious ways”. We found each other and fell in love because that’s what the universe chose. We’re bound together by the same red string, just like those before us and those who will come after. Please never forget that I love you. In this life, every life that’s come before, and to every life in which we exist after; I love you.

To my best friend, first love, and love of my life.

Happy Anniversary.

~It’s hard to believe the person who said this is the same person who broke my heart forever.~

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How badly I wanted us to work. How I thought maybe you actually did love me. How I gave everything to you blood, sweat, tears, money. It meant nothing cause I was never going to be good enough for you. I’ll always love you and that’s what hurts the most. How else do I stop this pain and these feelings of never wanting to love anyone else but you? Goodbye.

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Dec1-02202023. Our home ❤️

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Halloween 22

Inuyasha and Kikyo ❤️

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9/9/22 Moms wedding.

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9-3-22 Seaside

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9-3-22 Seaside

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8/20/2022 @my moms wedding party.

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