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Japan seems like forever ago now.

We just got a new car a couple days ago. Totaled to like 30k and we traded sweet Clementine, paid for in full. 2024 Subaru Forester Premium 🤩 it’s wild. V nice. There’s a sub roof (I really wanted this) and it’s very nice. Looking forward to using it longer soon.

Greg’s friend is coming to Chicago after his 4y internship in Singapore. It will be his first time here so Greg wanted to take him somewhere more woodsy — so far Wisconsin has been mentioned the most but time will tell what is actually picked.

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Currently in Tokyo - traveling Japan for the next 3 weeks (:

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Bought a Volcano Hybrid (((: love that for me

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Going to Fr for August (:

Paris, Angoulême + Royan AT LEAST. Would be cool to go to Amsterdam + Germany.

Update:

Was in Paris for a week

Then we went to Royan for the beach house for like 5 days

Back in Paris for a couple days

Flew to Portugal

Enjoyed ourselves for a bit over a week

Flew back to Paris

Went to Angoulême to visit Papy + have a Michelin star lunch

Back to Paris

Eventually flying back home together first class (:

My mom is a key web developer for a certain airline company — I flew first class for less than $200 (((: love that for me

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I believe my coochie should be worshipped everyday and I’m happy my D Lover agrees and uses it to over stimulate me.

I love us, I love him.

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My extremely muscular, mathematician lover.

Oh how lucky are we that we found each other through the one blip in our lives we could ever cross paths.

Like really, I’ve traveled with him and to go see him. France for the first time in 2018, along w Italy bc his family invited me on their vacation. I still think about the beautiful room we stayed in..

Singapore in may 2019 because I wanted to visit him while he was there doing his internship with A*STAR,, then we got on a plane and spent weeks in Thailand, city + island living.

Like really,, we never get into fights, like we don’t fight just to make the other feel down,, like ugh.

So in love, I can’t believe we live together.

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He told me that he thinks of me as his soulmate. My heart is singing, and the sun is shining from within. My heart is so filled with joy, I really really could not imagine a better partner, he’s everything and I know I am considered the same to him.

Feels so good to be in a healthy relationship.

I’ll get to spend my days in the French countryside, riding bikes to go to the local market for fresh produce, slowly picking up the language.

I love time and he will take care of me, as in I feel so safe with him- he’s very muscular, his abs have been more pronounced recently too.

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G recently went home for a couple weeks for Christmas but he’s been back home for a week now. It’s been amazing, it was so hard to be away from him. Like I knew I’d see him again very soon, we live together, but still my heart ached. We’ve been very sappy this past week, I picked him up and gave him a bouquet of flowers, lilies.

Last night I made us a chocolate tea cake using canna butter & G was absolutely fucked. It was cute tbh, even though he threw up… so in love w this man.

There’s a high chance we will get married,, we are great together. We rarely get upset at each other, and even then it does not carry to the next day. He always subtly mentions us being together for a long time,, I am so in love. He’s incredible. He brings so much to the table,, like his family is /French/ French.

When I was at the beach house this summer, there’s a photo of G’s g-g grandpa; I can’t believe I didn’t take a photo of it, I will this year. But he was Prussian,, like??? From what I know so far, all generations have been from France, til this one. Even G’s younger brother brought a girl home who is not French, if I recall correctly she’s Hungarian. I’ve not met her yet but I send G with a couple boxes of cookies & his brother +gf really liked them.

I digress, I just love my bf. I’m in no rush, he loves me just as much as I love him. He spoils me so much too, like materialistic yes but my favorite is the attention. I love that he’s 26 & working on a PhD, he does vertical push-ups (and regular ones too) for me, and today he said, “all my cvm goes inside of you,” and my heart beat so fast and hard. He’s just so strong & always wants to be on top, so pervy too,, jfc he’s so hot and sweet, intelligent, has a nest of generational wealth & loves me for me. He knows about me being a fin-dominatrix & he thinks it’s funny but he has no interest in cvcking someone, and I guess I do but I’d want the loser in a cage with a blanket over it. Maybe there can be a 1-2” gap on the bottom so it could look out, but I’m sure it will get strenuous + it wouldn’t see much- haha. Yea… I guess moving onto the dom topic, I’ve been doing well, got the new iphone paid w money losers gave me, for doing nothing but existing. Love being pretty, love being great in bed, love being perverted.

Well it’s 130a and I should get sleep cause we are gonna go to Costco tomorrow morning.

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My birthday is coming up and I’m v excited. Yesterday we went to the Opera to see Macbeth & it was a wonderfully memorable experience. We still have 2 more shows to attend in the future, but Ik G has been preparing for my birthday. There’s this pink Pandora bag in the closet and Ive been eyeing it. So excited. Just want to feel special and loved.

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Yea this was most profitable weekend so far. This one sub gave me over $400 and he was my waiter. Tied my shoes, made me dinner, rolled me joints, took my jacket and hung it up. Yea,, lol. I guess I’ve always been somewhat a sexually dominant woman and I never really recognized it for being that.

I’ve heard “girls like you shouldn’t have to work a day in your life, unless you want to,” so many times now hehe. I love me.

I’m really happy. I wish I had more people I could talk to about this stuff but this is still good for me. Maybe I can make this my Dom Journal.

I feel like I should also make this priv4t3 hmm.

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Update,

A sub bought me the 2020 winter MacBook, in November, and most likely he’s still paying it off 😂 what a loser.

I am going to get a Macbook Pro

I am tired of my airpod pros not connecting to my laptop. I want to play youtube via my pros, like on my laptop so i can use my phone,, now i have to stay on the YoutOOb app. 

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Found out I’m pregnant during my vacation,, morning sickness is awful. Lover booked an appt in Paris this coming Tuesday for abortion services. Only like 6 weeks along so I’m not showing at all.

Happy when we stayed w his family, parents & grandpa, I didn’t have morning sickness at the time. Last thing I need is for them to put pieces together and get excited about a child cause this mf never making it past the cell stage.

We’ve revisited our convo about children and we both do not want children right now. In our 30s we will look into adopting.

Nonetheless, so in love.

He was v nervous about the news cause it’s his first pregnancy scare, but my calmness about it helped a lot I think.

It’s nice to finally have a real vacation, my mental health has been trash but at least I have my SSRIs.

Thursday I had dinner w his parents and grandpa, I had an 76€ meal. I had foie gras, cantaloupe gazpacho, pigeon (deadass), cheese, and tarte w raspberries + fresh basil sorbet… was so good. Only thing I couldn’t finish was my cheese, but I tried a bit of each.

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We’ve gone on lots of walks lately too. I love him. He’s so wonderful.

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It’s been an absolute dream having him here. Just feels more like a home.

I sketched this yesterday when he was prepping lunch. The calves aren’t perfect but the thighs are. He’s so strong. Ugh. His pull up bar came in yesterday and 🥵 hehe I am a happy lady.

Find0m has been good tho. Some guy gave me $200 yesterday without meeting me, I’m going to step on his ween & kick his nuts as hard as possible, and he’s gonna give me more money.

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Gave my baby a deep clean, only the best for my lover 😤

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Also I see my bf for the first time since January this Saturday when he moves to Chicago to go to school here 🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰 I am 🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰🥰 so excited and nervous but EXCITED!!!!

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Bought Chanel boots today 😛