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When I die please don’t come to my grave and sit there for hours and tell me you love me and miss me because those are the things I wanted to hear when I was alive.

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"I'm having suicidal thoughts again and I want to tell someone. I want to open up and ask for help but I'm scared that they'll see me different so I just face it alone until the thoughts eventually win."

— my thoughts are killing me slowly

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The one thing I don't want to be is a burden to anyone.

— Haruki Murakami, Norwegian Wood

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Sometimes it feels like I’m too much of a coward to live but I’m too much of a coward to kill myself too. I don’t know why I’m here anymore.

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“Perhaps the saddest thing is, From time to time I still think about calling you, about telling you how much I miss you, and how often I think of you. But I never do, because I remember that we stopped speaking for a reason”

— Excerpt from a Book I’ll Never Write, Perhaps the Saddest Thing

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Sometimes you experience bad days even though everything is working out just fine. Sometimes you wake up with a heavy heart even though your day is full of things you are actually excited about. Sometimes you feel utterly sad even though you are surrounded by people who love and care about you. I am here to tell you that it is absolutely okay to hit rock bottom even though there is no logical explanation for it. You do not need to justify your feelings and there is truly no need to feel guilty about feeling darkness inside of you though the sun is currently shining on your life. Feelings come and go, just like waves. So, go ahead and let yourself feel, my love, for you deserve to express your inner world in order to heal. Always remember that feeling bad does not need to be justified.

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Lately i’ve been panicking in my sleep, and god how broken does a person have to be that they can’t even sleep peacefully anymore

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You can always start again, my love. No matter how bad you feel, how hard you have hit rock bottom again or how little energy and will you have left to keep holding on, deep down you know that recovery is possible. You have made it out of dark places more times than you could ever imagine, so what makes you think that this time is different? You are so strong and capable and you can absolutely do this. Please do not be so hard on yourself; you have not messed up, you have not failed - you are given the opportunity to start over and recreate yourself and I know that you will get through this.