#so yeah i think i might be cis??
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ive never felt more like a woman since i had a hysterectomy
#ive identified as agender for SO FREAKING LONG (like 10 years)#i thought my hysterectomy would just affirm that#but then i woke up from anaesthesia basically 95% cis#and was like#THATS gonna take a lot of unpacking#so yeah i think i might be cis??#i was just so traumatized by how bad my periods were#that i rejected ANYTHING that could possibly tie me to my femininity#hysterectomy#gender#sulley speaks#im gonna miss the trans community 😢#but i will admit#i never felt 100% at home in trans friendly spaces regardless of how inviting and nice everyone was#simply because i think my issues with gender were coming from a VERY different place#ughh this is why menstruation and womanhood NEEDS to be separated#i related the two so hard when i was a child growing up in the 90s#that no amount of affirmative action in my teens could undo it#it’s only now that i no longer have a uterus that i can really make the distinction#NO REGERTS THOUGH#LOVE MY HYSTERECTOMY#it gave me life#life that i didn’t have otherwise#i really like not living every day in 10/10 pain :)
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pick your battles
#my art#my stuff#art#comic#original art#pride 2024#pride month#trans allegory..... or not even allegory. just trans .... ^_^#i technically cannot come out yet but i don't think the people who i need to not see this stalk my tumblr#i know they stalk everything else like my twitter and my instagram but this might be safe#so fuck it we yap. this is a comic about picking your battles#this is a comic about how for almost a year now everyone at home in singapore has been crying about my sore throat#my terrible fucked up voice. my you know. etc#i came out as not cis and using they/them pronouns in 2015 when i was 14#but no one ever used my pronouns. none of my classmates or friends even up until i left for college in 2020#from 2020 onwards every year i wrote an angry vulnreable essay about how much it hurts that they dont remember#and people would dm me apologizing on their hands and knees and commending my bravery#and then forget about it all over again. id ont mean 'they misgender me and then catch it and apologize and correct themselves'#i mean they dont even get that far#and so you might ask yourself: why have you kept them around all this time?#and i would have to explain that by pure bad luck i grew up in the most conservative close minded community#that all of my ex classmates that stayed in singapore are cishet and upper middle class and chinese singaporean#that i Am the trans person. that they were able to ignore me for a decade partially because there was no one else#so this is a comic about how there is dignity and grace in staying in the closet sometimes#about how not everyone deserves to see you at your happiest. about how some people can go fuck themselves#you know your truth and THATS THE ONLY THING THAT MATTERS!!! YEAH!!! i love you
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David Tennant wearing pink nail polish right after pissing off the prime minister? Iconic. Also he's making me want to paint my nails for the first time in like six years. Idk how he has this much power but give him more
#david tennant#mean girls#nail polish#pride pins#paul smith#I don't like nail polish (on myself) and I haven't worn any since before I came out but I think I still have the bright pink one?#will it be temptation accomplished?#uh stay tuned to find out if I decide to play with gender presentation and ensure I'm misgendered by literally everyone!#except basically all cis het strangers currently misgender me so it's not like nail polish is going to change that#so yeah it might happen lol#billions of years beyond the petty human obsession with gender and it's associated stereotypes!!#also have I mentioned that he liked my trans mask at the autograph table because I'm not over it#pride
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Fuck I hate being an adult. I need a more adult adult to help with the volatile emotional situation.
#I've sort of made a new friend? Like we met at the same art group and he's also trans which was like pleasantly surprising in our small town#but like. We have Differences Of Opinion#and it's not totally his fault because it sounds like he's had a Lot of bad shit in his past that's obviously made him wary and closed off#but like. He's slightly older than me (only 4 years) and keeps blaming a load of his problems on other trans folks?#like you know the type. The like 'all these nonbinary/other identities the kids are doing are complicating shit'#the 'it hurts to see people younger than me inc. kids get hormones thrown at them when I still can't get 'em' (which... yeah not even true)#and he's told me himself he doesn't engage much with the queer community bc it's too 'toxic'#and like. I can absolutely understand why he could've had some bad experiences esp. since he has some mental health shit going on#but he wants to be friends bc he doesn't know anyone else going through the medical shit and it's like. Yeah no shit you don't?#you decided the community you'd find them in is toxic? and that people in them are doing being trans wrong?#and I think if he was just some guy online I'd like roll my eyes and ignore him#but he's a real person in my vicinity and I feel fucking bad for him#and I can see how much self loathing he has and how much that probably informs the bullshit#like he told me he thinks that trans men and cis men are fundamentally different categories and trans men will never be cis men#but not in a 'the experiences are just different and come with different perspectives way'#in like a self defeating way. Like a I just have to settle for being a trans man way.#and it made me SO SAD#like bro#I'm so sorry for whoever the fuck made you feel like you're fighting an unwinnable battle#and I want to be a friend to him. I want him to feel like there's other queer people out there and there's friends and hope#but also I genuinely could see him being the kind of person who would get really angry at you for no fault of your own#like I already get the distinct feeling he resents me a little#like obviously not too much since he still wants to hang#but he's been trying and failing to get HRT for years and I got it super quickly basically by sheer luck/a doctor who looks out for me#like I'm so fucking lucky. And I just genuinely feel like he's the kind of person who might take that personally.#I just do not think I have the fucking. Emotional tool kit to salvage this shit#But I also can't exactly text him and say sorry I don't think we should hang out so. What do.#.....I wasn't even LOOKING for a new friend! I have enough friends!!! I wanted to make clay faces and look at pretty buildings dammit!!!#now I have to be the emotionally mature one who goes hmmm maybe let's not blame other depressed trans kids for our problems buddy#I'm just gonna have to be like. Upfront about my stance and if he doesn't like it well he doesn't have to hang out with me
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I can accept basically any trans/nb reading of Jon however my personal favorites are transmasc Jon who transitioned physically and socially as early as possible and just never mentioned it to anyone cause it wasn't any of their business OR Jon being the most repressed transfem/nb in existence. They'll be talking about gender or whatever and Jon will be like "it's normal to feel totally disconnected from your gender all the time and also vaguely want boobs. That's just a guy thing I think." only for whoever they're all talking to to go "wtf no?? It's not????"
#please don't make this about j//mart or martin#only jon reading I can't accept is cis#sorry I just don't see it#idk might just be projection#but I think jon has really complicated feelings about gender that they don't know how to articulate#and they're also super private so they just. never mention it.#actually love literally any depiction of jon where they had a super wild personal life (band/mechs!jon punk!jon w/e) that they don't think#is important to mention ever. but occasionally they'll drop some random detail completely casually and then not understand why everyone els#is confused#like. I think jon's childhood probably wasn't super wild beyond the mr spider stuff#and once they started working at the institute I think they tried to lean really really hard into the boring respectable academic aesthetic#but I think uni jon was either the most dull shut-in workaholic OR doing really weird shit between classes with no inbetween#look I have a lot of jonthoughts ok?#anyway I think it's plausible that uni!jon was briefly non-repressed#actually adding to that: jon likes to break in to places to Investigate Them is practically canon to me.#ok anyway sorting tags. yeah I'm maintagging my jon mental illness#jon sims#jonathan sims#tma#the magnus archives#trans jon sims#trans jonathan sims#edit to add my new jon gender tag#jonder
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sorry to still be on those polls but genuinely some of those responses are so distressing to me. the belief that trans people should go through that self discovery process in monastic self isolation and never receive input from the people who love them Until They're Ready is so genuinely bleak and indefensible, regardless of whether or not you're ideologically consistent about which audiences you think the suggestion is "appropriate" for. and furthermore the idea that a cis person getting erroneously told theyre trans by One Person is somehow equivalent to a trans person getting coercively held to agab standards by The Whole World...... like come on. come on.
#so many of them i think are written from the pov of someone REFUSING to entertain the idea that people have irl close friends#the idea that telling a friend having gender thoughts 'hey ever thought about this' is equivalent to like#going into a gnc cis person's askbox on tumblr and going 'so youre trans huh.' is mind boggling#what about emotional intelligence. what about reading the room.#if you refuse to take questions about an entirely hypothetical scenario where someone might be trans in good faith#guess what there is almost no recourse that doesnt make you sound like a transphobe#'gnc cis people exist' yeah and they are capable of being like 'im cis and gnc!' and then continuing to live their lives.#the idea that trans identity is being Coercively Assigned to people is exactly what transphobic legislators are saying right now.#do not buy into it!!!!#words!
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also like i partially found out i might be intersex because i was looking at trans stuff and there was like "(however many) months on t and finally seeing some bottom growth" and like pictures of t-dicks and i was like.... um.... that's kind of just what my clit looks like anyways. so i was like "hey google give me a quick rundown on this" and learned what clitoromegaly was and then i was like. hm. intersex resources. and it's like a sign? symptom? side-effect? of certain intersex conditions
#i mean like pcos runs in the mums side of my family but i dont have all the symptoms of that#i do also have like. more hair?? than the average afab person#like dark hair on my stomach and chest and back#and my face. whats disappointing about the face hair is that it isnt enough to be able to grow a beard#so i cant even fuck with gender that way#tagging as nsft just because of like genital mention#genital mention#nsft#shoutout to transmascs on t who show their t-dicks on the internet it was really helpful#also i dont know how to describe it but like. my natural face shape is kind of masculine??#like it would be plausible for a cis amab perisex man to have my face without looking feminine#if you get what im saying??#if it sounds like im reinforcing sex or gender essentialism please say i am struggling to find words#unshoutout to the boys in primary school who made fun of me for having hair under my arms and starting a whole decade of insecurity-#-about having hair on my body lmao#for the record i dont think certain face shapes are indicative of gender and all im just going by like. patterns?? in afab vs. amab faces#also not that i think afab vs. amab is the entire categorisation of human sex characteristics but um. working with what vocab i have here#i think what also really kicked it off. was relating to a fair few experiences intersex people have socially#particularly intersex ppl who were afab and faced a lot of pressure to make their bodies conform to feminine beauty standards#and it was like.... oh lol.... my mum did that to me!!#it comes from her own internalised shit bc she has pcos (idk if she identifies as intersex even tho she could if she wanted) but still.#dont project that onto a 10 yr old lmao. she keeps buying me hair removal products#ALSO floored by an experience i have. in which apparently half my friends dont feel pressure to shave their legs#because the hair on their legs is like. light and thin and barely visible and i was like?? huh??#what do you MEAN your legs don't look like your brothers/fathers if you dont shave??#im starting to think they dont shave their arms. their arms might just naturally not have a load of hair#i dont shave my arms though. cannot be bothered with that and also like. why would i do that#also you know that like. happy trail i think its called?? on “men's” stomachs??#yeah i have that naturally yeah thats right im naturally sexy#if you cant tell i am putting “girls” “mens” “boys” “womens” etc. in quotes to indicate that is just the normal society way of saying it
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for pride ask thing! <3
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28) Do you experience both romantic and sexual attraction? Do you experience them the same across any gender(s) you are attracted to?
Yes, I think so? I identify as pansexual, everyone is hot all of the time lol. I think attraction to each individual person feels different, though. I am a constant case of someone who is in love with their friends. Tbh to me I don't feel a real separation between romantic or sexual or platonic attraction, what makes the most sense to me is that there are people I feel affectionate towards, and usually that just feels like a bundle of all of the above!
33) What about your LGBT identity do you feel proud of/want to recognize/celebrate?
gender queerness/gender non-conformity! The community we built here and the people I've met through this work really REALLY altered my relationship with my body and gender presentation. I've always been very attracted to gender nonconformity but it can be hard/scary to perform in a very cishet society. Getting to know all of you and having a very free environment for bodies of all kinds really gave me the confidence to dress how I want in public, and to get more comfy with the overlapping and layered labels I may use.
34) What are you needing most right now (what would make your life easier or more fulfilling in regards to existing as queer)?
Community with other trans folks. I'm in Texas and I've been trying to leave my entire life. I've encountered so few other trans people that I can have casual hangouts with or talk about day to day life with, or even have intimate relationships with. The closest I get to meeting other trans people in person tends to be driving hours to attend a queer event a couple times a year. It's been a big struggle for me this past year.
#ask#not art#lore#also im demisexual i guess???? as ive been learning#i think my attraction skews towards women but it might be bc more women take the time to build friendships with me than men#i love that the community weve built here is just like a celebration of all kinds of bodies and body parts#throw a pussy on that guy whatever#trans their genders#i feel like this is such a queer ambiguous space that i genuinely forget the binary exists out there lmao#and then i go to work and get she/her bc my hair goes to my shoulders and im like HUH????#mmmm yeah texas mixed feelilngs on that one#i know theres queer people here and i want to be in community with them but alsooooooooo we're so spread out and id love to be in a place w#where my gender is understood by coworkers or general friends i end up in proximity with or where meeting other trans people didnt feel lik#finding a unicorn or something#i dont like the feeling of being the only queer person in a room#or the only events near me being catered to cis gay men aughhh#marco lore
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i love being queer i really do but my god it can be lonely sometimes
#my siblings are queer but other than that i don't have any close queer friends irl#i'm also not out to my parents#my sexuality they might understand but i'm bery certain they won't understand my gender#they love me but would they still love me if i told them who i am?#and like i really should worry about labels too much bc the word queer exists and that perfectly describes what i am#it just tells you that i'm not cis/het#i'm also not really out to my uni/dorm friends so yeah#they would probably be cool with that tho#(sexuality i mean gender idk bc idk how to explain my gender to people in dutch)#i'm not actively looking for a romantic relationship at the moment but like dating another queer perspn would make me a lot less lonely...#(kinda unrelated but i think i might be somewhere on the asexual spectrum ??? and possibly on the aromantic one as well ???)#this is why i love the word queer so much#it just tells you that i'm not cis/het#so like i rrally shouldn't worry about labels too much because the word queer perfectly describes what i am#queer#kj post
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I think a really underrated trans headcanon is like. Really closeted. Not stealth. Really closeted and either doesn't know yet (egg) or does know but is afraid to transition for xyz reasons. Because 90% of all trans headcanons I seem to see are slapping some scars or a binder on a guy which is fine and good!!! Love scars in art think we should absolutely romanticize the marks left by becoming happier in your own skin right but also like. Idk some headcanons I'm like I don't think he's ready to reach for that happiness. I think he's scared of choosing things to improve his own life.
#beeep#yes this is about furina genshin impact#also u may note that i was mainly talking about transmasc stuff and that is for two reasons: one because furina is the character in mind for#this but two because people rarely ever have ANY visual cues on their transfem hcs. its like theyre afraid to admit that sometimes trans#girls dont look cis? but i mean i guess that makes sense too since the binders and scars are usually the Only tells on the trans guys hcs#but also theres a lot of political baggage over trans people not passing and it opens u up to hate and blehhhh#but like yeah. i think furina is a trans guy but i also do not think hes going to be telling Anyone about that for a While#and u might think based on the username that this is projection but no im in a slightly different situation#where i half tell people cus my name is blatantly masculine but since i dont look masculine nobody genders me correctly and im so tired of#correcting. but like my friends know yk#i do not think furina is telling his friends. i think he is far more likely to disguise himself and go to another country and tell a#stranger rather than risk letting his friends know things. hes not used to that its felt dangerous for centuries.... yk...
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weekend melancholy is starting to kick in >~<
#im gonna go and do my food shop etc to keep myself busy and hopefully my 2nd meds will kick in and we'll be able to handle it together#i think i kind of do this so regularly bc my brain is just processing everything bc i dont rly have time during the week#all cool tho im doing good overall def on the up n i feel way more capable of coping emotionally which is nice. i <3 meds#also.. possibly settling on the idea that i might be agender. very tentatively. lots of experiences n thoughts coming together rn#ive been reacting in unexpected ways to a lot of gendered shit atm which has made me reconsider the way i think abt myself#but very difficult to articulate it to myself let alone anyone else. so ive been sitting with it for now until it precipitates#gender stuff has never rly affected me much or ive never been in a place to explore it which is why i havent thought abt it super hard#but im not the sort of person who needs a lot of internal exploration to figure out my identity like im v self aware tbh#and while im wildly indecisive abt most things in my life for some reason i never have been abt stuff like this. i learned abt lesbianism#like idk 9 years ago-ish and straight away was like yeah that makes sense for me. never looked back since#n similarly ive experienced forms of gender dysphoria before n just immediately dealt with it symptomatically n moved on#its never been smth to agonise abt for me like i know what makes me comfortable in my skin so theres no question abt doing it#and ik im privileged to be able to do that. and also it helps that gender for me is mostly divorced from external perceptions#+ that im v autistic so social pressures dont stick to me very well. i mean yeah i was bullied for it as a kid but i was stubborn asf#so yeah from the moment i realised i was genuinely uncomfortable/upset abt it earlier this week i was like okay. lets try this instead#its given me pretty instant relief from any distress i was feeling so far which is nice. rare respite from one of my torture labyrinths#just testing out internally whether it frames things more clearly n makes me feel more myself/at peace before i choose to stick w the idea#but not gonna do a whole coming out fanfare either way. dont think i wanna change how ppl interact w me + im still a dyke#so i dont consider it relevant to anyone else unless they share a similar understanding of gender to me. or if we're v close#ill prolly broach it w other trans friends eventually bc insert philosophers talking image. but to everyone else its business as usual#happy to play my cis-sona at work. + w new queer ppl i meet ive been introducing myself recently w mirrored pronouns instead of any/all#and i think i prefer that. virtually indistinguishable but theres smth nice abt inviting ppl to recognise me the way they do themselves#like translating + localising a non-gendered language into a gendered one... simplifying decisions abt how to perceive me#and ofc ppl are still gonna perceive me however but idc much unless we're actually friends. the rest is all a performance anyway#doubtful anyone on here ever has reason to refer to me but if u do for some reason... im freeloading off ur pronouns now btw <3#but yeahhh. much 2 think abt. i need to read more alien/ai sci fi.. non-human sentience has been such a comforting concept lately#but yea tldr i woke up one morning this week like damn im prolly agender but i have a full time job to go to rn so idc abt that#.diaries#okkkk my dex is kicking in im no longer on the verge of tears lets go get these groceries wooohoooo
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i'm kind of new to the whole misgendering gerard stuff with girlgerard but i have seen thekidsfromyestergay 's posts constatly she/her-ing gerard but they say it's a joke. i don't know if it is funny to me or not... is that like normal? again i'm new to mcrblr
Several big mcr blogs on here she/her Gerard constantly, so it's become super normalized. But these blogs seem to always have a whole list of excuses including that its a joke, the gay she, and that Gerard is a actually a trans woman and to not use she/her is actually sooooo transphobic. In any case it's weird to constantly use the wrong pronouns for someone, or to label them in a way they don't want. (For reference Gee said on twitter his prns are he/they, and that's what Marina Toybina uses for him as well. Gee also said they don't use labels. They choose not to.)
Idc about an offhand girl joke or comment, but when thats all you use, or the thing you use the most its a problem. Jokes are meant to be funny, i don't see how addressing someone with pronouns that aren't theirs just because they dress more feminine is a joke or funny.
People deserve to have their name, pronouns, gender or lack thereof, all that, respected. None of us are Gerard or anyone else, therefore we can't know how they feel on things unless we're directly told. We only know what he has said, and to ignore that in favor of how we or any random person on the internet sees him is disrespectful to Gerard Way as a human being.
#btw im not saying you can't discuss how g might feel on certain things. we can have conversations. but you cannot label/misgender them.gros#also! if g's expression helped you work through something or feel more comfortable-awesome! me too! thats great and you can talk abt it!#without saying gee is trans. gee isnt trans unless they say they are. theyre also not cis unless they say they are.#he is just a person existing out there who deserves your respect.#girlgerard#kidsfromyestergay#gerard way#mcr 2023#cheerleader gerard#gerard gender wars#gerard gender discourse#anon#crimson answers#oh yeah and btw someones pronouns gender sexuality etc its none of you business unless someone makes it your business#i used to think these things wrre funny bc they are everywhere so if everyone thinks its funny obviously its gotta be funny right#nah no thanks nowadays (also. autism. sucky ass bitch)#however your mind settles anon—just make sure youre comfy yk#and respect ppl! even if theyre public figures who might not be on the internet at all#if you were on the receiving end what would you want yk#either way <3 and my messages and inbox are always open
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#this might be both oversharing and being too vague rn but it's 2am and i'm emotionally exhausted#i can't believe during one of the most traumatic moments i've had in the past year i was lucky enough to have scott as my biggest supporter#the entire time as i was going through it he was so supportive giving me space to process shit and always having my back#and yet there are some people in my life who are always going to villainize him for one comment he said during that time out of context#or even if they're not ''villainizing'' him i now feel like i have to begin every sentence about scott with#''yeah we don't agree on everything but we're still friends and isn't that amazing!''#which yeah that is true and i do genuinely enjoy when scott and i disagree and are respectful about it#BUT WHY DOES THAT HAVE TO BE THE FIRST THING I SAY ABOUT HIM????#and honestly that whole experience made me agree with scott on way more than i started out with#i'm proud of how i was able to grow as a person and for the fact that it brought me and scott much closer together#but that shit i went through at my college was still traumatic. and it did change me as a person#it completely changed my relationship to activism in a way i'm not happy about bc i want to be more of an activist#but when i had someone use social justice language to justify horrible things against me it's hard not to be wary#of how hollow and performative a lot of conversations can be#and like i'll even say it. like people might get mad at me for admitting it#but that whole traumatic situation has irrevocably changed my relationship to gender as well#or at least how i label myself and how i move through these conversations#and in some ways i'm grateful for it bc i do feel like i know myself more and like i don't have to worry about what others' think#or even what other people understand#but it shouldn't have had to go down like that. and as much as the time i got to spend with scott during that time was so much fun#and such a great experience and he was truly the perfect support system during that time#he shouldn't have had to deal with that and neither should i#and the fact that scott somehow got villainized in some people's minds while the person who actually caused that trauma#is instead treated like ''yeah he was a bit misguided and made a mistake but he was probably anxious about it!! he's just a person!!''#that's never going to stop being painful. especially the idea that with the importance people put on labels#i would supposedly have more ''community solidarity'' with that asshole than a cis gay man like scott#idk i think i'm past the timeframe of that traumatic experience bc it's not consuming every day like it used to a few weeks back#but something triggered it tonight so i just need to process it. anyway shoutout to scott for being there for me i really needed it
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Never get tired of blocking fascists but claiming that trans genocide is good because it stops gay genocide isn't the serve you think it is
#actual gay men will tell you that your transphobia influences their own transphobia#anyways. claiming that trans kids having dysphoria and attempting to get help for it is mutilation#and comparing doctors to nazis#is WILD#transphobia tw#genocide tw#nazi tw#idiot tw#like ik theyre only a pond in a ocean but seeing so many people agree is what influences hate#claiming that doctors are a regime bc they attempt to give kids help is leading you to the right and closer to the nazis you compare us to#and saying the left is a disease bc you dont like that adults And children is what gets us to where we are now#bc the radfems are leaning more right everyday and ik you hate the people youre claiming to care about by saying its for our own good#but trying to make it less obvious by claiming its 'for the disabled children' is obviously working or else their wouldnt be so many#in agreement#i worry for the state of the world if they think that kids killing themselves is better than them going on hormone blockers#just for the chance they might be cis#like. you and the anti trans doctors your supporting#are making it more and more obvious you never interracted with any of the groups your claiming to want to 'help'#and the fact they always have the 'im SUPER RELIGIOUS YOULL NEVER MEET SOMEONE CLOSER TO GOD THAN ME' in their bios. yeah.
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i just finished heaven officials blessing and audhrbekhdshshevnskx. I just finished the extra chapters. And to think i was stuck on chapter 78 until thursday. Now ive finished 252 chapters(sorry that was a lie, since i saw the animated version and read the manhua i started reading the novel around when ghost city was introduced so around chapters 30-40 maybe? Im already reading orv from the begining despite reading all availible manhwa and im still stuck on the novel of that at i think chapter 60 or 70 maybe i think ive been stuck for a while now and i was not doing the same thing with tgcf)
#Tgcf#heaven official's blessing#heaven officials blessing#tian guan ci fu#Finally finished it#Technically i finsihed it last night with only a but more to read so i read the rest in the morning along with the#Extra chapters(i think thats what happened)#On the last few chapters i was shaking with how emotional i was getting and due to what happened near the end#I was so worried that it was gonna have a sad ending#but it didnt#Edit: found a video from 16 april 2023 about tgcf on my youtube watch history. Im fairly sure i was watching the donghua#At that point so yeah. Timestamp for a when i might have started#Meant to put that edit in a while ago#The video i watched was titled xie lian is a menace by piper emerald and i think i found it when#A mdzs video appeared in youtube shorts titled existing out of spite by the same ytber and i looked at their other videos#Or its the other way round and i found the tgcf video first and looked at their other videos and just tapped on the mdzs one#(Possibly thinking it was tgcf as i havent read or watched mdzs yet)
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Dislike how explicit bls have made it so its not a bl unless two men are ripping each others clothes off and fucking on every available surface in my opinion a true bl is where the symbolism is in how they drink their wine, if they talk about the red thread of fate, if flowers fall from the sky when they meet, and in how their hands brush one (1) time in episode 26
#kinnporsche has nothing on lwj and wwx on the steps of koi tower actually#and certainly its got nothing on wenzhou linking hands and drinking wine like theyre at their wedding#like okay they had sex. and what?#where are the memorable lines the way lwjs eyes tell you everything hes thinking the way wheb wkx says wife u know he means zzs is husband#like#this might be me being demi but can we go back to subtext i dont actually want to see some dude try to jack kinn off under a table with his#feet#i just want that 'subtlety' free had when they had rin do the anime girl love interest turn when haru professed his undying love#and i want the flirtation through poetry bc no one can say outright that they are flirting#also tian guan ci fu live action and s2 when i loved that#sharing bedrolls cleaning houses together the husband symbolism in ep 1#excellent brilliant#link click? two guys living together going mad when ones in danger the tsundere one and the cutesy one !!!#what im getting at is i dont mind sexy scenes so long as theyre there for a reason and not just fanservice#and yes wwx shoving a sword up his ass did nothing for plot or symbolism BUT but we got a good 300 pages of pining BEFORE he did that#and when i see edits of mdzs its always the really loving scenes between them#but when i see kinnporsche edits its just them fucking ive seen way too much of those 2 men making out#and i dont like it#where is the emotional substance#like yeah we know wenzhou spent the rest of their days in that cave fucking like rabbits#but also we got 36 episodes and like 5 deaths at least out of it#like before you get to the sex#build up a good plot and good characters#idk#i miss old bls i guess i miss when bl meant boys LOVE not bloys LOVEMAKING is that so much to ask for
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