#it sucks to live in precedented AND unprecedented times alike

[ceaseless-exhauster]

I think one of the hardest things for me is that I have never before really been able to conceptualise the idea of the “like watching a car crash in slow motion” thing.

I, and I think maybe a lot of other people, read about the history of the pre-WWII era and it feels fast. It’s not just that era - I generally experience studying history this way, like things must have happened quickly because I can learn about such a wide expanse of time in a matter of hours.

But now comparing the modern experience to the past, it’s just agonisingly slow. I just saw a post about how the pogrom happening in Amsterdam today is a mirror of Amsterdam in 1938, and I thought about how far realistically 1938 was from 1940, or 1942, or 1945.

It’s so hard to fathom just waiting with my breath held for the next two or four or seven years for things to collapse on our heads. It’s so hard to hope at the same time.