#idk i am genuinely interested and want 2 talk about it!!

[rollercoasterwords]

obviously there is. a lot of nuance lost in so much of the egregiously oversimplified discourse about "fetishization" in this fandom but something that seems so obvious to me and yet i do not think gets said enough is that once u begin to police the boundaries around what types of sex people are allowed to write based on things like sexuality or gender identity you are just. inevitably going to return to gender essentialism at some point. like....is this a controversial thing to say. it feels. so obvious to me.

[pintrestgrl]

you said angst so... jj x kook!reader JJs starts pushing pogues and reader away and when reader tries to get through to JJ, he says awful things to reader hitting her/them below the belt by bringing up her trauma and the fact she/they are a kook. maybe she completly ices him and the pogues out(bc the pogues forgave him) and start hanging out with kooks. maybe the topper/rafe/kelce trio to really drive home she doesn't care about them anymore. maybe she's even there when pope and jj get beat up? IDK i thought this up off the top of my head. i don't reader crying in the shower heartbreaking sob fest angst. also i left what her supposed trauma up to you bc i don't know how far you're willing to go with that.

-💐

okay i lied. i’m doing this one bc it intrigued me.. lol. but also hi 💐 anon !! ur not overwhelming me i love all the asks, it’s just a matter of energy lol. but love u !!

also prepare for this to be lengthy due to the thick plot, lol

i actually am proud of this and how i wrote it, i rlly like it 🥹.

i will get out more posts today, likely 2-3. 4 if i get drink an alani lmao.

mean!jj x sensitive!kook!reader.

you had always known jj, due to the small size of the island. however, you just started getting closer with him the past few weeks.

you had always seen into him more then others did, even from afar.

you noticed the bruises on his cheeks, and how they’d fade over the next few days. you noticed when he’d gotten a haircut, likely from john b. you didn’t know why, but you found him interesting.

you probably shouldn’t have, considering your brother — rafe, absolutely hated him. he was a bad kid, you always saw him getting arrested with the rest of the pogues.

the reason you two started getting closer, was due to a drunken hookup you had a misunderstanding on. clearly, he looked at it as any other girl he would hook up with, no feelings and not a thought about it again.

you however, looked at it way different. you really genuinely liked him, truly. you didn’t care about any of the bad rumors about him, you didn’t see him as just the bad. you saw the good too.

a few days ago, you went to the chateau to see jj. you hadn’t talked to him since the hookup, expect for minor greetings. you wanted to get to know him more. understand him, fully and completely.

it’s safe to say it didn’t go well. you sat him down, explaining how you really did like him. he listened at first, but as soon as you started trying to open him up, he immediately tensed.

you asked him about how come he always has those bruises on him, and where they’re from. he stood up immediately, scoffing at your attempt.

“you’re fuckin’ serious? you just came here to make fun of me?”

you shook your head quickly at his misunderstanding, explaining how that’s not what you meant at all.

“y’know, it’s not shit you would understand at all. you’re too much of a dumb pretty little ‘kook princess’ with no thoughts in her head to figure it out.”

you swallowed at his harsh words, tears filling your eyes. you opened your mouth to speak, but he just kept spewing more words out.

“ever think that’s why i didn’t talk to you after we hooked up? because we couldn’t ever be anything. i could never be with somebody like you.”

tears fell from your eyes at his words, trying to take deep breaths. you attempted to speak again, before he interrupted you.

“just save it, okay? go back to figure 8 where you belong.”

you let more tears fall, listening to him and gathering your stuff and leaving the chateau.

you walked home with tears down your face the whole time, thoughts stirring. was that really all he thought about you? just a kook who never had to worry about anything?

your tears eventually faded, feelings going numb from exhaustion.

when you got home, you pushed your way past your family, going upstairs to shower.

when you got in, you immediately broke down again. tears filling your eyes and streaming down your face.

you wanted jj to like you, you really did. but if he really had those thoughts of you, you needed to let him go. you couldn’t go on thinking about him, worrying, if your feelings weren’t reciprocated.

over the next few days, you left jj and every pogue alone. you noticed him around, though. you didn’t see the pogues around him, either. it seemed like he was avoiding them, just like you were avoiding him. he looked almost upset, everywhere he went too.

after a while, he got over whatever little mood he was in and you saw him laughing, running around with his friends again.

you however, were not over it. his words really hurt, and you couldn’t get them out of your head. but you knew you needed to give him the same treatment back.

so you decided to start hanging out with your friends too. you started going to the boneyard with topper, kelce, and rafe. you knew jj hated them, but you couldn’t bring yourself to show any care if you weren’t receiving any.

you left him alone for a while after that, silently thinking and worrying about him in your head instead.

you opted for watching from afar, both of you making awkward eye contact at times.

you still wondered where those bruises came from, and if you would ever know at all.

[ajbullet]

My thoughts on episode 1 and 2 of Percy Jackson and the Olympians: (spoilers)

- The ACCURACY of the little Percy casting was unbelievable. They look identical.

- The SARCASM 🫶🏻👌🏻

- I’ve never been able to connect with Sally Jackson as a mother-figure in the books just because of my own rocky relationship with my mom, but the way she’s played really made me believe in her character and her love for Percy. It gives PERCY’s character more grounding and their relationship really drives the show.

- Sally just sitting in the rain with Olivia Rodrigo playing. Mood.

- “You fell in love…with Jesus?”

- The friction and “betrayal” between Percy and Grover was super interesting to see and I’m really glad they touched on that more than in the books

- I’ve been pronouncing Brunner wrong. Dam.

- Sally saying goodbye to Percy, knowing she was probably going to die 😭. Percy screaming for her.

- the Minotaur fight was awesome

- “YOU DROOL WHEN YOU SLEEP” Omg I can’t believe she said it. Leah’s delivery was different than how I imagined it but I loved it. She’s so matter-of-fact

- Again, I’ve always struggled with connecting with Luke’s character just because I felt like he was a little two-dimensional in the first book and then after that, you know, he’s evil and while I understood his motivations, I just didn’t really…care? Idk but his portrayal really helped me understand the depth of his betrayal and just how heartbreaking his story really is. I already love him more than I’ve allowed myself to from the books

- “She’s my little sister” I love their relationship while it lasts. Seeing how close they are really adds to the layers of both of their characters

- I’ve also been pronouncing Thalia wrong. Double dam.

- THE BLUE CANDY. PERCY BURNING IT NOT TO TALK TO HIS DAD BUT HIS MOM. That scene broke my heart.

- Leah. As. Annabeth. I’m going to be completely honest, Ive loved Leah from everything I’ve seen about her but I was nervous just because of how precious of a character Annabeth Chase has always been to me and I didn’t know if ANYONE, not specifically Leah, could live up to those expectations but omg I love her. Her bluntness. Her facial expressions. Her voice and delivery. Her sure movements and confidence and self-assuredbess that has come from success after success and training for so long. The way she is so unashamed to admit to using Percy and only watching him to see what he could do for HER. In her short amount of screen time so far, Leah was able to add layers to this character I’ve loved for so long that I didn’t even know where there. I never wanted her to leave the screen. My only complaint is that she didn’t have more lines. She is my Annabeth Chase. She’s not from the books. She’s not from the movies. She’s her own version and she stole the show.

- Luke saying Annabeth has a plan and that Percy will know what to do, only for PERCY TO BE FLOSSING AND PEEING AND PETTING GECKOS and trying so hard not to drive himself crazy with his ADHD and having nothing to do. I genuinely laughed out loud. Might be my favorite part.

- the fight scenes are so well choreographed.

- CLARISSE. She’s too pretty. I can’t hate her. And her ELECTRIC SPEAR. When it broke and she screamed, I got chills.

- The trident.

- Annabeth KNOWING Percy was Poseidon’s before anyone else cause she’s “always 6 steps ahead”

- People already keeping such important info from Percy “for his own good”

- “You are Poseidon’s son” “No, I am Sally Jackson’s son!” Might just be my favorite line. It’s so true. She raised him. She sacrificed everything for him. She loved him and cared for him and taught him that he wasn’t broken, he was singular, a miracle. She died so that he could live.

- Sally Jackson is parenting goals

- The way Percy instantly changed his decision to go to the underworld as soon as Grover told him his mom could be saved. Their relationship is unmatched

- Walker Scobell is already pretty well known, but I have a really good feeling his popularity is going to skyrocket after this show. He is such an amazing, dedicated actor. I know exactly what he is felling 100% of the time.

Overall, I absolutely loved it. In two episodes it’s become a comfort show that I can’t wait to continue watching!!

[sergeant-angels-trashcan]

Bestie I NEED to hear your thoughts about Harley and Bruce possibly being secret twins 👀👀👀👀👀

Been thinking about this for WEEKS i fear!!!! This came right as 'rona dragged me down I'm sorry this took so long!!!

I don't know or care about how secret twins happens, what happens in the bedroom of Thomas and Martha and Alfred Pennywayne is NONE of my business unless they invite me which is fine btw

since they're fraternal twins they COULD TECHNICALLY have different dads. am I saying Alfred is Harley's bio dad perhaps and the clown is going to have empty space where his head used to be but I digress. This explains SO MUCH I feel but also we should in no way think that the parents know this. They don't know nor care because THAT IS THEIR BABIESSS. it would probably be Bruce and Harley finding out when they're forty or something because someone needs a kidney. They purposefully forget the information. They don't need it.

And as insufferable as Thomas is with Baby Brucie can you IMAGINE how AWFUL he would be as a Girl Dad tm. I am thinking of your "if you detain one you detain both I KNOW MY RIGHTS" post but with two children!!. Also Thomas would be THEEE cattiest mfer amongst the other dance moms. My god Alfred and Martha would never know peace. Also a million zillion pictures of each parent konked out while holding 2 sleeping toddlers, THINK on it I beseech thee it's so cute. (But then, Thomas accidentally saving/kidnapping Harley from the park and Bruce and Harley INSISTING they are identical twins. Everyone is like no you really aren't until Thomas gives them the most murderous look known to man over their tiny heads. VERY funny when Jason and Cass also do this)

Maybe Harley was very very sickly as a baby and they kept her a secret to keep the press away. I can see family not talking about Martha's pregnancy AT ALL particularly if it was high risk in any way like she would be visibly pregnant due any day and someone would ask her if she was excited about the baby and she would deadass say 'what baby'.

The ideal scenario the Pennywaynes have for their offspring is that they keep the bambini hidden. as far as the press knows one day 18 year olds pop up outside the Wayne Manor as fully formed scions to the empire. You've never heard of them before? GOOD. That was the point.

Also the DRAMA, the ANGST, I think this makes sense with Bruce's weird dynamic with the Joker (though this could work with just siblings ig)?

Bruce doesn't want to kill the person his twin loves because it would hurt his twin, who HE loves. And killing the Joker could result in Harley hating him! Bruce trying so hard to be supportive for Harley and just be there for her so when she finally decides to leave the Joker she knows Bruce has her back.

Bruce knowing all the stuff about what support systems do that helps and hurts victims of intimate partner violence so he's always playing this balancing act of what he feels like he can say/do about him before it affects Harley. And it being his self given job to stop the Joker from doing HIS self given job. If he helps Gotham he hurts Harley. If he tries to help Harley, he hurts Gotham (does very interesting things to the brainworms when thinking about Jason's murder! about why Bruce feels like he can't or shouldn't go after the Joker--because he's proven he will kill a child and use their mother to get them, that is not a man above using his partner to hurt his nemesis!!! and that would be a whole thing for Bruce, he doesn't act because he's genuinely terrified, worried that if he fails he'll lose harley too

idk if the Joker would know about Harley and Bruce being related or Bruce being Batman but I could see this being the turning point for how Harley views the Joker. Like, she'd been going over to the Manor to help Jason talk through his feelings every month for years. Would it have mattered if the Joker knew he was her nephew?)

Also makes the weird sexual tension Bats has with the Joker even weirder if he IS aware of their relationship. He'd be so gross about it. Yes the Joker wants the Wayne twins. He flirts with them in front of the other to piss them off, mostly Harley. Would highkey lie and say Bruce was flirting with him to drive a wedge between Bruce and Harley oh my god I went such a not fun direction with this

Identical twins could be very funny if they were separated at birth no i do not know why they would be separated just roll with me. the one that does not transition is like "why do you have a picture of me as a kid this is creepy what do you mean that's you' . Everyone at college is like ha ha you two look like you could be related! You do the same icky face when you eat pineapple. They dOn'T sEe iT

Maybe she was kidnapped (by like a very young deathstroke or something idk) and SOMEhow Oswald Cobblepot winds up with this feral toddler in his possession. A goon made a terrible life choice perhaps? And Ozzie is just an up and coming crime lord, still settling into the family business, how tf is he supposed to know the Waynes are missing THIS child? if he knew don't you think he'd be extorting people??? I think they could have some very fun and adorable Stacker Pentecost and Mako Mori vibes this man has NO idea how to raise a child but by god!! He will do it right!!! Literally nobody knows about her, he would have people killed for suspecting her existence.

But also take your daughter to work day??!? Harley yelling at incompetent goons in a sweet baby voice. Ozzie is SO PROUD of her, he wouldn't have minded her going into the family business but she's going to be a doctor!! He is just a proud papa!!! Fearsome crime lord The Penguin with sparkle pink nail polish and bows stuck to his head having a tea party with Lil Harley.

I think this is ALSO interesting with the Joker!! I would love if the only reason his dumb ass wasn't taken out the moment he stepped foot in Gotham was because he's Harley's Boyfriend. The only thing stopping the rogues from turning on him is that Harley likes him!! Is he the Gotham version of a crypto-finance bro?

What if it's an older Harley who is kidnapped? Like post Thomas and Martha shooting. It's part of what cements Bruce's notoriety as the Last Wayne. (Everyone asks if he can sense her through their Twin Bond and he gets sooooo mad that's not a real thing!!!! He feels so guilty because if that was a real thing, shouldn't he be able to find her? Shouldn't he know????)

Cut to Batman and Joker in a showdown and there is Harley and Bats CAN'T STOP STARING?!??? why does she seem so familiar? The Joker notices of course and starts saying some very crass things but the IMPORTANT part is that at some point Harley mentions not minding beating up on Batman because she once had a baby brother who was terrified of bats, so she's doing this for him!!! And Bruce is like wait I once had an older sister and I'M afraid of bats?!?!

Harley looks at him REALLY HARD and all of the sudden she's screaming "BABY B????" and roundhouse kicking the Joker into some metal oil drums. NOBODY beats up her baby brother!!!!

The rogues go fucking insane

(the age thing. Harley is technically a day older than Bruce. She was born at 11:50 PM and he was born at 12:05 AM. They make older sibling/younger sibling jokes all the time and think they are very funny. The Batkids would disagree)

[meistwentyinchheels]

having many thoughts about percy (he drives me insane) idk what the kf devs put into this man, but i swear i'm addicted. like the more i learn about him the more obsessed i become,,,i think i'm mentally ill

anyways since i think a lot about him (and my kf mc, may. might actually drop a lore post on her at some point) i will now be sharing some of those thoughts. also have a strong feeling this post is gonna end up pretty long just as a heads up lmfao

also a lot of this is just speculation on my part and me trying my best to analyze the little amount of information we have as of the moment. just as a disclaimer, anyways!

out of the three love interests i genuinely think percy might be the angstiest route for the following reasons (under the cut):

like first off, the devs have mentioned in the past that one of the routes will have a forced breakup to serve the greater narrative (this was mentioned a really long time ago tho so it might've been subject to change, but since we have nothing that proves otherwise i am running with it.) and i do not believe in any way that it could be elio,,,unless the devs decide to throw us a curveball lmao jamie is still an option and he was my first thought when i found out about the breakup route, butttt i doubt it'd be him. so from process of elimination that only leaves percy. he's also the only one out of the lis that has been in relationships before and judging from past asks i'm assumingggg that those past experiences most likely still affect him.

second, every single mention of his family has been vague at best and there's been ZERO mention of his mother. in the asks only his dad has ever been mentioned and also in the studying event if u go off with percy and elio, go to check out the polo club and choose to stay back with percy he'll mention that he moved to the states with his dad. normally people would mention both parents, but percy didn't so it's likely his parents divorced at some point? also i had a whole ass supposedly sound argument here, but it got disproven bc apparently his step-dad also came with them to the states??? like yes it does still prove that his parents r divorced, but it can also imply he has 2 dads. that's so funny i love it. okay moving onto my actual point!!! since percy is a child of divorce it's likely also affected his view of love and romantic relationships. possibly in a skewed way, but who knows so that does add to the angst factor QUITE a bit

finally, percy's avoidant and deferring nature. during the festival event if you split up and then go to check out the festival games you end up running into percy, which is when the game tells you that he tends to defer to what others want and seems to be perkier exploring the games by himself. there's also a few occasions in-game where if the mc tries to ask percy about himself he tends to either A. brush the topic off or B. push the attention onto someone else (usually elio?). so i'd assume that he dislikes talking about himself? which would mean it would take him a good while to open up. which isn't inherently a bad thing, but it can also cause communication issues so. sigh.

is this flimsy evidence? yes! but do i care? no! also i would do a deeper dive into this if i was actually good at analyzing character behaviors,,,and if not for the fact that at the time i'm writing this it's 1am on a school night. there's also so many other things i could have talked about!!! like his name!!! maybe some other day. so like. do with all this information what you will. bc i certainly will!!! i have so many ideas!! many angsty notes!!! be prepared.

[pilfappreciator]

ATTENTION TROLLS FANDOM!!

This is very important. Mostly to me but maybe you guys have been wondering this too idk but anyways:

How does troll reproduction work exactly?

Cuz I'm genuinely curious. I dont think anyone on the series production team has said anything and so far I've seen absolutely no one touch on this subject but as someone who's always had an interest in the habits of creatures (both fictional or otherwise), I kinda sorta maybe NEED to know this otherwise I'll never be able to sleep peacefully again

Full disclaimer that I'm specifically talking about the whole egg situation, I am NOT ASKING HOW THEY GET IT ON IF I WANTED THAT ANSWER I'D GO TO DEVIANT ART OR TWITTER OR WHATEVER LAWLESS PLATFORM GOD STEERS CLEAR OF. This discussion shall remain STRICTLY educational, thank you very much

But anywho. Let's dive in

So trolls come from eggs. This is basic knowledge. First instance of this phenomenon (as far as I know, I've only seen the movies) is from World Tour.

Egg pops out of Guy Diamond's hair, egg hatches and BOOM, (literal) baby. Now I understand that this whole sequence was probably just a gag and a way for DreamWorks to implement another (merchandisable) addition to the cast HOWEVER this sequence also raises a few questions

First off, as far as I know Guy Diamond has no partner (again: I haven't watched any of the spinoff shows). Either that or maybe the other troll was a sorta one-night-stand/no-longer-in-his-life kinda situation? Which is great either way cuz its shown he obviously cares for his son and we at Tumblr appreciate a loving single father no matter the circumstances, but if my former theory is correct than that would imply that trolls are capable of reproducing asexually. Like onions.

Now if that hypothesis is, as they call it, "cap" then that would mean that some sorta hanky panky has to go down before an egg comes into question. And if that's the case, does this mean that male trolls are traditionally the ones who carry the eggs?

But that can't be right, can it? Afterall, World Tour gave us yet ANOTHER egg scene later on in the movie

In Cooper's flashback, we clearly see Queen Essence being the one carrying the eggs meanwhile King Quincy is eggless. Now, as far as i see it, this could be explained either one of four ways:

1) Quincy was the one who actually produced the eggs and Essence is merely holding them for her husband (since her hair seems more fitting to be a makeshift nest compared to Quincy's)

2) Female trolls are the ones who produce the eggs. Guy Diamond is just a trans icon

3) Troll reproduction differs from genre to genre

4) There is a... *sighs* a/b/o type of dynamic among troll kind where certain trolls are capable of giving birth/siring children depending on a secondary gender

In regards to theory #3, this could also explain why Guy Diamond seems to reproduce and hatch an egg in such a short amount of time (like 5 seconds I'm pretty sure) as opposed to Queen Essence/King Quincy who's eggs presumably went a while longer before actually hatching.

Actually, speaking off eggs, are trolls the only species in their world that reproduce that way?

Because now that Band Together has officially been released, we now know for certain that it's possible for different species to crossbreed. Biggest example? Resident DILF Bruce and his giant muppet wife

(Credit to @captainunderkrupp )

When I saw these two... I swear...

And these two already have a shit ton of kids okay so like... either Brandi was the one giving birth or trollsona Daveed Digs was over here pumpin out eggs, which I mean-

DO YOU SEE HOW BIG THESE THINGS ARE COMPARED TO BRANCH AND POPPY?? Believe me I am PRAYING that Bruce gave himself some serious maternity/paternity leave because my guy is honestly a trooper

But yeah any thoughts? :))

[iluvshinobukocho]

I’ve waited for so long.

Shinobu x Fem reader!

Started: July 29

Finished: August 1st, 2:53 AM

Hey dere! 🤓🥸 I really wanted to write an angsty type of oneshot but idk how those go. So this is my first time hope u guys enjoy.

Listening to Twice got me through writing this. Favorite song from them is probably Doughnut or Rewind ^w^!!

•••••••••••••••••

All three Kocho sisters were together with (Y/n) out shopping. Kanae had sent (Y/n) to make line while the Kocho sisters talked.

“Why don’t you give her a chance? She seems sweet and genuinely likes you.” The seventeen year old asked feeling pity for the one that keeps on pursuing her little sister.

“I don’t have time for relationships! I have to train to become stronger. And besides I don’t like her like that.” The fourteen year old answered.

“You don’t like her, huh?? Interesting.. so how come when someone else compliments or flirts with her, you shoo them away. If you don’t like her then you shouldn’t shoo away her potential relationships.” Kanae scolded.

“But nee-san! They’re not good enough for her!” Shinobu tried making an excuse.

“That’s not for you to decide, is it?” Kanae replied debunking her little sister’s ‘reasoning’.

Kanao had stayed in the middle of both of them turning each time one of them talked.

Shinobu frowned but realized her sister was right. If I really don’t like her I should just let her be. The fourteen year old girl thought.

It was time to test that thought. Shinobu and Kanae watched from a distance as a blonde girl around (Y/n)’s age came up to her. She could hear their conversation from where she was standing with her older sister.

“Are you single?” The blondie started. “Yes, but I have someone on my mind right now” (Y/n) replied showing no interest in the girl, making Shinobu sigh in relief.

“Don’t worry, give me a chance to take you out and I’ll be the one on your mind” The stranger continued not getting the hint.

“I can’t.. I’ve liked them for so long”

“It’s okay. Let me take you out on a date and see if it’ll make you change your mind about them.” The girl said holding out her hand.

In (Y/n)’s head, she was thinking about how Shinobu has always rejected her. Maybe I should try this out, after all Shinobu doesn’t like me back. Every time I ask her out, she rejects me by saying I annoy her.

Shinobu grumbled in anger on how persistent this stranger is. She didn’t realize but her older sister was also watching the whole thing. She was giggling at her little sister’s reactions.

(Y/n) paused for a bit and stared at the hand. Shinobu tried making her way over there but was stopped by Kanae’s arm. “Don’t. You aren’t allowed to control who she goes out with since you aren’t dating.”

Shinobu grunted in anger, not taking her eyes off of (Y/n) and the girl. A fire ignited in her when she saw the brunette slowly reaching for the hand.

The fourteen year old threw Kanae’s arm to the side and ran to the possible couple. She hugged (Y/n)’s arm, “(Y/n)! Let’s go on a date” she asked hurriedly.

Kanae face palmed her forehead immediately. She faced Kanao, “Don’t ever be like your hot head sis Shinobu when it comes to crushes. If your crush ever likes someone else, don’t stop their potential relationships. Okay, Kanao?”

Kanao nodded slowly

“Eh!? R-right now?” The brunette asked with red in her cheeks. She was surprised by the sudden demand in a date.

“What? No! She was about to say yes to my date. You can’t just interrupt us.” The blonde girl shouted angrily to Shinobu.

“Oh really?? Guess what.. I just did. Now (Y/n) what do you think about that date?” Shinobu asked again smirking.

“I’d love to go on a date with you.” (Y/n) responded happily. With that Shinobu held (Y/n)’s hand and walked her to Kanae.

(Y/n) was smiling widely, her long time crush just asked her on a date after getting rejected multiple times!

“Well congrats you two.” was the first thing Kanae said.

••••••••••••••••

“Onee-san I’m nervous. I’ve never felt this way before. This is my first time going out on a date! How are they supposed to go? What if I mess up!? What if she ends up hating me after seeing I’m not experienced?” Shinobu panicked.

“Shinobu listen to me. Just go with the flow, (Y/n) is a great person. She wouldn’t hate you because of a date, she has loved you for so long.” Kanae reassured Shinobu.

Shinobu took a deep breath and calmed down. “You’re right.”

There was a knock at the door. Kanae patted Shinobu’s back and pushed her forward softly. Shinobu opened the door and saw (Y/n).

“Take good care of my little sister (Y/n)! I know she can be a handful sometimes.” Kanae teased.

“Nee-san! Stop embarrassing me!” Shinobu whined.

(Y/n) laughed before responding with, “Of course! I’ll always take care her of until she wants me to stop.”

“I know she’s in the right hands.” Kanae said smiling.

“Okay! That’s enough. Let’s go now before she spits out more nonsense.” Shinobu said hurriedly grabbing (Y/n)’s hand and running through the butterfly estate.

•••••••••••••••

The two fourteen year old’s decided to just have fun. First thing they decided to do was go to a cat cafe. Well.. they wanted to go to a cafe but the only one available was a cat cafe.

From the moment they arrived, all the cats were attracted to (Y/n) which offended Shinobu a bit.

I mean sure she doesn’t like cats or furry animals of the sorts but did none really want to come up to her?

She was sulking a bit until a black cat with purple eyes walked up to her. “(Y/n) look! It’s coming up to me!” She whispered shouted happily.

(Y/n) turned towards the black cat and it really was walking towards Shinobu. She watched as it jumped from the ground to Shinobu’s lap.

Shinobu doesn’t like furry animals but she made an exception for this one as it chose her. She was petting the cat the whole time as the girls talked.

When they decided to go somewhere else (Y/n) swears she saw Shinobu frown a bit when leaving the purple eyed feline.

“What happened to not liking furry animals?” The brunette teased.

“I still don’t! It’s just the cat chose me over you, so it clearly had amazing taste.” The butterfly clipped girl said confidently making (Y/n) playfully roll her eyes.

••••••••••••••

Next, for their date, Shinobu decided to go and walk around the park. The two teenagers were simply chatting and walking.

When a dog that was running, away from its owner they guessed came running towards them. The girls separated ahead of time, not wanting to get caught in the crossfire.

Then the butterfly girl saw that the dog with it’s tongue fully out was coming towards her. It slowed down when it caught up to her and started sniffing her.

Shinobu freaked out not liking how it was rubbing it’s fur against her. She back up and started running away. The dog took a liking to her and chased after her thinking it was a game.

She started screaming when every time she turned back it was closer than before. (Y/n) was watching the whole thing play out, laughing and wheezing.

Shinobu ran around the whole park shouting, “(Y/N)!!! STOP LAUGHING ITS NOT FUNNY.”

It went on for five minutes until she got tired and sat down on the bench where (Y/n) was at, laughing.

The dog caught up and landed its front paws on Shinobu’s lap sticking out its tongue, panting.

“So you could handle the cat earlier but not this?” (Y/n) asked, giggling.

“Uhh duh! There’s a huge difference. The cat was smaller and more petite than compared to this big furry beast!” Shinobu countered.

Then, the same girl from earlier that asked out (Y/n) was running, panting towards them. She stopped and had her hands on her knees trying to catch her breath.

She hadn’t looked up to notice who they were. She just saw her dog and ran quickly.

“Th-Thank you for taking care of my dog.” She panted out. “No problem” (Y/n) responded awkwardly.

“Makes sense why the dog ran from you. I would want to too.” Shinobu fired, a bit upset.

That caught the girl’s attention and she immediately shot up. Then she realized who the one who caught her dog was. She rolled her eyes, “Ha ha very funny.”

“Even your dog prefers me over you” Shinobu pointed out. The dog was still wagging its tail infront of Shinobu, paying no attention to its owner.

The girl was going to fire something back, but was interrupted.

“Okayyy… well you can take your dog back.” (Y/n) butted in before things escalated. “Yeah. I should leave now.” The girl responded.

She put on her dog’s collar and glared at Shinobu. The blonde turned to (Y/n) and smirked. She had an idea to anger Shinobu.

The stranger stood up and walked away from the girls. She suddenly turned around and stared at (Y/n).

“Well, my offer from earlier still stands. When you’re done with this random and realize she’s not all that. I wouldn’t mind going on a date with you, cutie.” She said seductively, winking and walked away with her dog.

Shinobu gasped angrily and stood up. She was stopped by (Y/n) who tugged her haori. “It’s fine, calm down. I’m on a date with you. I’m the luckiest girl in the world.” The brunette said, making Shinobu feel all better.

The short girl sat back down and let (Y/n) rest her head on her shoulder. They sat there for awhile just enjoying each other’s company.

•••••••••••••

The sun was going to start setting down soon so they decided to watch it. They both knew about a small cliff in a forest near their home that had a perfect view of a river and the sun.

“How about a race?” (Y/n) suggested. “Yeah? Do you seriously think you have a chance against me?” Shinobu said cockily.

“Yeah! I’ve been training pretty hard with Kanae.” (Y/n) responded confidently.

“I’ve literally trained longer with her. Trust me, I can beat you in my sleep.” Shinobu declared, smirking.

“Okay! 321 go!” (Y/n) said quickly, catching the latter off guard.

“You cheater!” Shinobu shouted as she started to run.

“Eat my dust!!!” (Y/n) responded. She started getting near the forest where the cliff was. She entered and was starting to feel a bit tired but she knew she was near so continued. She turned around to see how far behind Shinobu was, but she couldn’t see her.

Until she turned back to the front and saw Shinobu jumped from tree to tree. Now it was (Y/n)’s turn to shout out, “Cheater!”

“Nuh uh!” Shinobu shouted, turning around and sticking her tongue out at (Y/n).

This got (Y/n) fired up and started to run faster. She caught up to Shinobu and saw the cliff. Her legs were going to give out any second now, but she pushed through and ran even faster.

She wasn’t the only one who sped up. Shinobu started to jump quicker. She leaped from a tree to the cliff but falling down took time. She was 2 feet away from the ground and (Y/n) was right behind her.

(Y/n) threw herself forward and they both landed! They both groaned at the pain, but remembered the race. They opened their eyes to see who landed farther but saw each other’s eyes.

Shinobu landed on the ground and (Y/n) was on top of her. (Y/n) smirked and started tickling Shinobu. “Tell me I won and I’ll stop!” (Y/n) demanded.

Shinobu laughed uncontrollably, “N-NO!” she was able to mutter out. She tried fighting back and was able to switch the positions. Now, she started to tickle the brunette back. “Now YOU, tell me I won the race!”

“KYAAA NO!” (Y/n) screamed, laughing in between. She couldn’t take it anymore, “S-Stop! Y-you win o-okay?” The one on the ground said.

Shinobu was satisfied and stopped torturing (Y/n). She got off (Y/n) and walked to sit down on the cliff. (Y/n) caught her breath before sitting down with Shinobu.

She kissed Shinobu’s cheek, “I actually think it was a tie.” the brunette started. Shinobu agreed trying to act as if she wasn’t blushing from the kiss, “Yeahhh, but you said I won sooo”

“I guess, woah the sun’s beautiful.” (Y/n) commented, finally looking at it. The sky was pink, and orange making it already look gorgeous, but the clouds looked light blue making it prettier.

“Yeah it is.” Shinobu replied, before looking at (Y/n). She smiled as she saw the sparks in (Y/n)’s eyes. She kissed (Y/n)’s cheek back. Red immediately started to color (Y/n)’s cheeks.

“You’re really sweaty!” The short girl commented on the brunette. “Hey! You are too, but I didn’t say anything!” (Y/n) fired back.

Shinobu smiled softly and laid her head on (Y/n)’s shoulder. She looked down and saw the river. She swears she saw a flash of orange go by. She lifted an eyebrow but suspected nothing.

“Look at the river! You can see some fish in it.” Shinobu pointer out. “Oh yeah! You’re right.” (Y/n) replied.

The two teenage girls continued chatting until the sun finished setting down. They forgot to return home and ended up falling asleep. (Y/n) fell asleep on top of Shinobu who was hugged her tightly.

••••••••••••

After a few hours (Y/n) woke up first. Her mouth felt dry and she knew she needed to pee soon. She got up from Shinobu and saw that the sun was starting to set.

She then looked down at the river and saw a white, orange with red type of guy. Her eyes widen immediately, she rubbed her eyes to get a better look.

When she opened them, she saw nothing. Maybe I’m just seeing things she thought. She turned back to Shinobu and saw her sleeping soundly. She was snoring softly.

The brunette didn’t want to wake her up because she looked so cute, but she really needs to use the bathroom. She shook the latter who mumbled, “Onee-san.. five more minutes please.”

(Y/n) couldn’t help but laugh. She thought of an idea to wake the sleeping girl. She brought her lips closer to Shinobu and peppered the girl’s face with kisses. She avoided the lips though.

Shinobu woke up giggling, making (Y/n) smile. Shinobu opened her eyes slowly and saw (Y/n)’s face smiling back at her. She wrapped her armms around (Y/n)’s waist and brought her closer.

“Try escaping me!” She challenged. “Shinobu!! I would love to challenge you but I really need to pee!!” (Y/n) whined.

“Oh my! Sorry.” Shinobu apologized, unwrapping her arms around (Y/n). “It’s okay but let’s hurry to the village first please!!” (Y/n) whined.

“Okay, okay” Shinobu replied. The two girls had a successful date and walked back home. Not knowing what awaited them in a certain village.

(The village is near where they live).

•••••••••••

They were both near the village, when the scent of blood hit their noses. They turned to each other with widened eyes and ran as fast as possible.

When they arrived they saw blood was everywhere and walls were broken. The whole place was a mess, children were crying for their moms and fathers were crying for their wives.

Shinobu immediately sent En to send Kakashi here. (Y/n) did the same with her bird, Midnight. The girls huddled up all the survivors together and that were all crying, hugging each other.

The demon slayer girls found some injured people under the rubble and cleared the way. They waited for the kakashi to come and carry the injured people.

(Y/n) and Shinobu searched around after a kid came up to them crying, saying to look for their savior. A tall lady with long beautiful hair, and a clip in her hair. They immediately both thought of Kanae and searched the whole place.

(Y/n) entered a house and saw Kanae there lying in a pool of blood. Tears started to fall through her eyes. “KANAE” she shouted, crying. She ran to Kanae and tried stopping the blood.

“Its no use..” she heard her mentor say.

Shinobu ran through the door upon hearing the shout from the brunette and saw her older sister.

“N-no.. Onee-san! Please get up” She shouted running to her sister. She hugged her and cried onto the bloody haori.

Kanae brought her hand up to Shinobu’s cheek and was able to mutter a few words, Shinobu could barely hear them.

“Shinobu… leave the demon hunters. I know you’re working hard. And you really, really are… but maybe you’re better off..” Kanae paused, Shinobu staying silent.

“I just want you to obtain happiness like any normal girl would. And live until you turn really old. That’s… enough for me..” Kanae finished.

“No! I wont ever quit! And I will avange you for sure! Tell me! What was this demon!! That beat you just now..!!” Shinobu shouted angrily, tears streaming down nonstop.

“Just tell me Kane nee-san!! Please..! I cant live a normal life after someone did this to you!!” Shinobu continued.

“Nee-san.. please” Shinobu choked out, sobbing. (Y/n) was watching the whole thing crying silently.

“Very well.. It was a demon with blood stains on the top of his head… he always gave a carefree smile. And he speaks in a calm, gentle manner.” Kanae finished, finally closing her eyes.

“No! No no no no Nee-san PLEASE WAKE UP!” Shinobu screamed crying. (Y/n) heard the kakashi arrive and went out to help. She wiped her eyes but couldn’t stop crying.

••••••••••

“Leave.” was the first thing the fourteen year old girl muttered after (Y/n) entered the room where Shinobu was, hugging Kanae. Seven minutes had passed and (Y/n) finished helping the kakashi, they were both still crying.

“W-what? Shinobu please.?” (Y/n) choked out.

“(Y/n) please.. leave..” the shorter girl said mumbling the end.

“N-no you need me more than ever now. I can’t just leave you!” The brunette tried reasoning.

“I said leave. This wouldn’t have happened if it weren’t for you. If I hadn’t gone on that date with you and helped my sister sh.. she.. she would be alive.” Shinobu shouted in anger not thinking straight.

“Shinobu please! I don’t want to leave you. I can’t, I love you.. and I want to help you. You’re upset and not thinking clearly. I know you’re suffering because of Kanae’s passing but.. you can’t just ask me to leave you! I’m also hurt, leaving you would destroy you!” (Y/n) argued back sobbing walking closer to hug Shinobu.

She got closer and tried embracing Shinobu. Shinobu pushed her off harshly, “(Y/n).. this is the last time I’m telling you. Leave me the fuck alone.. Get away from me.. I dont need your help. I should have never gone on that date with you. I regret it. Go somewhere where I won’t see you.” the angered girl said with venom in her voice, glaring at the girl.

“Shi-Shinobu.. please. You’re not thinking straight!” (Y/n) cried. Shinobu stayed silent ignoring the brunette. “Okay.. I understand. I’ll leave you alone for good.” (Y/n) said wiping her tears, leaving Shinobu alone.

•••••••••

(Y/n) arrived at the butterfly estate crying and went straight to her room. She cried as she packed up her things. She took her Nichirin sword, demon slayer uniform, and extra clothes.

She had lots of money with her. She thought about leaving a letter for the triplets, Aoi, and Kanao but decided not to. She hurried before Shinobu saw her again.

(Y/n)’s heart was aching just at the thought of never seeing Shinobu and the butterfly girls anymore but she’d do anything Shinobu asked. Midnight, (Y/n’s crow) caught up to her and rested on the brunette’s head.

She ran, and ran until it was night. She found a wisteria house and crashed there. Little did she know back home at the butterfly estate Shinobu was knocking on her door.

Shinobu didn’t hear a response and sighed, “(Y/n) please open up. I’d like to apologize for how I reacted. You.. were right I wasn’t thinking straight.”

Still no response, “(Y/n)? I know you’re upset but please open up.” The silence was loud. “(Y/n) open the door!… Okay, I’m coming in!” Shinobu shouted angrily in the beginning, but lowered her voice at the end.

She threw the door open and saw the room was empty. (Y/n)’s nichirin sword was nowhere to be seen, and her uniforms were all gone. The short girl’s eyes widened, she fell to her knees.

“(Y/n) no.. come back please. Please tell me this is a joke. Please come out now..!” Shinobu said panicking, crying.

She got up and laid on (Y/n)’s bed. It still smelt like (Y/n). She inhaled the bedsheets scent and was a bit calmer.

Aoi walked in the room and saw Shinobu in (Y/n)’s bed. She raised an eyebrow at the sight. “Shinobu-sama.. why are you in (Y/n)-sans bed..?” She asked, a bit freaked out.

“She’s.. she’s gone.” Shinobu gasped out. Aoi’s eyes widened and tears began to form. The triplets and Kanao heard the commotion and entered the room.

“What’s going on!?” The butterfly girls asked innocently. “They’re gone.. both of them. Kanae’s dead and (Y/n) left.. because of me.” Shinobu confessed, sobbing once again. Her eyes were already puffy from earlier but now they’re worse.

Everyone except Kanao started crying.

••••••••

Four years have passed since (Y/n) left the butterfly estate. She’s mastered total concentration breathing, and has slayed about 62 demons. Her crow has already declared her as a hashira and all that’s left is to make it official at the ubuyashki mansion.

She’s gotten stronger and way quicker. She’s very injured though because she never takes a break longer than two days, even if the fight was difficult.

Midnight always tells the unofficial hashira to take a break and return to the master, but (Y/n) knows she’ll run into Shinobu so she avoids it at all costs.

She makes sure to avoid the butterfly estate no matter what. She doesn’t want to see Shinobu. She misses the butterfly girls but she still holds onto the past. A part of her wanted to dislike Shinobu for telling her to leave but, the brunette couldn’t bring herself to dislike Shinobu.

After all, that night was the hardest for Shinobu. She knows Shinobu wasn’t thinking straight, but her words sounded so… real. (Y/n) couldn’t help but believe what Shinobu said.

Anyways now she has a new mission to do. Girls have mysteriously gone missing during the night. It’s already night when Moonlight informs her of the mission.

Supposedly there are two demons and a demon slayer is fighting already but it appears that they need help.

She runs to the direction where help is needed and arrives in twenty minutes. She see’s a girl fighting a demon with just kicks and fists. She joins in and soon realizes the girl is a demon. She’s confused but kills the male demon.

She’s surprised the demom girl doesn’t go straight for the humans behind them. She looks at her and see’s the demon girl has a scratch mark that’s bleeding. She’s not regenerating? She must be weak.

(I know this is not how it goes in the anime, so apologies)

A guy with a checkered haori comes out of a hole and see’s (Y/n) cut off the demon’s head cleanly and quickly. He’s amazed by, the way the brunette cut off the head so smoothly.

He watches as the demon slayer gets ready to swing her nichirin sword and he realizes she’s aiming for the demon girl. He gets in the way and stands between the two.

“Boy. Get out of my way.” (Y/n) warns. “No wait! She’s a good demon!” The guy shouted. She lifted an eyebrow in confusion.

“Listen, a demons a demon and it’s my job to kill them off.” She responded, raising her sword again. “Wait!!! She protects humans though! She see’s them as family and fights demons. She’s never eaten a human in her two years of being a demon.” He reasoned.

“I don’t believe it. What a bunch of hippie dippie baloney. Though, I guess it’s a possible answer to why she was fighting the demon earlier and didn’t target the humans. Either way you have no proof she doesn’t eat humans.” (Y/n) replied.

The guy is starting to sweat, “Trust me she will never eat a human. I joined the demon slayer corps to turn her back into human. She’s my sister!” he confessed.

“I have an idea! If she doesn’t eat humans then you don’t mind if I show my blood infront of her right?” (Y/n) stated.

The guy looks nervous but nods, “Anything to prove she won’t eat humans.” he said.

(Y/n) cuts her arm quickly, and ignores the pain. Nonetheless, she walks up to the demon girl and flaunts her blood infront. It was a lot of blood, any normal demon would try to pounce the brunette.

But the bamboo girl just tilted her head in confusion and turned her head away from the blood. Safe to say (Y/n) was shocked.

She cleaned her wound, “Well I never thought the day would come where there would be a ‘good’ demon. I wont kill your sister, but I’m technically going against the demon slayer corp. If you ever get caught, don’t bring me into this mess. What’s your name?”

“Tanjiro Kamado, and my sister is Nezuko Kamado.” Tanjiro answered. (Y/n) offered a handshake which the boy gladly accepted, “I’m (Y/n L/n).” she revealed.

“Good luck with your sister. Are you sure of this though? You might get killed if caught” (Y/n) asked a bit worried. “Yes! I’ll make sure they don’t lay a hand on her! Maybe, they will understand if I explain the situation!” Tanjiro beamed.

(Y/n) hummed out an unsure ‘ehh’.

Tanjiro turned around, “Nezuko ge.. oh” he stopped when seeing Nezuko was asleep. “Is she sleeping..? And did she just get smaller?” (Y/n) questioned.

“Yeah, she heals by sleeping since she doesn’t eat humans.” He answered (Y/n).

Tanjiro put his forehead against Nezuko’s, “I’m sorry. I failed to get any information, but just hang on. I promise you this, I will make you human again.” he said in a low voice.

He took out a box and was able to fit Nezuko inside. He stood up and went to the survivors while carrying the box on his back.

“Mr Kazumi.. are you alright?” Tanjiro asked softly.

“I lost my fiancee. How could I be alright?” He sobbed out. “Mr. Kazumi.. you have to go on, no matter what, in spite of losing people. Even though it’s devastating” Tanjiro advised kneeling down to him.

(Y/n) watched as Kazumi gripped onto Tanjiro’s collar shouting, “How ami I supposed to do that? You’re just a kid! What do you know!?”

Tanjiro didn’t mind and smiled pitifully while grabbing Kazumi’s hands softly. Kazumi flinched at the look Tanjiro gave him, it was so.. kind and soft.

Tanjiro stood up and gave him a piece of cloth, “Here. Hopefully you’ll find something of Miss Satoko’s in there.”

Kazumi weeped in shock as he opened the cloth up and saw his fiancee’s ribbon. He gasped in realization as Tanjiro was walking away. “I-I’m sorry! I shouldn’t have said that! Please forgive me! I’m so sorry.” He shouted, apologizing.

Tanjiro turned around, waving goodbye and walked up to (Y/n). She was getting ready to leave. They went the same direction and were about to separate.

When, both their crows came, “HEAD TO ASAKUSA, TOKYO NOW!! RUMOR HAS it A DEMON IS LURKING THERE!” they shouted simultaneously.

(Y/n) groaned, “I better not get caught traveling with a demon while we are on this mission together.” she huffed out.

Meanwhile Tanjiro complained a bit, “I’ve got another mission already?”

“Yes you do!” His crow replied

“Can’t I take a break first?” He asked and his crows said no.

He turned to (Y/n) and smilied, “Y/n)-san! Can you teach me how to be as strong as you??” Tanjiro asked happily.

“Uhh I don’t know how to train someone. I just never take breaks and I somehow get stronger from that. I’m pretty sure I have a lot of broken parts in my body that haven’t fully healed.” She revealed.

Tanjiro looked at her in shock with a jaw open. “You need to heal!” He cried out. The brunette just shook her head and they chatted along the way. (Y/n) would soon get close to him and his sister.

•••••••

The trio had been through quite a lot together. They saw Muzan Kibutsuji together which he ran away cowardly. Then, they found more good demons, Yuishiro and Lady Tamayo who only drink blood by buying them.

Then some demons pulled up when they were with Tamayo and Yuishiro during it (Y/n) got injured really badly so she couldn’t help and it was up to Tanjiro.

One of the demons had the power of something to do with arrows. As she fought him he hit her in the ribs which were already broken so it was extremely painful now. She couldn’t get up and was treated by Lady Tamayo after the whole thing was over.

They all witnessed the horror when seeing what happened when a demon uttered Muzan Kibutsuji’s name. It was a horrible sight to see, and it upset (Y/n). She grew a hatred for Muzan even more and promised to get stronger.

Tamayo tasked both of them with a mission to collect demon blood and return it to her for tests. They both agreed to the mission and have collected blood ever since.

After they left, the trio (well duo ig since Nezuko is in the box) encountered a boy screaming at a girl to marry him. They interrupted the ‘couple’ and then the boy started going after (Y/n) who rejected him multiple times.

He had orange/yellow hair. Had an orange haori with many patterns of small white triangle on it. His Nichirin sword cover was orange and the handle was white and a bit yellow.

They learned his name, which was Zenitsu Agatsuma. He ended up joining the duo that was on the way to another mission. They had a mission in a mansion and there they made a new hothead friend Inosuke, Hashibara.

He was dumb but very competitive. (Y/n) liked his attitude and fighting spirit to get stronger. He listened and respected her the most seeing her strength and the way she treated him.

They’re all a handful together but she doesn’t mind. She grew to like all of them including Nezuko. Her least favorite though would be Zenitsu.

Right now they’re all resting in a wisteria house after defeating the demons in the big confusing house. They’re all laying down on the futons just talking to each other.

They were talking why they’re demon slayers until Zenitsu asked, “Hey, Tanjiro and (Y/n). There’s something I’ve been wanting to ask you both. You’re traveling with a demon. What is that about?”

Tanjiro laid up from the futon, “Zenitsu, you knew and you still protected the box. You really are a good person. You know that? Thank you.” Tanjiro said softly. Referring to earlier when they left the demon mansion thing. (Y/n) and Tanjiro got out and saw Zenitsu protecting the box from Inosuke.

Zenitsu blushed in embarrassment rolling around in his futon with a pillow, “Well, you don’t have to compliment me like that.” he giggled out.

Tanjiro pointed to his nose, “I have a very keen sense of smell. That’s how I knew from the start that you’ve a very kind person, strong too.” he finished.

“And annoying and can’t forget the pervert part” (Y/n) added. Zenitsu ignored (Y/n) and continued chatting with Tanjiro.

Until rustling was heard from the box that contained Nezuko. (Y/n) perked up at this and stood up to walk towards the box. She kneed infront of it, while Zenitsu freaked out as Tanjiro tried to calm him down.

The box door opened up and Zenitsu freaked out more. “AHH IS IT COMING TO GET US NOW? SOMEONE PROTECT ME. (Y/N)- NO INOSUKE EVEN YOULL DO.” Zenitsu screamed running to Inosuke after seeing (Y/n) was infront of the box.

Inosuke kicked Zenitsu’s face, “Stay away from me!” he said as Zenitsu was thrown infront of the box where (Y/n) was. He squealed after the box fully opened while the unofficial hashira got closer.

The orange boy scrambled to his feet and opened something to hide inside of it. Then Nezuko popped out and immediately got hugged by (Y/n) who gave her headpats.

“Hi Nezuko” the brunette greeted smiling along with Tanjiro. Nezuko grew in size under (Y/n)’s arms. The older girl let go of Nezuko as Zenitsu stared at Nezuko in confusion and disbelief.

“I’ll introduce you, Nezuko.” “Tanjiro. You didn’t. Tell me you didn’t. Just who do you think you are!?” Zenitsu said interrupting Tanjiro.

Zenitsu continued ranting and yapping as he was starting to pull out his sword. He raised it at Tanjiro but was stopped by (Y/n) who knocked him out with a swift chop.

“Can we just go to sleep already.?” She asked yawning. Tanjiro thanked (Y/n) and told Nezuko to decide what she wanted to do.

They all laid down and left Zenitsu where he was. Nezuko laid on the floor filling the space between Tanjiro and (Y/n). They fell asleep peacefully not knowing what would happen soon on a certain mission that’d come in a two days.

••••••

It was time to leave the wisteria crest house and go on their mission. The whole group was called for a mission to Mount Natagamo. They all felt fresh, having eaten good and their clothes all washed up.

They were all running to the direction their crows all pointed them to. Tanjiro started to speed up after Inosuke was insulting the pld lady that took care of all of them.

Inosuke saw it as a race and sped up to leaving (Y/n) and Zenitsu behind. “It’s just you and me (Y/n). Would you be my girlfriend?” Zenitsu asked again for the 8th time with hearts in his eyes.

“HELL NO. How many times do I have to say it. I’m too old for you! And I don’t like you that way at all whatsoever.” (Y/n) shouted, and started to run faster.

“Wait no! Guys don’t leave me here, wait up!!” Zenitsu whined.

When they were all near their destination Zenitsu suddenly stopped, “Everyone. We need to pause here” he started.

“Zenitsu, what’s wrong?” Tanjiro asked worried for the orange boy. “I’m nervous okay! Now that we’re nearing out destination. I’m getting scared!” The triangle haori boy continued.

“Why the hell is sitting like that? It’s pretty weird, if you ask me” Commented Inosuke. “How did you even make it this far, you coward?” (Y/n) asked feeling embarrassed she’s been traveling with him.

“Who are you to talk to me about weird!?” Zenitsu shouted, firing back. “You can’t tell me you’re not getting any spooky vibes from that mountain.” he added.

Everyone turned to look at the mountain and did get a little scared by it. “Even so, we can’t exactly just wait here.” Tanjiro reminded.

After a bit of back and forth, Tanjiro was hit with a strange smell. He started running towards the smell. After Tanjiro caught up he saw a a demon slayer on the ground who looked up, “Help, help me please” he said before getting pulled up to the sky back into to forest in the mountain.

“Look at his uniform! He’s one of us” Tanjiro pointed out.

“They were attached to me too! Please. Don’t let me die here!” The boy shouted in fear. (Y/n) jumped up high and cut the strings connected to boy. The group watched in amazement as she caught him.

She put him down on ground and patted his back. “There. Run away from here. There’s a wisteria crest house near here, go rest there. You’re injured.” She informed.

“Th-Thank you! Please, save everyone else in there too!” He thanked and started to run. Everyone felt a presence that had a crazy amount of bloodlust.

Everyone besides the brunette got chills at the sudden bloodlust. Zenitsu whimpered in fear, and Tanjiro clenched his fist, “I’m going in.” He said

Inosuke shoved him with his shoulder and walked ahead. “I’ll head in first. You stay behind me trembling like a scared little animal” the boar said proudly. “This is making me hungry” he muttered after.

“That’s the spirit! Come on we have people to save!” The strongest out of all them said smirking. She ran ahead of them, entering.

“Why is he such a show-off?” Zenitsu asked, shaking. “Let’s go!” Inosuke shouted running after the brunette and Tanjiro followed behind. They all left Zenitsu by himself, shaking.

•••••

Everyone was having their own battles. (Y/n) went her own way, and the last time she saw them Inosuke and Tanjiro were together which was 40 minutes ago. The thing is, the brunette’s been hiding something.

She’s been in pain all this time but was holding it in not wanting to give up. All of her injuries were starting to catch up with her and she was slowing down a bit.

Her broken rib was still painful from when that arrow demon hit her. And both her feet were sprained really badly. If the girl had taken rests like she was supposed to then she would be way stronger and faster.

She’s been relying on recovery breathing but that isn’t enough. Rests were important too. She didn’t know but her arm had was also dislocated. Running all the way from the crest wisteria house to here, really tired her out.

Her legs shook with every step she took. She felt useless because she hasn’t spotted a single demon. How much time have I wasted? I can barely walk! Everyone is out their risking their lives and I haven’t beheaded a single demon. I’m weak! I’m usueless, the girl thought in her head.

She heard a battle going on and ran to it despite her being in pain. Finally! I can help out.

Once she arrived, she saw Nezuko bleeding and being help up from the trees by cobwebs. Tanjiro was laying on the ground, being surrounded by red webs. (Y/n) ran faster and cut through the webs with ease before they reached Tanjiro.

She saw another demon slayer arrive as she cut through the webs. He was a hashira, she could tell. She ran to Tanjiro instead of the demon knowing the hashira would take care of the demon.

“Tanjiro! Can you walk?” She asked. Tanjiro stayed silent and was looking past her. She turned around to see what he was staring at.

The duo watched as the hashira with the mismatch haori battled the demon. “Total concentration. Water breathing. 11th form… dead calm.” he said standing still.

The red cobwebs were immediately destroyed. The difference in strength was massive. The next second Tanjiro saw the demon’s head sliced off already.

In the brunettes point of view she was able to see the whole thing and see how fast the hashira moved to slice the head off. She wasn’t all that impressed, she knew she could also behead the demon but she was mostly worried for Tanjiro and Nezuko.

Tanjiro crawled over to Nezuko as (Y/n) followed close behind. Even after being beheaded the demon walked slowly to the trio. He fell near the trio slowly turning into ashes.

Tanjiro reached over and laid his hand on top of the demon’s clothes feeling sorry for the demon.

The hashira stood on top of the demon’s clothes, “Don’t waste your sympathy, it was a demon. The fact it looked like a child makes no difference. It lived for decades, terrorizing our people.” the mismatch haori spoke in a calm blank manner.

“If it’s for the sake of avenging those who were killed. To make sure there are no more victims, I won’t hesitate to bring my blade down on any demon’s neck. But when it comes to those who felt despair and regret from the actions they took as a demon. I will never disrespect them!” Tanjiro started.

“Because at one time or another.. they were human, no different from me! So please don’t step on his remains.” The demon slayer finished, with tears out of his eyes.

(Y/n) watched the whole thing, staying silent. She saw the hashira’s eyes widen as if in realization or something. Did Tanjiro’s words really make an impact to him?? She wondered.

All of a sudden (Y/n) felt someone coming from behind Tanjiro. She immediately moved behind him and unsheathed her sword. She clashed swords with the person and so who it was. The other hashira was also getting ready to block the attack but (Y/n) was faster.

The attacker and (Y/n)’s eyes widened upon seeing each other. Adrenaline started to run through (Y/n)’s body immediately upon seeing the girl she last saw four years ago. She looked beautiful, but there something different.. she looked fake.? She recognized the familiar haori the attacker wore.

“(Y/n) is that you? Oh my!” was the first thing the attacker said as she spun on the ground.

“I haven’t seen you in forever and this is how we start?Why would you both get in my way, (Y/n) and Tomioka?” She asked trying to act calm, looking at (Y/n) directly.

“And after you told me we could never be friends with demons, I have to say. This kind of the is exactly why no one likes you.” she continued, this time looking at Tomioka.

“(Y/n) you know her?” Tanjiro asked, facing (Y/n). He could smell fear, sadness, and happiness altogether coming from the brunette. While he started to smell a bit of anger but mostly happiness and surprise coming from the new girl.

“Y-yes. Her name is Shinobu Kocho..” (Y/n) responded slowly. She could not take her eyes off the butterfly girl. She’s missed her for so long, memories started to come back flooding in. What am I doing!? Stop looking at her! (Y/n) told herself.

It was hard but she slowly turned away from the short girl and looked towards Tanjiro. He could tell she was nervous.

“Now then, Tomioka and (Y/n) would you please move?” Shinobu finished. The brunette stayed silent while Tomioka started to move his mouth.

“I don’t- I don’t think I’m disliked” he said. Tanjiro gasped in disbelief. (Y/n) was trying so hard to not look up.

“Oh, dear. I do apologize. You’re only just hearing about this now. Then? I’m sorry. I didn’t mean for you to find out this way.” Shinobu informed. (Y/n) rolled her eyes at the bickering coming from the two hashira.

“Boy!” Shinobu called out to Tanjiro. “Yes, ma’am!” He responded. “What you’re protecting there is actually a demon. So please move away before you get hurt.” She informed him.

“No, you’re mistaken! Well, you’re not mistaken, but she’s my little sister! She’s my sister and that’s why-!” He shouted. (Y/n) finally looked up, getting over her nerves. The adrenaline was still running through her but she needed to protect the siblings.

Her eyebrows furrowed as she saw the girl she used to know acting sorry, “Oh, my. Is that really true?” The insect hashira acted bringing a hand up to her mouth.

“You poor thing. In that case, so she doesn’t suffer, I’ll use a gentle toxin in order to kill her.” She finished, bringing her sword to her face.

“Tanjiro-kun, can you move?” (Y/n) asked, ignoring Shinobu’s threat. “Even if it’s difficult, you need to go. Take your sister, and run. Girl. Protect them too.” Tomioka instructed.

“No need to tell me. I was planning to protect them either way.” (Y/n) replied. Her response made Shinobu’s eyebrow twitch. It’s been so long since she’s the girl and she’s protecting demons now? After their mentor was brutally killed by one..?

Shinobu was enraged and Tanjiro could smell it. He was terrified, he knew she was powerful already but now she was also mad, AT HIM AND (Y/N)? He was shivering.

Despite his fear, Tanjiro stood up and (Y/n) picked up Nezuko in bridal style. They ran, and from behind the brunette could hear Shinobu, “Did you.. just break the rule of the corps?”

Ahead as they ran, they saw Nezuko’s box. Tanjiro picked it up and continued on. (Y/n)’s feet were starting to burn and she felt a cramp starting to form soon. Then, she saw Nezuko waking up slowly.

“Does this mean, we’re going to have to leave the demon slayer corps?” Tanjiro asked between breaths. “No. Worse, probably death.” (Y/n) replied calmly.

“Huh? How.. are.. you so calm?” He asked gasping for air. “Because I’ve been knowing this. And stop talking you need to have air in your system. Believe it or not but I’m in so much pain right now. My leg is cramping up and I have so many broken parts.” She stated trying to say it normally.

From behind (Y/n) heard someone on the trees. “Tanjiro. There’s someone behind us on the trees. They’re jumping from tree to tree. I know you’re in no state to fight so I think you should continue running. Carry Nezuko for right now and I’ll fight them.” (Y/n) whispered.

The boy nodded and carried Nezuko and ran a bit slower. The brunette turned around and saw the person jumping down. Once again adrenaline started to run.

The person was short, was wearing a long demon corp skirt. She had a Kanae’s butterfly clip on her hair. And, had bangs. The last time she saw the girl, she was smaller but now she’s taller.

It was Kanao. She saw Kanao’s eyes widen in shock but nonetheless the familiar person did not make her stop her task. Meanwhile (Y/n) didn’t raise her sword like she was supposed to. She didn’t want to fight the younger girl. So she watched as Kanao landed on Tanjiro’s back.

As Tanjiro threw Nezuko and made Kanao fall on top of him before she got the chance to slice his sister’s head off. She knocked him out with a swift kick and ran up to Nezuko.

She swung her sword to hit Nezuko but the demon, shrunk in size. That was when (Y/n) came back to reality.

Since (Y/n) didn’t want to fight the younger girl, so she grabbed Nezuko quickly and ran faster than ever. The adrenaline was helping a lot.

They kept on running when (Y/n) got another cramp on her other leg and fell.

Kanao was about to slash Nezuko until the crows shouted for the kamado siblings to be brought into headquarters.

She questioned if that was Nezuko and (Y/n) confirmed it was.

After confirming (Y/n) laid on the floor with arms spread out. She sighed as she raised her legs with cramps to make them go away.

Nezuko helped her out by grabbing a leg and stretching it.

None of them knew but Shinobu was making her way over here running as fast as she could. She didn’t want (Y/n) to leave again. She’s waited so long to see her again.

After (Y/n)’s cramps were gone she stood up and stretched feeling better. She started walking with Nezuko to where the crows started to lead them.

She carried Nezuko on her shoulders. The brunette got so close to the demon girl she started to view her as a little sister. She’d never tell anyone though but through her actions people can notice.

She felt awkward walking infront of Kanao. She heard someone running behind her and turned around. She saw Shinobu from afar and her eyes widened.

Nezuko could tell (Y/n) started to feel nervous. Nezuko patted the brunette’s head thinking it’d calm her down.

Oh gosh. Should I make a run for it? This is going to he so awkward (Y/n) stood frozen deciding what to do. She turned around quickly and made a run for it. She knew it was immature but she really did not want to see Shinobu after all that’s happened.

She heard Kanao start running too and tried speeding up but the brunette couldn’t. Nezuko looked back and forth deciding what to do. She got off (Y/n)’s shoulders making (Y/n) stop.

(Y/n) tried picking her up but Nezuko made herself big again and hugged the brunette so she wouldn’t run away. (Y/n) sighed softly, understanding Nezuko as they walked.

Shinobu caught up to them and was going to talk (Y/n) but all of a sudden her throat felt dry and was nervous. Memories came back flooding in. She whispered with Kanao and (Y/n) could hear a bit of what they were saying.

She sighed and walked nervously to the kakashi that had found Nezuko’s box. Upon seeing the demon they got scared, so (Y/n) grabbed it and told Nezuko get inside.

Nezuko shrinked and entered. Before closing (Y/n) smiled at her softly, “You did good today Nezuko” she said headpatting her.

She put the box on her back and walked forward. She had no idea but behind her was Shinobu fuming in anger silently.

The brunette saw a kakashi carrying Tanjiro so she tried running up to him. Shinobu thought she was going to run away so she also dashed up to (Y/n) and knocked her out.

She then looked ahead and saw Tanjiro. Oops! She was probably running to check up on him.

She was going to order a kakushi to pick up the brunette but realized this was her chance! So she gladly took off Nezuko from (Y/n) and carried the girl. She took in her scent and felt at peace for the first time in awhile.

Kanao watched the whole thing happen and was confused. She had never seen her sister act like this before.

••••

Tanjiro and (Y/n) were both awaken by a kakashi. They woke up at the same time and the brunette felt fear start pooling at the bottom of her core. After seeing who was infront of her.

“Holy shit… Tanjiro let’s just say goodbye to this world now already. We’re cooked” she whispered only for Tanjiro to hear, but everyone had already heard.

“Why? Who are these people? Where are we?” The poor boy was confused why (Y/n) was so scared. Yeah, there’s a lot of people but what’s so special about them? He wondered.

The brunette’s jaw dropped in shock before answering his question, “We’re infront of the hashira! The most powerful demon slayers! And we are in the demon slayer corp headquarters to hold a trial!” She whispered shouted.

“So?” was the reply. (Y/n) was ready to tweak any moment now. Not only did he commit a crime, but he’s disrespecting the hashira. They were both done for.

“Tsk… all we get is a so? Let’s start this trial already!” Tengen commented. (Y/n)’s face turned pale after realizing they all heard the conversation. She was so not making another day in this life.

“There is no need for a trial! Let’s just execute them now!” Rengoku said loudly. Tanjiro ignored all of them and looked around, “Where’s Nezuko?” He asked. “I don’t know where they put her. I’m sure they’ll bring her out soon for the trial though.” (Y/n) reassured him.

“Forget that.. what are we going to do about that girl and Tomioka? They should be tied up. Seeing them standing with no restraints is upsetting me.” A guy from the tree said, joining the conversation, catching the duo’s attention.

“Oh I’m sure it’s fine. Tomioka came here with no resistance and so did (Y/n). We’ll come up with a penalty later. What I’m more interested in is hearing this boys story.” Shinobu spoke up. (Y/n) tried playing it cool by not looking at her area at all.

“Despite being a demon slayer, he’s been traveling with a demon at his side. He even has (Y/n) on his side, protecting him. I’d like to hear both of their explanations.

So tell me, why are you guys traveling with a demon? You are aware it’s against the rules.. right?” The insect hashira asked.

The sound hashira looked fed up and started to grab his swords, “Ughh who cares why?” he groaned out.

“You can take your time. Just tell us why” the short woman added.

Tanjiro gulped and calmed his nerves. (Y/n) looked at him worriedly she wasn’t sure if they’d spare him after hearing his story. No one would a believe a demon that doesn’t eat humans, exists.

“She’s my… she’s my young-” he choked out barely. Shinobu took out a small gourd and gave it to him to drink. (Y/n) stared at Tanjiro but could feel Shinobu’s gaze on her. She did her best to not make eye contact.

After drinking up Tanjiro tried speaking again, “She’s my little sister. While I was gone, my family was attacked by a demon. When I came back my sister was turned into one! She’s never eaten anyone and never will. Nor has she hurt a human.”

The hashira in the tree cut off Tanjiro, “Enough. It’s no wonder you’re protecting her. She’s your little sister. I don’t believe you at all.”

Next the blind, crying hashira gave his opinion, “Let us kill this poor child to end his suffering. He’s been possessed by a demon.”

“Please listen! I became a demon slayer to find a cure for my sister. It’s been two years that Nezuko has been a demon and she hasn’t hurt anyone” Tanjiro pleaded.

“Your story isn’t flashy. She hasn’t devoured anyone and isn’t going to? If you’re going to plead your case then please make try making it interesting” Tengen said, not believing a single word Tanjiro spoke.

Mitsuri was thinking hard and realized something. She had waited for Tengen to stop talking for her to talk too, “Excuse me? I do have my doubts, you know. I just can’t imagine the Master being in the dark about this situation” the pink haired mentioned.

She had a point, so the two hashira beside her were puzzled on what to respond with. “Do you really think it’s okay to deal with him without his permission?” She added, once again leaving the two male hashira’s silent.

“I think we should wait until he arrives” she finished. “Well..I guess you’re right” Tengen agreed. (Y/n) sighed in relief, glad they wouldn’t do anything yet.

“My sister… My sister will fight with me by my side! She can fight as a demon slayer, just give her a chance!” Tanjiro said, trying to convince them.

“Well, well I can see you guys are brewing some fun. Is that the idiot traitor slayer who has a demon with him?” a voice was heard. Everyone turned their heads and saw Sanemi holding a box, Nezuko’s box.

(Y/n) and Tanjiro’s eyes widened, sensing his anger. “Just what the hell are you trying to pull here?” The wind hashira asked.

“I ask of you to put that box down!” (Y/n) finally spoke, tryng to act calmly.

“Shut up! I don’t want to hear shit from you. You’re a high level demon slayer, yet you still decided to betray the corps by helping this idiot with the evil demon.” Sanemi fired to (Y/n).

“Shinazugawa, please don’t act out of line.” Shinobu commented joining in. He ignored Shinobu’s comment and continued glaring at the duo.

“What did you say about that demon, kid? That she can fight as a Demon Slayer to protect humans? You know what we call that? A total delusion, you moron!” He said, cackling deviously as he stabbed Nezuko.

This angered the duo, they both stood up and tried running to the hashira. Tanjiro made it but (Y/n) was caught by Shinobu.

“Anyone who hurts my sister… Hashira or not, I won’t let you get away with it!” Tanjiro shouted, clearly angered as well. Sanemi laughed in his face as he swiped his sword through the air to get rid of the blood.

“Well how very good for you!” The wind hashira cackled out. This upset (Y/n) and Tanjiro even more. In that moment, the usually calm (Y/n) who doesn’t harm others besides demons grew a hatred for the man. So much that she lost respect for him as a hashira.

Tomioka created a distraction by butting in, “Cease this! The master will be arriving shortly!” he shouted.

As Tanjiro yelled, (Y/n) freed herself from Shinobu. Sanemi swung his sword at Tanjiro, who dodged by jumping high.

Meanwhile (Y/n) was able to get behind the man to punch him. Everyone was caught off guard by the girl’s speed. They didn’t realize she had reached him from behind, they had all been distracted by Tanjiro.

Tanjiro was able to headbutt Sanemi on his nose and (Y/n) was able to land a hit on Sanemi’s back. Tanjiro landed on the ground and Sanemi also fell. (Y/n) was the only one left standing.

She immediately jumped to Nezuko’s box and stood infront of it. Tanjiro rushed up and also stood by it.

Mitsuri couldn’t help but laugh at the whole thing, “pardon me” she stifled her giggle as the hashira stared at her in disbelief.

“Damn you both!” Sanemi muttered out in the pebbles, embarrassed he got teamed on. “If you can’t tell the difference between good demons and bad, you should just quit being a Hashira!” Tanjiro stated.

“I don’t agree with that statement, but don’t you ever lay your hands on Nezuko!” (Y/n) said angrily, gritting her teeth.

Sanemi stood up, grabbing his sword, “Fuck this. I’ll destroy you two!” he threatened as he pointed his sword to both of them. They were all interrupted by a voice, “The Master has arrived”.

Out walked a man being supported by two girls, “So good of you to come… my beloved children” he said stepping onto the veranda.

He greeted everyone in such a calm tone. It immediately calmed (Y/n) down. She was brought back to her senses and realized what she had just done. Her and Tanjiro were so not going to live after this trial.

Everyone except Tanjiro kneeled down. Tanjiro is slammed down harshly to the ground. “I am pleased to see you in good health as well, Master. I fervently pray for your continued good fortune..” Sanemi said being respectful and calm.

“Thank you, Sanemi” the master thanked. Sanemi continued, “If I may, Master… Before we start the Hashira Meeting, would you mind enlightening us about this swordsman, Tanjirou Kamado, accompanied by a demon?” the switch up was crazy. Just a minute ago he was acting like a complete douche and now he’s all formal and a gentleman.

“Right. I apologize for startling you all. As for Tanjirou and Nezuko, I’ve sanctioned their situation. And I’d also like you all to accept it.” He answered Sanemi, shocking everyone at his response.

Everyone had mixed responses, that they weren’t afraid to make known. After mostly everyone gave their opinion the master spoke, “The letter.”

One of the girls pulled out a folded letter sent by Urokodaki. The whole letter, informed every one of Nezuko’s story, how she hasn’t eaten a human and why. Towards the end it informed everyone that Tanjiro, Urokodaki and Tomioka would do suicide if Nezuko ever eats a human.

Tanjiro cried in relief when the master said he was sparing Nezuko.

“(Y/n), you are a demon slayer. Why didn’t you slay these demons like all the other ones?” Kagaya asked calling upon (Y/n).

“I was given a mission, and when I arrived. Nezuko was fighting a demon, I joined in the fight and killed the other demon. After killing the other demon, Nezuko did not go for the two humans behind us which confused me. I also saw she wasn’t regenerating. I was going to kill her but Tanjiro stopped me.

He explained his story and I didn’t believe it but the fact she didn’t go for the humans made me think twice. I cut my arm, and lots of blood came out.

I tried waving my arm closer to her face to get a reaction.. but instead of pouncing on me she just looked at me in confusion and turned her head away. After that I’ve been fighting with them and not once has she attempted to harm a human” Y/n) stated calmly.

“Do you also believe she’ll never cause harm to a human?” The master asked.

“Yes, I firmly believe in Nezuko” Y/n) stated. “So much that you’ll also commit seppuku along with Tanjiro Kamado, Giyuu Tomioka, and Sakonji Urokodaki if she were ever to eat a human?”

The old (Y/n) would have never believed she’d grow up to befriending a demon. So much that she’s willing to put her life on the line for one. Ever since she joined a mission with Tanjiro she had started to grow fond of him.

Without realizing, she even slowly started viewing Nezuko as her own sister. It always brought her joy fighting alongside the Kamados.

So without a second thought, “Yes. I’ll commit seppuku if she were to ever eat a human” the brunette answered seriously. Shinobu’s eyes widened at this, she clenched her fists silently.

Sanemi had enough of this, “So what if they commit Seppuku? If they wish to die, then they can rot for all I care. It’s not guaranteed she wont hurt a human!” he said upset.

Kagaya saw from his point of view, “you do have a point.” he agreed.

“We can’t guarantee that she won’t attack humans. We can’t prove it. That being said.. we also can’t prove she’ll attack humans.” He said wisely.

Sanemi grunts at his response. Kagaya mentioned how four people were willing to commit Seppuku for Nezuko was surprising, so she must be special. And, how the people that disagree need to provide evidence that she’ll fail.

What Kagaya said next sent shivers down everyone’s spine, “Also, there’s something I’d like to relay to you, my children. Tanjiro, and (Y/n) here have crossed paths with Kibutsuji..”

Every hashira gasped in shock, they couldn’t believe it! Not even one hashira has ever crossed paths with him.

“These two chumps have crossed paths with him!? How did he look!? What were his powers!?” Tengen asked loudly, in shock.

There were lots of questions coming out at once, directed to the duo. Sanemi was shaking Tanjiro’s head as he asked. All questions were stopped when Kagaya put a finger over his lips.

Kagaya announces how Kibutsuji sent demons after Tanjiro to silence him. He believes something is happening to Nezuko, Muzan never saw coming. After saying this he asked, “Can you guys try to understand?”

Sanemi was upset but didn’t want to be disrespectful, “No, I can’t understand, Master. If it were human, I’d be okay with letting it live, but not a demon! Not after all that we Demon Slayers have gone through in battle! Not after so many people have lost their lives! It’s.. unacceptable!” he declared.

Sanemi cut his arm the same way (Y/n) did, “Master! I will prove to you right here and now. The ugliness of a demon!” he shouted.

He let the blood seep into the hole he made earlier when he stabbed the box. Everyone watched him do all of this while (Y/n) was cursing him out in her head. She was a bit worried for Nezuko because Sanemi’s blood was different.

To demon’s eating his type of blood counts as eating fifty normal humans. They go crazy for people with this type of blood and don’t think straight.

“No need to force yourself to hold back. Just show us your true colors, and I’ll obliterate you right here!” The wind hashira shouted. Tanjiro called worriedly for Nezuko.

The serpent hashira reminded Sanemi the demon wouldn’t come out in the sun. Sanemi apologized for the mess he was making as he jumped to the shade, throwing Nezuko’s box. Once again he stabbed the box angering (Y/n) and Tanjiro.

“Leave her alone!” (Y/n) and Tanjiro shouted. She saw how Iguro tried to elbow her back and dodged it. Seeing how he missed he decided to aim for Tanjiro.

(Y/n) was going to stop Sanemi, but realized Nezuko needed to prove herself so she stopped in her tracks.

“Come on out, demon!” Sanemi shouted stabbing the box continuously. (Y/n) grunted in anger everytime he did so. She so badly wanted to go up there and wipe the smirk off his face but she couldn’t. They were already on thin ice, anything else and they’d be extra cooked.

Everyone watched as Nezuko came out of the box grunted and making weird sounds. Tanjiro was struggling trying to remove himself from the restraints he was put in.

Even Shinobu felt bad and asked for Obanai to ease up on the poor boy. He kept on putting pressure because Tanjiro kept on moving.

“Kamado, if you use any breathing techniques while your lungs are being squeezed, your veins will burst.” The insect hashira warned the struggling boy. Despite this Tanjiro yelled and was able to break free from his restraints.

Tomioka stepped up and grabbed Iguro’s arm who tried restraining Tanjiro again. “That’s enough” he spoke. Tanjiro ran up towards Sanemi and Nezuko, “Nezuko!” he shouted trying to get her attention.

Turns out it worked because after a few more seconds, the foaming demon girl turned her head away in disgust, shocking everyone. Kagaya was informed of what happened and counted this as evidence Nezuko wouldn’t eat humans.

Tanjiro was congratulated and was told to try and prove everyone wrong about Nezuko. Tanjiro got a little too carried away saying, “Me and Nezuko will defeat Muzan Kibutsuji!” and was humbled by the master.

Shinobu and Misturi giggled while (Y/n) face palmed her face in embarrassment for the boy. Kagaya started talking about Hashira and how they’re very respected.

He told Tanjiro to have manners when with the hashira again then he turned his attention to (Y/n), “Speaking of hashiras. There’s been a demon slayer that has killed over 50 demons already. She’s been a ‘hashira’ for a year already but just made her presence today. (Y/n L/n) you are now officially the flower hashira.” the master announced.

Everyone was shocked by the sudden announcement, “You.. You’re a hashira (Y/n)-san?” Tanjiro asked. (Y/n)’s face was red forgetting that she still hadn’t made it official.

“Thank you master. I’m honered” She responded nervously. In all honesty, she did not feel like a hashira. She still felt like all of them were more powerful than her. She didn’t feel fully worthy of being called a hashira.

After (Y/n) was announced hashira, Kagaya bid Tanjiro and Nezuko a farewell. Shinobu volunteered to take care of Tanjiro, and (Y/n) at her estate. (Y/n) was going to disagree but the master had already accepted.

Kakashi came to grab Tanjiro and Nezuko but the one assigned to take Nezuko got scared. (Y/n) stood up and asked if they wanted help which they gladly accepted.

Nezuko’s eyes lit up upon seeing (Y/n) and the younger was given a headpat by the latter. They all started to leave to the butterfly mansion but came back apologizing because Tanjiro had ran away and caused a small commotion.

•••

They were currently at the garden, since no one was at the front door. Kanao was seen standing in the middle of a group of butterflies. “Hi.. Kanao” (Y/n) greeted finally gathering the courage to.

Kanao turned to the hashira, ignoring the two kakashi’s and Tanjiro. She walked towards (Y/n) and hugged her. (Y/n) hugged back smiling softly. She missed Kanao, Aoi, and the triplets. She misssed everyone, but the thought of seeing Shinobu scared her so never visited.

“Why.. why didn’t you leave a letter..?” Kanao asked, still hugging the girl tightly. “I’m sorry, I should have.” (Y/n) said regretting the fact she didn’t bid a goodbye to the girls when she left.

Tanjiro and the kakashi’s were confused but let the girls have their moment. “Who are you guys!?” an annoyed voice spoke, which (Y/n) immediately recognized.

She broke apart the hug with Kanao and turned around, “If you brought an injured person then follow me..” the blue girl spoke as her voice got lower as she saw the brunette.

The blue butterfly was stunned upon seeing (Y/n), “Well your tone of voice still hasn’t changed!” The hashira said laughing awkwardly to break the silence.

“(Y/n)-sama..?” Aoi mumbled out. “(Y/n)-sama!” She said again sounding more upset now. She marched up to the older girl, and stuck her finger in her face.

“You can’t just come here like as if it’s normal! Why didn’t you talk to us before you left!? Do you know how much I missed you?? Do you know.. how much Shinobu-sama missed you!?” Aoi spat out quickly with tears coming out her eyes.

“Uhh.. are you mad or sad.. I’m confused?” The flower girl asked dumbfounded. “You idiot!” Aoi insulted. It was now her turn to hug (Y/n). The brunette gladly accepted the hug.

Everyone just stayed silent again waiting for this to be over with. “Okay I would love to catch up, but Tanjiro here is very injured.” The hashira reminded, breaking the hug.

Aoi nodded and lead the everyone into the infirmary room. Inside was the rest of the group, Inosuke, and Zenitsu.

Zenitsu looked.. smaller? And Insouke was very quiet which wasn’t like him. Zenitsu was complaining about the medicine he was assigned. Aoi was getting more frustrated each second that passed by Zenitsu’s shouting and complaining.

“Shut up! You’re still making a commotion!? How many times do I have to explain! That is your medicine! And if you don’t take it then we’ll force you!” She shouted, clearly ticked off.

Zenitsu jumped from her shouting and turned to Tanjiro. He cried what he’s been through and how Aoi’s been treating him. As they caught up, the brunette talked to Aoi.

“Sooo.. where is Nezuko going to be?”

“Who?”

“Nezuko! She’s a demon that doesn’t eat humans!” (Y/n) stated calmly as if it was normal. Aoi’s face turned pale, “A demon!?” She asked making sure she heard right.

(Y/n) hummed a short ‘mhm!’

“Uhh.. I guess she can take this room, follow me”

The hashira followed the blue butterfly clipped girl with Nezuko’s box. They stopped at a room that had curtains and a bed. Aoi left (Y/n) alone after that. The room looked pretty empty. The brunette placed down Nezuko’s box and closed the curtains.

She opened Nezuko’s box and she came out. To (Y/n)’s surprise, the girl was awake. She assumed the demon to be asleep for healing but she wasn’t. Maybe she had a lot of energy. She watched as Nezuko turned bigger.

She played with Nezuko and just yapped to her even though the Kamado couldn’t reply back. Their time was interrupted when the door opened. The brunette saw a small foot enter the room.

Then one by one three girls entered the room. She saw they had tears in their eyes and at once they all ran to her. They squashed (Y/n) hugging her tightly.

“Ack! Girls! I missed you too but not so hard on my ribs!” (Y/n) choked out.

“What if you try to escape again!?” They shouted simultaneously.

(Y/n) lifted their heads and kissed them each on their foreheads, “I won’t” not for now at least she thought in her head.

She took a good look at Kiyo, Sumi, and Naho noticing how much they’ve changed after four years, “You guys have gotten taller! And stronger!” the older girl pointed out.

They all giggled, “Soon, you’ll catch up to me! Can’t let that happen now can I?” (Y/n) joked.

“(Y/n)-san who’s that?” Sumi asked referring to Nezuko. The demon had shrunken back to a small girl.

“This is Nezuko-chan! She’s very kind, but can’t talk. Please don’t get scared but she’s a demon. She’s a good demon though! She protects people.” (Y/n) said introducing the Kamado.

The triplets were a bit scared, but with (Y/n) here they walked up slowly to the small demon girl. Naho took out her hand which Nezuko grabbed softly and shook it.

Kiyo saw how she was friendly and also stuck her hand out which Nezuko also grabbed. Sumi got closer and poked the demon’s cheeks. They all giggled at Nezuko’s reaction.

The small girl had let go of Naho and poked Sumi’s cheek back. They all started to play together making (Y/n) smile. She watched as they chased each other around.

She leaned back on the bed that was there and closed her eyes. She was tired and wanted to sleep. She felt someone poke her left cheek making her jump.

She turned around and bumped noses with someone. After realizing who it was she jumped back.

“No need to be so scared (Y/n), I don’t bite” shinobu joked.

The latter stayed quiet not knowing what to say. There was a bit of tension between the two. Silence was broken by the shorter girl.

“Follow me. I know you’re injured, let me help” Shinobu ordered.

“I’m fine. I don’t need your help” (Y/n) rejected Shinobu.

“I wasn’t giving you the choice. Follow me now.” Shinobu repeated faking her smile.

(Y/n) frowned when she looked at Shinobu, “Why do you do that?”

The brunette asked as she got up, rejecting Shinobu’s hand to pull her up.

“I’m not sure, I understand”

“Your smile. I don’t like it, it’s not genuine. If you don’t want to smile then don’t. Lead the way please” (Y/n) said.

Shinobu stayed silent, and lead the way to her room. “This isn’t the infirmary room. This is your room” (Y/n) stated, looking around.

It was a mess, papers were everywhere and ink was spilled on the top of her desk. Something sitting on the desk caught her attention. It was (Y/n)’s favorite doll she used to play with younger.

She thought she locked it away in her closet somewhere, but here it was on Shinobu’s desk.

“Thanks for stating the obvious. Anyways sit down on my bed” Shinobu said. (Y/n) wasn’t moving and turned around to see her standing still looking at something.

She moved and saw (Y/n) looking at the doll. The shorter girl’s eyes widened, shit! I forgot to hide it, the girl thought.

“(Y/n) please sit down on my bed” she stated again trying to play it cool.

“Huh? Oh okay.”

The brunette sat down, and watched as Shinobu took off, her haori. Shinobu also took off the latter’s shirt leaving (Y/n) in her bra.

“Wow, well you definitely have been training. Uhmm okay, lay down now.” The doctor switched topics acting normal as if she didn’t just compliment (Y/n)’s body.

How is she so calm? (Y/n) wondered. The flower girl was getting shy about being left only in her bra. She’s just trying to help me. Just trying to help me.

The taller one reminded herself in her head as she laid down. Shinobu suddenly pressed down on (Y/n)’s stomach. The brunette winced feeling pain.

Shinobu took note of this and moved onto another area, “So. It’s been four years since we’ve last seen each other. And you’re befriending demons now..?” Shinobu started, breaking the silence.

“Only Nezuko. I have not met another demon like her” (Y/n) answered shortly.

“So what made you lose it? What made you think it’d be a great idea to put your life on the line for a demon.” Shinobu asked with venom laced in her voice.

(Y/n) raised an eyebrow at the tone of voice before she could answer, pain was immediately felt again, “Ow! Fuck!” She shouted.

“Please refrain from using such vulgar language here.” Shinobu informed calmly.

“Well please don’t put so much pressure on my stomach next time.” (Y/n) retorted.

“As I was saying, I haven’t lost it. I trust Nezuko and if I need to put my life on the line for her to be trusted, then I’ll gladly do so”

(Y/n) jumped at the sudden pain in her foot. She glanced at Shinobu and saw her fake smile again. She glared at the latter.

“What?” Shinobu questioned noticing (Y/n)’s look. (Y/n) arose from the bed and blocked Shinobu’s hand to stop her. The brunette leaned closer to the girl’s face staring hard. She smelled Wisteria and Lavender the closer she got to the latter.

“W-what are you doing” Shinobu stuttered out, getting nervous. Her fake smile dropped for a moment, but after realizing she brought it back up.

“Stop that, it’s annoying. I know you’re not happy, so why are you smiling? Even, then on the mountain you were still faking your smile. You weren’t like this four years ago”

“People change you know? I changed the moment you left me. I can tell you also changed, but for the worst. You literally put your life on the line for a fucking demon” Shinobu fired at the latter.

“Are you seriously trying to shift the blame to me? Don’t forget Shinobu, you were the one that told me to leave. I begged you to rethink, I knew you weren’t in your right mind. You hurt me with your words, saying you regretted going on the date with me.

And, yes I put my life on the line for Nezuko. I don’t mind you thinking it’s dumb, but don’t fucking try to shift the blame to me. You know what? Fuck your help, I don’t need it.” (Y/n) stated, angrily.

She stood up and put the demon slayer shirt on, forgetting her haori. Once again Shinobu didn’t stop her. (Y/n) hated herself for wanting Shinobu to take it all back. She wanted Shinobu for apologize, so she could run into her arms and cry.

The thing is, she was still in love with Shinobu even after all those years. Even after everything that’s happened she loves Shinobu no matter what. She can’t seem to get the girl out of her head.

(Y/n) walked up to the door and stopped. She waited for Shinobu to stop her, but it never came. “Did you get rid of my room or is it still there?” the flower hashira tried playing it off.

“Yes, you’ll always have a room here.” Shinobu stated trying to make sure her voice didn’t crack.

And, with that response the brunette opened the door and slammed it shut. She stormed off to her room, remembering where it stayed. A few kakashi were in the hallway of her room.

They all watched as she opened the door. She could hear their whispers, “Did she even get permission from Shinobu-sama to open the door? I’ve always wondered what’s behind it. Shinobu-sama usually spends her time in there. She doesn’t allow anyone to enter”

She closed the door and leaned against it. She.. she stays in my room? Why? (Y/n) wondered. She looked around and it pretty much seemed the same as four years ago.

Until the smell of Wisteria and lavender hit her nose. The whole room smelled of it which was unusual. Then she looked towards her bed. The bed sheets were wrinkled which was not how she left it.

That was where it smelled the most of Wisteria and Lavender, Shinobu’s scent.. did she stay in my bed often?

(Y/n) stayed, sitting down on her bed for a few minutes rethinking everything. Until she heard a knock coming from the door.

She stood up and opened the door. There she saw Aoi standing, looking upset. “Hey, Aoi. How can I help you-” she got cut off by a punch.

“What’d you do to Shinobu-sama? Go apologize!”

“First of all, ow! Second of all, you don’t even know what she did! Did she tell you my side of the story?”

Aoi shook her head, but she still stood firm on Shinobu’s side. (Y/n) sighed and shut the door on Aoi’s face. Aoi pounded on the door, until the hashira told her she needed to think things through.

“Okay, fine. But just make sure you apologize when you make up your mind.” the girl on the opposite side informed, (Y/n) heard the girl’s footsteps getting further.

She was left to her thoughts. Part of her wanted to go and apologize but the other part knew she wasn’t in the wrong.

(Standing on business ‼️💯🔥)

••

It’s been a week since (Y/n) and Shinobu talked. The tension between the two was intense. Anytime they were both in the same room either one would make the excuse to leave.

Then (Y/n) would continue going on missions despite Shinobu’s warnings. Every time the insect hashira caught the brunette leaving for a mission, she warned her and they argued about it.

The triplets and Kanao started to slowly realize they weren’t on good terms and asked Aoi about it. Well, Kanao stayed silent but you could tell she was curious. Aoi pretended nothing was wrong and that they were fine.

Aoi once again went to go complain to the brunette. She didn’t want the triplets and Kanao to know (Y/n) and Shinobu weren’t good with each other.

The blue butterfly knocked sense into (Y/n)’s head and scolded her. She was aware Shinobu wasn’t fully in the right, but her mentor also didn’t apologize often despite being in the wrong.

(Y/n) was just going to pretend to listen to Aoi, but when the girl wouldn’t leave until she went to go apologize to the butterfly girl. She realized she actually did need to go talk to her so Aoi would leave her alone. She sighed getting up, and told Aoi she actually would apologize but to let her walk alone.

Aoi surprisingly agreed and left (Y/n) alone. Staying true to her promise, the flower girl made her way to Shinobu’s room.

She didn’t bother to knock and just opened the door. There, she saw Shinobu injecting herself with something. She wouldn’t have questioned it, if it weren’t for the latter’s reaction.

“Fuck! Haven’t you heard of knocking?” Shinobu shouted angrily not looking at who it was. She immediately tried hiding whatever she had on her hand.

(Y/n) froze at the sudden outburst. She was shocked the calm and collected girl actually wasn’t faking it. She broke out of her trance and rushed up to the girl.

She noticed Shinobu wasn’t wearing Kanae’s haori but.. hers. Oh right! I forgot it here why is she wearing it? Whatever that’s besides the point. What is she hiding.

She rose an eyebrow skeptically at the purple liquid on the ground. “What’s going on? What are you doing..?” she asked wasting no time.

Shinobu recognized the voice and felt nervous. She didn’t want (Y/n) to see her like this. She knew the girl wouldn’t agree with it.

“Nothing. Just leave (Y/n). Like you always do” Shinobu said trying to anger the girl on purpose so she could leave. The latter knew better though. She knew the girl infront of her was trying to get a rise out of her.

Shinobu was acting suspicious and (Y/n) was going to fond out why.

The brunette walked forward and bent down silently and smelled the liquid, “Wisteria..?” She questioned. She looked at Shinobu, who was drenched in sweat.

She connected the dots by looking at the girls arm which was bleeding.

Immediately, she felt anger. “Shinobu, please tell me you are not injecting yourself with Wisteria.” (Y/n) tried saying it calmly but she couldn’t hide the anger in her voice.

The silence from Shinobu told the flower girl all she needed to know.

“Just, how much have you taken..?” She questioned worried for the answer.

“So far thirty three.. kilograms worth of poison..” the purple girl gasped out.

(Y/n) didn’t respond immediately. She didn’t want to lash out at the girl. She took deep breaths in and out. Shinobu started fidgeting with her fingers, waiting for the latter’s response.

Instead of getting the scolding she was expecting. She was hugged tightly by the flower hashira. “Why..?”

“You’re the only one who knows.. I’m planning to get eaten by the demon who killed Kanae.”

“No no no stop. Please.. we’ll find some other way to kill him. I’ll defeat him with you together. I don’t want you to die. I can’t live without you” (Y/n) confessed, hugging Shinobu’s from behind tighter.

Shinobu started to feel guilty when she felt (Y/n) sob onto her shoulder. It was getting wet.

“(Y/n).. I can’t stop now. I’m too far in, I swore revenge and I will accomplish it no matter what”

“Shinobu.. I won’t let you take him on by yourself. I want revenge too but not like this. I don’t want it if you die”

Shinobu turned around and lifted (Y/n)’s head up. The brunette looked at Shinobu with teary eyes, “It’ll be fine. I promise” the insect hashira promised, wiping away the girl’s tears.

“That’s a lie! I know it won’t be fine! You’re planning a suicide mission just for revenge not thinking what your death will do to others. I’ll train harder than ever to make sure you don’t go through with this stupid plan.

I won’t ever forgive you if I catch you injecting yourself with this again. Please, stop now. Do it for the girls, please.. I beg of you Shinobu!” (Y/n) shouted, her voice cracking multiple times.

Shinobu rested her forehead against the latter’s. “Okay, I promise then. We’ll find a way we can both take him out. I’ll stop injecting myself with poison” she promised after seeing how much this affected (Y/n).

(Y/n) smiled softly, lips quivering. She looked towards Shinobu’s lips, “May, I?” she asked. Shinobu didn’t responded, instead connecting her lips with the latter’s lips.

Both of their hearts raced the moment their lips touched. They’ve waited four years for this moment. They longed for each other and finally got what they wanted.

Teeth were clattering against each other, but they didn’t care. Shinobu brought her hands to (Y/n)’s head and pushed her deeper into the kiss.

(Y/n) scooped her up, not breaking the kiss and laid down together with her. They both pulled away, panting. “Oh how long I’ve waited to do that.” Shinobu said with a genuine smile.

“Oh really? How long?” (Y/n) asked with a toothy grin. “Let me show you. How long” Shinobu said feeling confident.

“I would love to see it, but let’s wait a little longer. I want our moment to be special.” (Y/n) replied giggling, rejecting Shinobu nicely.

Shinobu frowned, but smiled when (Y/n) pecked her lips again. The two girls were happy with this. They fixed things and were now cuddling (Shinobu is the big spoon despite the height difference).

“Shinobu.. I have a question I’ve been wanting to ask.”

“Hmm? What is it?”

“When I was away. Did you stay in my room? I heard whispers how you wouldn’t allow anyone to enter and would often spend time inside. When I entered the room, I was hit with your scent and my bed smelled the most of it.”

(Y/n) couldn’t see but Shinobu’s face was red. “Who said that!? I’m going to fire them for gossiping!”

“So it was true.?”

“..yes..” Shinobu confirmed, sighing.

“Did you miss me a lot?”

“Yes, every day I remember those hurtful words I told you. I shouldn’t have said any of it. I’m truly sorry, (Y/n)”

“It’s okay Shinobu.. I know you’re sorry. I’m just happy we’re together now and not fighting. And I’m glad I convinced you to stop injecting yourself with wisteria. I just need you to do one more thing please”

“What is it?”

“Please stop faking your smile. If you’re angry then show it. Don’t cover it up with that fake smile. If you’re sad then cry. It’s fine, no one will shame you for it” (Y/n) finished.

“Okay. I pinky promise” Shinobu promised.

(Y/n) turned around to kiss Shinobu again. She never wanted to let go of the girl ever again. They fell asleep hugging each other on Shinobu’s bed content.

Aoi walked in to see what was going on and when she saw them. She called people over to see. Everyone awed at the sight, but immediately scattered when Shinobu stirred in her sleep a bit.

•

FINALLYYYYYYY IM DONE WITH THIS ONESHOT. I literally have to go to my high school orientation today like in a few hours. I will check for spelling corrections later. Not sure how long this one shot is but I know it’s over 10,000 words.

I need to sleep noww.

Toodles!! Hope u guys enjoyed :3

[evelynpr]

bakugou for the character ask game?

Truly the teenage boy, shonen deuteragonist, love interest coded, gay asshole, of all time.

My first impression - Woah I did not understand why people were so into this guy. Like I get it, he's a flawed and loud pretty boy, he gets character development, and probably gay, but seriously him??? His mouth is so fucking foul and he is so up his ass. - I was meh with this character, enjoyed him in fan content, but just did not get why people were sooo into this guy.

My impression now - I cried in "Light Fades To Rain". Twice. - My god his growth...his will, his persistence, and by god his love for Izuku is so ridiculous and powerful I just cannot help but admire the little shithead. - He is also a lot more to me than I expected, with the whole "foul mouth shit", "high expectations bullshit", "violent urges", and "dedicating your whole life and love to someone you love and admire" and that...that makes me feel quite conflicted.

Favorite thing about that character - The thing about Bakugou is that...you just cannot help but wish you had the same kind of persistence, strength, will, and power that he does. I love how all this is initially so shallow and selfish, then grows to wanting to be a better and truer hero. He really learns and changes and is just an unstoppable force of nature, it's genuinely incredible and beautiful to watch.

Least favorite thing - I wished that the overall writing did go harder in making him stop bad-mouthing people and...everything so much. You can tell he did grow to respect and care for people around him more, but by gods he is sooo bad at communicating his feelings right now. (tbf, he is so fucking young and traumatized) - Also, really please stop hitting people. I get a knee-jerk reaction to that kind of physical violence sometimes ngl.

Favorite line/scene - There are so many. I already mentioned his death in "Light Fades to Rain" so I'll mention a different one - Team Bakugou in Class A vs B was so goddamn good, for being a monumental milestone of his character. How much he trusted his teammates and put himself in danger to save others, winning in the end. No injuries, no failures, truly a perfect beautiful victory. How he also pushes Deku to keep getting better afterwards in his usual constipated-ass language too. Man I just love that battle to death.

Favorite interaction that character has with another - (me pulling out scenes that aren't bkdk centered here hahaha) - I fucking LOVED the Bakugou vs Ochako fight. It made me love Ochako so so much as a kid. I really wished we had a follow-up to that battle, and it genuinely changed my life. - I love how it really shows just how focused and rational he is in battle. How he truly respects his opponents, Ochako in this case, and the sports festival really establishes so much about him.

A character that I wish that character would interact with more - Speaking of which...OCHAKO VS BAKUGO 2 COME ONNNN - There is SO MUCH these two need to talk about. How to save people, who they want to save, who saved them, never underestimating each other, how they changed and grew. I just love these two characters to bits, that's why I need them to FIGHT AND TALK SO BADDDD - Additional: Also Toga (see my post on Toga right before this one lmao), Shoto (because I still don't really get their friendship but its hilarious, and I love Shoto)

Another character from another fandom that reminds me of that character - I legit cannot think of anything here...like for Toga...I am so sorry my brain is blanking T__T - It's hard to be a massive anger-issue filled, victory-focused, die for their lover (twice), amazing chef, all at once, kinda guy...you know?

A headcanon about that character - I am a believer in trans!fem Bakugo in the future. He's so ridiculously angry for some reason, voice always cracking, and just on-edge for some reason. Idk I just think its hilarious and satisfying if he transed his gender in the future and became happier and more comfortable.

A song that reminds of that character - I also have a Bkdk playlist in the making! Here's some bkg focused songs in character development order: - Boys will be Bugs, President Perfect, Top of my School, Oh No!, I'm Gonna Win, The Last of the Real Ones, Skyfall, Die For You, Set Fire to the Rain

An unpopular opinion about that character - Like Toga, he actually isn't possessive. I think he quite well understands and accepts that Izuku is a very loving person that many people are easily drawn to (I mean, he'd be a hypocrite if he didn't understand that). - He is protective instead of possessive. He keeps an eye out for anything and anyone who could possibly actually hurt Izuku, but he doesn't hold him back at all in hanging around with others, and when other people fall for Izuku either. - He is actually quite skinny, and doesn't have the big thick buff guy build. Those go to Izuku and Iida more imo.

Favorite picture - I never really thought of this much??? I love art of him being softer, more solemn, quiet and contemplative even. I guess I'll go pick out some favs right now...

Here they are! Hope you enjoy the post lmao

[am-i-the-asshole-official]

am i the asshole for cutting off my mentally unstable friend without any explanation whatsoever?

(🧠🌩️ so i can find it)

tw for abuse and cheating mentions

ok typing out that title makes me feel like i might be TA to, like, some degree but just hear me out first.

i (19, f) was in my first semester of college when i met rachel (20). we shared a class and grew to be friends over our shared nerdy interests. i admittedly didn't really like her that much at first and didn't consider her to be that close of a friend. she was really just someone to talk to when class got boring or we had a break or something.

i was actually kinda regretting talking to her at all because i clocked that she was a little unstable almost immediately; she was very quick to anger and constantly talked about fighting people that had ""wronged"" her (which included our professor who she was convinced was out to get her for some reason?? idk why our prof was a really nice lady), constantly trauma dumped without asking (i'm talking like early into our relationship too. first day we met she was ranting about her abusive mother and her childhood trauma and stuff), and always found a way to turn the focus of the conversation about her any time i tried to talk about myself or anything that wasn't our shared interests. the only reason i gave her my number is bc she asked for it and i didn't know how to turn her down without hurting her feelings--i'd been planning on ghosting the second our class ended.

so we continued to talk/text for like a year and (at her insistence) met up for lunch in between class the following semester. i warmed to her a little at this point so it wasn't too bad; at the very least her constant drama gave me something to talk about with my real friends, and like i said i didn't really know how to cut her off in a way that wouldn't start something.

so time goes on and she shuffles through a few boyfriends--all who either cheated on her or were inattentive/verbally abusive. she constantly asked me for advice, which was confusing bc she never listened to it? like she asked me if she should take back her ex who cheated on her 3x and i said "no that sounds like an awful idea" and then she exploded at me and screamed that i could 'go fuck myself' and to 'stay the fuck outta her business bc it's her fucking life and not mine'. but then the minute he (predictably) cheated on her again and dumped her guess who had to sit with her on the phone for 2 hours while she cried? yep. me!

this kinda bullshit continued all the way up to a few months ago. she met a new guy, told me all about how he was "the one" and "he's gonna be different this time" blah blah blah. at this point i genuinely stopped giving a fuck about her and her problems. the only reason i hadn't cut her off was because my other friends loved hearing about her drama secondhand and i admittedly did enjoy making fun of her with them. which i know is kinda shitty but at least she'll never find out about it?

anyways, shit starts to get particularly juicy bc two months into rachel's relationship with this new dude he proposes. and she accepts (?!!) not only that but she informs me (not asks. INFORMS) me that i will be a bridesmaid. and i panicked and just said "uhhh cool i'm so happy for you!!" so this is the point where i decide that i need to end this relationship bc having to attend her wedding is just not something i wanna be apart of and i felt that if i went through with that it would solidify our ''friendship'' in her mind and i'd never be rid of her.

so i stop responding to her texts as frequently and began ducking her calls. didn't have to stop initiating bc i never initiated convos with her in the first place. i'd answer every once in a while bc she would start spamming that she was having ""emergencies!!!"" which. they never were true emergencies; she just wanted to vent about her fiance and his shitty family or something his ex-wife did to piss her off (her fiance was like 20 and divorced twice with three kids. YIKES) and i'd listen until she got tired of talking and ended the call. not once did she ever ask about me btw. at this point she wasn't even to pretend to care about me or my life; i was just her dumping grounds for all her trauma and venting.

i thought she might've got the message that we were done bc she hadn't texted for like a month, but a few days ago i recieved a message that said something like "omg i haven't heard from you in a while, are you okay??" and. i'm not sure if i can put into words the sheer amount of exasperation and annoyance those words filled me with. like i could tell right off the bat it was just a ploy so she could get me talking and then vent and saddle me with all her stupid emotional bullshit. so i blocked her, finally. this shouldn't cause any problems bc she dropped out of school last semester (she was failing so she decided to start her own business).

the thing is, i know that she's mentally not well. she is very erratic and immature, add that to the fact that she's gone through a lot of trauma throughout her life and the end result is a deeply flawed person. at the same time i'm not responsible for her mental health and continuing to play friends with her what i don't even like her in the first place seems disingenuous. but she's got abandonment issues, so me doing this is probably gonna hurt her. although me being honest and saying that i can't stand her and her drama anymore probably wouldn't feel any better.

AITA?

What are these acronyms?

[campgender]

i was scrolling your “life is in your home too” tag, which I love btw, and saw a post about how you learned to be a good dom from experienced expert doms by reading how they dom and some of their best scenes, do you think you could point me in the direction of some resources for me to study that too? thanks in advance, if not, thanks anyway!

(post referenced is here - link 1)

first of all tysm for this ask (+ your incredibly kind follow-up), it was a delight to receive + i’ve been wanting an excuse to talk about a lot of this for a while so i very much appreciate the interest!

as always please keep in mind that i am Just Some Fem, nothing is universal including when it comes to D/s & i can only speak to what works for me. i try to focus on starting points rather than specifics but ultimately my advice will always be limited by what i needed to hear & wasn’t told, which may not be what’s helpful for a different person. with that being said, here’s some suggestions!

i’ve posted a previous reading list (link 2) with relevant recs; particularly the practicality + sex writing sections have the kind of thing you’re looking for. specifically, The New Topping Book (2003) is a solid starting point; i definitely have my issues with it (haven’t read it recently enough to recall many specifics but i have the sense of general pervasive racism & ableism) but it did a good job at making me think & i appreciate the supportive tone they were going for

another book added to my tbr since then is Coming to Power (link 3), released by SAMOIS in 1983

other authors whose sex writing has been influential in my life: Sandra Cisneros, Natalie Diaz, Joan Nestle, Judy Grahn

the fic At The End of His Rope by Letterblade (link 4) is genuinely some of my favorite sex writing of all time & accomplishes the incredibly impressive feat of representing a broad array of dom styles & changes over time in the same piece

my “impurity culture” tag (link 5) houses the building blocks of my sexual ethic

i’ve found many of those foundations by poking around the incredible bodies of work original & archived @newsmutproject @woman-loving @gatheringbones

for me, studying sex is the same as studying poetry – reading for craft is a different process than for pleasure (not that there isn’t a great deal of pleasure to be found in such practice, especially for sadists – perhaps that’s why as a child i never resonated with Billy Collins’ “Introduction to Poetry,” like i love tying poems to chairs & beating them idk what to tell you). so, keeping in mind that these are suggestions not requirements, here’s how i read for + work on craft:

there is no such thing as too much journaling. this can take whatever form you prefer – voice memo, discord message to yourself, the noble notes app, your own personal sexy red string corkboard, a vast & stunning array of other approaches i can’t even begin to imagine. i personally have an elaborate web of spreadsheets & google docs lmao. what matters is developing a collection of ideas you want to play with + a practice of continually reflecting on past experiences.

pay attention to structure, not just content. find a scene you think is disjointed and pick at the seams, brainstorm better transitions. then find a scene that flows so smoothly it carries you with it and figure out what makes it work.

rewrite a scene you’re drawn to or affected by to suit your own preferences. i first did this when i couldn’t shake “Interlude 3” (link 6) from my head after reading The New Topping Book; you can read my variation on the theme here (link 7) if you’re interested.

write or think through a scene fantasy you have from negotiation to aftercare. obviously it’s very difficult if not impossible to fully script a scene in advance; the purpose isn’t planning something you’ll later do but rather getting used to coming up with ideas to get from one disparate moment / act to the next.

revisit a scene you’ve read, written, thought about, etc and list the physical & mental acts that are required / expected of the sub (eg, kneeling for 10 minutes; making eye contact; counting to 30, etc). then rework the scene for a sub who has the same interests & goals who cannot do 20% (or 50%, or any) of these acts.

revisit a previous scene and list the places where you think a sub might safeword & why. then rework it with the sub safewording somewhere that isn’t any of these places.

i also recommend keeping in mind that like… for me, reading about ethical sex can often be a very distressing process for the same reason that it’s liberating: because it proves that things i’ve experienced are not the way sex has to be. i’ll tell this story in its fullness one day but the first time i read S/HE by Minnie Bruce Pratt i literally had a flashback to events i’d repressed for years, it was devastating, i’m so grateful for it. hell, in the process of compiling resources for this post i cried twice editing this quote (link 8) because between reading that book the first time & now someone did “respond with scorn or ridicule” when i safeworded. so i would really encourage folks to approach this kind of work with as much grace & comfort for yourself as you can muster or borrow – if it’s really fucking hard, you’re not alone in that, & it’s okay to take your time + pace yourself + seek support.

your + others’ interest is definitely motivating me to actually write posts i’ve been tossing around for months so thank you again & feel free to keep an eye out for more shut-in sex tips in my new “tomorrow sexting will be good again” tag. would love to hear your thoughts on any of this post / these or other books / whatever really lol. wishing you all the best & i hope today is kind to you! 💓

[sunsetsandsunshine]

An issue I need to address:

TW: Drama, cussing…yk all that jazz. I apologize that this post is what you all are receiving from me today. But I need to talk about this before it get’s worse.

Okay, I just want to clarify that there should be no hate being sent towards @osctwordfan for this. Hate and hurtful comments will not and cannot fix what has been done. But that does not I am not angry about it. I am mad. I am livid. Only two people on this site has been able to make me this genuinely upset and it’s frustrating that making a PUBLIC POST is the only way to get this person’s attention. 

4 days ago, May 16th, @osctwordfan started following me. Which, I greatley appreciated because HELLO??? Who wouldn’t, right? A new follower is just an awesome feeling to have. So, I checked their blog to see what they liked and we shared SO many similar interests it was almost scary. And I followed back. 

If you know me for a while, you know my whole “Hi new mutual 💝” message I send to my new mutuals. Because 1: I love talking to people and 2: I just want others to feel like they’re welcome. (If you haven’t received one yet it’s either bc you’re a little older than me or idk how to send the message. BUT YOU WILL GET ONE TRUST 💞💓💘💖💝)

And you all know how you can SEE when someone is online? Well, they were online when I texted this. And I got no response. I just assumed it was nervousness or shyness so I didn’t really question it. Until a few minuetes later they reblogged my “You can always ask” fic. 

Which, woo-hoo I guess. But my message was still not answered. But I didn’t think it was THAT deep. 

The next day, May 17th, I noticed they were online. I sent a quick “Hi” again, awaiting a response. About 5 minutes later I was met with one, except it wasn’t the one I was expecting or hoping for. 

It was a request. For a fanfiction. Okay okay cool. Coolio. You…ignore my two messages of me just simply saying a quick “hello” and you don’t answer…instead you ask for a tickle fanfiction of some turtles? 

I get people are shy. I get that. I do. But me and one of my best friends were talking about it on Insta and it made no damn sense. Following, reblogging and requesting things from an individual that’s been trying to speak with you for the past few days and you not responding and then ASKING something of them is just…weird. 

Me and one of my best friend’s convo:

So, on May 18th I saw they were online again, and so I texted the following: 

Which I felt was fine. It was straight to the point. But where my anger really emegred was when I got notifications of my fics being reblogged by the same person. AGAIN. NOT EVEN 3 MINUTES LATER.

And then May 19th they liked another post of mine. Although it was a post that you would have to DIG DEEP FOR. Because I made it a year ago and only 4 people liked it (INCLUDING ME.). So you would have to LOOK LOOK to find it. 

Then yesterday, May 20th, was just my breaking point. I was chilling, having a nice evening, talking with my fellow mutuals, writing a fic (AND FINISHING WOO-HOO) until I get a notification. And guess what? It’s just another reblog by the same person. 

Did I get any responses of my pervious texts? Nope. Not at ALL. 

I am sick and hurt of being treated as if I’m just a computer that makes fanfictions.

I am a PERSON. A human being that for the past week has been trying to talk with you. And you at fucking 16 should understand that. 

You are one whole year older than me and you think you have the right to treat me this way. Who the absolute hell do you think you are? 

Because let me get this through your head: I live in an African and Jamaican  household, and one thing that we let each other know day in and day out is to never ever let someone make you feel like you’re less. 

So when you see this @osctwordfan I am hoping you have a good explanation regarding to last week. 

@ ing mutual’s in this because this is INSANE and I am LIVID rn: 

@itzsana-kiddingmenow @veryblushyswitch

@skyloladoodles @saturnzskyzz @backy-san

@creativecutie @savemeafruitjuice

@mythica0 @leosmasktails @someone1348 @vxlepop

@anxious-lee @charismakat

@sunny-117 @odder-outlet @jamiesgotchu @ziipzeepzop-eez

@danineedshelp @pocky-dragon

@my-l0v3r-v3rse @rice-cake-teen10

[o-sachi]

Blue Lock Top 5s because I'm bored

Top 5 I like based on narrative/writing

Top 5 I'd date

Kinda wildly different, idk u judge

All under the cut

Top 5 Based on the Story

1 | Michael Kaiser

Where do I even begin...

For starters, he has a really strong presence in the story and his introduction was hella good.

I have a thing for cocky characters who can walk the talk (we ignore the goals he missed because c'mon, HE IS STILL PART OF THE NEW GEN 11 !!! THAT SPEAKS FOR ITSELF)

But me liking him mostly has to do with his backstory. I resonate with him a lot—not that I experienced the same abusive childhood, but the feeling of wanting to be enough/to be loved really hits hard.

I am also a sucker for great characters who have to shed their skin or the ones who experience a fall from grace only to rise again. It's really inspiring and different in a way. I love to see them get humbled yk?

Also, I like that he had to work hard to be where he is today. The reason why I like him and Lorenzo is because they essentially stand out among the other blue lockers who came from better families/environments.

I just love him. He holds a special place in my heart. He needs to be protected at all times.

I know manipulation is wrong but it's kinda funny how this mf studied psychology for the most whack ass reason possible. Jeez.

2 | Isagi Yoichi

I have to say that I rarely end up liking the MC of most animanga that I read or watch. It's because they're usually so... plain. Like the squarely fall into one archetype and it gets boring. But not Isagi.

I LOVE how he's gentle and kind when off the field, but an absolute menace when he's actually playing football. It's interesting to see.

I like that he's somewhat an underdog. I say somewhat because he didn't start off as someone who knows nothing at all about football. Neither was he hindered by anything serious. Just a plain ol' underdog who happens to go against players that are naturally better than him.

Underdog stories in sports anime are my shit after all.

Redditors say that Isagi's puzzle shit analysis is cringy, but I actually like his analytical nature. It's one of the things I like the most about bllk tbh.

All the blue lockers love him and so do I. Simple as that.

3 | Reo Mikage

It took me a while to really really appreciate Reo.

I just find his character endearing because he truly works hard.

He's from a rich family who could give him anything he wants without him having to lift a finger, yet he tries so hard to prove himself and achieve something solely by himself.

It's just really admirable.

He has his moments, but I think Reo's overall a sweet and genuine person. I felt bad for him when Nagi set him aside.

Of course, Reo initially befriended Nagi for the purpose of playing football together and dominating the sport, BUT he put actual trust into their friendship.

4 | Bachira Meguru

MY OG

I think it's exclusive to sports animanga, but I really like the characters who are lowkey crazy. The moment he fucking kicked Igaguri in the face—I knew.

Super fun to watch.

I like how his backstory is a completely different atmosphere compared to what kind of person he is on the surface. Of course, he probably still has some scars from the past, but that's what I think makes him a good character.

Like Reo, I think he's a genuine person. Sure, he's ready to throw hands anytime, but I can see that he really values certain people in bllk, whether as a friend or someone who pushes him to do better.

GIVE US MORE BACHIRA PLS

5 | Shidou Ryusei

Crazy motherfucker. I DIG THAT.

He's a bit weird, perverted, all over the place—but I like it. A refreshing sight.

Like I know the "crazy" character isn't new, especially to sports anime. But unlike those before him, I think he genuinely enjoys football more so than dominating others.

Sure, he loves to win. But there's a difference between engaging in a sport to make others submit to you and to defeat others fair and square.

Kind of mysterious and I like that. He could climb up the ranks depending on what backstory Kaneshiro san cooks up.

Top 5 That I'd Date

1 | Karasu Tabito

There's something about guys from the countryside that HIT DIFFERENT. Personally, I'm not from a city either, so I guess I'm not that into city boys or the really posh kind of guys.

THE ACCENT

I like guys who are more simple and down to earth, but still have personality. He's so cute and playful, but he's still a simple lil guy.

I like guys who enjoys playful banter w you and would tease u a bit 😗

He's tall, has dark hair, a cocky smirk. NEED I SAY MORE?

We're both scared of water so when we go to the beach or the pool we could just chill together instead.

I find it really endearing about his character that he refuses to tell people about the last time he cried. 'Cuz obviously, a lot of men are probably embarrassed about admitting that which should be changed. I JUST WANT TO GIVE HIM A BIG HUG.

We have the same mole under the eye and our birthdays are 5 days apart. And I'm fucking delusional 😚

I just fw his personality a lot.

He could match my freak.

2 | Barou Shoei

I like mature guys. Periodt.

I love me a domestic guy. He likes cleaning, cooking, taking care of his siblings. Like??? WHAT ELSE COULD YOU ASK FOR?

I feel like I would get scolded a lot... joke's on him I'm into that.

I was kidding btw.

Idk, dude. Responsible men just turn me the fuck on 😓

I admire his work ethic and how seriously he takes his passion.

He's tall, beefy, always looks mad... and I dig that a lot.

What the fuck is that new hairstyle though.

3 | Yukimiya Kenyu

This is extra delusional because I would never get this green of a flag yk?

HE SEEMS SO SWEET AND KIND.

He also seems like the type who would be kind and understanding in the relationship, but would still take the lead.

Idk, tbh, I just chose him because he would be a good partner. Would we make a good pair? Not really.

4 | Noel Noa

I have daddy issues.

That's it.

No, but have you seen the recent art of him in a suit? GOOD LORD.

But actually he is my 4th choice. Don't come for me 😓

5 | I lied about the top 5 thing. There aren't enough characters of age to choose from (I wouldn't date Mihya or Sae. They're hot, I get that. Buttttttt I don't think I can actually handle them. I think I'd be too sensitive about how they treat me sob. And Aiku is a headache.)

[petrifiedperi-au]

Holy ok ok ok so I just read your dev having trouble with being around Cosmo and Wanda but I bring you a different approach. What if he is mad at them! Trying to shift some of this huge amount of guilt because at least he went to Peri! His own parents left him alone to die. (I can’t remember if you said if they actually knew where he was or not)

Oh lordy oh ok gewze imagine Dev having this moment of realising he has something in common with Peri because he sees his parents as neglecting him. How sad would that make Dev? To realise how much guff he gave Peri cause he thought Peri couldnt relate at all. So he pushed him away but then thinking how wrong he was and how Peri did understand. (Even though we know cosmo and wanda are nothing like Dale and really did love Peri just saw a different priority) but the potent agnst of Dev having a miss understanding of it. Everytime Peri tries to deny it Dev relates. Everytime Cosmo and Wanda gush over Peri makes Dev fume because he sees it as all a show. He thinks he knows how it is behind closed doors. Even if hes actually wrong. It could really help them bond. Until Dev finally sees hes wrong and it’s gonna make a huge rift between them as he blames Peri for pretending to have a bad relationship with his parents. Probably saying it was to “mock” Dev or something.

On another note. Do you think Peri would actually be upset that his parents decided to save fairyworld instead? Maybe rationally he tells himself it was the better choice. That it was what ended up bringing him back. It was what saved all the other fairies who take priority. Hes just one guy. But thats still gonna hurt. Knowing your own parents can and have picked the masses over you. Knowing you arent worth the world to them. Of course he wouldnt actually expect them to choose him but maybe deep down he wanted them to? Idk im loosing it cause I just got off ruff 12hr shift at work lol.

Hope this isnt too off the money for your au I just really enjoy angst

~hollys fairy hell

[AU info here!]

OOOOHHH... THIS IS INTERESTING. WHILE C&W DIDN'T KNOW THAT PERI DIED, DEV BEING ANGRY BECAUSE OF THAT IS... OUGH. I think it DOES check out, actually. Feeling angry that they didn't even KNOW their son died, the blame being shifted to help ease the guilt... IT MAKES SENSE, AND IT'S IN CHARACTER.

He's seen their relationship before, and he knows that they're all such a genuinely happy family, and that makes him feel not ONLY GUILTIER, but MORE FRUSTRATED, MORE ANGRY. Their own son DIED, in front of HIM, and they DON'T EVEN KNOW.

HEAR ME OUT... DEV NOT KNOWING THAT C&W DON'T KNOW UNTIL PERI MENTIONS IT. Him assuming that they ALREADY told their parents, and that's why he was absent for a few days. THE GUILT SHIFTING INTO A MISDIRECTED ANGER ONCE PERI MENTIONS THAT THEY DON'T KNOW AND THAT THEY WANT TO KEEP IT FROM THEM... of COURSE, the guilt is still there, but it blends in with the other feelings and it's a Very Complicated Feeling Soup.

THE MISUNDERSTANDING IDEA IS NEAT... AND IN-CHARACTER. I don't know for SURE how I'd implement it [because my brain is very picky about the things I add, and I am too...], make it go, and ALL those good, delicious, juicy things, BUT BUT it will go on the backburner of thoughts. Specifics would probably just come to me randomly at 2 am like they have been lately gHDLSHSLHD 😭

WITH THE LAST PART... PERI DOESN'T KNOW WHAT HAPPENED SPECIFICALLY. He was DEAD, after all, and SURE, he'd probably find out via things being talked about, BUT, GENERALLY, I DON'T THINK THEY ADDRESS OR THINK ABOUT THOSE THINGS.

Hazel's Wish fixed EVERYTHING that happened in the episode, and I talk about how the whole Millio Wishes Thing worked here, actually! I have a vague idea of how things go with Peri after they come back, but I don't have any set in stone ideas yet/there's no established timeline. I think... THEY don't even know at first, they're just confused at the fuzzy gaps in their memory and then, once they get a closer look at themself and the GHOST thing happens [when they're alone] and all that... THEN they put details together and realize they They Fucking Died.

WHICH... PERI DOESN'T UNPACK THAT. NOT MUCH, ANYWAY. The finale ends as usual, with the motorcycles and all that— that's BEFORE he realizes there might be something off. DO YOU GET ME... LIKE...

THE ENDING ESTABLISHES THAT THINGS ARE OK AND NORMAL BUT THEN AFTER THE EPISODE, THEY GO BACK TO THEIR HOUSE/ROOM/C&W'S HOUSE [ALONE] AND THEN THAT IS WHEN HE KIND OF REALIZES HE FEELS OFF AND WEIRD. AND... OUGH. YEAH.

SORRY I'M... GETTING OFF TRACK. I don't think he'd be upset, not in that way, at least, given the circumstances. I DON'T KNOW IF THIS MAKES SENSE OR IF IT'S JUST WORD SOUP I'M SO SORRY I JUST WOKE UP LIKE AN HOUR AGO. I am throwing words at the wall and hoping they make sense HDJDDGKDDUI 😭

[magicratfingers]

hey! when you say you're doing konmari, what specifically *are* you doing? is it one of her books or a course or smth?? a lot of the struggles you've talked about working through with all of this are similar to ones I struggle with so I'm interested in giving something like that a shot!!

Hiiiii!!!! I’m followin her book The Life Changing Magic of Tidying Up. The whole deal! I started it with just whatever info was free on the internet but actually bought the book a bit into the process. The daily posts were to be silly but it became pretty nice to look back & stay with it. So I admit maybe I didn’t really do the first step “envision the life you want” part very deeply actually what even are the rules

Ok

Rule 1 yeah ok I was pretty excited to start I had always wanted to try it I once met a woman at a party who said everything she owned could fit in one box and I thought that sounded so cool and I just really wanted to do something kinda “big” I was feelin pretty stuck pretty overwhelmed and also Marie calls it a “Tidying Festival” which is so goofy and sweet

Rule 2 ok I kinda didn’t do much work here it was more like “idk man who even am I let’s find out” I had done something similar for a “nutritional therapist” (kinda bullshit but I don’t regret it) once and found it difficult so I really just have uh a brain feeling of ease and playfulness I’m thinking of as a lazy Sunday energy

Rule 3 I do get a bit stuck here in that I don’t always know where I want to put my stuff so I find myself doing some surprise deep cleaning. But! This means I’ve cleaned a ton of areas without wanting to cry or barf and it feels weird to admit as a grown ass gender but it’s probably the first time I’ve felt actual pride

Rule 4 - this and 3 are probably the secret sauce for me. It’s a nice structure and it keeps the steps simple enough to not freak out but just challenging enough to wanna do it.

Rule 5 the order did sound a bit random (clothes, books, paper, Komono, sentimental items) but it rips. Clothes are so unavoidably functional and emotional that it really is the easiest. Books are surprisingly aspirational?? Very “I want to be the kind of person that wants to read this” and I had to figure out how to divorce potential from actual appreciation. I did books three times. Like. I can just go to a library such low stakes with discarding books. Paper I wanted to die but what a gift

Rule 6 being the thing that everyone knows. I really have been making myself TOUCH THE ITEM and genuinely thank it. It’s also the part people don’t do?? Which is wild!? It’s so helpful??? Thanking things dissolved all the anxiety and loss aversion or guilt. It was also really fun to pick up something that gives you the giddy and imagine what it could be like to feel that for everything in the house. I mean why not it’s achievable. Oh also people think it’s about minimalism (it’s not) and getting rid of stuff you need (no) or replacing everything with a fancier thing (definitely not)

Oh wow I wrote a lot hahaaa

[shiroisotto64]

Carmine Headcanons

Benjamin

He’s always been described as green. Aka he follows the rules..mostly. Everyone has their moments am I right? Ben is respectful towards everyone and has a very eager air about him.

You wanna teach him neat military trick? He’s in. This leads to Ben and Baird spending a lot of time together. Imagine how much fun they’d have setting shit on fire? Exactly. And Baird finally has someone who actually tries to listen/understand his science talk.

He’d been real fun to be around. If your friends or together? He’s down to do things you like. Even if he hadn’t found it all to interesting before hand he’ll at least try to get into it for you. You like collecting antiques? He’ll save up to get you something whenever he can.

Gets real giddy when genuinely complimented. You noticed his tracking is getting better and say something about it? He’s touched! You think he’s getting real good at unjamming his lancer? Why thank you! He’s eats it all up and uses it as fuel to keep going.

With a s/o

Very respectful of boundaries. He won’t do anything without your explicit consent before hand. Including hand holding. He gets real shy when it comes to affection. He doesn’t mind it…but growing up with locust running around to kill you doesn’t leave a lot of time to get used to touch.

Ben would be super excited to genuinely spend time with you as well. Wanna walk around the yard? Sure, let’s go. Wanna eat lunch together? He’s damn there skipping to the hall. It’s so cute but the others definitely tease him for this. Marcus is just shaking his head in the corner but look closer he’s almost smiling!

Anthony

He needs to be put on a leash. He’s such a nerd. He’ll rant for hours about all the cool shit Marcus has done if anyone would let him. It’s funny how much he knows really.

Eager to train and get on the field. You can find him in the gym or shooting range. He likes the rush 1 and 2 he wants to stay sharp and be useful when called out. Rambles on the coms to. Marcus is normally the one to scold him to “shut the hell up!”

I feel like for some reason…he’d know a LOT of gossip around base..idk I can just feel it. Before you even tell him he already knows how the mission went. Luckily he’s open to talk about his missions too especially if he did something cool!

With a s/o

Likes no LOVES to show off. But he loses his cocky attitude when his gun fucks around and jams and oops he dropped it….ANYWAYS everyone has their days.

But lord help you cause it has to be nerve wracking being with him, he’s so eager and reckless at that. At least Ben follows orders Anthony just kinda forgets or gets wrapped up in the moment. He means no harm but still.

Clayton

He’s quieter than his brothers. Clayton just kinda chills there till he feels he needs to say anything. He’s more introverted prefers to keep to himself. He does have a sense of humor though. Albeit it’s a bit dry it’s there.

Clay cared a lot about his family especially his brothers. His affection is generally more quiet and shown through actions. A pat on the back here and a good job there. That’s his style even after the war he’s still kinda stiff.

He likes keeping his weapons in top shape. He’s found cleaning his guns and tags around the end of the week or right after a messy mission.

He’s not really picky about food or anything none of them are but I bet Clayton is the heaviest eater out of the carmines. Make him a hearty bowl and he’ll eat every last drop!

With a s/o

Wanna know if he likes you? Easy ask that man for a piece of his bacon. Regardless if he fussed about it or not if you get the piece at all you’re good.

If you’re the touchy type he’ll try to accommodate you. Like I said it’s not like they don’t like touch they just aren’t used to it.

He’s the touchiest when he’s tired. All of a sudden you’re being dragged to bed to cuddle. He’s a real heavy sleeper to! So good luck. Those big strong arms mean business once he’s got you there’s not escape.

@pink-apollo mentioned something about Clayton and dogs and I agree. I could totally see him with at least one large guard dog. But what’s better? A big dog and small puppy. LMFAO imagine the grub killer sprawled out on the couch with a yorkie or something. Adorable.

He’s not the jealous type but he is protective. Anyone giving you a hard time he’ll get it through their skulls don’t worry.

He does need a quiet moment to himself though, so if your the real clingy type he’ll get agitated if your constantly trying to hang off him, however he won’t yell he’ll just remove himself for you until he’s ready to be touched again.

[woah-uhuh-uhuh-uhuh]

Christine Canigula was socially ostracized & developed a complex to protect herself: an essay

(suddenly i NEED to infodump about Christine actually so here)

Something I only noticed on rewatch: the way Christine will say something silly and then just kind of gingerly wait to see if Jeremy reacts well to it before continuing, almost like she's asking permission?? (e.g. the gap after the first stanza of "Play Rehearsal"). And it's only after he riffs off her bowling alley bit that she feels comfortable talking about her personal feelings with him (right before "Guy that I'd Kinda be Into"). The same happens with their "weird noise" exchange immediately before "It's pretty killer to sit and chat with you." I know theater relies on being succinct, and that 'bonding over shared quirks' and 'feelings talk' are both just crucial parts of relationship development... but I don't think it's a coincidence that it always goes in that order!

It's like Jeremy has to pass these *trials of weirdness* before she feels safe opening up to him and it drives me BONKERS so I wrote a whole 1000 word thing about it under the cut and this got too massive and I'm sorry. Also some autistic Jeremy meta at the end if that sweetens the pot hehehe

Table of contents:

Why she was ostracized

How she was ostracized

How that might inform her pattern of relationship development with Jeremy and Jake

How gender caused Jeremy's experiences to differ from hers, and how that affects their current relationships with "popularity" and peer acceptance.

1. Why she was ostracized

I am just so certain that Christine has been bullied or at least majorly outcast for a lot of her life. She's very obviously neurodivergent and because of that she can have these obnoxiously deep and repetitive interests, she can't judge if a piece of information will be genuinely interesting to someone, and she doesn't take social cues very well.

She frequently interrupts people when they're talking (an ADHD symptom btw), even when they're literally talking to her about the thing she wants to hear!

(C: "Do you find that? Because I totally find that!" J: "Uh, yeah, I-" C: "-And no matter how hard I try....")

(J: "I know the last thing I deserve is another shot, but-" C:"Jeremy, just... say what's on your mind.") (girl I'm sorry but that's what he was doing..... I have a whole other thoughtpiece on how this particularly fucks with Jeremy while they're dating but thats another thing...)

She doesn't seem confident in her interpretations of people's emotions and she'll ask/talk about them point blank (both theirs and her own) in a way a lot of people would find rude

("Uh, you seem really nervous...") ("Popular people are fucked up! *mutual laughter* …I mean, you're one of them!") ("I am flattered, this is new / still I'm not sure what I should do" <- as a response to getting asked out, that's pretty bold! Plus the entire part where she laughs at Jake's "rich boy routine") (also compare and contrast to Jeremy's "I don't know what I'm supposed to say right now." idk. are your allistic stage dorks in the room with us right now motherfuckers)

I'd go on about her hyperfixations/special interests too but I think Play Rehearsal pretty much sums it up lol

2. How she was ostracized

All this to say that I am CERTAIN she spent a lot of her schooling having "nice girls" patiently let her sit with them at lunch for weeks at a time until they finally get sick of her rambling and faux pas. Only when they leave does Christine realize that they didn't actually care about anything she said... And this happens over and over and over. (I know this seems hella specific but I swear it's an actual phenomenon... at least I'm pretty sure? sdjflksjf)

But anyway, it's clear that by the time they're juniors, Christine has kind of (and I do only mean kind of) figured out what behaviour other people respond poorly to. And from evidence I stated in the intro, I think she's become really careful about which people she lets herself get attached to. She doesn't want this to ever happen again - which means if she's going to hang out with someone, she has to know that they actually care about her, that they know she will sometimes be obnoxious or blunt, and they'll still be okay with that forever.

3. Applying this to her canon relationships

You can extend this to Jake, someone who sees her in her element in drama rehearsal (the thing everyone finds annoying about her because she won't shut up about it) and STILL likes her. I think it's a totally valid reading that her bluntness with him later ("Upgrade") is just because she misreads him / doesn't quite get the social standard that she should be white lying instead. But I think you could also read her as testing the waters. If she's really going to commit to dating this guy, she's gotta know he's okay with her being herself. And the fact that this guy (and I think it's significant that he is a boy, for reasons I'll explain in the end note) genuinely seems to like her is a whole new level of peer validation ("I am flattered, this is new") -- so of course she's gonna fall at least a little! It doesn't hurt that he's "tired of being the person that everyone thinks that I am..." just like her!

Her history with being pity-liked makes Chloe's "advice," that Jake's just toying with her and is going to move on soon, even scarier, because that's genuinely happened to her (on a platonic level) so many times before.

Jeremy is also a good candidate from the beginning because he's weird he's a weirdo he doesn't fit in and he doesn't wanna fit in you ever see him without this stupid cardigan on? that's weird! And she keeps warming up to him not only because they're getting to know each other but because he gets progressively more willing to not only tolerate (as Jake does) but *participate* in her weirdness!

First, she does something weird and he tolerates it ("Play Rehearsal"); the next time she's weird, he participates! (bowling ball before GTIKBI). Then finally finally finally he initiates the weirdness and lets her join in! ("weird noises" exchange before GTIKBI reprise).

And notably, it is THIS moment that canonically signifies that they've hit the apex of their canon relationship development. If there was an achievement called "Befriend Christine," it would have popped up right then and there!!!

IN CONCLUSION: YOUR HONOR I LOVE THEM T_T

4: Christine vs. Jeremy: Gender differences & how that ultimately impacts their social goals

I also think all of this would have happened to Jeremy too if he'd been a girl. But because, generally, young boys feel less social obligation than girls to take pity on the autistic kid (and because boys tend to be more quickly recognized as autistic) he just ends up completely alone for most of his school life (Michael nonwithstanding - and yeah there's an important distinction between your childhood friend putting up with you and knowing that, woah, I guess literally nobody else ever will).

Meanwhile, Christine has had people "put up" with her, and she's SICK OF IT!

That's part of why their complexes are so different, because Christine is trying to check everyone she meets to make sure they'll be okay with her weirdness before she gets attached, Jeremy is trying to eliminate his weirdness altogether because he's never even experienced his peers listening out of *pity* so how the hell can he expect someone to ever listen to him out of *interest?*

Jeremy has never had someone pretend to like him before, so he completely lacks Christine's fear of befriending someone who secretly hates you. He doesn't realize how bad it'll hurt him if he destroys his real self for popularity, if he befriends people who would have bullied his real self. He doesn't know what disingenuous friendship feels like, so like a very young Christine he's still actively trying to get there because he thinks it's the only kind of validation he'll ever get.

Do you see what im saying? Do you see it???? AUAUGUGUUGGH

THANK YOU FOR READING!!! If you have thoughts or even rebuttals please share i am so desperate to discuss the blorbos