#first of all AKSJDHAJSKHDSJHKDKJHSD. IM SO GLAD I ACCIDENTALLY MIGHT HAVE FOUND SOMETHING ABOUT THE MUSIC AT THE END

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OKAY LIVE BLOGGING THE END OF SEASON 1 AGAIN !!!!!!!!!

OKAY ATTEMPT #2 AT WATCHING THE SEASON FINALE OF SEASON ONE HERE WE GO

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Starting again with Joyce being my mom she's always been SO FUCKING DETERMINED the eNTIRE TIME BUT the progression of her being distraught and feeling incapable to being one of the strongest characters for me is!!!!!!! despite still feeling so... helpless??? THE WAY SHE DOESNT TAKE BRENNER'S FUCKING BULLSHIT!!!!!!!!

Brenner being SO FUCKING USED TO HAVING CONTROL and dropping the mask so quickly :-) I dont have anything smart to say about this but im sure someone has!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I WAS DISSOCIATING LAST TIME I DIDNT REALIZE THEY WERE THREATENING TO EITHER FAKE HIS SUICIDE OR MAKE HIM SEEM LIKE THE ALCOHOL JUST GOT THE BEST OF HIM

Spacing out a little because ive seen all this and yelled about it already - but I still gotta way that !!!! Nancy and Jonathan cooporating like they are as quickly as they are because they both see how much they care about another person and that selflessness bringing them closer OUGH

Like Nancy empathising so much with how much Johnathan loves his brother - and this both making her set aside her own shit to care openly about Mike and to see Johnathan as like a PERSON and not just a freak weirdo????

HOPPER FLASH BACKS thats all

AGAIN WITH THE HANDS - WHO STARTED THIS WHO STARTED WITH THE BLOOD LETTING IN HANDS ITS SO ??? BRO THAT HEALS SO SLOW AND PAINFULLY LIKE WHAT THE FUCK !!!!!!! YOUR ARM? YOU CAN DO IT SAFELY UGH

Return of me adoring dustin with my WHOLE FUCKING HEART he cares about his friends and is so smart and so goofy and he makes me SO HAPPY

STEVEEEEEEE AGAIN STEVE IM AHHHH CANT ARGUE WITH A MAN WITH BIG BROWN EYES WHATEVER YOU SAY GORGEOUS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! HES KIND OF STUPID HES SO STUPID AND OBLIVIOUS AND HE THINKS HES SO BIG AND STRONG AND IM ASKDJHALSKDJLAKSDJH DAMN WE LOVE AN IDIOT

JOHNATHAN AND NANCY ARE SO CAPABLE ITS INSANE THEIR COOPERATION IN A TIME LIKE THIS AND STEVE JUST PISSING HIS PANTS <3

I... cant wait to watch more and see all the issues that arrise between Mike and El im ngl - their relationship so far is cute in the... innocense of it all? Im not sure what happens between them but from what I've seen its not like great it just feels very much like how I personally experienced crushes when I was younger? ESPECIALLY on boys? From the way that El is integrating into everything it feels so compulsory that she'd have a crush on a boy and they'd date and Mike obviously understands the world similarly - this is what little boys and little girls are supposed to do. Were people going like bonkers off the wall for them being in a relationship in season one like Ive seen some people argue currently? Because I dont... get it. I think its cute and innocent but its clearly not going to work out and besides El has no fucking idea whats actually going on, no fully?? Cant expect her to actually understand her feelings when she hasn't actually experienced what its like to be a kid with a crush yet shes literally a weapon, she only knows what its like to be an isolated and abused kid and nothing else

OH MAN YEAH YEAH YEAH WHITE WOMAN JUMP SCARED X2 EXCEPT HER FUCKING BRAIN IS GETTING MELTED

YEAH

EYAHE

AAYFUCK

YEAHAHHH EL FUCKING EXPLODE EM GIRLIE YEAHHHHH FUCKASKJHDAJ

YEAHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!

FUCK YEAH GOD THAT WAS SO GOOD still as excited as i was the first time i saw it yeaHHH BABBEYYYYYYY GET HER ASSSS fuck

THE BOYS JUST BEING SO READY TO KILL AND DIE AND MAIM FOR EL IS EVERYTHING TO ME BOYS WILL BE BOYS

SOMETHING SOMETHING HERE IS IT AGAIN THE MASK DROPPING I COULDNT PAUSE ON THE LITTLE FUCKING TWITCH OF ANGER HE HAS BUT FUKCKCKCJASKDKJAS

Something something El finally feeling safe enough to sTAND UP TO HIM BECAUSE SHE FINALLY REALIZES NOT ONLY THAT HES BAD BUT THAT SHE HAS POWER OVER HIM AN DPEOPLE SHOULD AND DO CARE anyway

EAT HIS FUCKING FACE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

oh man okay i cant watch the part where they find will it made me gag last time - but im interested to learn WHY the UD is feeding off people like this????? or if thats just how that specific creature feeds im sure theres a deeper meaning to it all DHAKJh I know they compared La Creatura to a few animals because of its attraction to blood but im kind of interested to know if the animal sounds they used also relate to its behaviour ???

IF I HAVE TO SIT THROUGH ANOTHER GOD DAMN FUCKING HOPPER FLASH BACK IM GONNA SDOSFUSDFJHD how many more parralels are there because i know DAMN WELL THIS ISNT THE ONLY EPISODE WHERE THERES ONE and i know theres gonna be more with him and El in the future UGHGHAHSDH

ALSO JOYCE JOYCE JO YCEJ OYCE JOCEY JOCEY COEYCE JOYCE JOYCE BITES MYSELF BITES MYSELF BITES MYSELF

DO MIKES PARENTS EVER GET DIVORCED IM SUCH A HATER I HATE HIS DAD SO MUCH LIKE I GENUINELY FEEL UNBRIDLED RAGE WHENEVER I SEE HIM

im NOT cRying oVer this little tiny family that felt so broken coming together and being closer than they ever were before and will continue to and THE BOYS WAITING AND OUGAHKSD I LOVE HOW AFFECTIONATE THEY ALL ARE AND GOD AND THE DND THE HE OUFH damn see fore shadowing or whatever

NANCY GIRL NO IM SO SORRY FUCKING BARB BARB DIDN AKSDHASKHDHDUFDHKJDSKJHSDKJHFSKJH OH IM ACKKGH

HOPPER WHAT IF YOU BEAT THE SHIT OUT OF THAT GUY HUH he just put his hat back on like a signifyer that he was ready to return back to the life he knew, back to the grind, nothing changed- AND THEN TAKING IT OFF TO GET INTO THT CAR ??

DUSTINNNNNNNNNN AND THEM AGREEING AND AHHHH god this is so good this is so good this IS OUGH THEIR FUCKING CHARACTERS BEING NAMED AFTER THEMSELVES IS SO FUCKING FUNNY

Whistfully looking back to El's Autism Nook

NANCY JOHNATHAN BESTIES IN MY HEART FOREVER grIPPING my need to platonic friendships SHE GOT HIM A CAMERAAAAAAA THE ONE THAOSDK AHHH GUFH BITES BITES BITES BITES BITES BITES

MIke's dad is asleep and i want him to choke

WAIT WAS THE GIFT FROM STEVE OH MY GO STOP STOP STOP STOP NO THAT GIFT WAS FR STOPPPPPPPP AHHHHHHHHH BITES BITE SBITE SBITES BITES BITE SBITES BITES BTIES BTIES

WHY IS THERE A FEEDING BOX IN THE WOODS DAMN AKJDHAKD I MEAN IK ITS FOR EL BUT HELLO? IS SHE JUST A WILD BEAST????? KJSHKJHKDSFJHKSFJHD

JOYYYCEEEEE LOOKS SO CUTE

OH IF YOURE GONNA THROW UP IM AHHHHHHHHH haunted little victorian child ass vibes

OKAY REALLY GOOD ENDING TO A SEASON ACTUALLY and it ending with the theme song - im starting to pay attention to the ending songs now KASJDHKASJDHJK

NEW ST LIVE BLOGGING bc i lost my old thread lmao S1 06-08 (but not really i need to rewatch the end again)

Episode 6

OKAY im starting like halfway through ep 6 again

the AUTISM in the first 30 seconds of this episode starting up again lmao EL calling him a mouth breather because its the first insult she fucking hears??? Yea YEAH

GOD JOYCE IN A TURTLE NECK <- my mom (hold oni have to jump back up here because I completetly skipped the part about Jane and her mom and the connection to El and i feel like its a little too on the nose that thats who El is given how much ive seen and read about the fuckery and connections in this show so im waiting on that - unless it is just... that. AKJHD)

I LOVE DUSTIN SO MUCH WHY DO I NEVER HEAR ANYTHING ABOUT HIM LIKE WHAT THE FUCK

hes SO smart holy shit i mean they all are but his interpersonal skills are so JUST YEAH CALL THEM OUT CALL THEM OUT also his quiet "ok" when he pushes that theyre all his best friends UGH

is this the scene is this the i think im about to watch the thing i just OH MAN HE JUST CLOCKED HIM WHO STRADDLES A MAN LIKE THAT WHEN YORUE FIGHTING HELLO

damn

anyway sorry Johnathan and Nancy Platonic Soulmates Best Friends Forever im making them bracelets !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

oh man i was gonna mention the van that Lucas saw but i forgot also GOD DUSTIN IS THE ONLY ONE WITH FUCKIGN SENSE I LOVE HIM SO MUCH boys boys boys boys boys

I FORGOT HE PISSED HIS FUCKING PANTS LMAO

JUST PISS YOUR PANTS???? oh he okay yeah i though the was actually asking him to just piss his fucking pants

DUSTIN JUST SACRIFICING HIMSELF WHY DO I NOT HEAR MORE ABOUT HIM ACTUALLY

SO what would happen if Mike had like died what would happen if those kids had caused his death like wouold they have just ran and left Dustin or pushed him off or what like AKJSHDSKAJHD

IM SORRY THE SONG WHEN EL SHOWS UP IS SO FUCKING FUNNY

El exxperiencing PTSD so vividly breaks my fucking heart like girlie i understand i understan di do i reall really do god im so sorry BABY GIRL ITS OKAY AOOIASUDSKAH SHE OPENED THE GATE DAMN gonna like swaddle her or something god

im sorry the squad of white vans going to kidnap children is a little too on the fucking nose for me

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Episode 7

real talk could El not just explode them what if El just exploded them i mean obviously theres OTHER consequences like... killing people BUt i mean.

SHE IDNT EXPLODE THE VAN BUT I MEAN!!!!!!!!!!!!!! THAT GUY IS PROBABLY DEAD SO !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Pausing to say something actually: How child abuse is depicted so far in the show is very scary to me in how real it feels. To be a kid in those situations, to not understand the power you weild because an adult as manipulated you into believing that you're helpless? That the only person you can rely on is them, even as they're actively harming you? Brenner being aware of the harm that El can cause him but believing so strongly in the hold he has on her and therefore he is above consequence, above harm? fucking yucky The scene of him giving her the potted flower made my stomach sink. Felt a little too close to home I know that themes of abuse are really prevelant in this show and Its really interesting to see how it affects people different but especially El, someone who'se pretty fucking clearly autistic and shows a lot of the same symptoms that i did post abuse? I thought i had more to say on it and maybei will as time goes on i just!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ough okay moving on --

LUCAS!!!!!!!!! APOLOGIZING and El saying she sorry too and ALL OF THEM APOLOGIZING YEAH THIS IS BOYS BEING BOYS BABEY THIS IS!!!! BOYS! BEING! BOYS!!!!!!!

WHITE WOMAN JUMPSCARE AGAIN

i cant wait to get to the part where i understand who you (POINTS AT EM) believe she is and fully feel whatever i should feel about her and what shes done or about to do or going to do in multiple timelines or what have YOU

Mikes dad makes me want to ram my head into a wall

and BRENNER is just fucking STABS HIM STABS HIM STABS HIM

Joyce is just :3c she just!! she <3

she can.... make you fly....... and...... piss yourself

the two super powers

OUHAKJSDH i forgot they think Johnathan killed Will jesus christ i hate these two so much and OUGAKSDH GOD THANK YOU FOR AKHSDAKJH FINALLY!! THANK U IK STEVE SHAPES UP AND CHANGES HIS SHIT AND GROWS THANK GOD BUT JESUS ITS ABOUT TIME HOLY FUCK

SPIT IN HIS EYES SPIT IN HIS EYES !!!! WISH U HAD GOD NOT THEIR DND SHIT HELLOW???

the Byers,,,,,,,,,, seemed so distant before like they didnt know each other or cared but god theyre so close theyre so so close and i feel that i get that

MIKES DAD AGAIN I WANT TO HES SO FUCKING STUPID if i were locked in a room with him id put on cocomelon

HOPPER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! <3

THE BOYS ARE ALL SO SMART I LOVE THEM OS MUCH

El is just trying so fucking hard god the liek desperation and fear or failure and guilt that she just keeps carrying itS JUST!!!!

MR CLARKS LIL DATE NIGHT!!!!!!!!!!! do you ever use your teacher's autism against him and force him to info dump in the same of science.

watching them setting up the pool and knowing they probably just told them to figure it out while they filmed it <3 ALSO MIKE REALIZING HIS SISTER IS ACTUALLY COOL idk need more siblings being siblings

JOYCE IS MY MOM!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

someone giving El the option to say no? to back out? to FEEL SAFE??? im going to lose my mind im gonan scREAM and cry and throw up!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i am BANGING MY FISTS On the TABLE

genuinely WAHT did barb do to deserve this WHAT DID SHE DO SHE WAS SUCH A GOOD FRIEND OH MY GOD

joyce joyc ejoCYCE JOYCE JOYCE fuck all yall shes my favorite character im in love with her

Do episodes that end in the upside down also not end with music @ em i cant remember this happening before bc i didnt write it down <3

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Episode 8

LAST EPISIDE OF THE SEASON i went to get popcorn for this to pay full attention or as much as i could im goingin an dout of dissociating so bare with me i feel like im gonna have to rewatch the entire first season again bc i missed a lot but we'll get there in due time anyway onward and upward boys

OHH THE FIRST SCENE I SAW A PARALLEL TO EPISODE ONE!!! WITH JOYCE ON THE PHONE AND NOW YELLING AT BRENNER

god i love WHEN PEOPLE STAND UP TO BRENNER AND DONT BELIEVEHIS BULLSHIT

Hopper <333333

Johnathan and Nancy are my favorite best friends theyre jUST like GUNG FUCKING HO i love it

IM OAIUSDKAJHD NANCY AND HOPPER GOING FUCKING IN WHAT DO YOU MEAN ITS NOT GONNA HAPPEN yall keep underesitimating these people because you got your fancy suits and you think ou have control of the situation and then you get your ass handed to you SO IM waiting for his ass to be handed to him

do NOTTTTT DO NOT DO THIS TO ME WITH HOPPER DONT THROW ME INTO A FUCKING FLASH BACK!!!!!!! NOT LIKE THIS NOT HERE GONNA BITE

if i have to watch people cut their palms to get blood one more time im gonna STOP STOP IT STOP IT STOP oh my GOD LIKE... BAK O FYOU HAND? YOUR ARM? GIRL.

STEEVEEEEEEEEE are the lights gonna start blinking girl please pleas eplease srteve please can he help kill please bro Im HIS big brown eyes hello hwa the fuck

SO Tumblr deleted... everything after this and im kinda upset man i got like 20 minutes left in the episode not even and it just wiped out 90% of me going balls to the fuck wall about El exploding people's brains and how much i love Joyce Byers and how they gotta stopputting me through so much emotional turmoil when it comes to Hopper and his flash backs

I think im gonna rewatch the last episode to give a better genuine reaction bc i kinda spaced out at the end and dont super know whats going on now askdhj