#drug-seeking

[danneroni]

the end is death

[lesvegas]

casually ignoring any bad writing julie farkas has cause i know shes not actually like that and is being held at gunpoint by anti-drug writers from fifteen years ago

[maulfucker]

So fucked up that obimaul is a rarepair. What do you mean not everyone is obsessed with enemies to lovers with a Force connection, where one side is completely obsessed with the other who barely acknowledges him (but is just as affected)

[sprinkleofquirk]

I’m so tired of being honest about my pain level and having no one believe me because I don’t show pain the way they expect

[the-cookie-of-doom]

There’s this patient that everyone has written off as being drug/attention seeking. Crazy old lady, mean as hell. Asking for dilaudid all morning, refusing her Percocet (oxycodone + Tylenol, good shit), and has no actual injuries to “justify” it. Refuses to let anyone do anything that isn’t giving her dilaudid.

Welll. I’ve been in her room for most of the past 4 hours. Talking to her, explaining things (ex. Hello ma’am, I’d like to talk to you about your medication. I know you’re in a lot of pain and you want something strong, but you’ve been refusing the percocet. Did you know it made from oxycodone? Would you like to try it? And shocker—she did!) and just letting her talk.

My nurse won’t even go in her room. When I came out after a straight hour, she asked what I’d been doing bc she couldn’t find me. I told her I was just talking to the patient (about her family, life, etc.), and she didn’t ask me for medication a single time. Nurse was shocked. The patient accepted the percocet that she’s been refusing for 2 days. She let us draw her labs, which she’d been refusing even longer.

Yeah, she’s still a crotchety old lady, but she’s lonely. When it comes to elderly patients, they tend to report pain in 2 ways: 1. They severely underreport bc they dont want to be “one of those” old people that complains about everything, or 2. They are one of those old people that complains about everything, because what they really want is attention, company, and comfort. They just don’t want to be left alone.

Pain management and comfort is very important to me. I hate being in pain, and I don’t want my patients to be in pain. So I’m going to advocate for them as much as I can. But part of that advocation is recognizing when pain medication will do more harm than good, and more importantly, when it won’t actually fix the problem. No amount of dilaudid is going to solve my patient’s loneliness. But I can stay with her and let her tell me about her family, and find that it helps just as much.

[delusi0nalraik0]

[oldfangirl81]

Rant/Vent

I hate how this country handles pain relief.

The ER doc wrote me a prescription for pain and anti-nausea meds. Of course the pharmacy was already closed last night. I spent a shitty night of sleep in pain and nauseated. I counted down the hours until the pharmacy opened.

Get a call from the pharmacy that they can't fill the pain meds because "the doctor wrote it for too strong". No fucking clue what that means. Supposedly they are going to try to get the doctor to rewrite it but since it was the ER I'm not holding my breath.

I did tell them through gritted teeth to please fill the anti-nausea meds asap at least.

Yeah, I'm in tears of frustration. And pain.

[fox-guardian]

sometimes i am reminded of strange comments i receive on my art and i am still baffled.

[ID: Tags reading "your alice looks like shes adicted to heroin and I love that" end ID]

like. no, people who are addicted to drugs shouldn't feel shame over their appearances, ofc. but also Why Would You Say This To Me.

[thecultoflove]

Can you draw something symbolic for Lucid..

you didn't really ask for anything particular here but happy birthday lucid (it's october 11th not june 19th)

[uncanny-tranny]

Harm reduction is important because people do not deserve to die or become gravely injured because of addiction, accidents, or improper care. The existence of harm reduction sights, free needle exchange sights, drug testing locations, and education is not endorcing the behaviour - it is making sure people do not die, contract bloodborne illnesses, or otherwise be put at risk. These are human beings we are talking about, addiction or no.

[mangle-my-mind]

hey so why hasn't anyone told me what a complete trip Michael Jackson Moonwalker is

[deermouth]

literally why won't anyone prescribe me benzos. so many people i know just get them from their pcp but every psychiatrist i know is like "but the alzheimers correlation" "but we'd have to drug test you (???)" pussy up and PRESCRIBE ME BENZOS

[izzyspussy]

we went over the 14yr long torture session in my last therapy visit actually, and i told her that toward the end i was fantasizing about and then actively considering walking into traffic because if i got catastrophically injured then they would have to treat my pain. and she told me that's not an uncommon thing for people to do. that she has heard that many times before.

like think about that. we are so moralistic about drug use and have politicized a particular type of medicine so much, and doctors are so uncompassionate toward and even suspicious of patients who are in pain because of it, that it's NOT UNCOMMON for people who are otherwise not suicidal to start completely genuinely longing to get hit by a fucking car just for the chance to be oh so graciously provided the absolute bare fucking minimum of care.

think about how many different things have pain as a symptom. how many things have pain as the only symptom the patient is aware of. how many of them are life or death crises. heart attacks. blood clots. strokes. bleeding ulcers. those are just what i can think of off the top of my fucking head, AND I'M NOT A FUCKING DOCTOR.

what i had, for example, feels exactly like appendicitis. and they left it for fourteen years because my only symptom was excruciating pain and i didn't fit their stupid little (completely unsupported by evidence, btw) diagnostic mnemonic. if it had been appendicitis, or anything else as immediately deadly that "just" hurts, i would have fucking died the same night i got sent home from the emergency room with "medical" "advice" to take some tylenol and rest - for the first time, that is. out of dozens. how many people do die that way?

because addicts are Bad. and because doctors are too arrogant and biased to practice medicine on the basis of evidence and informed consent when the profit model and conservative propaganda make it soooo easy to stay in the good old days of paternalism instead.

[angelichl]

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[thediamondarcher]

I'm so scared of telling my psychiatrist or my psychologist that i think i have OCD because what if they think I'm just faking it just like my brain tells me and i did way too much research and I'm just trying to get diagnosed something i don't have (i literally had a compulsion because i had obsessive thoughts about this and it gave me so much anxiety)

[istherewifiinhell]

v dont think that post was doing it, in the end. like listen to me. i dont think it did that. but ALSO do beware the. well i have special condition so things arent addicting to me UNLIKE. THOSE OTHER PPL.