#but thats if i got close to her before hand (which i wouldve totally done because im a little shit and when i like someone theyre done for)

[seariii]

A group of us were talking about what would happen if we were guilty in Milgram and Kotoko attacked us.

Most of us said we'd get horribly beaten up. I think if I was my 14-year-old self, I could look stupid enough to be not worth attacking.

But what about you?

hiii!!! sorry to keep you waiting! this question is actually quite fun! i have a couple answers!!

she wouldnt beat me up because we would be too busy making out kissing JAJAJAJA NO BUT- with what i believe would be my "murder", current me, and/or not that long ago me, would've explained her situation already to her, so while it would take some talking, i think i could get away with her not beating me up (i know how to talk my way around people like her, which is why im so sure i could fix her- *gets shot*)

in the case that its younger me *points at saori* she wouldnt get to me in time lmao. choosing not to specify what that means

call me delusional, but i really think i could get away with her not beating me up JAJAJAJAJAJA i think she would be conflicted.... i think with the options irl me would have of her "murder", both would've been talked to her already... and to anyone else that i got close to and i feel are mature enough to talk about it to.

3. but okay, in a scenario where all this doesnt happen like that... where i didnt get close to her before hand.... hmm.... i could see myself breaking down because of all the voices and all that... i think she would land a couple hits, but seeing how i agree with her "i know i am the worst, im sorry- i never meant for this to happen" and so on and so forth, and literally having a mental breakdown in front of her would unmotivate her very fast and would be like "aaalllright i think thats enough for this one". i think she would feel bad/pity for me and project a bit (i now have the whole scene in my brain, i wont go into much detail here)

..... not saying mahiru and fuuta didnt have mental breakdowns lmao, but like, both were still holding onto a certain hope?... mappi's "i was just loving him, is it really that wrong?" and fuuta "i fucked up, yes, but so did others, and i was just trying to do good" even if its somewhat them trying to convince themselves about that hope more than actually having it....

[ivyuns]

love again ❆✰

lee minho

genre: angst / fluff 

word count: 2.4k

warnings: drugs + language + a bit suggestive + a few grammar mistakes (this was written at 5 am plz i cant) 

A/N: why do i keep having dreams of someone who i used to like :(

masterlist

nonidol!minho x fem!reader

taking a picture of the scenery of paris in front of you, smiling of how well it came out, a real smile this time. hearing a voice call out your name, you turn around as your smile dropped, seeing someone who you didnt ever wanted to see. lee minho was his name.

it started as you two were young and in love with each other back in high school. you two we known as the toxic couple. not because you two were bad for each other, but because you did everything together: drugs, alcohol, getting high, sex, you name it. other than those, you two had another side of being soft. the romantic dates and the funny days shared.

the time you two hung out as best friends everyday, making everyone in school thinking you two were couples. the night where minho took you star gazing late at night after having a fight with your mom and ended up kissing you and asking you to be his one and only.

til your mom found out that you did drugs and drank underage because of minho. she forced you to break up with him and you felt like shit. you called him to meet you at the park you two always went to and left the house to go see him.

arriving at the park and sitting on a bench with the winter breeze around you in your light cardigan. feeling something on your shoulders made you feel tense til you smelled where the owner of the jacket is. lifting your head up, a tear fell from your eyes. minho’s eyes soften as he took a seat next to you and wiped the tear away.

“y/n, whats wrong love?” minho asked. “m-min, we need to break up”. minhos eyes widened from your sentence. “b-baby what happen? is everything okay at home? please tell me”. sighing and standing up as you took off minhos jacket off of your shoulders and gave it back to him. “just know that i still love you forever and always and we’ll meet in the next life” and left him.

minho sat there in shock, not knowing what just happened. it felt like a big part of him just left him.

the next week at school, you werent at your seat. you were nowhere found in school. you were just laying on your bed, feeling total shit. feeling nothing to do but just cry to sleep. your mom made you do online school to stop you from seeing minho and his friends. you phone made another noise as you sighed. looking up to see your phone on your nightstand, you see 44 missed calls and 64 messages from minho. tears falling down even more, you ended up falling asleep with a worried minho waiting for you at school.

and that was the last time you ever saw him, you first and last lover. his cousin, who was your best friend had kept in touch with you and told you what minho had done during the breakup. inhaling and consuming drugs, overdosing on drugs, drinking more and going crazy while yelling your name and wanting you to come back into his life.

minho eventually got over the breakup in a year. looking at the memories you gave him, he had the urge to call you names you didnt like him saying. his cousin passed by his room and heard him saying things you hated being called. knowing it was about you since his cousin had knew you before minho so of course you told her everything.

feeling hurt and angry about what she told you, you felt yourself growing apart from him. why still love him after he called you those names? you gave yourselft sometime to heal and feel better about yourself.

now here you are now 3 years later, visiting your dream city, france. you always wanted to come here when you and minho were a bit older but things didnt work out.

turning around after hearing minho called you, he ran over to you. looking at your figure, he can tell you lost too much weight but still had the perfect brown eyes with your hair recently dyed to light brown and your fashion senses that changed. only with you in a black top and baggy tan pants with black converse. god how much did he miss you.

a few minutes after not talking, you figured he just wanted your attention after he searched you everywhere in paris when his cousin gave him updates on you. walking away from him, he quickly grabbed your wrist. “y-y/n, can we please talk?” you made him let go of your wrist and continued walking to your hotel.

minho quickly ran in front of you and stopped you. “please y/n, what did i do wrong?” you sighed and looked up at him. “maybe if you werent so psycho, you wouldve known.”

minho stood there and thought of what happened. was it when you broke up with him? no, it couldnt be your fault. when he called you more than enough? no. when he was about to propose to you and run away with each other? no way. you two broke things before he could even ask.

‘shit’ he thought. it made him realize. he was too angry at some point and called you names that you hated being called and point out your insecurities. he knew someone was outside his door at the time.

facing back reality, he sees you still in front of him. “figured out now, mr lee minho?” you crossed your arms and a little smirk formed on your face. even after years, you still cant stop loving him. minho takes your hand and drags you to a park to lay under the sunset, watching to stars as it turns dark. remembering from your high school days.

laying down with you in minhos embrace, you whispered a ‘i love you’ to minho and fell asleep after missing the warmth of minho. minho, who smiled after you fell into your slumber and pulled you closer to him. “i love you too y/n”

a few hours, you woke up to nobody in the park but you and minho in the dark. noticing you were still in minhos arms, you got up and woke up minho. minho opened his eyes and saw your panic face. “minho, where are we?!”

minho was fully awake now. looking everywhere, he couldnt remember where or how he took you to this area. “god minho if you werent such a dumbass. youre lucky that my phone works fine here” you said as you gathered your stuff and grabbed minho’s hand, forcing him to get up and follow to directions on your phone to where your hotel was.

minho just smiled and walked close to you. “you havent changed a bit y/n” he says. you stopped walking and turned around which resulted minho bumping into you. “youre really asking for a slap are you?” minho quickly shook his head a no and you turned around and began walking again.

-

opening your door to your hotel room, minho was full in daze. everything was decorated beautiful just for a hotel suite, or thats what minho thought it was. “you can sleep on the couch here, ill be upstairs if you need anything” you said and head upstairs where your room was after giving him an extra toothbrush and toothpaste and other necessary items.

“wait y/n!” he calls your name and you turn around to walk downstairs. stopping at he last step of the stairs, minho walks towards you. “can you actually stay down here. i-i mean like so we can catch up on stuff like you know?” you knew he just wanted you to stay down here since he couldnt be alone.

“ya, youre just trying love me again arent you minho?” you joked as you poked him. minho scoffed and went to sit on the couch. “as if”. walking towards the couch and sitting next to minho, you lift your legs onto the ottoman. “im just joking min, of course ill stay here with you” you say to him and looked at him with a happy smile. minho smiles also after hearing you call out his nickname youll call him during your relationship.

hugging you waist, minho leans towards you as you get lost in his sparkling eyes. he lays you down and kisses your lips. at first, you wanted to pull away, but after missing his kisses, how could you resist it? 

a few weeks had gone by and you two had returned to korea as a couple again. another 3 weeks and you moved in with minho after getting kicked out when she found out you found minho. with no hesitation, you facetimed minho about what happened and let his loving girlfriend move in with him.

moving your belongs into his apartment, you felt nauseous. going to the toilet to release the sickness, minho puts down a box and runs over to your side after hearing disturbing noises from the bathroom. “baby, what happened? are you okay?” minho says and tries his best to comfort you while he lifts your hair into a ponytail so its not in the way. “i-i think im-”

tears started streaming down your face as thoughts ran past your brain. what if he doesnt want the baby? is it too early? were still in our early twenties. you were cut off by minho hugging you. “its okay baby. we can check and see in the morning. lets go head to bed, i already got the last box.” nodding your head, minho leads you to the bedroom with his arms wrapped around you and your head on his chest, both slowly falling asleep.

waking up first thing in the morning, you turn and see minho still asleep. going to get ready to for the store. most importantly, for the pregnancy test.

-

walking back into the apartment, you immediately go to the bathroom and take the test. waiting for the test to give out the answer, minho wakes up to you not next to him. grabbing his phone from the nightstand, he goes to your contact and texts you.

my baby <3

where are u ?

hearing the familiar notification bell, he sighs as he realize you didnt take your phone with you. getting up, minho goes to the bathroom and sees you with the test in the palm of your hands. he goes up behind you and hugs you and to see the test come back with positive.

with the biggest smile on his face, minho turns you around to face him. “you dont know how happy i am y/n” “but minho, how are you not mad?” you pulled away from the hug with a confusion look on your face, “shhh, just pretend i wanted this to happen in the future when we dated.” minho back hugs you, facing the bathroom mirror.

you see minhos hands rubbing your stomach. “its been our dream to have kids and get married. and ta da!” turning yourself around, you hug minho at a better position. “thank you minho for loving me back and not leaving us, i love you so much”. minho leaned in and put his forehead on yours. “i love you more than you do baby” and gave you a loving peck.

END <3

yes another minho fic bc this was sitting in my drafts and i dont know where this was heading to hehe

[illuvacot]

okay SU movie spoilers inbound ! also. these are just my thoughts and no one really has to agree with me here! mostly just venting

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thing is, uh, i dont really feel all that bad for spinel? like, definitely not as much as y'all do. i feel bad but my heart sure doesn't ache for her. and listen, i don't think villanizing pink is the way to go

i mean. yes pink sure did that shit and hurt those around her Yet Again, but yeah we have to remember where she comes from - the diamonds are notorious for "instilling discipline," aka being Huge assholes. they took away her pearl and locked her in a room for ages whenever she even did anything that could be even slightly fun or "out of line" and all that jazz. i'm not sure if the og pearl mishap happened before or after she got the colony, but either way, taking charge of a planet meant that pink had to grow up now. it's supposed sign of responsibility given by the diamonds; a chance to prove herself. that they don't have to look down on her. that she's equal. this isn't an excuse, just. a reason.

(also, i bet the locking-in-dark-room thing started way before pink got earth, which would've already instilled the notion that having fun = punishment.)

i think pink would've come back. i really do, honestly, once she got the hand of this new thing. this new Huge thing she was responsible for. i think the only reason she told spinel to stay still was because she needed to go and spinel literally would not take no for an answer. yall saw the clip.

BUT then here is where i think pink pearl got taken, since pink pearl was probably what distracted her from her planet duties because they were too fun. so the idea of coming back was thrown away; if they did that to her pearl, what of spinel, who was designed to be fun? if pink went back and brought her with her, the diamonds wouldve taken her away. if she made too many visits, the diamonds still would've taken her away. because spinel would be a distraction.

the best decision pink could've made was to tell spinel the truth: she had to become a leader and she'll probably not play as much, anymore. maybe she could've assigned spinel a different role (a court jester? morale?). it would've broken spinel's heart but most likely it wouldn't hurt as much as the trick game did. but pink has a habit of avoiding hurt, like keeping Pink Diamond a secret because of the chance of backlash, leaving the diamonds instead of continuing to convince them because she knew the pain they could cause (and the emotial baggage of arguing with people you thought close), fully becoming rose quartz, yeah, you get it. the trick game is definitely in her lane since it ensures pink never has to see the hurt that she knows is inevitable. and that's all on her. but there was no good outcome of this and there never could be.

aand spinel isnt that great either? sorry about this but she's. clingy - abusively clingy. the kind that doesnt take "no" for answer, the kind that doesnt let the other have their personal space, you get it. this isnt a reason that justifies pink's decision - NOBODY deserves this. absolutely nobody. it's just that in the clip, if spinel hadnt kept going despite pink saying no, pink wouldnt have done the trick game. if she had just, taken no at face value, she wouldn't have been ordered to stand still for 6000 years. THIS ISN'T HER FAULT, it ISNT. its just. if she had just shown that she could be Not Goofy for like a Second pink could've reconsidered. but she didnt.

and i guess i can't blame that - being goofy was her purpose, what she was created for. it took a while for the other gems to find their place and unlearn what homeworld told them to be, and it'll be the same for spinel. but spinel wasn't the greatest friend either. and pink couldn't have taken her with her, anyway. it all really was doomed to break from the beginning.

so like. i dont know. where was i going w this tf

what im SAYING is that there really is no one to blame here??? except probably the diamonds for creating this shitty system in the first place. since it created this environment in which people hurt themselves and the people around them in order to succeeded. "perfect empire" sure is perfect, huh.

also please this is literally just my take No One has to agree, just wanted to get this off my chest and yeah thats it ,,, spinel is a really sad character and a complex one and i totally can see that ! please dont attack me HAHDJSFBSF