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I saw a "draw your oc in this outfit" challenge on Twitter and i felt compelled- so behold, Arielle be upon ye
#I cant believe this is the first time im coloring her in too auaughh#This was just a quick sketch to figure out its colors too in a way#And so its not super polished#I still know next to nothing about her though#And tbh im thinking of just giving her the Amnesiac flaw#I think i did a good job with its hair and eyes though like those look cute#outfit challenge#oc art#eric finally speaks#wod oc#demon the fallen#demon the fallen oc#arielle vibes#Im discovering a fav character trait of mine and that is Visible Roots for Dyed Hair#OH SHIT DOESA THIS COUNT AS SUGGESTIVE???#suggestive#just in case
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BEHOLD... MY MOST INSANE CREATION YET
SPRINKLINGS
#note that this is still a WIP—it's not in a super polished state yet! the rotating anim fucked up the animation blending#and i intend to wait until sdodr drops so i can replace its new species (🤞) instead. i want sprinklings to coexist with inklings and octos#splatoon#splatoon 3#my art#my mods#splatoon mods
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I am nothing if I don't follow the whims of my heart wherever they may lead!!! Lazytown self insert!! 😳💖💖
She lives in Lazytown and I'm debating whether to make her Stephanie's cousin or just another citizen, but either way the particular reason she isn't as active as she could be is she's scared of EVERYTHING. Yes, I've thrust upon her my issues with anxiety (inspired partly by the recent wave I've been experiencing over the past few days 😅) she's scared of cars, birds, germs, certain types of bugs, and it leads to her feeling safer at home.
The lessons she learns with Sportacus and the others are to teach that even though the world can be scary, you can overcome it and get out there and experience all the good in it! 🥺💖
Taglist♡: @me-myself-and-my-fos @tiny-cloud-of-flowers @sunstar-of-the-north @dearly-beeloved @adoredbyalatus @changeling-selfship @crushes-georg @miutonium @cherry-bomb-ships @rosieaurora @rejaytionships @sunflawyer @in-true-blue-love @tropicalgothships @little-miss-selfships @cupiidzbow (as always pls let me know if you need to be added or removed!)
#artfarts#self insert#self ship#self shipping community#self insert community#romantic selfship#fictional other#lazytown#sportacus#sportacus lazytown#lazytown oc#🍎 apple of my eye 🍎#HRRGGGGHHHHHHH!!!!!#I DONT KNOW MAN WHO AM I TO DENY MYSELF SMALL JOYS AND COMFORTS!!!!!!!#i think i really like him 😭😭😭#and god do i need something as fun and silly and lighthearted as this show lately!! its so nice!#also hehe freddie/rudy inspired me to post the second pic bcs of his more rough/sketchy art!!#like it doesn't have to be super polished to look great 🥺🥺 thank you feddie!!!!#and the second pic is meant to be like.....my s/i was about to trip or maybe fall into a hole#and he did an unnecessary backflip before running in to save her!!!#I GUESS YOU'LL SEE MORE SOON + THOUGHTS#i definitely hope so at least 💖💖💖
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dally!
#sorry that caption feels appropriate#dallon weekes#idkhow#my art#:) <3#wanted to get it done for my birthday but. ehh#gonna post it on ig and tag him. im so fuckign scared#its not. super polished#if you take a look at his shirt its um yea#lets not focus on that rn…….#also a question for the 2 people that will read this — if this drawing were a gloom song which one would it be ??#i want a song to post it with for the. ig post IM SO SCARED
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Break the fourth wall.
#isat#isat siffrin#isat loop#technically... thats what Im implying#isat art#anyway have this thing i was doing. Its kind of a concept doodle for a larger project so its not super polished sorry lol#also pls dear god tumblr DESTROYED the quality so pls actully click and look FUCK
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quick metalhawk I doodled from memory! for my inking class hw!! :)))) 💞🌟✨💖
#one of our weekly assignments is to do three doodles a week and they can be whatever we want so.....🥰#could be more polished and pretty but.....im tryna practice being loose and casual w these doodles...break my perfectionism habits lolol#my friend-shaped beloved<333 i love art school guys its kicking my ass but im also having lots of fun 🫶🫶🫶#anyways :)#metalhawk#masterforce moment òwó 🥺💖✨#super god masterforce#hawk#transformers#transformers super god masterforce#masterforce#doodle#ink doodle#art#fanart#kunidraws#<3#tf#maccadam#random#anime#transformers anime#sketch
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cannot believe i took a crack at animating again after almost two year break just to do something this silly lol. on brand honestly
#its not polished at all cuz i only spent this morning making it#but its whatever#bramcraft#bsd#bungo stray dogs#bsd bram#bsd lovecraft#heard that part of the audio and immediately got possessed by the forces of the deep just to make this stupid thing hdfjk#if you know where its from you get a gold star#anyhow. head in hands#im not even that super into bsd i watched it back in 2016 and then dropped it but bram just compels me so i decided to take a gander#when he got introduced but weary sigh accidentally got invested#so you can imaging how im doing in relation to latest developments lmao#im coping with my bramcrafts
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Finished some Cassies (plural) off today.
#summerly draws#theyre so smiley i hate them /lying#did... surprisingly okay on the chair. considering i cant draw wheelchairs. its a pediatric wallaby chair. one of the 12'' ones#these are references for something im working on so. theyre not super polished. but they dont have to be#mostly to get a feel for different outfits cassie can wear (and would possibly wear) with different mobility aids#poor moon boot cassie though. i still remember wearing ONE moonboot about two years ago when i broke my ankle#and shes gotta wear two? im a meanie please take her away from me#no really shed be dying inside- how can she wear pretty shoes with THOSE on???#i managed to draw exactly one (1) good hand... out of six. orz kill me dead#edit- i cant believe i forgot to colour her eyebrows on the last one fuck im stupid#dont trust me with anything#is it really a birthday party fanfic#:3 yeah this was secretly character design for my monstrosity lol
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👁️🦎🎯
(crops under cut)
#natsume yuujinchou#matoba seiji#natori shuuichi#horrible exorcists#sorry i couldnt think of a caption i literally sat here for like 2 minutes lol#usually i use a quote from the scene or a lyric from a song but in this scene they're just Looking#anyway FUCK architecture#really though this is csp's perspective ruler's fault. i shoulda just done this by hand#but i made it work. since it wasnt super super complicated lol#ummm i feel like natori looks like a baby ceo but that is what he was wearing at least in the anime version of this scene#and midorikawa's kind of vague about clothes so i made it easy on myself#but why are you rolling up to the exorcist meeting in a navy blazer and tan chinos?#his uniform color is tan so ig the pants could be from that but the blazer......#tryna represent the natori clan in front of the other exorcists ig idk#meanwhile matobas just in his gakuran lol#hes not the clan head yet so he can just be there as a kid#he even gets told off by takuma and called seiji-kun.....could you imagine like.#it's weird for him to not be matoba#anyway. um i completely kind of fudged the architecture because its hard to tell where exactly in the building this scene is and#i had a specific composition in mind#i only realized i messed up how the windows work like 3/4 of the way into lineart soooo#but thats the kind of thing only i would notice probably#btw i was originally drawing a different scene of them but i was faced with the reality of foliage.#and i remembered this romeo and juliet ass scene existed so#i chose architecture LOL#okay last thing. i feel like natoris haircut is too polished and nice but fr wtf is his canon hair#im doing my best LOL.........but boy#OKAY im done
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Ya kno, I genuinely didn't expect yall to mostly vote on me working on my own silly au. Idk I slammed it there cause it IS another Dandy I have on the back burner that I keep trying to work on at the same time as the others, but I was like "Oh these other aus are actually popular and already known so of course people would wanna see those first."
Anywho, yall got me thinking about the au more. Let me see how long it takes me to have art of it to show yall-
#text post#just rambling#Im kinda giddy tho its so silly. i could...info dump in a text post SURE but i wanna have some kinda visual to show yall first!#its VERY much a WIP and not even close to super polished#but maybe thats okay. maybe its okay to slowly work on it along with yall instead of trying to make it perfectly from the getgo#either way! i wanna have at LEAST Wally and Dandy designed first before I say too too much#have no name for it...either. just the placeholder name ive been using when talking to pals#ill figure that out too idk idk
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why otto was pissed off at julius (also - otto might have developed Control Issues???) (another arc 8 otto theory/analysis)
so this is a sequel to my other post on why otto is so pissed off at subaru (arc 8 ch 24) which. yeah this says a lot about otto either way given ive now made more than one analysis post about why hes being a Pissbaby HAH but anyway.
i think ottos anger at julius is super fascinating bc it seemingly comes out of nowhere, but i think it makes sense upon first glance. julius straightforwardly breaks the hard cold truth to subaru about how louis Has to die. otto snaps at julius bc of what you assume to be either 1. otto doesnt agree with louis dying and/or 2. otto doesnt want julius to say this because itll upset subaru. but then theres the answer that otto gives, which is: otto doesnt want an outsider to the emilia camp interfering with this matter because it affects the emilia camp the most.
we know that reasons 2 (subaru will be upset hearing that louis will most likely have to die) and 3 (otto doesnt want someone outside of emilia camp interfering) are True. the latter is obvious because otto himself is being truthful when he states that, and the former is likely true due to otto snapping at julius after julius says that louis has to die right to subarus face after subarus tried to defend louis, showing that subaru cares deeply for her. otto snapping at julius reads partially, to me at least, as him trying to defend subaru with all the energy of covering the ears on a child so they dont hear something Bad.
but only two chapters after otto first snaps at julius we learn that not only does otto agree with julius on louis needing to be dead, but otto agrees to the point where hes withholding information in order for the emilia camp to remain suspicious of louis and so louis is more likely to die. so it’s interesting that the Only Reasons otto gives to julius on why otto does not want julius interfering with emilia camp are 1. you are an outsider to this matter and 2. you are my enemy. otto is specifically very hostile to julius and anastasia Even After julius apologizes for interrupting in emilia camp matters - and otto Still pushes forward to emphasize that he considers julius and anastasia enemies.
for someone as politically savvy as otto, it's Off-putting that he takes such a passionate position against both julius and anastasia when he knows that theyre not only subarus friends, but theyre also strong allies to the emilia camp who aided them in arc 6 and are loyal enough to follow them into vollachia. so why is otto being so hostile to them when, if anything, it's a Detriment to be so hostile to your own camps allies?
but theres also something else about julius - otto specifically notes that julius "walks in the light" just as emilia and subaru do. despite being beaten down by life, they still choose to hold onto their idealism and their genuine desire to save people. but otto also notes that - unlike emilia and subaru - julius draws the line at louis, and, just like otto, julius figures that louis has to die. which is absolutely not something that julius does on the regular (ex novel readers will remember that julius felt saddened by balleroy dying), and otto recognizes that julius's idealism vs his desire to end louis are in conflict with each other. subaru, at the moment, is at the extreme end of idealism - the desire to save Everyone and go against all odds. otto is, at this point, at the extreme other end - otto is pragmatic and not only doesnt believe that everyone can be saved, but otto doesnt believe that he can have everything he wants, so he has to prioritize. julius, meanwhile, is the in between - julius is a knight that serves a pragmatic merchant himself, and while he wants to save people, he wants to kill louis. he recognizes that louis dying is the cleanest outcome, with a suitable punishment for her actions, and for that reason it has to happen. otto seems uncomfortable by this because he sincerely believes that his path is the best one to take, even though it isnt necessarily morally right - meaning that he figures that he has to oppose subaru and emilia in order to move forward. but then julius comes along and challenges everything ottos thinking by being this blend of subaru and ottos beliefs.
but what is ottos path? otto wants everything to go the way that he plans, which may or may not align with emilia and subarus desires. otto wants it to align with the emilia camps desires because he cares for them and his loyalty to them dictates so much of his actions. but that same loyalty has been leading him to take increasingly excessive actions in the name of trying to keep them safe, both physically and politically, and in his head, keeping his camp safe doesnt Always align with what the rest of his camp wants. keeping his camp safe means doing so even at the cost of going behind his camp's backs. keeping his camp safe means that he's going to keep them safe even if they become upset at his actions.
thats because ottos had this small habit (thats been. steadily growing) of doing what he thinks is best with little to no communication with the rest of his camp. he saved roswaal's tome and kept it hidden from the rest of his camp for a year. he did this out of his continued wariness of roswaal and he plans to restore the book just to find the information in it - and once hes done that, he plans to destroy the book again so that it doesnt fall into the wrong hands. being suspicious of roswaal is understandable, but keeping the fact that he grabbed the tome secret for a year is Definitely a little sketchy. and it doesnt help matters that that same tome he brought into priestella lures the witch cult into the city.
on top of that, theres of course ottos scheming so that the emilia camp agrees to help vollachia in a way that He Wants, along with otto purposefully withholding information about louis. On Top of That, it's not just that ottos withholding information + wanting louis dead - those are already slightly questionable enough, but additionally otto is well aware that subaru cares deeply for louis. otto has not voiced his desire for louis to die and has hidden information that could help save louis's life. theres absolutely No Way that otto doesnt know that if/once louis dies, subaru will be Very distraught by this, but otto keeps going anyway out of pragmatism - out of the thought that subaru will have to eventually get over louis dying, because otto has weighed the possible costs and benefits in his head and hes decided that killing louis has less consequences even though itd deeply upset subaru. thats what walking in the dark means - otto will oppose subaru and emilia out of practicality, because what will actually keep them safe in ottos opinion might not align with what they actually want to do. ottos position in arc 8 thus far implies that hes willing to betray his friends if it means keeping them safe.
this is even more interesting when you bring up a certain quote from the bittersweet peddling trade log side story - otto notes: "But wouldn't I have nightmares if I forsook a person who has done nothing wrong?"
and what is he doing in arc 8? he tried to forsake almost, if not all 50 million people in vollachia. hes trying to forsake someone he knows is innocent now (louis). he's trying to save subaru, but at the same time hes forsaking subaru by withholding information that could potentially save louis. hes tried to forsake julius and anastasia in the sense that his words carry weight as internal affairs minister of the emilia camp and he just declared them - loyal allies to his camp -his enemies.
the thing is - otto is a hypocrite. in more ways than one. otto tells subaru to depend on his friends more in arc 4 - which was the Big Speech of arc 4 - only to turn around and do various things behind his own friends' backs in the name of trying to save them. only to turn around and announce julius and anastasia aka allies to his camp are Enemies. otto snaps at julius to back away as julius is an "outsider" - and while julius is an outsider in the sense that hes not part of emilia camp, everyone reading the novels knows that julius himself has been majorly fucked over by louis and therefore has more than earned the right to have a say in what happens to her. otto remains suspicious of roswaal, understandably, only to agree with todds tactics in arc 7 and make strategies himself (his Leaving Vollachia and only taking who you care about plan) that roswaal agrees with. otto is the one snapping back at roswaal and insisting that roswaals only telling him that opposing subaru and emilia is a poison that will Kill Him because roswaal wants otto to be less difficult and more Compliant so that roswaal can get up to his own schemes - as if otto himself isnt making his own schemes in his head. otto knows that things like his plan to ditch vollachia is callous and hurts innocent people, especially after seeing roswaal agree with his tactics, and he feels guilty for this. but he keeps going anyway, which will likely end up proving roswaal right. the roswaal + otto and todd + otto parallels are Extremely purposeful, especially with the vollachia saga (arc 7-8) where one of the themes is about whether you can truly save everyone without sacrificing morality.
julius might be the proof that there is some sort of middle ground between subaru and ottos worldviews and strategies. you can do unpleasant things that may need to be done while still remaining kind and trying to save as many as you can - instead of abandoning them.
but ottos been Excessively harsh to julius, anastasia, and even roswaal and subaru. getting so angry at someone that you punch a wall hard enough to break your hand not just once, but nearly twice, is Excessive, especially when subarus goal is ultimately just trying to save people. and i think you could also attribute ottos Harshness to the stress hes under right now. otto is - friendly reminder, hah - the same guy who gets anxious easily to the point where his stomach hurts. he gets anxious over paperwork. he gets anxious over his friends and their. lacking. negotiation skills. hes always been Very Loud in his complaints whenever they do things hes not happy with. he admits that hes lost weight because of stress at the BEGINNING of arc 5 (otto, im so sorry but you literally havent gone through all of arc 5+ yet). his drinking is also to cope with stress (our introduction to him in arc 3 is otto coping with his new debt by drinking in a bar). so - otto is Easily anxious. over a lot of things. by the time we get to arc 8, hes gone through a Lot to get here. and stress does Not look good on otto.
where do control issues stem from? yeah, ottos main motivator is to save his camp, but past that, hes tired of not having control. in ch 24 he questions himself - he questions his purpose and his existence and he comes to the conclusion that his meaning for existence is to oppose subaru. subaru, at his core, is all about exerting his will - he brute forces the outcomes he wants because of rbd.
otto, meanwhile, is left to be dragged into danger again and again. ottos life is already out of his control often because of his bad luck and because of his dp making life difficult for him in his formative years - and now hes been dragged into danger repeatedly the moment he got involved with subaru. arc 5 in particular, however, was partially a consequence of otto bringing the tome to priestella - but its a consequence that he didnt expect at all. ottos legs were injured severely by gluttony, leaving him out of commission with no choice but to watch subaru and some of their camp walk away to the watchtower to face more danger without otto being able to be there to make sure theyre safe (otto specifically tells subaru at the end of arc 5 that hes Very Unhappy with this decision). then otto has to go to vollachia to save rem and subaru, only to arrive there and realize that subaru wants to stay to help vollachia. otto goes - fine. if thats what you want, ill help. and then otto finds out that subarus trying to defend gluttony. otto, i think, has grown increasingly resentful of the danger he and his friends have been put in (which is a mix of factors Out of their Control, but its also just. his friends sometimes deciding to do dangerous things as well), so hes developed this mentality that its him and his camp versus everyone else. it all boils down to the thought he has that he cant have both. and if his friends are really going to try to have both, hes going to try to do what he thinks is best. because if they keep trying to pick the more dangerous options - ie the worse options, in ottos opinion - then hes going to make more decisions behind their backs. because hes not gonna trust them to make the decisions that he thinks are the better ones, because its not in Their Nature to do so.
but its in his nature to do that. what do you do when something grows out of control? you try to exert control. theres also the possibility of: why keep allies to your camp around when they encourage your camp to continue staying in vollachia? how can you trust them if theyre going to interrupt on your internal camp affairs?
which is why he grows angry at julius for trying to interfere - because being the internal affairs minister to the emilia camp is otto's job, and he doesnt want someone outside of the camp interfering with his friends and any possible plans he has or will have. this is also why julius apologizes to otto - he recognizes ottos protectiveness and ottos status within his camp.
so. anyway. TLDR: ottos acting a little similar to arc 4 subaru, isnt he? thinking he knows whats best.... trying to manipulate everything around him to get the outcome he wants..... pushing forward on his own instead of depending on his friends..... refusing to depend on his friends.... having Confrontations with roswaal...... etc, etc.
#listen........ i had to write all my thoughts on this before it left my head. HAH. this has gotta be my most polished analysis yet lajsdlfjs#otto is being a little pissbaby. ok. i love him but hes a little freak for sure HAH#rezero#arc 8 spoilers#otto suwen#otto and lack of control is super fascinating. bc you look at him in the ifs and yeah. hes got a Lack of Control alright. its a pattern wit#his life across like. so so many routes. and yeah hes not the only one of course but hes the one who responds to it Bitterly.#like. hes got good intentions. if youre his loved ones. but HAH. oh its definitely leading him to hell alright lajsldfjs#thisll be the last detailed otto post i swear akdndnd. maybe.#frefallingtea added that otto 1. probs feels guilty over the tome leading witch cult into priestella in arc 5 and 2. julius is also a ‘middl#e ground’ bc he was also affected by gluttony (in a way different from subaru and otto) which i forgot to add but both of those are true yes#:O !!#otto literally kind of caused arc 5 fr and then he felt Direct Consequences via being in danger + painful leg injury hah T^T
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suns out guns out
#sapnap#sapnap fanart#pandasblr#ignore the quality lmao#blazedraws#playing with different styles so its not super polished sowwy
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I know that peach game is like. For kids. Im SO aware of it. But its. So fucking cheap???? This is like the bloatware of nintendo games. What is going on here ???? Not to give nintendo even an ounce of credit…but they generally treat their main characters better than this. And especially after seeing mario wonder, its really obvious how poorly put together and boring this game is. Which is such a shame. Bc Super Princess Peach is right there. Go play that instead.
#chattin#i do NOT have the game; i havent bought a nintendo ip game in years (wonder was gifted to me)#i am watching my mom play it#this is a 60$ game…………#and its SO shoddy. no flair or glam or anything#the species they used for the staff is so bland#the font they used for alot of the reveals for her looks like block text they were supposed to replace w a better font#and peachs voice is SO stilted and like#not. nice to hear 😭#its a kids game but like. all of nintendos games for mario n peach and yoshi are made for kids#so its a bit of a cop out to use that as an excuse#in general games are getting less and less polish#and companies are spitting about poorly optimized barely functioning games at a higher cost#this game is like. SO small and SO short#and theres STILL insane load times and frame stuttering.#for a game that is essentially a glorified hide and seek popup book. its bad. its BAD#gameplay is like bizarrely unintuitive despite being so easy. no checkpoints for u to personally utilize; its only there for incase u die#barely anything is explained. and its like that by design bc it forces u to replay stages for 100%#for missing a crucial mechanic they WONT explain to u until the middle of the level#its very. bad. its cute! you could give this to a little kid who really liked peach and theyd like it#but its disappointing bc theres LOTS of cute kids games that feel like Actual games for them#spreading my super princess peach agenda. that game was cute….
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Here's a little Rasey meet cute snippet from a bigger project I'm working on. The story isn't Raph/Casey centric and I wasn't sure I was even gonna put the ship in, but apparently I can't help myself!
Casey Jones was on the hunt. Shrouded in a dark hood and menacing mask, he lurked in the shadows, watching over his city from the rooftops and striking fear into the hearts of friends and foe alike.
The lead of the pencil Casey was sketching with broke at the tip, and he sighed as he pushed more out. One sneaker-clad foot hung down, tapping a rhythm against the fire escape. His earbuds hung in a loop around his neck and pushed out music as loud as they could, the sound tinny and crunchy. His mask was pushed up onto the top of his head, and he stuck his tongue out as he concentrated on the drawing, filling in his hoodie with hatching. His own dark form crouched on the page, intense gaze peering out from his skull-like mask. He hummed, lightly sketched out a cape flowing dramatically from his back, then frowned and erased it. Nah, that looked stupid.
He glanced up to check the surrounding alleyways and streets for any nefarious criminals.
From the highest point, he could survey all of Brooklyn. He was an all-seeing watchdog, ready to sink his teeth into the neck of any foolish trespasser.
A breeze tousled his messy hair. He watched an empty plastic bag dance down an alley, listened to the rustle of a cat digging through the trash. Nothing. He sighed. Another dead night. Maybe he needed to take his act to another part of the city?
Movement along the rooftops caught his eye. He squinted and leaned forward, peering at the shadowy figure that was sprinting across roofs and hopping alleyway gaps with a speed and grace that was, frankly, unfair. Was that…? Casey shoved his hand in his backpack and frantically fished out his binoculars, wanting to get a good look at the person before they ran out of sight. But lucky for him, as he raised them to his eyes, the person paused on one of the rooftops and didn’t move.
A burly build, green skin, red bandana hanging around his shoulders. “Hello again,” Casey muttered to himself, zooming the binoculars in to get a better look at him. He was slumped over the edge of the rooftop, resting his arms on the ledge and letting his head hang down.
An old challenger returns.
Casey threw his things into his backpack, pulled his mask down over his face, and scrambled up. The clanging of the fire escape followed him as he made for the turtle mutant.
The night air was cool and felt good against the warmth of his skin. Raph took deep breaths, trying to let it soak into him, to temper the burning that was starting to choke him from the inside out, but it didn’t help any.
His brothers' eyes flashed through his mind. Worried, gentle, caring, unsure. Unsure what to say to him, what to do with him, but always trying to be understanding. They were everything but what they should be, which was angry. Resentful. They should even hate him a little bit. He knew they wouldn't. Couldn't. But they should.
He dug his fingernails into his arm, willing the skin to break and bleed. It didn't, of course. It held firm like soft leather. He squeezed his eyes shut and grimaced, the lump in his throat unbearable.
“Fuck,” he muttered, before taking one more deep breath and forcing himself to relax. His face, his throat, his back, his chest, his hands, all loosened the impossible tension he held them under. And slowly, his chin trembled, his lips pulled back, his throat pushed, and a sob fell out of his mouth.
He ducked his head down. It didn’t matter that he was entirely alone. His hands went over his face as another sob tore through him and tears started to pool in his palms. His breathing was haggard and quick no matter how he tried to deepen it, and his shoulders heaved. He let it go, knowing that the tears and the snot and the cries were the only way to loosen the knot in his chest, to quell the burning in his throat.
A shuffling of feet sounded to his left. He whipped his head up, jumping back and reaching one hand for the sai at his side.
“Woah there.” Hands up in surrender, the guy came to a halt. Hockey mask over his face, golf bag of old sports equipment on his back… it was the guy from the park. Casey Jones. Fucking Christ. “I come in peace.”
Raph eyed him up and down, taking in the relaxed stance and unassuming gaze. He let his hand fall from his sai and turned so he was staring over the ledge again, very aware of how he must look. Great. This total asshole of a stranger had caught him alone on a rooftop, bawling his eyes out. It made his hackles rise, and he opened his mouth to tell the guy to fuck off.
A little hiccup came out instead, and with that, he lost every ounce of energy he had to be upset. Instead of saying anything, he just gave the guy a watery glare.
Seeing that Raph wasn’t about to attack him, Casey moved a bit closer and leaned one hand casually against the ledge, propping the other one on his hip. He gave Raph a lidded look. “We meet again.”
Raph cocked a brow at him. “Uh-huh. What do you want?”
Casey shrugged. “Well, I was gonna challenge you to a duel, but seeing as you’re in the middle of crying, I’m gonna assume you’re not in the headspace for it.”
“I’m not in the middle of crying,” Raph lied, unsure why he was even trying.
“You very clearly are crying.”
“Also, a duel? Really? What, are we gonna turn our backs? Take ten paces?” He laughed a little at the ridiculous image. “Draw pistols?”
Raph couldn’t see it behind the mask, but Casey smiled at him. The turtle mutant looked so different without the mask over his eyes, face open and bare. He was an absolute mess. His face was covered in tears and snot, his eyes were red-rimmed, his cheeks were flushed, he looked miserable. His glare was still biting, his watery laugh was still deep and full. Something about it all tugged at Casey’s chest.
“Okay, fine, wise guy.” He stepped closer so he was right next to the mutant, put his back against the ledge, and tipped the mask back so it was on top of his head. “What do you wanna call it?”
“A fight.” The turtle wiped some of the snot off his face with the back of his hand, then turned his head to look at Casey full-on. “It’s just a fight.”
Casey sat under the heavy stare of both amber eyes for a moment. Then he rolled his eyes. “Pssshhh. Boring! Duel sounds way cooler. I don’t care if we have to break out the pistols, we’re gonna duel.”
The turtle shook his head, but a smile tugged at the corner of his lips. “You’re an idiot.”
“Yeah but in a cute way, right?”
Raph gave him an incredulous look and lied for the second time that night. “No. Not in a cute way.”
Casey shoved a fist against his chest. “Oof! Straight to the heart!” He leaned closer to Raph. “So… since we can’t duel because you’re crying and stuff–”
“Not crying.”
“Uh-huh. Do you wanna talk about why you’re crying?”
Raph gave him a truly disgusted look. “To you?”
“Why not?”
“You’re a total stranger, and the only other time I interacted with you, we were enemies.”
“Woah, woah, enemies? I wouldn’t say that.”
“We fought.”
“We dueled, totally different.”
Raph scoffed and looked away. Casey chewed on his lip, thinking, then slapped a hand against the turtle’s shoulder.
“You know what makes me feel better when everything is shit?”
Raph looked at him out of the corner of his eye. “...what?”
Casey pulled a baseball bat from the golf bag on his back and brandished it proudly. “Bustin’ heads.”
The turtle eyed the bat warily for a moment. “Uh, yeah, I noticed that’s how you get your kicks. You kinda have a hard time… stopping. Busting their heads, I mean.”
A shrug. “Yeah, sometimes. Don’t worry, I’ll be good.” He batted eyelashes at Raph and offered a winning grin. “C’mon.”
Raph pursed his lips, thinking that he should really be getting back because Leo did not like anyone being gone too long, especially when he was injured like this, when he couldn’t just get up and track them down. But Casey’s smile was lively and warm, and it was hard not to smile back.
“Alright.” He pushed away from the ledge and gave his face one last wipe to remove the evidence of his crying session. “I could go for some head-busting.”
“Hell yeah!” Casey grabbed his wrist to tug him toward the fire escape, then let go. “Hey, what’s your name by the way? Or, like, do you have a name?”
Raph looked down at his own wrist, then back up at Casey as he pulled his hockey mask back over his face. He actually looked kind of menacing, with a face of bone white and shadow, but Raph knew that the smile was still wide and burning bright under there. “It’s Raph.”
Casey swung down onto the fire escape. “They won’t know what hit ‘em, Raph!”
#my writing#fandom writings#fanfiction#fanfic#tmnt#teenage mutant ninja turtles#raph#raphael#casey jones#rasey#sorry this isn't very polished or interesting i promise its better in context#anyway have a meetcute (part 2 because they technically already met?)#this is from my own tmnt version where the turtles are genetically engineered to be super soldiers so raph has really tough skin#dulled pain receptors and he doesn't get hurt very easily#and it causes lots of guilt and stuff ofc lmao#idk if this is gonna go on ao3 cause i don't really like it enough
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Scene drawn very carefreely.
There is also no story context, I just wanted to draw Kasifer in a simple scene. But it looks like he saw someone sneakily taking a picture of him.
#kasifer#oc#ocs#my art#artists on tumblr#original character#its rough around the edges and many things i absolutely couldve done better but this was super not meant to be a bigger drawing#my goal was to just get it to a point where most things are worked on and look somewhat fitting into the scene#and then call it a day bc detailing it too much would just frustrate me bc i know i can never get it to be perfect#and thats perfectly fine#i think sometimes you can just let yourself be a little messy for the sake of hey! you finished something and you got the point across#because one day my 'messy' will be what i currently consider polished and so on#its a process and we are here for the journey and not the finish line
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treated myself to a pair of old black leather surplus boots because i can have another pair of boots, as a treat
#theyre an old pair of austrian combat boots & im excited theyre really sexy when polished#i mostly wanted a pair that i dont care too much if they get wrecked doing whatever#plus i dont have any black leather boots that arent super bulky work boots & its gonna round out my wardrobe very nicely#& its army surplus so its wayyyyy cheaper than fuckin anything else short of having godly luck at the thrift store
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