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“Thing”

Did

Did you forget the word “art”?

NEXT TO HIS WIFE, BITCH (FUCK POSEIDON)(DESERVED EVERYTHING)

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Being free to express your sexuality does not exclude asexuality, you are allowed to express yourself

the pain of being asexual and not wanting sexual stuff shoved down my throat every day but also feeling the need to be 100% sex positive because if im not im a bad person due to how pushed back and looked down upon being sexual already is in society at the same time

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I’m here with advice that no one asked for!

Trigger warning: mentions of suicide

While I certainly see the point in trying to protect your loved ones from your problems, it is not a good thing. Yes, it can give them peace, but what if it doesn’t?

Even if people can’t tell just how much you’re struggling, they often notice that there’s something. They might still be worried about you. And when someone truly cares about you they would much rather help you through the hard times than for you to struggle all on your own. You probably feel the same way about your own friends, don’t you? That they shouldn’t have to struggle alone?

But there’s also the risks.

What if your mental health gets worse? How bad would it have to get before you have no other choice? What will you do if it’s either tell them or die?

Because I have talked with friends on messages at 2 am about how they shouldn’t kill themself, and I would much rather do that a hundred times more than for them to never tell me anything and instead just end it. Of course, there are limits to how much your loved ones can do, and sometimes it might be better to get therapy, but you still shouldn’t, and especially shouldn’t have to, keep everything hidden from those you love.

Have you ever heard the metaphor “keeping someone in the dark”, it means keeping secrets. In this situation I think that’s nice to keep in mind, that while the truth might not be bright or cheerful, keeping it hidden is still a way to keep people in the dark.

⚠️Big ass vent, wouldn't recommend reading if you're having a good day (or in general)⚠️

Lately, I've been trying to get my life together and actually live a life i want to live, appreciate the people i love, so on and so forth, and i think i've been succeeding so far. But sometimes i can't help but wonder if what im doing will actually benefit anyone long term.

I used to be a loser who stayed inside all day playing video games in a dark room in my own little bubble, and that's not something im proud of, but whatever problems or issues i had just stayed in that bubble no matter the seriousness. An echo chamber of my worst thoughts, except i was the only one inside. There was nothing i could possibly do to hurt the people i loved so deeply because i didn't really love anybody that deeply.

Those issues never stopped existing, however. They got balanced out by more positive things, but none of them were solutions. And now i'm terrified of it destroying all of my relationships.

If i open up and it negatively impacts my relationships because of it, we all lose. If i bottle it up and it inevitably forces me to open up at my breaking point, it could negatively impact my relationships, and we all lose.

I'm not saying isolation is the solution, but i can't help but wonder if we'd be better off. My dark little bedroom wasn't peaceful, but it was quiet to everyone else. Even if my mind was screaming, at least i could scream knowing i'm the only one getting hurt. I'm not proud to admit it, but if my mind was still in that room screaming, i wouldn't run the risk of hurting my loved ones, because to them it'd be quiet.

Sometimes i miss the quiet.

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Also, how is my hyperfixation on a different person turning into a specific interest? Like, what??? Is this how you get a BFF???? Is this what it feels like to love someone?????? What the fuuuu

Hyperfixating on a friend is so embarrassing, like this person is on my mind 24/7 and yet it is not a crush. It’s just fren.

Also, I don’t know how to show affection at all, so I just don’t. This person has no idea how often they are on my mind help

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God is a trans woman?

don’t worry everyone the doctor who wiki has everything under control

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Hyperfixating on a friend is so embarrassing, like this person is on my mind 24/7 and yet it is not a crush. It’s just fren.

Also, I don’t know how to show affection at all, so I just don’t. This person has no idea how often they are on my mind help

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Gay bar or something idk I’m aroace

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ADHDeapot

And now for something completely different.

This is the ADHD Teapot. I made it in a ceramics class a few years ago. I use it to explain executive dysfunction to people who haven’t come across the term before (and those who think of ADHD mostly as Hyperactive Eight Year Old Boy Syndrome).

So, most people’s brains are like a regular shaped teapot with a single spout. Let’s say that your time, energy, focus etc is the liquid you have in the teapot. Your executive function is the spout, that directs the tea into the specific cup you want to fill-aka the task that you’re meant to be doing. Spills happen occasionally, but generally most of the tea goes in the right cup.

If you have executive dysfunction, (a symptom of ADHD, trauma, autism, schizophrenia etc.) you have multiple spouts going in different directions. You can try pointing one of them at your chosen cup and you will probably get some liquid in there, perhaps you will even fill it right up (finish the task). But meanwhile, tea is also pouring out of several other places and not going where you want it. If you have another container nearby, perhaps some of it will end up in there. But quite a lot of it is going to end up on the floor and accomplish nothing.

And at the end of the day you’ll have filled one or two cups ( or sometimes not even one) compared to the five or six that somebody with the same sized teapot (but only one spout) has filled, and everyone wonders why you’re so bad at getting tea poured, and why you make such a mess in the process.

One day I’d like to spend more time learning pottery and create a really technically good fucked up little adhd teapot. But that’s a long way off since i currently live in the outback and the nearest pottery workshop is some 400km away. But I figure that for now, it might be a useful or interesting metaphor to somebody even in its rough draft form.

This post is the cup I filled instead of cleaning my house btw.

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I made this post a long time ago, but my friend recently reminded me that it existed and I’m pretty sure that’s called Doomed by the Narrative™️ so uh

I gotta find a shovel

You’ve heard of plot armour, now let me introduce to you: the Plot Noose, for when a character has to die for the sake of the plot.

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Well hello, Brainrot Georg

That's it, im revoking your awesome sauce privilege

*Violently extracts every liquid in your body in an instant*

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I found you

M O T H E R

Well this is ominous

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I believe in you! You got this.

Here is a picture of a little guy I once made, he is confident that you can do this!

Can someone pls tell me to stop being a wuss and ask them to be in a qpr 😭

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Sometimes you gotta dress like a whore

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Almost?

Source | Day 118

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My skin is itchy, the soles of my feet are itchy, my fingertips feel numb???? I hate this vessel so much, I wanna get rid of it

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Pm Seymour’s YouTube channel? Do you mean the binge compination?