#youre never pulled out of the world while watching it tho and it wasnt boring for a second (okay maybe like two or three.

[filthyjanuary]

7-12 and 16-20 for the asks!

7. What do you dislike about your favourite season?

i think season 2 is the best, but as i’ve said before, my favourite is 4 solely because the first few eps i watched were from s4. i think season 4 is very solid and even though it’s a season that HURTS BAD because of everything happening between sam and dean, i think the show earns the conflict for the most part. the literal only thing that still haunts me is that the STUPID VOICEMAIL THAT GETS ALTERED IS NEVER ADDRESSED. like i hate more than anything that sam still thinks dean said those things. like i know jared’s said that sam knows dean loves him but i don’t care!!! sam /and/ dean deserve to know the voicemail was changed.

OH also literally everything with anna milton. she deserved better <3 sorry the fridged you and gave part of your arc to a man, queen.

also sam and dean should’ve found out cas let sam out of the panic room.

8. Thoughts on Sam’s demon blood arc

i love sam’s demon blood arc. his hot girl summer! in all seriousness, it makes perfect sense. mystery spot sets it up that sam goes dark when he doesn’t have dean, and s4 is the natural progression of that. i love sam being hellbent on revenge, and the blood drinking was hot sorry not sorry. like obviously the end result wasn’t stellar and the handling of the demon blood as an addiction was handled rather shittily in the show, but overall this arc is near and dear to me and if i couldn’t have the boy king, i’m glad i got this instead. and it brings up some really interesting concepts that get explored really well in fic.

9. Thoughts on the Moc arc

i hate this arc mostly because like dean was terrible...which makes sense, but even after the mark was gone it’s like... he never /really/ pulls himself out of that place. it also just dragged on for FAR too long. like it didn’t need to be like 30 episodes or however long. i do like that it gave us demon!dean being like sexythreatening, and that scene of sam cradling dean’s face and begging him to tell him that he had to kill all those people and just the general sam is dean’s colette of it all. also the end of s10 with sam on his knees and dean telling him to close his eyes is deeply fucked up and i love it for that reason and obviously that happened bc of the MOC storyline.

10. Fave underrated ep

i am highkey obsessed with 1x04 phantom traveller, 2x07 the usual suspects and 4x19 jump the shark and i feel like most people don’t really care about those episodes or bring them up much. phantom traveller is just interesting bc i think the character moments are fun and i am obsessed with plane crashes for some reason. the usual suspects i just adore because it’s really a great exploration of HOW WELL sam and dean know each other and just how alike they are. and unfortunately i really like the cop lady in this one. jump the shark was the second episode of supernatural i ever saw and for some reason something in my brain latched onto adam and never let go. i love him so much (i know it’s not really him in the ep but ukno) and i love how much you learn about sam and dean through it too.

11. Thoughts on BMOL

boring. like...the actors were not good at their accents. they wanted what bela talbot had in s3. i just didn’t find ‘the british are evil’ a compelling storyline in a supernatural show.... like girl i live in real life you don’t need to preach to me about the british. also like they set up ketch to be evil like worse than toni who i already hate because she tortures/sexually assaults sam by having him kill magda i guess? but then they end up redeeming him and he survives longer than both mick (affectionate) and toni (derogatory), like seriously one of the worst Big Bads they’ve ever had.

12. Thoughts on Mary

to be honest, i think bringing her back was kind of a stupid idea in the sense that the ENTIRE SHOW starts because of her death. but i felt like HAVING DONE THAT, trying to deconstruct her image as like this nuclear housewife was compelling and the whole clash of sam and dean who just want their mom versus mary who left her kids as a an infant and a small child and now has these grown men who are older than her needing things she doesn’t know how to give was very interesting. and i wish they’d done more with that. 

16. Any criticisms of their world building/lore

well i think everyone’s said it better than me that they can’t seem to get their stance on monsters straight at all and the show suffers for it. i also hate how like the later seasons especially just blatantly retcon so much. the prime example is the garden of eden in s5 vs s15.... the s5 version was so much more interesting and i hate that they brought it back just to destroy their own lore. the whole concept of the abrahamic god being like the ‘real’ god vs other gods just being minor annoyances didn’t like...make sense or feel good either. i also would’ve loved more exploration of like what the fuck it means to be a vessel and also exploration of other monsters/urban legends. like ok we get it ghosts/demons/vampires/werewolves sure w/e but there’s so much to pull from. it got repetitive and there’s so many other things they could’ve tried. hell the SECOND EPISODE of the show mentions black dogs and we never actually encounter one. or like chimeras... like there’s just plenty to dig into and they just get lazy.

17. What did you like about s15?

15x20 <3 also just...jack....that’s my son! MICHAEL/ADAM IN 15X08!!!! i think there were a couple moments i liked in like...the gambler and last holiday, and i thought belphagor was funny. oh! also sam’s nightmare visions were kinda fun even tho they led back to lucifer :/

18. Thoughts on Lucifer

he was a really excellent and intimidating villain in s5.... and frankly i enjoyed hallucifer as well because sure he was presented comedically but he was a deeply dark presence hanging over sam as a reminder of what he suffered. everything after that...sucked!!! it sucked!!!!! overstayed his welcome, letting him out of the cage again totally nullifies sam’s sacrifice and frankly he lost every smidge of intimidation factor he ever had. he was just annoying and whiny and pointless and sam should’ve killed him <3 fuck that guy.

19. Most uncomfortable moments throughout the show for you?

answered here

20. Define the different eras in a few lines or words (s1-5, s6-7, s8-11, s12-15)

this was meant to be short... and then it wasnt... sorry.

kripke: PEAK SUPERNATURAL. racist AND sexist but like i frankly do not care because the actually storytelling is so GOOD. COHERENT. i long for what could’ve been had the strike not kneecapped s3 and we’d gotten boyking, but hell the arc we DID get... so good. so fulfilling. aesthetics go off the charts. character dynamics so good!!! conflicts are earned!!!! there was a fucking vision here and it was unique and interesting and the show was COMMITTED TO IT. literally iconic television i love her so much. eric kripke needs a therapist but i’m glad he wrote this show instead of going to see one. 

gamble: sera THEE gamble.... overarching storylines kinda weak, but SO FUN! i had fucking fun! soulless sam is a comedian, godstiel was the last time cas was remotely interesting, like!!!! she gave us everything!!!!! gets slandered way too much by this hell fandom like yes the leviathans were stupid but the were FUN and the character moments in s6-s7!!! so good!!!! lots of excellent MOTW eps as well, which... as we know...i love. when the show lost gamble, it lost something great, i’ll die on this hill. i love u #girlboss.

carver: there’s a lot of good here and a lot i despise. dean steadily grows darker throughout the show but there’s like a real VEER into being awful in s9 that the show never recovers from. it makes dean very unlikeable for the rest of its run, mostly by virtue of the show not realizing how unlikeable it’s made dean because it needs him to always be right so the fact that he’s basically turned into john is never like....addressed in any meaningful way. some storylines (MOC!!) dragged on for too long, while others were way too short (TRIALS!!!) but ultimately i think there were some good ideas here and moments i’m fond of. season 11 is Beautiful. i love her so much. there’s some really excellent eps in s11 and the character moments are good.

dabb: i literally hate it here (jack sweetie you are not included in this assessment you’re doing great). it was just stupid. the characterizations of EVERYBODY sucked and fell flat. way too obsessed with pandering to the loudest faction on twitter. took the wreckage of dean that carver left and full destroyed him. like straight up could’ve done something meaningful if they’d bothered to address it at all but they literally didn’t ever make dean be accountable for his actions??? can’t tell u what cas was doing it was so forgettable he obviously had no purpose literally the only scenes i remember were a couple where he’s being cute with jack and that one ep where he and sam go to that old-timey town and sam gets brainwashed. sam like... exists, and his character is intact but it’s only intact because the writers that were left didn’t want to bother giving him anything meaty to do to so the were like *spins wheel* leadership arc that goes nowhere, and he just exists being kind and compassionate and putting up with too much shit. BUT HE HAD REALLY FUCKING EXCELLENT MOMENTS WITH JACK and that alone is why i think it’s worth the slog. sam/jack is my favourite dynamic on the show following sam/dean so...unfortunately based on that.... i can’t just burn the whole dabb era but seriously... way to make every character a hollow, one-dimensional shell.

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[aesjae]

Boyfriend! Jeno

#3 of Boyfriend! Series

Taeil | Johnny | Taeyong | Yuta | Kun | Doyoung | Ten | Jaehyun | WinWin | Jungwoo | Lucas | Mark | Xiao Jun | Hendery | Renjun | Jeno | Haechan | Jaemin | Yang Yang | Chen Le | Jisung

Word Count: 1,675 Style/ Genre: Headcanon/ - Date Posted: 31/08/17

okay but i’m getting soft for this little boy

wHO AM I CALLING LITTLE IM YOUNGER THAN HIM

but seriously tho never thought of a day i’d be so soft for him

omg

let’s continue :-D

this boy may be said to be the most boring member but honestly?

he’s definitely not boring

he’d be a complete sweetheart tbh

instead of being boring, he’d probably have cliche approaches in the relationship

probably those cliche plots you read in fiction books or watch in movies

all those cringy teenage plots

amusement park dates, cafe and ice cream dates,

lyou’ve seen it, you name it

jeno would be a young gentleman 

wow i live for manners man, some teenage guys nowadays are rude af

teenage blues

anywayyy

he would pick you up at your house before every date and would ensure that he brings you back home right to your doorstep before heading home

your safety was his priority 

during the date itself, his actions would give you countless butterflies in your stomach

yep cliche much but what do you expect from a fluff scenario

he may be quite shy and awkward at the start of the relationship 

believe it or not, it would probably be his first relationship

it’ll probably make you wonder how no one actually liked this cute adorable handsome talented fluffball

but that’s cause he liked you and thus didn’t give anybody else a chance hehe

so this sweet boy would be quite nervous, and would probably be quite hesitant doing the simplest things

like holding your hand or slinging his arm around your shoulder or waist

no matter how many times you assure him that it is fine,

his considerate ( and self-conscious ) self would always ask for your permission first

deeper into the relationship, he would become quite comfortable with you

smoothly taking your hand into his as soon as both of you meet

and every time he holds your hand

he would gently circle his thumb on the top of your hand 

which makes you feel relaxed and safe

and when he holds you close by the waist

his gentle touch at your waist would send tingles through your body

his hugs would feel like home tbh

no one else could probably give you the same feeling of comfort and solace

he was your getaway

yes there would definitely be the teenage feels and all

but sooner or later it wouldn't be just pure infatuation

both jeno and you would realise a few months into your relationship that both of you were absolutely in love with each other 

by the way that he thinks of you

the potential of living together

being together every night and day

learning more about each other and the other party's lifestyle habits

these thoughts rejuvenated him

whenever he was facing immense stress

from school

from work

from society in general

these thoughts would comfort him

and motivate him to not give up and strive for better

as for you

being a student

having to juggle studies and work

commitments and responsibilities

both in school and at home

the time being with jeno was as if a great load of burden was momentarily lifted off your shoulders

whenever you were with him, it seemed like only a world with you and him existed

and that all the troubles in the world were okay

that everything was going to be alright

just a little text message or smile from him could energize you for a long day

both of you would probably not really be up for the cheesy couple items

because you both knew that you didn't need such things to reaffirm your commitments in this relationship

to both of you, the trust in the relationship was a granted

having mutual trust and respect for each other only strengthened the relationship

even though you were already reassured of Jeno's loyalty 

he would constantly prove to you and others of it 

even when other girls try to flirt with him he would kindly turn them down

explicitly stating that he was already in a committed relationship

and that was what you loved about him

that he was respectful of the bond both of you shared

and that he would request for other people's respect for it as well

occasionally, both of you would have special dates either at yours or his house during the weekends

maybe an exciting and lively saturday when both of you experiment baking different confectionary and pastries

which may end up with both of you having a food fight

i can totally imagine a messy kitchen with egg yolks and egg shells splattered all over the counter and floor

and both of your faces painted with white flour and chocolate chips stuck in your hair

i have no idea how they got there but ok

or maybe a lazy sunday when both of you chillax on the couch and take a nap after a heartwarming movie

you guys would have study dates after school during the examination periods

both of you would usually head to your favourite cafe 

which was located a few streets away from the school

so that it would be nice and quiet and away from the speculation of the student body

( but tbh everybody in school knew of your relationship with Jeno, and you two were a famous couple in school )

he would be very generous and patient

helping you with topics that you were unsure about

and would give you that lovely eye smile and puppy smile whenever you finally solved a question that you mulled over for long

he would spend his own money to buy you food and drinks even without you asking

bringing you a cup of hot chocolate as you were pulling your hair out over a challenging math question

and as you sipped on the cup of hot chocolate, 

there was warmth spreading into your heart

but you know it was not necessarily the warmth from the drink

but the consideration and sweetness of your boyfriend

he knew that hot chocolate helped you alleviate some stress

he was starting to know you better than you knew yourself

as he observed your habits and likings, mentally taking note of all of them

enveloping him a tight bear hug out of gratefulness

and Jeno would be taken by surprise by your hug but returned it nonetheless while chuckling slightly at your cuteness

he was always gentlemanly

making sure that you were comfortable with everything he did 

if he did something that you weren’t exactly happy about, he would try to avoid it to his best potential

but of course, there would be times when avoidance was impossible

some stuff is inevitable

and this may result in some arguments between the both of you

arguments were very uncommon, but there would definitely be arguments in every relationship

they usually would not be anything very major or serious

maybe just unhappiness from both of your sides

this is where Jeno’s stubbornness being a Taurus would come out

he might be quite bull-headed regarding some stuff and insist that you do it his way

and sometimes you would not be very satisfied with his decision, resulting in both of you arguing 

maybe for the next few hours both of you would be rather cold to each other

but both of you still loved each other and cared for each other

and even when both of you were apart and still angry or annoyed at the other party

both of you would oh so frequently check your phones for any messages or missed calls from the other party

most of the time, it would be Jeno who gives in to you and resolves the disagreement

adding on to the fact that he’s a Taurus, he would be concerned about his relationships with other people, especially with those he really cared about

hence, he wouldn’t like to go on the relationship with both of you being cold to each other for long

even if he had an ego to uphold

he would make the first move and ensure that the argument was resolved by the end of the day

because he didn’t want you to go to sleep/ not be able to sleep being bothered by whatever dispute occurred between both of you in the day

Jeno would like taking you out for simple dates too

like an evening walk in your neighborhood park

both of your fingers intertwined

taking a relaxing stroll side by side 

oh yes have i mentioned

your family would absolutely love Jeno

because yo i mean he’s so considerate, respectful, the sweetest boy and boyfriend in the world

even your parents would favour Jeno to bits

as if he were their own son

parents low key supporting your marriage with Jeno

cutest campus couple

the cafeteria staff would be like

“Oh! Our favourite student couple is here~ Here, take more food~”

even outside school both of you would be known

both of you wouldn’t even know how people from other schools knew you because both of you weren’t exactly high-key with your relationship

both of you just doing your own things

but i guess the cutest teenage couple in town would go to both of you

weehee

honestly, Jeno is just the sweetest thing?

he’s not just looks

he’s not just about his dAMN SLICK side profile

or that talent of dancing

or that adorable eye smile

he is so much more than that

loving him wasn’t difficult

but knowing how to appreciate him inside out was not something everybody could easily do

a lot of people may think that you liked him mostly for his visuals

but little did they know, this boy here

gave you life

gave you the greatest amount of moral support you could have ever asked for

you loved him for everything that he was

you felt that it was a miracle that he loved you back

he was more than you could ever dream of

[unedited]

i am really soft for Jeno but I didn’t really know how to write this Boyfriend! Jeno :-( I’m so sorry if this wasnt good-

[grubhivemind]

RILEY: -while ryan falling  back into the web of addiction wasn't a good thing, she was grateful that she was given the chance to support her through this. she took advantage of every day's two hour long visiting period no matter what. the last she wanted was for ryan to feel like she was going through this alone- 

RILEY: -she gets clearance into the facility and knows by now not to bring much of anything--everything could be used as a weapon these days. and she walks into the common area, looking for her daughter-

RYAN: -she's got herself perched in an arm chair near a window, away from other small groups of visitors with patients. she seems to be zoning out a little, watching the happenings of the outside world, but she already looks like she's on the upswing in general, even with the pensive look on her face.- 

RYAN: -when riley enters, she catches a glimpse of the movement and perks to attention. a smile returns to her weary face, brightening her look immensely and she waves in case riley hasn't spotted her yet.-

RILEY: -her attention is grabbed by the waving and she greets her youngest with a warm grin- hey, baby.

RYAN: -hops up from her seat to capture riley in a hug. she really appreciates her visits... the loneliness really worsens the restlessness.- hey!!! i missed you.

RYAN: its only been a day but i missed you!!!

RILEY: -hugs her tightly and smooches her head- i missed you too, cutie. 

RILEY: how are you doing?

RYAN: im alright... just a little bored i guess. -sighs-

RYAN: i mean aside from all the gross withdrawal shit but hey. 

RYAN: its not as bad as it could be???

RILEY: -she pulls away to take a seat next to ryan's chair- you really feeling that optimistic despite all of this? i mean...you totally should. because it's gonna get better. i just know how hard it is to.

RYAN: -wringes her hands and then takes a seat again too.- yeah. i dunno. 

RYAN: last time i was in a place like this it wasnt really... my decision?

RYAN: guess its easier to be optimistic if you sorta feel in control.

RILEY: -nods- yeah. i totally agree. 

RILEY: it took a lot of maturity, you know. for you to put yourself first and come here. 

RILEY: i wouldn't have been able to do that at your age at all.

RYAN: ... -she just shrugs about that- just took advantage of a moment of clarity. 

RYAN: i had some motivation but... 

RYAN: i think mostly i was disappointed in myself? and i was tired of feeling bad about that. 

RYAN: time to put on me big girl panties i guess.

RILEY: -she smiles a little, listening to ryan talk- and you're pretty fucking amazing for it.

RILEY: but you've always been amazing.

RYAN: -she blush... she isn't sure how to receive a compliment like that. at least not in THIS context. she doesn't feel all that amazing. its just necessary.- aw gee. 

RYAN: youre just saying that. :blush: -still gonna act coy about it tho.-

RILEY: -ruffles her a hair a little- nah. 

RILEY: i'm real proud of you, kid. 

RILEY: just happy i get to hang around you this time around. 

RILEY: you know, impart my motherly wisdom or some shit like that.

RYAN: oh?? what nuggets of wisdom do you have to share with me today?

RILEY: fuck bitches get money.

RYAN: -snorts then pops and locks it- no no no no silly boys cant tame me. 

RYAN: bennys the only one whos ever gonna claim me. 

RYAN: uh uh uh uh im in love with the price tag. 

RYAN: gimmie your number imma give that shit right back. 

RYAN: fuck boyz get money. 

RYAN: fuck boyz get money.

RILEY: i like that better. 

RILEY: okay, but for real, i never got any motherly wisdom to impart in the first place. it's all just winging it.

RYAN: hehe... i figured thats how the parenting thing works. 

RYAN: i mean no offense.

RYAN: youre good at winging it.

RILEY: yeah? 

RILEY: good enough to get a g on my report card?

RYAN: more like straight up g.

RILEY: daaaaaaaaaaamn! 

RILEY: didn't see that one coming. 

RILEY: so have you made any friends here yet? 

RILEY: places like these are friend central.

RYAN: i mean... im friends with pretty much everyone. -looks around at all the folks visiting with their family and friends.- 

RYAN: im of moderate popularity. people either love me or hate me cuz im being so bitterly optimistic haha. 

RYAN: so you know. 

RYAN: love me or hate me its still an obsession.

RILEY: love me or hate me that is the question. 

RILEY: you've always been the light that draws all the moths and big bugs. 

RILEY: it sounds less like a compliment when i say it like that but i swear it is.

RYAN: -snorts- oh yeah... i attract all KINDS of creepy crawlies.

RILEY: where's the lie?

RYAN: -snickers, but then pauses thoughtfully.- hey... 

RYAN: im sure theres some wisdom you can share though? advice on how to like... 

RYAN: keep myself from feeling so  restless?

RILEY: -looks over at her as her expression softens a little- you can't. 

RILEY: it's a fun part of withdrawal, baby. 

RILEY: what you can do is try and distract yourself. or make sure you're never completely alone. cuz it's when you're alone that it gets unbearable.

RYAN: ... -looks down at her lap.-distractions are hard.

RILEY: they are. 

RILEY: or you can channel that energy into something artistic. 

RILEY: it's not going to take it away but at least you'll get something out of it, you know?

RYAN: -fidgets, but then nods.- i always try singing. 

RYAN: it usually helps a lil bit.

RILEY: keep singing. even if you don't want to anymore. 

RILEY: that's my advice.

RYAN: -some days it is harder to find her voice and it feels like those have been more often than not lately.- you wanna sing with me?

RILEY: -she smiles sweetly at her- there's no question about it. 

RILEY: i'd fuckin love to.

RYAN: -nods again, taking a deep breath.- alright cool. 

RYAN: -shuts her eyes, thinking of what she wants to sing... and then just lets it happen.- 

RYAN: when it went down it was hard to breathe. 

RYAN: i gave up everything in a slow fall down to the floor. RYAN: life was escaping me. i couldnt find myself. 

RYAN: til it was all lost. 

RYAN: not anymore. 

RYAN: im holding on to all the pieces of my hearts debris. 

RYAN: til its time. 

RYAN: ill put it together and fix myself eventually. 

RYAN: and know its mine.

RILEY: i found gold in the wreckage, put it on a necklace. 

RILEY: keepin' it cause i, i, i, i know that it's mine. 

RILEY: i wear it like a message so i don't forget it. 

RILEY: keepin' it cause i, i, i, i know that it's mine.

RILEY: i know that it's mine no matter what i do. -reaches over to push ryan's hair back- 

RILEY: i know that it's mine whether i win or lose. 

RILEY: and even though my heart needs to take its time. 

RILEY: i know that's mine, i know that it's mine.

RYAN: -chest tightens at the simple gesture.- facing the change but its still tough to see. 

RYAN: at first i fought it all. i was so mean. 

RYAN: im still unsure how its supposed to be. 

RYAN: but taking every day now by the skin of my teeth.

RYAN: until i learn. 

RYAN: im holding on to all the pieces of my hearts debris. 

RYAN: til its time. oh. 

RYAN: ill pull it together and fix myself eventually. 

RYAN: and know its mine. -she starts to sniffle, watching her mother sing with her.-

RILEY: i found gold in the wreckage, put it on a necklace. 

RILEY: keepin' it 'cause i, i, i, i know that it's mine. 

RILEY: i wear it like a message so i don't forget it. 

RILEY: keepin' it 'cause i, i, i, i know that it's mine. -takes the opportunity to bring Ryan against her, holding her and singing more softly.- 

RILEY: know that it's mine no matter what I do. 

RILEY: i know that it's mine whether I win or lose. 

RILEY: and even though my heart needs to take its time. 

RILEY: i know that it's mine, i know that it's mine.

RYAN: -curls up against her, clinging tightly and giving up on singing the rest of the song because she's trembling too badly now.-

RILEY: -just holds her safely in her arms and leans her head against her daughter's.. she's still singing, just very softly-

RYAN: -she just listens to her for a long while, letting the tears that escape from her to cleanse the heaviness in her heart. she feels like a kid again, crying over something trivial that her mother effortlessly cast away with her soothing songs. it reminds her of all the ways she wanted to be just like riley. maybe she got that wish in too many different ways, but she wouldn't change this connection they have now for anything. she feels safe just like this.-