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v1xv4p0rub · 5 months ago

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I hate this. I don't want a romantic relationship or situationship or anything like that- I just want a friend I can platonically flirt with (and be flirted with) in a way that seems romantic but isn't. Give me the comfort of recognizing that I'm not ostracized and can have people interested in me just like most of my other friends without the pressure of having to reciprocate anything.

Call me a pretty boy, tell me you love me, make some flirty comment and tease me when I get embarrassed by it, hold me, hold me

#I think I'm asking for a qpr #ive got so much internalized guilt for wanting anything other than a stereotypical average relationship though #having and identity crisis #you mean well (you know who you are) but it just makes me feel guilty #i dont wanna go back to my old name and pronouns #“tomboy” doesnt fucking fit me #maybe im not a guy either i dont ficking know but being called a guy makes me so goddamn happy #i dont wanna say this tl you directly bc I'm shit with boundaries and assume the worst so i feel like youll judge me #but god #you've helped me more than anyone and maybe youre right abkut this too #but maybe id rather suffer with a “double life” than give up this part of me that makes me so damn happy #i CRIED when you called me my birth name. it physically disgusted and hurt me to hear that from you directed at me.#i know that wasnt the intent #but thats how it felt for me #im really hoping you find this (the tags not the post itself) bc i know damn well i wont voice this aloud to you #text me about it on discord instead lf here if you do though okay? i dont check my messages on here

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