#you wanna know who's re-read aninut the most?

[pauls1967moustache]

I wanted to let you know that I love your writing! You set your scenes so well and have really great comedic timing. I’ve found myself re-reading your fics several times. Just wondering, what is the premise of your WIP? Also what is your favorite fic that you’ve written?

Thank you so much! I really appreciate that. I'm glad to hear you come back to them <3

My WIP that is currently torturing me is broadly about the slow and painful crumbling of Paul's sense of denial, and more specifically about the month John and Yoko spent living in Cavendish with Paul and Francie Schwartz in 1968 :)

As for my favourite thing I've written, pardon me while I go on a self-absorbed tangent...

I think my favourites are Aninut and i thought i knew you, what did i know (as you can see, my taste tends to lean bittersweet lol). Both of them were character studies where I was trying to explore really specific things about Paul (how he reacts to grief) and Jane (why does she stay with Paul), and I feel like I did that really successfully, and in a way that felt very true to who they were, so I'm quite proud of them. I find the character centric sort of stuff more difficult than just writing smut, because smut, while not something easy to write, is at the very least easy to structure because it's quite formulaic. With character studies I generally have to think more about how I'm going to demonstrate something about a person without flat out telling you "they act like this because of this reason", which is challenging, but really fun and rewarding when I feel I got it right.

The reason I'm drawn to this fandom is because the dynamics between absolutely everybody are really complex. There's a lot of love, and as a result a lot of tension when that love isn't enough to satisfy each other's emotional needs, if that makes sense? The nature of them being real people is that no one can ever really be a one-note character. I find fic where they're treated like that very boring, which makes me try not to treat them like that, which makes me write conversations which I find really interesting and emotionally fraught. Like the Brian/Paul dynamic is soooo intriguing to me which was why I first thought of writing Aninut in the first place. Like, Brian died at a time when they were getting along super well and in a way that they hadn't before, and I can't imagine how confusing it must've been for Paul to lose Brian then, especially since Paul grieves in such unconventional ways. And as I was writing i thought i knew you, I got really swept up in the Jane/John dynamic too. I finished the story where I did cause that felt like the end of it to me, but had I kept going with it, I feel it would be less about Jane and Paul vs John and Paul, and more about Jane and John's relationship as an extension of how they interact with Paul.

And also, the reason I wrote both of them was because they felt like stuff I hadn't read in the fandom yet, and would've liked to, so they're quite fresh and unique to me. I don't know if it sounds stuck up of me to say this, or whatever, but I am quite proud of myself for bringing something new to the fandom with those two stories.

Anyway, thank you for asking! If it sounds like I'm obsessed with my own writing, it's because I genuinely am :)