#you healthy. and they would push the limits with numbers so if they do get caught it wasn't techincally illegal because there were

[xxknockoutxx]

Izuku

(this is just something to put out for fun but I take heavy inspiration from Glitched they're freaking amazing! I hope they are doing well ❤️‍🩹🥦)

It was another day of sitting at home without a care in the world. Waiting for your husband to come home, this was the one day where you weren't working or out doing chores. The giant house that you and your pro hero husband inhabited was so intimidatingly big, that seeing the house so quiet and empty kinda scared you but in a good way. Like a really secured way.

It wasn't all that lonely I suppose with your husband texting you every once and in a while with memes or compliments or how much he misses you. He's gotten the hang of One for All and is the number 1 hero. All this sounds pretty good for you guys but it's not...

The stronger your hunk of a husband gets, the longer he'll be working and that means less time for you too. This was probably the 3rd day he'd been vacant from the house this week so you were tired of it. I mean who wouldn't be?

I'm just gonna have to make him forget work when he comes back. you thought. Sure it was a lot easier said than done but you are Y/-fuckin-N! Ain't nobody or nothing gonna stop you from getting what you want✨

*Bzzz* Your phone buzzes and you find out it's your husband.

🥦My hero🥦: Hey baby I got some good news! 😁

I'll be home either tonight or next morning! I can't wait to see my precious little Bunny💚

Your heart swelled as you read the text you eagerly texted him back showing your excitement before going back to brainstorming. Shit.... Now you're on a time limit. With little time you began thinking about a dinner; one with a huge table full of different foods and of course dessert but will that be enough for your busy husband to stay home?

Annoyed and stressed, you just focus on that one thing, preparing food. You walked into the kitchen and searched the full fridge for things to cook. thankfully you had the ingredients to try some viral recipe you saw on Pinterest.

After cooking and laying everything out on the table you decided to change into something more anticipating you changed into some tiny pajamas and black lingerie under it. Surely it would do something to him to see those thin, black and green panties.

"Bun! I'm home!" Your heart froze up before running to the front door and hugging and kissing the breath out of Izuku.

"baby! Hiii" "Hey bun... You look so....- He takes in the way that the shirt you were wearing hugs your curves. The way that it just barely shows the outline of your hardening nipples. —Good..."

"I made you a little sumthin-" You help him put his stuff down and drag him towards the kitchen. This food is gonna be so fucking good that he's gonna eat this and then eat me- wait.

As Izuku takes a seat and looks in awe at all the food on the table. After working 22 hour shifts for 3 days straight you get kinda hungry. He waited for you to be seated as you walked to the table with his plate of healthy servings.

"thank you so much, Bunny. I love you."

You smile and join him at the table, in your rightful chair or throne rather; Izuku's lap.

He begins to chow down on all of his food rather quickly, while spouting his compliments about you and the food. "Wow this is so good, Bun" and "You look so pretty today" and "Did you get all dolled up for me?"

At the end of the meal you carefully bring him upstairs and take off his hero gear. Making sure to be slow and to add a sway to your movements. At this point Izuku's eyes were lidded and he still had that same smile of adoration but it seemed almost suspecting.

You pushed him back on the bed and slowly took off the pajamas. (Deku merch obviously) Under it you had your dark green and black lingerie.

"wow.. you were ready for me, weren't you bun?"

He cups your cheek and pulls you onto his lap. You feel his warm, calloused hand touch your face as a familiar sensation of Izuku's bulge rubbing against your sweet spot.

You lean in for a kiss and start playing with the zipper on his hero suit pants. As you do he slips a hand on your waist and deepens the kiss while helping you loosen his pants and takes off his suit.

"lemme help you with that bun..."

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"F-fuck! Wait! Izu...." Of course after working for so long and so hard your husband is gonna be a little pent up. Not being able to come home to see his pretty, loyal wife. The only way to solve that? A fucking mating press. Nothing can compare to the satisfaction of a good fucking. Especially passionate, rough and deep sex.

I mean if you aren't screaming his name at the end is it even considered a good fucking? Clearly he isn't putting in enough effort if you give him a reaction that's anything less than a moan of his name, unintelligible mumbles, or praises. So he'll go for a couple hours. Maybe he'll be satisfied after a few positions, some breeding, and marking. Just to make sure you know you're his.

And right after he would take a shower with you cuddle with you and make sure you were at 100 percent and then only then would he go to sleep with you in his arms. An unbreakable grasp.

Then he'll do the same thing next week.

⏤͟͟͞͞☆𝐊𝐧𝐨𝐱.

[theladybrownstarot]

Pick-A-Card : What does your feminine side wants you to know ? (Collab : @tarot-by-e11e♡)

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Pile 1. Pile 2.

Pile 3. Pile 4.

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Pile 1 .

Namaste pile 1 ! Let's get with your reading :-

cards pulled out : 10 of wands rx, 8 of swords rx and The sun .

☪︎ You people are literally stressed out and burdened with a lot of things that can be felt through the reading . Are you people having teeth pain out of stress because i can feel that . Your feminine side says that stop for second leave others and prioritize your mental and physical well-being ! take proper sleep do not over-do anything because there's always a limit . Your feminine side says even though you got lot of potential inside you but still take how much you can do.

☪︎ Next , some of you might be going through some legal problems and if not then you are full of unecessary thoughts which needs to filtered out seriously otherwise you are going to face lot of problems. Doing work out fear , insecurity or any other negative emotion is not gonna help you out . You might be facing some kind of injustice and i really feel that your feminine side says that you are not taking any proper action against it this tells me the need to have proper boundary for yourselves .

☪︎ last but not the least , your feminine side says that she is going to beat the shit out of you if you cannot enjoy and let yourselves get drowned in that sadistic pool of thoughts and actions ! let yourself be happy and really bring out that child inside you that craves to go out and do whatever it wants , be positive your world is not going to end .

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Pile 2 . [@tarot-by-e11e]

Thank you so much for being here ♡ @e11e27

Cards pulled out : 2 of Cups, 8 of Coins reversed, Temperance, 7 of Swords, 3 of Swords, Queen of Wands, Hierophant, Knight of Wands, Judgement.

☪︎ The time in my clock is 1:01 pm as I sat down by my window enjoying the cool summer rain, so that I can interpret for my dear pile 2.

☪︎ Angel number 101 shares an undeniable news about growth, progress and new beginnings. There is this welcoming message of growth and collaboration with your feminine side. This makes me feel like my pile 2 are either: finally taking baby steps in wanting to lean more into your feminine side OR you've reached a certain point of burn out, that you feel called to want to learn how to graciously accept the help from the universe and your guides.

☪︎ With the 2 of Cups, there's this gentle whisper of unity and mutual respect for your feminine side. It would seem that pile 2 might have "girl-bossed" a little too hard this past few weeks/months, so much so that you’d rather push your body to the point of exhaustion than actively allowing yourself to rest and recuperate. There's also this air of hypervigilance caused by the lack of genuine support and healthy role models growing up.

☪︎ More like, Pile 2 was surrounded by who they promised they will never want to become. With the first card alone, the message your feminine side wants to tell you: Let yourself be open to others again.

☪︎ It seems that Pile 2 had experience betrayals and has been in survival mode to God knows how long. To be so disregulated that you feel guilty for even purchasing skincare, even if you are not financially struggling anymore, is quite a heartbreaking situation to be in. Your feminine side is telling you: "Self - Care = Self - Love", so pile 2 can be the type of person that struggles to be okay with putting themselves first. It seems this pile is for my people pleasers.

☪︎ The songs, "You don't know" by Katelyn Tarver popped in my head. Particularly the lines, "I know you got the best intentions, just trying to find the right words to say..."; this line makes me feel like a line you want to tell anyone who wants to help you out. In this case, this is a song you dedicate to your own feminine side. But here's the thing sweetie, your feminine side DOES KNOW WHAT IT'S LIKE TO BE YOU...

☪︎ Your feminine side, as much as they want to help you out, they can't seem to outscream your insecurities and troubles away. Your feminine side is soft spoken yet firm with their love for you. Your feminine side wants you to know they'll always be here for you, they're just waiting for you to sit quietly in your feelings and take the time to hear them out. They're always ready to help, they're just waiting on your signal. And you choosing this pile, your feminine side is welcoming you with open arms, with them, you are allowed to safely get vulnerable, without judgement or shame. They're always ready to welcome you back into helping you feel like *you* again.

☪︎ So first thing your feminine side wants to tell you is: "Welcome back home".

☪︎ With 8 of Coins reversed, your feminine side wants you to forgive yourself for only taking the time to only want to hear what they have to tell you. It's okay, you're safe with your feminine side. Remember, no judgement or shame will ever come from them.

☪︎ With how much you have on your plate in your life right now Pile 2, having debts and bills to pay, responsibilities piling up higher than your bookshelves, alot of people depend on you for everything, even on things that they can easily deal with themselves, yet they actively decided to pass their burdens to you. Seeing as your attention, focus and efforts are needed elsewhere, it's okay that you only felt the need to sit down to what they have to tell you.

☪︎ The more I interpret for pile 2, the more I can imagine that this pile is for the chronic workaholic people pleasers, it also has the vibe of the sole provider and/or oldest sibling energy. The heavy feeling of burn out is so prevalent in this pile, so much so that you tend to be the type to drown in work while your friends and family barely got a chance to spend time with you.

☪︎ Just know, they love you and miss you so much. They do appreciate your efforts to keeping a roof over everyone's heads and food on the table, but you tend to forget that you deserve to be taken cared for too. This is a strong message from your feminine side, let others show how much they can take care of you. Let others into your life. Learn to let love in again in your life again. Betrayals in any shape or form had closed the gates of your heart, to the point of self-imposed isolation, guised as working hard to provide. It seems that pile 2 overworks to hide their pain. It's like, "Working more means less time to feel".

☪︎ With Temperance, your feminine side suggests you start reassessing your current lifestyle and curate your daily routines to cultivate a "healthy work life balance". I can already feel some of pile 2 are rolling their eyes back so far inside that they can see their brain cells barely surviving from fatigue. And yes, I'm also lovingly call out those of you who leaned back as you begrudgingly "ugggggggggghhhh..." into surrender.

☪︎ Definitely my burn out overwhelmed workaholic people pleasers pile. You're so conditioned to always Go, go, go to the next task before letting yourself catch your breath. My dear, unless your line of work is in ER surgery, you allowing yourself to rest won't lead to someone's demise. So if you work in the medical field pile 2, your feminine side is way more stricter with you about work-life balance. I heard the words "It's non negotiable at this point". So pile 2, please, for the love of rainbows, cookies and butterflies, please curate your daily routines into a healthy work-life balance.

☪︎ With 7 of swords, your feminine side is asking you to keep quiet about your plans for self-love and self-care. This was a rather odd card to show up but with the multiple instances of me mentioning betrayal with the previous cards, it seems pile 2 is surrounded by people who benefit from your lack of boundaries. That's actually the kind of betrayals you've consistently dealt with. People taking your kindness and generosity for weakness, as if it's an invitation to openly abuse your giving heart. Oh no dear pile 2, I'm so sorry you are surrounded by people who can't stand you stepping into your power.

☪︎ This message feels rather severe but your feminine side is asking you to keep your happiness and achievements under wraps and offline. Don't post anything celebratory, it seems that evil eye and ill wishes from jealous and insecure coworkers and/or family members tends be your usual cause of bad luck. So with that, cleanse and establish healthy boundaries with people who have proven that they have no intention of wishing you well. Keep those kind of people out of your life. Take that message in any shape or form that you feel called to interpret it as.

☪︎ Your feminine side urges you to let yourself be nurtured again. You don't have to always be assertive; you don't have to also be the one that leads. You are allowed and you deserve to receive. So let yourself be on the receiving of your friends and loved one's care.

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Pile 3 . [@tarot-by-e11e]

Thank you so much for being here @e11e27 ♡

Cards pulled out : High Priestess, Ace of Swords, 4 of Wands, King of Cups, 4 of Swords, Strength, 6 of Coins

𐙚 My dearest pile 3, right off the bat, this feels like the “Stepping into your power” pile.

☪︎ Starting with the High Priestess, this talks about listening to your intuition, leaning more onto your spiritual practices, and, in this specific question, leaning more into listening to your feminine side. I feel called to share a little way to discern the difference between intuition, anxiety, and wishful thinking.

☪︎ Wishful thinking feels self-gratifying and short-lived, and leans more toward satisfying an urge/itch in the moment; like having a quick dopamine fix from doomscrolling. It’s the easiest to fulfill and do, out of all the three.

☪︎ Anxiety is fear-based and meant to keep you safe; there are certain times when safety, when taken too far, leaves you stuck and resentful; If any negative thought starts with “What if..”, this is an example of an intrusive thought that’s rooted in anxiety. It feels comfortable because it’s familiar, but it leaves you regretful and resentful for not pursuing something else.

☪︎ Intuition is sometimes like an invisible cord that’s pulling you into doing something you subconsciously feel is the right thing to do. There are times when intuition makes you feel uncomfortable, if you are in a period of stagnancy; but there are also times when intuition feels right, when even without logical and substantial evidence to back up the decision, you feel in your gut that it “just makes sense.”

☪︎ With Ace of Swords, your feminine side shares that you will receive some sort of clarity/breakthrough once you learn to listen to your intuition more; it takes practice to differentiate fear and inner knowing, so be kinder to yourself as you go about this journey. The more you listen to your gut, the easier it is for you to have new ideas and have a sense of focus towards the vision of what you want your life to unfold as.

☪︎ 4 of Wands is about your community, stability, and a sense of belongingness. With this, your feminine side suggests you put yourself out into the world to call in your soul tribe/chosen family. More like, the more you become the person you know you are meant to be, the easier it will be to naturally draw in your like-minded community.

☪︎ With the King of Cups, your feminine side urges you to embrace a compassionate approach in life, not just towards others, but particularly, towards yourself. Try to strike the balance between duty and nurture. Try to find a way to hone the skill of living a balanced life.

☪︎ Pile 3, your feminine side urges you to let yourself rest in the 4 of Swords; taking a nap while overthinking is not resting; sleeping and feeling guilty about not being productive hours before is not resting. (Damn, the call-out is real in this pile). Your feminine side asks you to truly let yourself rest and recuperate, unapologetically. How about this: whether you rest later, or rest now, your responsibilities remain; so if you rest properly now, you’ll have more energy to do your tasks wholeheartedly, and the chances of you producing results beyond your expectations is a high possibility. But if you push yourself too hard now just to have something you can “produce for the sake of having an output”, 9/10 the result is half-assed, and this will lead you to have more reason to stress and be filled with regrets. So the choice is up to you.

☪︎ The Strength card feels like your feminine side is telling you to embrace your inner power. If you’re the type that’s made to feel small, now’s the time for you to step out of your comfort zone, and try to build your confidence. You don’t have to make a huge. Life-altering change overnight. This feels more like building that steady foundation of your self-confidence. Learn how to reassure yourself that no matter what, you’ll get through everything because you are sure about your decisions and dreams in life.

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Pile 4 .

Namaste pile 1 ! Let's get with your reading :-

cards pulled out : The world rx , The hermit , Knight of pentacles , Ace of penatcles rx and the emperor rx .

☪︎ People your feminine side encourages you to move forward and no to give up because you are almost the half way to what you need , i feel you are going through major setbacks and still you people trying to do everything you got to make yourself come out of the situation you are in currently and you will actually .

☪︎ Your feminine side encourages you to go for deep self reflection and take time-off from people and other things to sort out what needs to be , she says that you already have got all the wisdom and solution you are seeking that was because of the constant experience , i feel there's a mistake or an action that your committing again and needs to be stopped . She encourages you to meditate and take rest and don't seek help outside because you got it all !

☪︎ Some of you might be having some male relation issue or an issue with authority which will resolve quickly but you being encourages to take your stand .

☪︎ Your feminine encourages or warns you to be aware of any future scam or money investment you are doing , you need to change your long term financial plan or need to revaluate for better , I feel some of you might not get the desired job as of now and it could be that you facing job related issue which resolve quickly withing 2-3 months or before just do not stop .

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Daily Message: 30.07.24

Close your eyes and take a deep breath before picking a pile. If you feel drawn to more than one pile, it's alright, you may take the piles that you're drawn to. What's important is to take it how it resonates and leave what doesn't.

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Pile 1

You might have a lot of dreams especially at the present time, and you have the power to turn these dreams into your reality. You already have all the things and abilities you need to make them come true, you just need to have faith in yourself that you can make them come true and that they will come true. Don't be afraid to take risks and grab the opportunities that come to you. This is a reminder that you have to celebrate your successes, accomplishments and all the good things that come into your life too. There may be times that you tend to look at the darker side of your perspectives in life and situations that you go through, but the cards suggest that you should embrace the positive side. You should learn how to let yourself be who you truly are and embrace your inner child, especially heal it. Whenever you go through a difficult path in your life, keep in mind that there's always light at the end of the tunnel. All your hard work is paying off. You're on the right path. I'm getting 222, which is an angel number that you might be seeing lately, whether 2:22 on the clock, 222 on plate numbers, etc. You're in the right place at the right time. You have a lot of potential to reach your goals, you just have to have faith in yourself. Be confident and stay on the positive side, don't let your negative thoughts take over your mind. Other than that, as much as you're focused on your goals and you really want to achieve them, don't forget to keep your connections with other people. Especially the ones who support and inspire you. Never forget to surround yourself with people who are healthy/not toxic, even the ones whom you think are better than you or have achieved more than you did. This is not a competition. And in reality, these people are good for you as they can even help you get through it.

Pile 2

This is a reminder to never forget to take some rest, you need it. You need to take some rest from the outside world and focus on yourself as well. Take a break from the things that are draining for you. Set aside those things that exhaust you, especially if it's mental exhaustion and it's leading you to a burnout. Take some time to recharge and don't feel guilty about doing so because it's totally alright, you need that. I feel as though you're spending too much time when it comes to your finances, career, and even studies. This is your reminder to balance that and your own well-being. Take some rest and clear your mind because you're a logical and intellectual person. You can rely on your mind because this isn't what drives you to negative thoughts but your determination to succeed. You tend to rush things and push yourself beyond your limits. You can trust your mind and your own self, and you need to put your trust in it. I can also see that you're almost there. Your goals are just a few steps away. So this is your reminder to let yourself rest and take a deep breath before continuing to move forward. After letting yourself recharge, you can continue moving forward despite any setbacks that you may encounter. You might be tempted to rush things even more and push yourself beyond your limits because you're almost there, but this is a reminder that reaching your goals will be nonsensical if you're burned out when you're already there.

Pile 3

To those who are drawn to the 3rd pile and chose this, your message is the most serious of all. I would consider this as the "most important" or "urgent" to be heard. Because you have the tendency to fall into addictions. I feel like this is your coping mechanism if you struggle too much and you don't know how to handle it. This is your reminder not to let yourself fall into your own trap that you're unconsciously setting yourself up to. Be mindful of your tendencies to fall into your addictions and being dependent on things, and even people. This is your wake up call to cope up in healthy ways and let go of the unhealthy ones. I can see that you're currently struggling in a difficult situation and you're the type of person who would use your logic and intellect to get out of that situation. The only problem is that you tend to depend on your unhealthy habits and addictions, maybe alcohol or smoking or maybe even winning something. Maybe you've been obsessed in winning something lately. Because I can see that you'll be celebrating some achievement. You worked hard to achieve this goal of yours and you'll feel like a victor because this is a huge milestone for you. You'll get recognized for your hard work. When this victory comes for you, this is a reminder not to forget to be grateful of your success. Don't forget to celebrate your success and share your gratitude with others. Other than that, don't forget to share your ways in achieving this success to others. Do not gatekeep, because what goes around, comes around.

[covid-safer-hotties]

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This article pisses me off as the author seems to have been trying to not mention masking and other prevention despite some of those interviewed being pictured wearing masks. Vax and relax helped to get those 1 in 12 Utahns into this situation!

By Emily Ashcraft

SALT LAKE CITY — Blake Bockholt says he used to be very active. He was a high school English teacher who would go running, cycling and canyoneering.

Bockholt suffers from long COVID.

"My life is completely different than I thought it would ever be," he said Wednesday at an event announcing a new long COVID study.

It took Bockholt a few years to figure out where his boundaries were. He said he should have stopped teaching two years earlier than he did. He kept teaching, reducing the number of classes he taught to what most teachers taught, and then fewer than most teachers.

As he pushed himself each day, it would take a large toll on his body — something called post exertion malaise — and he could not recover. That led him to lash out at his family, and eventually his principal stopped by his house and told him he needed to go on disability and stop working.

"I knew the limits were a long time ago. It was coming to terms with that," he said.

The Utah Department of Health and Human Services released a report on Wednesday saying long COVID is significantly impacting many Utahns. The report is designed to provide information to medical providers, patients and others to help all Utahns have similar opportunities for living healthy lives.

"About one out of every 12 Utahns is experiencing long COVID and facing the physical, mental, emotional and financial impacts that can arise. There is a significant unmet need to acknowledge and support these patients and their caregivers," the report says.

Bockholt said now his goals are to take care of his physical and mental health so he can be there for his family. If an activity doesn't benefit his physical or mental health or his family's well-being, he doesn't do it.

He said he is doing much better than he was six months ago, but he does not think he will ever get back into a classroom. Although, he still pushes himself too hard at times, specifically for going to his children's games on the weekends.

"There are some things worth overdoing it," he said.

The report says 57% of Utahns with long COVID reported severe symptoms, or symptoms that had a significant daily impact, in a 2022 survey, while 43% reported mild symptoms. Those with severe long COVID are twice as likely as the average person to have symptoms of depression and anxiety.

Cindy Wynette, a vaccine program manager with the health department who also had lingering symptoms of COVID-19, said she felt alone and didn't have anybody to vent to. She appreciated being able to have discussions in a long COVID Facebook group, which she also used to find resources.

"I was so lucky that my symptoms weren't as severe," she said. "But I can tell you that after about two years, it really did start to get to me."

Wynette said her senses of smell and taste were gone for about a year, and after that they were severely distorted for even longer — which made it hard to cook food for her family and eat.

Now she said she gets each COVID-19 vaccine because she doesn't know what would happen if she contracted COVID-19 again and doesn't want to find out.

The report said the best way to prevent long COVID is with vaccinations.

Lisa O'Brien was on the health department's long COVID committee from its beginning and helped review the study. She said the 1 in 12 statistic was not surprising and is a lower percentage than what she had seen estimated.

She was bedridden by long COVID and said her heart rate would spike anytime she stood up.

"My body just could not regulate and do, like, the normal things that it was supposed to do," she said.

O'Brien said she cycled through about 50 different symptoms. At first, doctors attributed her symptoms to anxiety or the power of suggestion. Eventually she became involved in long COVID communities online. She is one of the first 300 in an international Facebook support group and started a Utah-based one.

Now, she said she is mostly better; she has mild symptoms, sometimes feeling her heart speed up more than it should or waking up in the night with a crazy heart rate — something that is scary for her.

The study found that of people in Utah with long COVID, 54.5% reported excellent or very good health, while 14.1% reported fair or poor health. In the last month at the time of the survey in 2022, 11.3% reported their physical health was not good for at least half of the days, and 16.5% reported their mental health was not good at least half of the time.

O'Brien was a mail carrier for 20 years and said she lived an active life. She didn't want to wonder if that part of her life was gone.

"I wasn't gonna let that happen. I was gonna go out and find help … and take everybody with me," she said.

She got involved in advocacy work early on, even while she was bedridden. She said she knew Utahns were going to need help and there were more people and she didn't want other people to need to follow the same path she was forced to take.

[chocolatte-and-despair]

Anyone saw the trend where people post about their stay in the mental hospital and get shocked when it's not people with cutesy depression but people with actually heavy problems and get scared off? It's such a weird trend for me.

I had self admitted myself to a mental hospital when I was 17 because of how bad my mental health had gotten. Mind you, I was in the children's ward, so it's probably much worse in the adult ward, but still, the experience still stands.

The types of stories I heard from the people admitted in there were heartbreaking. I roomed with a girl that had severe paranoia and learning disability. I would get woken up several times at night because she would get so scared and doctors wouldn't help her.

The nurses and personel wouldn't treat you like a person, if I'm being completely honest. I've never felt as dehumanized as when I was in the mental hospital. It's a place that really pushes you to your limits both mentally and physically.

Because I was in the children's ward, there where actual toddlers in there. If you think the old teens and the under 10 kids get separated, you're really wrong. And those kids suffer. Suffer fucking a lot. They get heavily mistreated by the older kids and the nurses do nothing.

I was one of the only ones that looked after kids (I've always wanted to work with kids and still do.). I helped them eat, put them to bed and walk them to the bathroom if they got scared. Even stood up to the older kids, which isolated me from most, so I stuck with the younger kids or the queer folk that were neutral.

I'm not even going to talk about the sexual harassment in depth I've experienced there from the other patients, from having my chest groped to having them peek at me as I showered.

What I'm trying to say is that the mental hospital isn't some cutesy place where you'll sit in circles with other depressed folk and talk about stuff. It's going to be a place you encounter people of light severity and heavy severity mental health and they are all kept in one place.

The nurses don't treat you like a person, and I'm not even going to talk about the male handlers, cus they are there specifically to manhandle you if you misbehave and even tie you to the bed if needed.

Here are some rules I gathered from my stay and I can only hope it may help you if you end up there.

Don't overshare. Especially on your first day. People will be curious and swarm you. They'll ask you what you're in for. Don't overshare, try to keep it simple, until you make connections. Most of the times they are there for gossip or will label you as an easy prey if you have heavier mental illness.

Don't cry or show too many emotions. Even being too happy will be a red flag. They will keep you locked up for longer or may even tie you to the bed if you're deemed violent.

The nurses and doctors aren't your friends. Don't overshare. They are trained to get info out of you and may keep you in for longer. talk in case you're feeling suicidal or if your meds aren't working, but otherwise, try to keep it to a minimum. they aren't a therapist, every word can prolong your stay by weeks or months.

Try to make one friend or more. If you're a loner, you will become a target for groups. Everyone in there is frustrated, scared and have no healthy way to deal with all of that shit. It's only natural they may seek to bully the weakest link.

Don't gossip about your roomies or someone you talk with. If someone overshares to you and then others ask about that person, and you say stuff, you can easily make that person's stay worse. I had made this mistake on my first day there and they bullied the poor girl relentlessly which made me feel very bad.

Try to befriend people who are being excluded or harassed. Not only will you make someone's stay easier, but there's strength in numbers. The more people you have on your side, no matter their age, the less people will target either of you.

Follow the rules. There are cameras everywhere, and people will rat you out just to be seen in a better light and get out sooner. Just follow the rules and don't get in the way of the staff.

Don't rat anyone out. It may seem like the best way to be seen in a good way to the staff, or that you're helping someone, but you really aren't. You'll become excluded from groups, and you will become a target. If you're worried for someone's health, talk to them. Ratting them out will make shit worse for them.

If someone you don't get along with invites you to meet up somewhere, especially if they are a group, don't fucking go. They won't come to you, because the doctor's will notice a huge group of kids swarming a room as a red flag, and if you go there and they do something to you, it's going to be too late by the time the doc's check the cameras. It's just safer.

These are my personal rules that helped me with my stay at the hospital. Of course, every mental facility is different, but these are the things that worked for me.

[befuddledcinnamonroll]

Oh, do I have THOUGHTS about this week's Hidden Agenda. I'm going to try and articulate this best I can in the limited time I have.

Here's the thing. There will be times in your life when you upset someone you love, and you will be 100% convinced that you did absolutely nothing wrong. But if you go into trying to rebuild things holding on to that belief, you are going to have problems.

As a friend of mine once said, you can be right all the time, or you can be in relationship. You can't do both.

(Key here is healthy relationships, abuse dynamics are a whole different thing).

I want to talk about how Joke fucked up, and how the relationship may seem fixed, but there's still a huge problem. And how in contrast, Jeng actually ended up doing this right - even though at first glance the two situations may have seemed to have played out the same way.

So in both cases, Joke & Jeng feel like they've done nothing wrong. In Joke's case, he wanted to get close to Zo. He's made it clear from early on that for him, love is a valid justification for behaviors that others might question (such as when Kot pushes back at him for how he's behaving with Zo). Jeng also feels like he's done nothing wrong because Pok entered the relationship knowing they'd be closeted.

But as we've all learned, Zo feels strongly about being manipulated, especially after his horrific experience with Puen. And Pok may have started off being able to deal with hiding his relationship, but his feelings have changed as he gets hurt more and more. (And people are allowed to change what they want in relationships; having agreed to something doesn't mean you can't change your mind - even though it may sometimes end the relationship).

So we then enter the absolute cringe phase, where Joke thinks he can romantic gesture his way into Zo's forgiveness (side note, that "big gesture" was absolutely horrifying and I would have died on the spot). Because he didn't really do anything wrong, right? Cuteness should be enough.

Bonus points to Kot for also having some emotional intelligence here.

Let's switch to Jeng for a moment. I do find it ironic that Joke is actually the one who reminds him to consider Pok's perspective here (but let's face it, we're all better at giving other people advice than ourselves).

And then, by being a part of Joke's gesture, Jeng has a good opportunity to realize how futile something like that is, if you don't have real understanding behind it. He shows up home with flowers (another superficial romantic gesture) to discover he is on the verge of completely losing Pok. At which point he does important thing number one - he shows that he has actually considered Pok's perspective, and UNDERSTANDS IT.

This is such a key thing that I think a lot of people miss when it comes to interpersonal conflict. You can disagree with someone else's perspective, but still take the time to understand and empathize with it. And in many cases, once you take the time to do that, you actually tend to realize the other person had a valid point - which Jeng realizes here.

And here comes important thing number two for Jeng rebuilding his relationship with Pok. He IMMEDIATELY follows it up with behavior that proves it when he says Pok is the most important thing in his life.

So why is it different with Joke? On the surface, he does the same thing. He says he understands, he says he is sorry. Why do I think this conflict is not resolved?

Because of this, right here.

He still feels justified, y'all. He knows why Zo is mad, and he is sorry. He will say what he needs to say for Zo's forgiveness. But he will 100% do it again.

This isn't over.

[swiftscion]

“ You wanted my stamina, right? ”  He wasn't sure if he was remembering correctly, but he does vaguely remember something like that from back when they had been competing against one another for that fitness seminar. It seemed as if ever since coming to Fodlan, the two of them were competing in some way, now that he thinks about it. Rivals. He hadn't expected that kind of relationship with the Isaachian princess, but it's not one he feels any need to revoke either. He thinks they're doing just fine as they are.

And so when the day of the Winter Festival comes, he comes bearing a gift for her. A bottle wrapped in a silver ribbon trades hands from his to hers, but instead of any alcohol, what is in there livens the spirit in a slightly different way.

“ It's not the same, but here. It's an S Drink. ”  She had given him something rare as a present once, so here he was doing the same. He's not sure anything he could give would compare to the treasure of good news her Verdanite gift had been for him his previous birthday, but he tries nevertheless in his own way.  “ My army used these when we needed to push ourselves beyond our limits. If someone was fatigued, they'd drink it and be able to go into battle just fine afterwards. ”

In their darkest hours, this had been the thing to save them. And now he was passing it onto Larcei.

“ If you want to keep training and getting stronger, then this should help. And when you're the strongest you can be, come to me, OK?? ”

Because he wouldn't want to miss it for the world.

S Drink, huh? Doesn't Leif know that pulling the ace out of his sleeve will leave him defenseless in his most desperate hour? Larcei handles the offered bottle with a practiced hand, swirling it from its head to give the contents a healthy mix. She goes wordless at first, just hunting around in Leif's eyes.

What could this mean? Does he not think he'd need the S Drink's advantage to best her; is he hoping to see her at her highest peak so he could savor bringing her plummeting back down? The bronze twins on his face are shields, revealing nothing and concealing everything. She just has to trust that this is what he'd mean, as her friend, as her competitor.

And she smirks.

Larcei would have it no other way. This belief of Leif's--that he can take her at her strongest--is something to be excited about. It's fuel for her furnace, a shovel of dust to power the cosmic engine in her star. "When that day comes," she warns, though she still wears her wicked smile, "I'll wipe you for good. You'll regret even thinkin' you could match me at my best."

His words filter through her head a second time as she eyes the drink. This thing could save her life, if the prince has even one honest bone in his body. Thinking back to all the times she pushed herself to her limit, borrowed power from beyond the grave--fought even after burning out--she devises a number of ways she could put this to good use. This S Drink, that she now pockets, becomes her lifeline.

Leif comes into view again.

"'Till then though, you can't give in. And I'll make sure of that." An arm crosses over her chest, balled into a fist at the end. It's swearing an oath of some sort. Though nonspecific, the heart behind it is very real. "What you gave me might save my life, so I'm savin' yours in return. Leif, you've got my promise as a warrior of Isaach that I won't let you fall." Her fingers clench tighter as the words permeate the space between them. They leave their lingering taste for a second of silence, during which Larcei's eyes flutter shut. This is something serious. She can't have Leif catch her goofing off.

Once it's over, she pats him on the shoulder with a friendlier air about her. They can go back to being buds.

"At least, not until we've had our fight!"

[energonbunny]

What Transformer would Stiles become a Headmaster with?

Okay, so, to preface: I do not know much about the Headmasters. I've read, like, one entire fanfic that used/mentioned the premise and I've seen the wiki page, so I don't have much to go off of here.

Just to double check, you mean Stiles Stilinski, yes? Because I'm going to answer assuming you do (Stiles and Stiles, the only other one you could maybe mean is Miles but if so just let me know and I'll type out an answer for him). The thing with Stiles is... there are so many answers to this question that I think could be interesting, even just going off of the limited number of 'bots I see under the Headmasters wiki page. Some of the Transformers (just the Autobots, actually) I see listed are a few I already recognize from my limited amount of comic reading/show watching/fic reading, so that makes it a bit easier in that regard.

After a little bit of reading, I gravitated towards Fortress Maximus. I think that, for the most part, the two could mesh very well, and Stiles could definitely provide new ideas and ways of doing things that Fortress Maximus would never think of. Conversely, when they did clash, they would clash bad. Fortress Maximus would prefer to stop fighting, and just aims to protect. Stiles would aim to protect, but would also aim to finish the fight and would be willing to play dirty if he had to so he could make sure his loved ones were safe and healthy. Plus he would justify it because the other side would play dirty, so why shouldn't he? And Fortress Maximus would hate that.

Outside of that, him and Brainstorm would be a wild combination. Just... constant ideas and experiments and half thought up schemes. I feel like Brainstorm would just make some of Stiles' worst tendencies even worse, and vice versa. What was it that one time? Stiles once wrote that paper on circumcision and it wasn't even the topic? That would just become worse with Brainstorm, tbh. They would be a volatile combination because they would both have a tendency to hyper focus on one thing, which could definitely be bad if they forget about/push other stuff to the wayside for it. But the sheer amount of stuff they would come up with would somewhat make up for it? Someone would just have to babysit them and make sure they listened to rules, really.

Also... can I cheat? Because when I was thinking of Fortress Maximus I ended up thinking that basically FM would be Optimus Prime and Stiles would end up being sort of like Hot Rod/Rodimus Prime in a way, which with more thought was a bad comparison but it stuck because I think out of the three considerations, even though he isn't technically a Headmaster, I would pick Hot Rod/Rodimus Prime to stick with Stiles.

I think he and Stiles would be a fascinating combination! Both of them are rash and full of self bravado but also lacking in self confidence (RP more than HR, but you get it). Stiles would bring more planning and strategizing to the table, and HR/RP would be way better at faking the confidence aspect of things and bullshiting his way through certain things. Also, they would both adore driving certain people insane. RIP to Ultra Magnus and whatever peace he had before this unholy matrimony. Also, I once saw someone mention that it was incredibly funny so many pairings happened on the Lost Light/ended up there and that poor Rodimus had to watch it happen, and it would be even funnier with Stiles sharing his head demanding a play by play/being salty that robots were getting more action than he was.

I'm so sorry if this wasn't the answer you were hoping for! I know very little about the Headmasters as a whole so just had fun with it.

[pscottmila]

Skinny Doesn’t Mean Weak—And I’m Living Proof

For the longest time, I let the word “skinny” define me. Not just as a body type, but as a limitation—as if being lean somehow made me less capable, less confident, less whole. People would toss around comments like “You need to eat more,” “You look like a stick,” or the dreaded “Are you okay?” as if my size was a reflection of my health, my happiness, or my strength. I used to internalize those words. I’d avoid sleeveless shirts, shy away from group photos, and slouch to make myself look a little less thin. I was battling a quiet war with my self-esteem, constantly comparing myself to people who looked “stronger,” “healthier,” or simply “more normal.” But the truth is—skinny doesn’t mean weak. And today, I’m living proof of that.

What changed for me wasn’t my body—it was my mindset. Confidence isn’t about your waistline or your weight; it’s about the way you show up for yourself. I stopped tying my worth to numbers on a scale and started focusing on how I felt in my own skin. That shift didn’t happen overnight. It came from choosing to value my presence over my appearance, from learning that self-respect isn’t earned through muscle mass but through self-compassion, boundaries, and inner strength. Redefining confidence meant letting go of society’s expectations and embracing the version of me that didn’t need to be bigger to be better.

I know the sting of being compared, of people making you feel like your body is up for debate. Whether it’s friends, family, or strangers who think they’re being “concerned,” those comments can dig deep. But I’ve learned to meet those moments with grace—and strength. When someone says, “You’re so skinny,” I don’t take it as an insult anymore. Instead of shrinking under the weight of their words, I stand taller, knowing that their opinions don’t define my value. If you’re navigating those awkward conversations or unkind remarks, remind yourself: people don’t get to tell your story—you do.

That’s also why I embrace body neutrality. You don’t have to wake up loving every inch of your body every single day—and that’s okay. You can still treat it with respect. Body neutrality gave me the freedom to focus on what my body can do, rather than how it looks. I train to be strong, agile, and healthy—not just to add pounds or meet an aesthetic ideal. Some days, I still catch myself wishing I looked different, but those moments no longer control me. Loving your body isn’t always realistic, but accepting it and being kind to it is a powerful daily practice.

The social pressure is real. It’s hard walking into a room where everyone else seems more filled out, more “put together,” or more “normal.” I’ve had moments where I felt invisible—like I didn’t take up enough space to matter. But confidence isn’t about physical presence; it’s about personal presence. I’ve worked on posture, eye contact, and speaking up—not because I wanted to seem bigger, but because I deserved to be heard. Confidence is magnetic, and you can radiate it at any size.

Style has helped, too. Dressing for my frame no longer feels like a struggle, but a strategy. I learned what cuts flatter my build, how to layer smartly, and how to use fashion as a way to express myself without hiding who I am. Slim doesn’t have to mean shapeless. And when paired with confident posture—shoulders back, chin up, relaxed stance—you’d be surprised at how much your energy shifts. The world reacts to how you treat yourself.

On the fitness side, I used to think lifting weights was only for getting “big.” But over time, I discovered that strength training gave me something even more powerful than size—it gave me confidence. There’s nothing like realizing you can do push-ups, deadlifts, or hold a plank longer than you ever thought possible. Fitness, for me, is no longer about chasing a body type. It’s about building a resilient, functional body that I’m proud of, even if it doesn’t fit the stereotype of “strong.”

To this day, people are surprised to learn how strong I really am. And you know what? I love that. I love breaking the stereotype that only bigger bodies are powerful. I love showing that strength can come in lean packages. And I love encouraging others to stop apologizing for being small, light, or different.

There are so many incredible people—celebrities, athletes, artists—who are on the leaner side yet radiate an undeniable confidence. They walk into rooms with presence, grace, and power. They show that you don’t need to look a certain way to make an impact. And that’s what I strive for every day—to be confident, not because I changed my body, but because I changed my perspective.

If I could talk to my younger self, I’d say: You are not broken. You don’t need to fix your body. You just need to own it. Confidence isn’t built overnight, but every time you show up, speak up, and stand tall, you build a little more of it. To anyone out there who’s ever felt too skinny, too small, or too insecure—I see you. And I promise you, there is so much strength within you waiting to shine.

So let’s stop measuring strength by size. Let’s redefine what confidence looks like. Let’s show the world that skinny doesn’t mean weak—it can mean powerful, graceful, fierce, and enough.

Because we already are.

[restrained-disordered]

i’m not gonna remember to do all of this, so i’m gonna do it all at once LMAO

5’5” and anywhere in the 110-107 lbs range. my moms scale is broken beyond belief so i couldn’t tell you an accurate number. ugw is 100 lbs or anywhere in the 90 lbs range

soups!!! i’ve always liked that soup isn’t heavy, and it works in my favour here. i just add veggies for health and flavour and bam, fills me up. fruits always a nice treat, i just have to motivate myself to prepare it.. lol. sparkling water and low cal water sweetener is also a life saver

i developed a hankering for multivitamin gummies. 💀

100 lbs or less!! i’ve always been jealous of my friends who have been lighter than me. i’m hoping this puts me at the same range as them.. though i can’t know for certain. i don’t wanna ask them about their weight unprompted.

i don’t consume that kind of media cus it just makes me feel awful LMFAO

uhhhh can’t think of very many at the moment?

ever since elementary school, i noticed i was heavier than my friends. i was still like “healthy” but i didn’t like knowing that my friends were all still in the 80/90 lbs range while i was hitting 100 lbs. im 99% sure it was cus of my height, all my friends are shorter than me, but it still felt shitty. in 2020, i had a major depressive episode and ate like shit, i either wasn’t eating or eating ramen 24/7. i’ve always aspired to be skinnier but dealing with the ramifications of that episode + feeling like the heavier friend has definitely helped determine this route i’m going down. to put a long story short, i’ve always wanted to be skinnier and restrict to do so, but this time i have tumblr and a boat load more of inspiration and motivation :-)

everything LMAO

no, i don’t want to recover. my journey has ebbed and flowed, but at this point in my life, i don’t see a future where my relationship with food is ever permanently improved and the idea of gaining weight feels like the cherry on top of a suicidal sundae right now. i always come back to this either way

i honestly still feel like a faker so… unanswered. i’ve honestly never thought of it as a “diet” and more like “restricting-lite”

sweets and chocolate. i’ve tried working in small amounts of sweets into my limit before but god.

i honestly don’t know. i have to wear shorts wether i like it or not, it gets hot as hell here, so nothing specific i guess. i just wanna look skinnier in them.

thinspo and sweetspo. anything else makes me wanna cry 😭😭

walking, studying, crying over studying, sleeping, drawing / crafts

i don’t know. i would rather maintain my ugw than gain so.. whatever it takes i suppose

probably like.. actively discouraging recovery and pushing people across their limits

i don’t wanna put my list out there.. but mostly louis tomlinson and mitski songs

i do not wanna think about this im sorry lmao

im pretty sure they’re all close to figuring it out. but they haven’t outright told me they think i have one, so… i’m safe for now. id rather die than tell anyone, ive heard horror stories of that making other people wanna restrict too. i hate feeling like it’s a competition and i hate watching other people be better at restricting than i am, but most importantly, i dont want my friends to feel this way. like ever. i want them to have happy and healthy lives, away from this lonely disorder

it’s been on and off since i was like.. nine or ten. 💀 it’s always been mildly toxic but it’s gotten drastically worse since like mid january to early february

no

my memory is shit

no but yes. i can’t explain it nor do i want to, and idk if i’ll ever feel the happiness i want. but i can’t control that

i don’t, at least not intentionally. there’s been a few days i might’ve gone over via my inability to read nutrition labels correctly but i don’t want to allow myself to engage in that behaviour. i think that makes me worse off overall

i couldn’t tell you

i like art. that’s it

i desperately want to be one but i don’t think i am

restrict and fast. i haven’t fasted enough for my liking but i CAN do it. i wanna sing in a band so i dont wanna risk ruining my teeth and vocal chords with acid. plus i haven’t vomited since i was like 8 years old, and i don’t know if i want to feel that again yet

i don’t know. if its in the context of restricting, no, i dont believe in that. if its in general? i mean.. maybe to some people it seems like that, but i just wanna escape life and its worries

..cant really answer this one LMAO

[shatcey]

How much do you spend on otomes in general? What is a healthy range for you? Have you even gone beyond it.

Thank you for asking, but… It's not that simple.

I am one of the very "lucky" (or without quotes, depending on the point of view) people who cannot that easily to buy something online. And… only a few games have features that allow me to do this. Right now, I have literally only one game that I can spend my money on, and luckily it's the same game I adore very much (Ikemen Villains).

When I realized that I could buy diamonds in IkeVil, I thought I will spend 30💲 per month. Like... if I use every draw for 90, then it will be approximately in this range. But… the first event showed me that this was not enough for me. I need stories or cards… and to get them, I need to buy sets. Usually middle one. I've posted my calculations.

But sometimes my passion goes against my reasoning. When Ally's route came out, I spent half of my salary. I was quite surprised myself. The two months after that were pretty tough. There are always big bills in winter, and besides, it's the holiday season… And I'm one of those weird people who thinks I need to buy gifts for all my friends and family… So I had to make decisions with greater consideration, which I hadn't done in a very long time…

So now I'm trying to be more careful. I try to limit myself to 100💲 per month. But the 1st anniversary is approaching, and I really want to read a lot. The first part (at least that was the first part in the JP game, who knows… maybe it will be the second one) will feature Vivi, Willy, Ally, Elbie and Roger, and… yes, I've read Vivi and Willy's stories, but….. I want to read them in normal English. And, of course, Ally. And I'm curious to know that was in Elbie's sorry. These stories are very good, and if you read both (bitter and premium), they will be saved in your library… It's so tempting. I'm doomed. So I doubt that I will be able to stay within this limit.

But I understand that we all have different salaries, and these numbers mean very little.

So… I recommend making calculations. How much do you need for bills, food, and other important things (we all have different opinions about what's important) and just find the number. LIFE DEPENDS ON money (LD).

Make another list… what would you like to do… just for your mental health. Just to take your mind off a very boring, pushing and depressing life. This again depends on your preferences… bars, theaters, movies, meetings with friends, stress relief shopping… something like that. And find the number again. SPIRIT DEPENDS ON money (SD).

And calculate what's left.

(Your salary) - LD - SD = POTENTIAL SAVINGS (PS).

And never exceed PS in your gaming expense. So in this case, you will always have money for what is important.

This is not some kind of science. I just came to this based on my experience. I think it makes sense.

I hope this helps.

dividers @.fanguro

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🔝 𝕊𝕋𝔸ℝ𝕋 ℙ𝔸𝔾𝔼 🔝

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[wanderingchronicle]

G for all your rpg guys! Patch: 7 & 39

G: What trait of theirs bothers you the most?

Oh this is a good one.

Calix does a really good job of hiding how deeply wounded she is and how easily hurt her feelings are, and instead of pushing back when people hurt her initially she has a tendency to allow herself to be pushed to the point where she loses her temper. This is a problem because Calix is genuinely very threatening, and it makes her come off as volatile and be treated that way...which irritates her. Cycle repeats. For someone who literally has a perpetually bleeding chest wound, girl HATES to let people see her weak or hurting. She let one of her partners fuss over her after a party and it would have been less intimate if they'd fucked nasty.

Lux takes her position as the mum friend and one of the eldest of the Clean Up Crew way too seriously. She's also the member of the party with the biggest tendency towards deliberate and malicious cruelty, which bothers me far less but means that she's incredibly effective at hurting the people she loves. This bothers me less than her conviction that she knows better than those kids and has to be the adult in the situation. Girl. You are 29 and the most unmedicated bitch in the room you are hanging in there by your fingernails you are literally weeping black ichor stop that

Kahavi is another person who would rather die than show weakness. At the start of the game she was keeping a giant life-ending secret and catastrophising that if the people around her knew she'd die in a cage. And in her defense, this was ironed into her from childhood, but also when she found herself with another secret to keep she fell right back on the old habit of suffering in silence and lying to everyone she loves and feeling HELLA guilty about it. She's so stupid lol this is NOT healthy.

Rory has many problems and most of them are caused or exacerbated by the fact that she has ONE strategy in times of trouble and that's to hit the bricks and she is currently in a situation where she CANNOT hit the bricks because she is physically unable to leave.

Atlas' biggest idiocy is that she only knows how to function when she's acting as an offsider. She was her husband's number two and now she's Bird's. Make your own decisions and live your own life you dumb cunt

7. What triggers nostalgia for them, most often? Do they enjoy that feeling?

Patch got taught the basics of information science by an administrator on the bridge crew when she was in her late teens, early twenties. That administrator is the only person who died in the Heliopause's crash-landing that Patch actually misses.

She doesn't like feeling nostalgic, and doesn't feel it often. She was five when the Heliopause began its journey and has only the dimmest memories of Earth, and she was deeply unhappy aboard. From her perspective, her early life was pretty miserable and she doesn't want to look back on it. Being too disabled to be a soldier on a ship full of them...sucks. 39. How easy is it for them to ignore flaws in other people? 

Patch is actually very patient, as a product of growing up on a ship where her ability to get away from people was limited. If you're not inconveniencing her (or her work) directly, as long as it's not egregious she's got no skin in the game.

She gets more combative as she gets older, though, mostly because she's no longer socially bottom rung and people might actually listen when she tells them they're stupid or an asshole. With that said, generally Patch will only call you on your bullshit if she respects you at least a little.

[quietpagan]

Oh boy

(It's not that interesting, it's just a personal rant).

(BUT - )

Before I had a car, when I was living in a larger city, the bus or walking was the only way I could do errands and I was fortunate enough to live in a city that at least had a functioning bus system, unlike the town I'm living in now. Driving in a busy city is not only difficult but exhausting, even more tiring than regular driving, and taking the bus really didn't push me back that far in terms of time. It was really nice not to have to drive places, and even if I'd had a car I would have chosen to take the bus, not only to save on personal fuel costs but because even the added inconvenience of getting to the bus stops and taking a longer time to do an errand weigh much less than how much I fucking loathe driving and paying for car costs.

I live in a much smaller town now, with no good public transport system; it's either you have a car or you bike it or you don't leave home.

Because of traffic I can get to the grocery store on a bike in less time than it takes to drive there, and it costs me absolutely nothing. I really, really wish that our town had a public transit system because there are so many communities within our town that are largely cut off from necessities because of how remote they are, and there are a huge number of people who cannot afford cars or can't drive because of license issues or disabilities, and therefore have harder times holding down jobs or taking care of themselves if they don't have a friend or family member who can drive for them.

When cities are designed with only car culture in mind, it limits what people can do within that area and who can do it. Cars are considered more convenient on the whole simply because we've designed our cities to be unfriendly toward any other form of transport, which is stupid because those forms of transport take up significantly less space and waste less energy. If you assume that a bus will hold ~50 people, then one bus can eliminate around eleven cars from the road, if those cars are each carrying four people. That equals less traffic, which equals less gas, less idling, and less carbon emissions. It's been proven for a while that buses and trains are more energy-efficient and environmentally healthy on the whole than cars.

AND it's cheaper! Not only are you having to pay insurance and taxes personally for a car, but you have to buy gas as well. My car costs about ~$30 to fill up, at the current gas prices. If I drive to work and errands then I have to fill up about once a week. That's $120 a month, and $1500 a year. Let's say that insurance, which is required by law, is around $700 per year. The majority of people in the USA have their own vehicle. That's a lot of money per person per year. That's not even counting repair costs, monthly car payments, etc.

A 30-day bus pass can cost anywhere from $40-$100, which is still cheaper than buying gas, and it doesn't have a limit of how many times you can ride during that thirty days. Also, most public transits will have discounts for students, low-income folks, disabled or elderly people, and even free fare for certain passengers at certain times.

Reliable public transit is people-friendly, environmentally-friendly, and economy-friendly. I'm not saying that cars aren't convenient for some things, because they are, but we've done this to ourselves in making our cities and towns so unwelcome toward any other form of transit, to the point where we no longer see or understand how daily life could be improved for so many people if we had popularized reliable transport systems that were not so reliant on individual consumption.

The anti-car culture on this website is so fucking annoying. Like, sorry I want to be able to get around without having to spend two hours taking three buses. Sorry I want to be able to go grocery shopping in the winter without having to lug heavy bags home through the snow on a fucking bike

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Update: Cassie lost more than 100 pounds

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Update: Cassie lost more than 100 pounds

Cassie lost 100+ pounds. We recently reached out to her, asking her to share how she’s maintained her success despite challenges. Incorporating the 80/20 rule into her eating plan and working out five days a week are two of the healthy habits she’s embraced.

Social Media: Instagram: @coc1986 YouTube: https://youtube.com/user/cassiec1986

Check out the feature we did on Cassie’s journey back in 2022.

What is your current weight? 281 pounds

How have you maintained your weight loss/continued to lose weight? Despite some challenges, I’ve maintained my weight loss by exercising five days a week (strength three times a week and walking daily), intermittent fasting, and sticking to the 80/20 rule for my eating habits (clean eating 80% of the time with 20% for my fav treats in moderation and slight calorie deficit). I do take breaks periodically to increase my calorie intake. 

Of the lessons you’ve learned on your journey, which one stands out the most at this point?  The scale only plays a small role in your journey. It will never show you the big picture of your progress. Trust me, I have walked down this road many times, and I would beat myself if I didn’t see the number on the scale move. I would do some unhealthy things to get the number to go down (like not eating, trying any fasting diet I thought I could do, excessive amounts of cardio). All I did was put my body in survivor mode. 

I gained all the weight back and then some. This journey is not just about losing weight. You have to approach it as an overall wellness journey. You want to ensure you are mentally prepared, spiritually grounded, and ready to be consistent. You also have to be prepared to be comfortable with the discomfort of pushing your body to a comfortable but challenging limit. You have the ability to create the body you want, but don’t allow the scale to be in control of how you walk on this path of reaching your goals.

Would you like to offer any new or different advice to women who want to lose weight? Stay consistent…even when you don’t have the energy or strength to keep going…stay consistent! And consistency may not always be the same each week…you may have a few days off but the following week you accomplish all of your goals you set for yourself. We are always our own worst critic, and we have to stop picking ourselves apart! Let’s start working on giving ourselves more grace! Never give up on yourself!

  These are the affirmations I repeat to myself on my journey. I hope they help you with yours, too.  I am confident and comfortable in my own skin.

I am beautiful, confident, and loved.

I’m so grateful for my healthy and strong body.

I will be gentle and kind to myself.

I believe in myself.

I am peaceful and whole.

I am allowed to take care of myself.

Anything worth having takes time.

I am capable and strong.

God wants me to take care of my vessel and treat it with respect.

I am enough.

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It was because Ponsol had a good relationship with his mother that he didn’t mind talking about her, even if the pain of her loss settled deep into his bones. It was a touchy subject to talk about what she was like before her death, but speaking about her when she was healthy and happy was something he liked to reminisce on. It was his mother and grandmother who were a source of comfort to him, but they were gone. The closest thing he had to a comforting person now would be his jack ass of a brother.

When he was younger, he may have had a decent relationship with his father, but things certainly changed due to the actions of his father. Inexcusable actions, and incredibly selfish. He couldn’t imagine himself or his brother ever reconciling with that man. His infidelity caused damage to the family and it was the reason why the brothers had to watch as their mother slowly withered away.

❝The world is a fascinating place, where many coincidences pop up in ways to make it feel like fated encounters or otherwise.❞ 

Ironically, Ponsol enjoyed the concept of fate from a romantic standpoint, but from a realistic standpoint, he couldn’t say that he believed in it. While the concept of soulmates were attractive, he knew that it was simply a matter of set variables such as timing, attraction, compatibility, and more. You could find love in a wide net of people, but it was chance that drew you to a person at any given time. Had circumstances been different, you could very well fall in love with another and be just as happy.

❝I enjoy the thrill of learning a new craft and mastering it. I do so for the self-indulgence, and will occasionally seek to gift others my craft. It isn’t often that I will gift others something I’ve made myself.❞ 

He didn’t think many were worthy of receiving his personally crafted pieces. Though really, it was that he’d had a number of his crafts destroyed in front of his eyes that it had become somewhat traumatic for him to gift his works to others. He only saw himself doing so once he truly came to trust in someone.

At her comment about how things are decided for you when you are born into a certain type of household. He too could relate to such a thing as he was forced into being the heir of the Corporations instead of his father who refused to take on the role in his pursuit of knowledge. When it came down to him and his brother, he ended up picking the short end of the stick, being forced into the life he didn’t want. Subjected to being compared to his genius brother, blamed for his shortcomings, and being pushed to his limits on some days.

❝I can relate to that. Though I had my brother as company, there is harm that comes along with it in the form of the constant comparisons and ridicule.❞ 

He sighs.

❝Still, I wouldn’t trade him away. As much of an ass as he is, he is still my older brother. The inconsideration of others to constantly compare you to someone else rather than acknowledging your own efforts and successes is damaging.❞ 

Ponsol could understand the feeling of not feeling good enough, to be looked at as a disappointment. He saw it every day when others would openly wonder why it wasn’t Shugarl who was to take over as Heir. He, who was a genius with numbers, and having a keen insight into noticing trends and the like… he was also level-headed and… healthy. It wasn’t like he asked to be born weaker and prone to getting sick when he overworks himself.

❝He dabbles in art a little bit, so he may find some interest in it. He prefers more modern and geometric designs to art. He enjoys shapes more than he does the colors and the feelings behind the artwork.❞ 

It was the mathematician in him, no doubt. He inherited the talent with mathematics from their father while Ponsol inherited the love for plants and art from their mother.

❝Sad conversations are an interesting way to get to know someone better and find common ground. It was fascinating to see where we differ and are similar in. In a way, it solidifies the notion that he can get along.❞ 

As some may term it, two losers licking each other’s wounds. He didn’t see himself as a loser, but he could certainly imagine a few who may say such a thing.

He didn’t mind? Nunnally was at least a bit surprised. She had always felt uncomfortable, when the topic of her mother appeared. But perhaps it was her own fault as she couldn't fully understand her own feeling towards the woman that gave her life. Surely, she had good memories with her, but they were clouded with Nunnally not feeling loved. But perhaps her mother died when she was too little to understand the complexity of their situation? Not only her mother, but her family in general, was a 'no' topic for Nunnally.

And on the top of that, she was not sure on how to comment on Ponsol’s statement. So, Nunnally only offered him a small smile. It meant to be reassuring, but did she succeed? Yet after a short while and surprisingly for herself added: --

“I am closer with my father than I was with my mother…” – though that was not the truth; when her mother was alive, Nunnally was neither close with any of her parents. She was a child brought up by nannies, governesses and tutors, and she hardly saw her own parents. More her mother than her father. And it was mostly her mother who scolded or punished her. It was only after there had been two of them left, when she and her father became closer. But what Nunnally didn’t understand (or chose not to acknowledge), her father actions were aimed to gain control over her. To have her completely subordinated to his will. To gain the control over what once was to become hers.

Nunnally’s smile became more confident (again) when they were back to talking about art. In a way, art had always been her escape. Nunnally clapped her hands in some childish joy (or amusement): --

“It’s quite surprising, indeed, how many things we have in common. It always makes me believe our meeting was not accidental…” – she smoothed the skirt of her dress – “Not like I really believe in it, but it would be nice if things like that happened in real life…not only in novels.” – Nunnally believed there were no such things like 'fate' or 'love from the first sight'; these were parts of the books but not of reality. At least not of her reality – “But I was to say I also embroider or crotchet if I am to give a gift to someone I care about. It seems more genuine. If it makes any sense at all.” – perhaps he did understand. Perhaps he did understand that presents bought with money (when you have plenty of it) lacked that special care that Nunnally was yearning for.

“I am not sure why I can’t cook. It’s probably because my grandmother never considered it was needed in my education.” – and it also was not something Nunnally had a passion for; Nunnally spared that little free time she had for things she really enjoyed – “When you come from the family such as mine…” – Ponsol would surely know what she was talking about; Nunnally was certain that his family was similar in a way – “…some things are decided for you.” – her voice didn't indicate the opposition or regret towards it. It was just a fact of life and she accepted it.

“I am a single child.” – she continued – “And I think it makes you lonely in a way.” – a gentle laugh upon his words – “Well, having a sibling is a hassle, I would like to try.” – her smile was wiped off with his next words: --

“I…I think I understand…” – well, a moment ago she had said she had no sibling and now she claimed to understand; Nunnally felt inclined to explain – “It’s…it’s similar when your father is one of a kind. Successful in everything he’d ever done…” – apart from producing a heir – “As his only daughter…you’re always compared to him and…”

“Well, basically I am considered a disappointment. Never being enough.” – from the moment I was born; but she didn’t feel like sharing that fact with him. If their families were similar enough, he’d understand; that was at least her hope.

“It would be interesting to meet your brother.” – she nodded politely – “I am sure he’d enjoy the exhibition to come. Though that’s going to be a formal event.”

“I love art. I have always regretted it’s impossible for me to link my future with it. That’s why I like promoting in. I guess it’s my way to compensate…”

“I am sorry. I didn’t want it to make a sad conversation…”