#you don't understand how much i would give to feel like a feminine boy recklessly reaching for his friend

[love-too]

And I feel gender envy in this theatre tonight

[icycoldninja]

So this is a very specific type of request I have related to reader because I love this concept so much. I always wondered how the Sparda men would react around reader seeking out power while being reckless about it in the process and nearly getting herself killed in the process. Mainly due to her being victimized in the past and hated feeling weak, with her trying to deny her crush Dante, Vergil, Nero or V and trying to emotionally distance herself from them because the minute she falls in love, she thinks, she’s back to square one of being weak (spoiler alert, it doesn’t work, lol) and the Sparda men become super concerned because she is a human being in comparison to them being demon human hybrids.

Ay, here you go!

Sparda boys + V x Fem!Power-seeking!Reader headcannons

¤ Dante ¤

-Dante sees how driven you are, and immediately remembers his own brother, wondering if you might be another aspect of him like V. Perhaps you represent his feminine side.

-He hates how reckless you are since he's very concerned about your safety and never wants to see you hurt. He tries to convince you to reign it in, but you won't listen.

-It seems you do the exact opposite of what he wants just to spite him. It's petty and upsetting, and eventually Dante has enough. He demands to know what your problem is and why you appear to hate him so much. This resulted in an argument, during which you accidentally revealed your trauma and how you were afraid to embrace your feelings for him for fear of being called weak.

-Dante couldn't believe what you said, and after a brief moment of quiet shock, he walked over, wrapped you in a tight hug, and told you he loved you, and that there was no need to fear him or your feelings because you were not weak. You weren't even close to being weak, you were amazing.

-Dante will help you work through your emotional issues and mental trauma all while reminding you of how dear you are to him.

-He doesn't want you to go down the same route as Vergil, so he'll do his best to help you through your problems.

■ Vergil ■

-Vergil knows all about pursuing power and what it does to one's mental and physical health. He was glad that you were motivated to pursue your ambitions, but not like this. You shouldn't recklessly throw yourself in harm's way like that.

-He would have given you a stern lecture, but remembered that there was a time when he was like you, and back then, he wouldn't have wanted to be scolded, it wouldn't have helped.

-Instead, Vergil quietly came up to you and asked why you kept charging into combat without thinking. You didn't want to answer him at first, but he kept those cold eyes trained on you and you eventually broke and told him.

-You confessed how you were afraid to be called weak, how you hated being victimized because of your weakness, how you thought of your own romantic feelings as proof of your weakness, and how you wanted nothing more than to grow stronger.

-Vergil actually understands your feelings, and assured you that falling in love with someone is not weakness, it is more POWER. He knows because he's fallen too, and yes, his crush is you.

-He'll help you through your issues as best he can, but don't forget, he still has his fare share of problems to deal with himself.

□ Nero □

-Nero likes that you have drive, but your obsessive power-seeking reminds him of his useless father.

-Your recklessness also pisses him off, and you giving him the cold shoulder is no help at all. He wonders why you act this way and what he ever did to upset you.

-At one point you charged in like an idiot and nearly died, which naturally made the both of you very angry. Since you two were the only people around, you started yelling at each other, and the argument soon got personal.

-Nero started screaming at you about how much of a crazy, awful person you were, and you fired back saying you were doing all this for the sake of more power. Nero called you mentally and emotionally weak in response and you froze. It took a minute but Nero eventually realized he'd said something wrong.

-You got very quiet and started hysterically mumbling about how you weren't weak, how you were strong, how you had to be strong, and how your feelings meant you were weak after all. Nero heard all this and asked what feelings you were talking about. In the height of your mania, you told him you had a crush on him, and in response, Nero admitted that he had a crush on you too.

-Things were awkward for a while afterward, but you eventually warmed up to Nero, and with great difficulty and emotional turnoil, managed to accept your feelings for him. The two of you then went on to become a badass power couple.

● V ●

-Being part of Vergil, V understood what happens to those who stubbornly chase after power as if it were the only thing keeping them alive.

-He wants you to stop rushing into battle because it's only going to hurt you, but you don't listen. V would physically restrain you, but he lacks the strength.

-Your refusal to even consider his opinions as legitimate alternatives hurt him deeply. Why do you seem to hate him so? He's only trying to help!

-He begs you to sit down and talk with him, and with some reluctance you do. You didn't intend for the talk to get so deep and personal, but it did, and despite your stubborn belief that love is weakness, you felt comfortable around V, like you could trust him with your secrets.

-You told him everything, your fears, insecurities, worries, and everything. You revealed the truth behind your lust for power, that all you wanted was to avoid being weak so you'd never have to be the victim again. You explained how you thought love and other romantic feelings was also weakness, and how you wanted to deny yourself these feelings to avoid getting hurt again.

-V wanted to prove you wrong. He wanted to show you that you weren't weak, that you were already powerful enough, and that falling in love wasn't a bad thing. He might not have much strength, but he can give plenty of hugs and kisses to make up for it.

[i-willstealyourtoes]

TRANS/AFAB SCOUT TIMELINE, GETTEM HERE!

CW/TW: Blood, Dysphoria, dead names mentioned

Charlotte, 0-17 years

This was before the transition and before he even found out he was a boy. He always at a young age loved naturally 'masculine' activities and even though people made fun of him, his mom would reassure him that he could do anything he wanted to, that 'girls can do whatever a boy wanted to'. He loved his momma, and how supportive she was, but something didn't sit quite right with that phrase (he later realised it was because he didn't relate since he wasn't a girl).

Charlie, 17-20 years

As soon as he was allowed to, he immediately went to get his hair cut shorter. He always said it was for work purposes, or he thought it was trendy, but I think it was because it helped with the dysphoria.

He also liked wearing bigger jumpers (to cover his feminine figure) and assumed it was just because he liked the comfort. That was partially true.

He also told everyone he preferred 'Charlie' rather than 'Charlotte', telling people he preferred the nickname.

Also at this point, he was working with the mercenaries.

Charles, 20 years

He'd had enough. He hated his hair, he hated his body, he hated everything. He didn't even know why. He just wanted to know why he was so unhappy with himself.

People had told him that sometimes you hate what you look like because you felt like you weren't pretty enough. That wasn't quite right either. He didn't feel like he wasn't pretty, he just felt... wrong.

One night, after washing his mid-length hair, he had what he described as a 'mental health crash'. It took one look at the mirror after stepping out the shower for him to start angrily crying and sobbing. He cut off as much hair as he could until it was a short, messy hairstyle.

Medic had heard him screaming and came to see the commotion. He saw. He knew.

There was blood on Scout's fingers from cutting his hair recklessly.

Medic whipped out his bandaged and wrapped it round his fingers. Then around Scout's chest tightly.

At first Scout didn't understand until Medic asked him to look at himself in the mirror. He didn't want to, but he tried.

And for the first time, he saw himself.

'Do you feel better? Charles? Would you prefer I call you that?'

He liked that name.

Jeremy, 20 (onwards) years

Once Medic had explained to both Scout and the others, everyone started referring to him with masculine pronouns and masculine descriptive words.

It made him so happy, especially when his mom told him that she didn't care and that he was still her little boy (he literally cried when she said 'boy').

He eventually changed his name again to Jeremy, since Charles reminded him too much of the past.

Extra

- I think when Scout realised he was a trans male, he whipped out this makeup kit his mom gave him when he was 13 (he never used it) and drew thicker eyebrows on

- I think he wore shoulder pads to make his shoulders wider too (before Medic's surgery (mentioned below)

- I think when Spy found out about his problems (this was before Scout transitioned ('Charlie')) he already 'got the vibe', but didn't know how to tell him

- Medic seems like someone to take top surgery even farther, and gives Scout wider shoulders and a p e e n (don't ask)