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flipchild · 2 months ago

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blehhh my estrogen levels were like twice what we were aiming for so they gotta lower my dose... I do have a family history of cardiac disorders tho so the hard & I drilled into myself with the imperative to "live a long & truthful life" is doing me good...

anyhow. got my tblockers which is epic. do have 2 wonder why my levels were twice what they were expected to be, considering I was, as prescribed, injecting intramuscularly .25ml of 20mg/ml estradiol once weekly alongside my prog & spiro... I'm very diligent with my medications, including my HRT, so I know without a doubt I was following the prescribed dosage regimen...

#plus i still vape nicotine more than I'd like which had ought to decrease efficacy?#Tho i spose hormone levels in blood ≠ efficacy... have certainly grown a cup size if not more in the past 6 months #yknow. ≠ in a similar way to how CI<CO ≠ weight loss. well. maybe i dont mean that cuz thats a vibes based comparison.#feel like shrooms would b nice to grease the wheels of the survival imperatives i designed last year. plus I think I've like. matured a lot.#i hope i have at least. i think i have at least.#ive got the Epiphanies on lockdown... the spirit is willing and unable #the flesh is unwilling and unable. what to do what to do but what's in front of me.#byebye gonna go do more coursework and grind this grant out so I can successfully avoid shame and do something good onto another #& concretely improve conditions for this nonprofit I volunteered with in highschool...#sorry. have to remind myself to see at least the trees if not the forest instead of always doubting my footing.#that was another very literal Epiphany about why I watch my feet when I walk...#really used to scrambly hikes and not having the coordination I built up #saw a copperhead the other day on a hike... scary...

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