#yes ya'll read the caption right

[cosmicdreamgrl]

just him casually being the love of our lives 🥰 for @jkvjimin [ cr : namuspromised ]

[downtherabbitholewithlucy]

🥰😴Sweepy Wittle Wesley😴🥰

[bluecloudious]

*happy goblin noises*

More heartfelt monologue under the cut:

Okay, so basically, the whole reason I started posting art is cause I'm proud of it.

Like, I have been drawing for a while now.

Not my entire life, in fact there was a time where I was like "dam, all my shit look like dookie" and I just straight up didn't draw outside of art class at all.

But there came a day I drew one of my toys on a piece of paper and I was like, "hm maybe not as dookie as I thought" and I have been constantly filling sketchbooks and notebooks ever since.

But throughout all the time I've been drawing, I have been super scared of posting any of my stuff.

Part of me was afraid of judgement, cause my anxiety once reached randoms online that I didn't even know or would never fucking meet again, for some reason. Which is stupid, I know now.

Part of me was super into the thought of fame. Like, I, a snotty fourteen or whatever year old, post a few images of Pikmin and Eddsworld online and overnight I become a celebrity, level narcissism. Like, no. That's not how that works. And that shit disappointed me, still! Like wtf was I expecting???

Last part of me just was not in the right mental state or confidence level to ever wanna post jack. I looked at my art and I always saw that I needed to improve. I had short bursts of confidence, where I'd post one/two art pieces online and then just never again cause I was just so terrified. Not even that much of judgement, but of people looking at it and just... Moving on, I guess.

One of my long term goals has always been creating something all my own that people love and make fanart and whatever else of. Unoriginal, I know. But the impact I'd plant on the other person has always intrigued me.

I made that person laugh! I made that person emotional! I occupied their brain for longer than a fucking second, enough for them to show it in some way! That's fucking surreal!

I have refined my artsyle, the stories of my many many OCs and just my attitude so much over the past few years. (Few meaning six or so years)

I will be posting about them more, as I have a small bit already. Those few old posts of my sketchbook, that has full pages, has quite a few of my OCs on there. I love them to bits and I wanna share them and their stories. I've let them cook in the oven for long enough, I'd say.

But yeah, why I'm mainly posting Madness rn is cause, one, I didn't want to pester my friend so fuckin much about it and two, I'm still obsessed. Not as obsessive as I was a month or two ago, but still pretty into it.

Thus one of the main reasons I finally gathered a shit ton of confidence to make my first few posts was that I feared being annoying otherwise. And FUCK did I need a lot of confidence for that first post.

My knees were weak, arms heavy, vomit on my sweater already; the works (mom's spaghetti).

Legit I don't get anxiety from that at all anymore, especially when I post about Madness. Like, ya'll just eat that shit up and I'm happy to provide.

OC stuff I kinda never expect to do good still, so it's a major confidence boost seeing that even those have twenty or so notes.

Like, the shit I expected to have a buncha notes, do. (Hank being bald is comedy gold after all) But ya'll liking OC shit makes my heart happy every time.

I love and read every reblog and message I get (ya'll are so nice, I can't not) and I just... I'm really glad I'm finally posting my shit online, bruh.

This is more than I could've ever expected and I am legit happy as hell.

Thank you so much and I hope that I remain in your stratosphere even when I finally tire of Madness Combat :)))))

All I could ask for.

(Also, sorry for blabbering so long, I just wanted to get all my thoughts out. The short version is just the caption for the image.)

Final note: If I could ask for anything more, it'd just be replies and reactions to my stuff. And asks, I have my ask box open after all. So ye.