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bunnihearted · 4 months

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days like today are so difficult for me to get through... i can feel the loneliness so sharply, it's not just the normal dull thing in the background. it hurts so bad, it's something cold and vicious squeezing my heart repeteadly. i just realize that i really am all alone, a deserted island with no one in sight. no one who would stop their ship at my shores and take me away from here. it is so hard to care about anything or make plans or find joy in literally anything when im always all alone and have no one to share anything with. do i even exist? if no one sees me or hears me, am i even here? or am i just a fragment of my own imagination lol?

#i cant explain this feeling and it frustrates me to no end #anyway im just so alone skksskksk #im in my room all day everyday.... whenever i go outside ppl are rude to me. making me feel like im bad just for existing #my sisters literally cant stand me and they keep making me know that #my mom doesnt wanna spend time with me even if i keep asking her to 💀#i need and want to talk but i have no one to talk to #i cant share any of the things i wanna share and idkkk #people who dont feel this type of loneliness have no fkn idea how much it hurts #'learn how to be alone' how abt u go kys....#when im all alone nothing matters #i dont care about anything!!!!!#yes im making plans for the future lmaooooo but i dont even wanna do those things bc i'll be completely alone #yes i'll finish high school and apply to a program maybe librarian program and then move and work blah blah #but i will live my entire life completely alone #honestlyyy i think the loneliness is what is gonna make me kms skkskskks #just the thought of having been this alone for so long and that it will only keep going forever #just let me die now i dont want it

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