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tigerdrop · 4 years ago

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hey i just wanna say the long posts genuinely make my day. also can you talk more about gordon freeman character because the way you write him makes me quake in my gay little boots

i would love to talk about gordon freeman. thank u for the opportunity

the first thing i need to communicate about gordon is that this dude sucks. and i say this in the fondest way possible. he is a bitch from the moment he drops into the world until the moment he goes out. if you dont believe me, give it another watch! gordons mouthy and rude for no real reason, at least so far as “being a regular dude on his way into work” goes, and this dude goes around calling his coworkers names with zero provocation. (of course, we all know that the reason is because its a funny guy improv stream that borrows a bit from freemans mind, but im talkin from a character sense.)

but my argument isnt just that gordon freeman sucks. its that he sucks in a very specific way that i find insanely endearing. i love this dude. i love to hate him. hes awful in a very mundane sense - weve all known a guy like this, at least if youve spent too much time online - and its cathartic to watch him suffer because of it.

gordons a smart guy. as written, hes gotta be - hes a recent MIT grad, on his way to work at a top-secret research facility to do weird shit with crystals and theoretical physics. but the thing about smart guys is that theyre often......selectively intelligent. we can see this in the way that he has a hard time navigating his surroundings, and needs the science crew to guide him through it and keep him alive.

this is one of those things that is a natural consequence of somebody going through the game for the first time, but that i am interpreting as “gordon is kind of stupid sometimes”. its uncharitable but its not like he doesnt deserve it. he likes to boss around the crew as if he knows what hes doing, when he often very much does not, and is fond of demeaning their intelligence. hes real bad about this with tommy in particular, treating him like hes a kid whos playing at being a scientist when tommy is actually a decade older than him. all i am saying is that gordon ought to stay humble. hes awful cocky when he perceives himself as better than others.

which, i think, tracks with how cocky he gets when he gives up on the whole “well-meaning citizen” thing and just unloads bullets into people. he puts up a front of being a Nice Guy, you know, just some dude caught in a bad situation who doesnt like seeing his companions obliterate every NPC they come across, but that doesnt stop him from cackling like a fucking madman and mowing down aliens (and soldiers) every once in awhile. when he stops seeing himself as helpless and starts seeing himself as the one in control, the gloves come off. he gets mean. and i think thats very sexy of him

this, among other things, is why i am insistent that gordon freeman is a control freak. he desperately wants to be in control of the situation at all times, shepherding around the science crew primarily by bitching at them, but its of limited success. its futile. sisyphean. tommy, coomer, bubby, and benrey exist almost to torment him with exactly the thing that would make him suffer the most: a gaggle of people running around causing problems for him, but he cant go anywhere without them b/c hes reliant on them to make it out alive.

its perpetual suffering, and its cathartic to watch. and funny, too. and if youre a little weirdo like me, its very, very enjoyable. how twisted up he gets when nobodys listening to him! how sweaty and frazzled he must look. its cute, and it also makes me want to reach through the screen and shake him and tell him to just be a little nicer. he wants control but he doesnt know how to attain it, he doesnt know how to play nice like a real leader. i think its a neat contrast to gordon freeman as we know him in HL2, where he literally is the leader of the resistance and has to live up to it. this is gordon freeman but if he was moe through helplessness.

“helpless” is, i think, a great way to describe him. a core bit of imagery in half life is this sense of railroadedness and helplessness, with gordon freeman being put into play like a chess piece and having no choice but to move forward. and this iteration of gordon leans into that by being totally dependent on the science crew in order to make progress and Not Die. and hes also subject to the whims of benrey, local eldritch weirdo who has basically made it his life mission to fuck with gordon.

gordons anxieties dont help with that. if he wasnt so fun to stress out and fuck with, the science crew probably wouldnt do it so much! too bad for him that they like fucking with him so much that he was driven into a panic attack (multiple times, even, depending on your interpretation). hes got that real neurotic mindset. always worrying about shit that could go wrong, and attempting to exert control over his surroundings in an effort to control the anxiety.

IMO the real way to nail the Neurotic Gordon Freeman Experience is to combine the ever-present anxiety with his pervasive sense of self-loathing. he openly states that he has no friends and nobody seems to like him, and to that, i really gotta say, i wonder why. he doesnt really seem to factor in that hes kind of a bitch, and has way too high an estimation of his own intelligence relative to everybody elses. its really one of the worst ways to be: aware that people dont like you, but unaware of exactly why. if he was like, 10% nicer, he probably wouldnt have had half as many issues getting through black mesa, but also, its funny to see him squawking his way through the game. so, you know.

its stuff like that that makes me headcanon him as a dude with low self-esteem in general. convinced that hes not likable, not attractive, out of his element......impostor syndrome, except that theres some truth to it. this is a guy who truly does not realize how good he has it: he really is just an average shitty dude, and yet, somehow, benrey took a shine to him. some poor motherfucker out there actually likes him and wants to suck his dick. thats dedication

also, i keep bringing up “repression” when i talk about gordon. and hopefully, what ive been talking about helps explain why. he has a strong desire to be a regular dude, not just murdering his way through black mesa, but if hes pushed hard enough he leans into it. gets bossy. picks up a cigar off a dead soldier and takes a long drag, before smacking forzen around with a pistol and ordering him around. gordon freeman is a regular, kind of anxious guy who likes competitive swimming and streaming on justin.tv and making anime references, and he is also a guy who takes a filthy pleasure in making a trained soldier his bitch. and i didnt make up any of this shit - this is purestrain canon, baby. this is a guy with problems

to me, this screams the kind of guy who represses a lot of shit b/c he doesnt feel like its morally decent. you run into this guy a lot online: the wokeboy, the online leftist, the guy who spends too much time on social media websites. (like reddit. i think he would actively use reddit and he would never get any appreciable amount of karma but he never stops posting. its sisyphean! cathartic.) from the way he talks about “bootboys”, i think it tracks. he knows about imperialism, he knows about feminism, but at the end of the day hes your average american white dude who struggles with internalizing it.

a lot of those dudes struggle with sex and gender issues. (dont we all.) when youre trying to be a Good Person(tm), you spend a lot of time thinking about your own relationship to sex and kink and all that shit. and i maintain that a too-online dude who buries a lot of his control freak tendencies would also try to bury a lot of weird sexual shit in an attempt to seem Normal and Well-Adjusted and not like a little freak. i justify this by the sheer number of times gordon blurts out weird sex shit as a joke. there are only two outcomes to making that many piss jokes: either youre secretly a piss guy, or you lathe-of-heaven yourself into becoming one. i will stand by this

ive talked a lot about why this dude sucks. now, let me talk to you about what makes gordon so much fun to write. first things first: hes funny! a subjective evaluation, yeah, but both in- and out-of-character, hes aiming to be funny. and being the straight man to everybody else plays into that whole “helplessness” thing.

secondly: underneath it all, there is a good dude under there. gordon worries when his companions get hurt, he tries to clean them off and patch them up, and hes got his lil leftist heart in the right place. you could even read a lot of his bossy, bitchy demeanor as him wanting to make sure everyone gets out okay and doesnt hurt themselves. when it comes to animals and anti-imperialist sentiment, gordons a pretty good guy.

hes the kind of guy who would probably see a dog on the street and get excited and play with it, but would get really prickly about the correct way to put dishes in the dishwasher. control freak tendencies.

finally, subjecting such a miserable, tormented guy to even more psychological anguish is really, really fun. you feel a little bad for him, but he kind of deserves it. so many problems he goes through are purely of his own making, and if gordon would just relax and quit trying to hard to maintain control - of himself, of the people around him - and own up to having Problems and Issues, he would be a happier guy. but thats why its fun to bend him until he breaks. being a little control freak myself, putting gordon freeman thru psychosexual torment is cathartic.

when it comes to writing his thought processes, the fact that he is canonically some kind of psychotic (yes, i am boldly claiming this. suck me) and i am also canonically some kind of psychotic makes it easier to write what i think his thought processes are. i just give him my brain issues of “getting lost in thought” and “overthinking fucking everything”. a touch of paranoia helps. even if i dont explicitly label him as schizophrenic please know that i am writing him as a paranoid little nutcase at all times because, uh, you write what you know.

paranoid. anxious. of the mindset that everyones out to get him (which isnt helpful when everyone is out to get him). repressed and deeply Not Normal but trying so very fucking hard to be normal and well-adjusted. a control freak with sadistic tendencies who also really, really likes getting bullied by his best frenemy. a hapless little nerd who sounds really cute when his voice starts to break from nerves. and, most importantly, a dumb jock. do not ever forget this.

thats gordon freeman, babey. hope that helps

#asky #careposting

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brelione · 4 years ago

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Purple And Yellow (Kiara Carrera X Smart!Reader)

If you’re one of those folks that say “PaN SeXuAliTy iS bIpHoBiC” than leave,peace out and dont come back until you have a better attitude:)

Kiara had stared at you longingly everytime you stepped inside the wreck

She had memorised your order of a coffee milkshake with whipped cream and rainbow sprinkles and a small order of fries

They never had rainbow sprinkles until you started coming to the restaurant

The sad expression on your face when she told you there were no rainbow sprinkles had literally hurt her soul so she made a mental note to always keep a container of rainbow sprinkles just for you

Everytime she was you you were wearing something yellow

You either had a yellow bandana,a yellow shirt,a bracelet or a yellow hairtye holding your hair in its messy drooping bun

If the color yellow was a person it would be you

As you became a regular she would make small talk with you

“I really like your shirt...im guessing yellow is your favorite color.”She giggled.You nodded,pulling at the fabric of your shirt lightly. “Yeah,its a really good vibe that i’ve got going.”You grinned.She agreed,watching as you left the restaurant.

That night she had taken tweezers to separate the yellow sprinkles from the others to surprise you when you came in for your milkshake

She had asked for your phone number once which was awkward because you didnt have a phone

You had a snapchat though so you gave that to her

You two made plans to go to the beach and she said she’d pick you up

She wasnt really expecting your house to look the way it did

It was small and originally white but was covered with random yellow,pink and blue hearts

You had come out of your house,struggling to keep your cat behind the front door

You werent wearing anything yellow that she could see which made her thought that maybe something was wrong

But her worries washed away once you got to the beach and unbuttoned your white shirt to reveal a mustard yellow bikini underneath

“You know,I feel kind of uncomfy in a bikini in public.”You sighed,looking along the beach.There were only three other people at this beach in particular.She had done that on purpose so she wouldnt run into anyone she knew.She giggled,making you raise your eyebrows. “What?”You asked. “Uncomfy.”She laughed.

You two spent the day searching for seashells and seaglass

You let out a loud gasp as you came across a small puddle of water high up and away from the water

“Uh oh.”You mumbled.Her eyebrows furrowed,trying to figure out what you were looking at.You rushed to take off your flipflops,making the small crab that had been trapped in the puddle get onto the white material.You ran down to the water,scooching it off the shoe and back into the water.Kiara had recorded the whole thing on her snapchat,giggling. “I SAVED IT!DONT WORRY!”You exclaimed,running back to her with a smile on your face.

When you got to her house after your beach trip you decided to paint some of the seashells you found

“Hey,hey you wanna know a fun fact?”You asked.She nodded,waiting for you to continue. “Seashells hatch.”You answered.She wasnt sure how true that was but she grinned,acting amazed.

She had asked you to sleepover

You obviously said yes after calling your sister to confirm

You two made vanilla milkshakes and added food coloring to make it your favorite colors

Hers was purple and she decided to add some blackberries to give it an even deeper color

“You dont seem like a purple girl.”You sipped your milkshake.She bit her lip,squinting. “What does that mean?”She asked.You shrugged. “I dont know,just doesnt seem….you seem like a red girl.”You told her. “Red?Why?”She asked.You shrugged. “Well,in literature the color red often symbolises anger,passion and adventure.And to me you seem like a very passionately adventurous person.”You explained.She nodded,blushing. “I love that.What does yellow symbolise?”She asked. “Umm….usually happiness,creativity and madness.Kind of like Alice from Alice In Wonderland.She’s quite yellow,id say.”You explained,tapping the side of your glass.

You two decided to go swimming as the sun was setting

She was wearing a purple bikini with a cool flower pattern

You two sat on pool floaties,watching the sky change color

“This sunset has both of our favorite colors...like look at those clouds.Those ones are yellow and those are purple.”She observed,pointing to the clouds. “You know,clouds arent really a color.It appears to be the color of whatever reflects against it.”You grinned,closing your eyes.

When she introduced you to her friends she regretted it because Pope literally stole you

The two of you would talk about science and you’d get into super deep and passionate talks about the history of neuroscience

When she felt like she was drifting from you she’d come up behind you and wrap her arms around your shoulders as you talked

She bought you a really cute yellow dress to wear on dates

She loved studying with you

She hated the studying part but the way you got so excited when you talked about certain topics made her listen

You taught her to take important notes on only purple paper or with a purple pen because studies show that you’re more likely to remember something if the color of it is pleasing to you

As you were talking about the importance of balanced meals she interrupted you with the “Alright,Spencer Reid.”

“Ive been thinking lately and I think you are a purple girl.”You spoke one night,your face buried in the crook of her neck. “Yeah?”She asked.You hummed. “Why is that?”She asked.You grinned. “Because purple is associated with royalty and you’re my princess.”You giggled,waiting for her reaction.

You spent the weekends at her house all the time to make friendship bracelets and colorful food

Your personal favorite was purple macarons

When you went to see her after she had a bad day you would wear a lavender colored bra with matching underwear because you knew she loved it

“Im just saying we should take over the Kook Academy and then we can turn the auditorium into a movie theater and the cafeteria into a ball room.”You were a bit drunk.She nodded. “Yeah,yeah that is such a beautiful and well thought out plan.”She laughed.

She let you paint her nails with yellow nail polish with purple polka dots

For pride month she painted your nails the color of the Pan flag

JJ was fascinated by your existence because you were so pure and giggly and couldnt understand how you and Kiara got along so well

As he put it you were like cloud bread and Kie was sourdough

He was high when he said that of course

She had ‘adopted’ your famous yellow tshirt that you had been wearing the first tme she saw you

You got back at her by stealing a purple snake ring she had gotten off of amazon

Pope was just glad to interact with intelligent life

John.B was jealous of how happy you and Kie made eachother because he doubted he could do that for Sarah

You graduated highschool a year early and started doing online college courses so you wouldnt have to leave Kie

You learned how to play “Cant help falling in love with you” on the ukelele

Whenever she couldnt sleep and you couldnt come over she’d facetime you and youd play it for her until she fell asleep

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cryptidbutchh · 4 years ago

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WELCOME TO MY THOUGHTS WHILE REWATCHING THE MCU IN TIMELINE ORDER: THE AVENGERS

“the tesseract has awakened” oh you mean the glowy cube from captain america AND captain marvel? THAT glowly cube?? cool looking stairs- ew who tf are you? the grim reaper??

what the fuck is a chitauri and why does it sound like sea food. “a world will be his. the universe, yours.” STOP BLAMING THE PRONOUN GAME AND GIVE ME NAMES FFS

ooo shield base. “not a drill.” oh shits going down- COULSON. FUURRRYYY FUCK YEAH. the best marvel characters are here the movie has peaked- oldman from thor is here?? intoresting. and who the hell is this woman tryna question fury??

the glowy cube is a shE???????? HUH??????? oh hey its hawkeye the badass archer guy. oh shit things are going down. the cube is sparking and swirling??- IT OPENED A PORTAL

LOKKIII YOU BEAUTIFUL BASTARD WELCOME BACK. HE HAS A SHOOTY MAGIC SPEAR LIKE A BADASS. he just took out a bunch or shield with a shooty spe- OHMYGODS HE CAN CONTROL MINDS WITH IT.

“loki. brother of thor.” OLDMAN STFU

GUNS GO PEW PEW ALONG SIDE A GOOD OLD CAR CHASE SKSHSKKSHS. RUN FURY RUNNN. the portal imploded on itself like a moron hA

WHO TF NAMES THEIR CHILD “HILL” WTF. “we are at war.” NO SHIT SHERLOCK A NORSE GOD STOLE THE CUBE YOU WERE SUPPOST TO PROTECT

tis a train and a old building- NATASHA. how tf were you taken hostage? im so glad i have subtitles on otherwise i wouldnt understand a thing these ppl are saying. HOW TF IS SHE KICKING ASS WHILE TIED TO A CHAIR WHAT IN THE HELL-

oh his leg deff broke once he fell off the ledge tied to a chain. cut to a lil gorl running to find a doctor- who tf this is of course. THIS GUY IS BANNER??? i mean im glad they changed the actor but wtf. “theres no one that knows gamma radiation like you do.” YA DONT SAY, ROMANOFF. “STOP LYING TO ME” JESUS FUCK THAT MADE ME JUMP

oh damn shield has their own O5 council? cool. EXPLAIN WHAT PHASE2 IS ALREADY. also dont say thor is bad he is a giant puppy dog with a war-boner.

oh hi steve, working off that PTSD by beating the shit out of a punching bag ay? oh right steve knows the glowy cube. “at this point i doubt anything would surprise me.” “ten bucks says you’re wrong” welp ya owe him ten bucks steve

“is there anything you can tell us about the tesseract to help us now?” “you should’ve left it in the ocean.” WELL THAT HELPS ALOT DOESNT IT. hello there iron man, at the bottom of the ocean.? sure why the hell not

aye stark tower’s about to have clean energy, yay stark! “stark tower, is your baby.” how do you give birth to a tower.???????? KSHSJSHSKSJS COULSON BROKE INTO THE TOWER “is first name is agent.” TONY SKSHKSSHKSVSKSHSKS

*whisper whisper whisper* yeah she bribed tony with sex so he’d work on the avengers and stuff. “the guys like a stephen hawking.” “. . .” “hes like a smart person”

awh coulson is fangirling over steve- watched you while you were sleepin- man you’re awkward. you adorable dumbass. ohshit underground musky lab- OLDMAN AND LOKI

the world is breaking around loki. sea food army is restless- shut the fuck up you stupid looking eye wrapped bastard. WHO THE HELL IS THIS HE?????? welcome back to earth you smexy man

FLOATING WATER BASE

back to avenger tingz. man coulson is the biggest cap fan- oh its a giant sub- NO ITS A GIANT FLYING BASE HOLYSHIT SHIELD THATS AMAZING.

now we go into the meetings and talking related stuff :I yey. “lets vanish” wdym- IT HAD A CLOAKING DEVICE. HA STEVE JUST GAVE THE TEN HE OWED SKSHSKHSKSJS

i dont understand a word of all the science stuff they just said but yay. “i need a distraction. and an eyeball” barton what the fuck why do you need an eye.?

oh lokis in germany, at a very fancy party might i add. loki is best boy ever. even if he just bonked a the head/ OHMYGOD AND STOLE HIS FUCKING EYE JESUS CHRIST INFRONT OF ALL THOSE PEOPLE.??????

“i said. KNEEEEL” dont need to tell me twice-

blagh villain speeches are the worst. why tf did this old guy stand up “not to men like you.” shut up. SHOOT HIM- wtf. steve what the hell are you wearing? what the fuck is that- aye tonnnyyy!!!! he hacked into the jet thingy and started playing music from the speaker thats the best.

CAPSICLE SKSHSKSHKSHSKSJ- ohfuck thunder. THOR WELCOME TO THE PARTY. “im not overly fond of what follows” WKVSKSBSKSHSJS

HE JUST BROKE INTO THE JET AND STOLE LOKI FROM EM. “theres only one god ma’am. and im sure he doesnt dress like that.” cap stfu

“i thought you were dead.” “did you mourn.” damn loki thats harsh. thor is angy at his brother. “you listen well brot-ARGH” “..im listening?” STARK YOU CHOSE THAT MOMENT TO BODY SLAM THOR OFF THAT CLIFF AND LEAVE LOKI BEHIND? REALLY?

“.. tourist.” FIGHT FIGHT FIGHT FIGHT KICK HIS ASS, THOR. DONT KILL HIM WITH LIGHTNING THO

if someone throwed me against a tree i wouldnt be walking. im just saying

“THATS ENOUGH.” cap did you think that would work?? and how the hell did your dinner plate stop the power of thor

loki do be in jail tho. how’s this gonna go wrong- oh he smiled at banner. THATS how it goes wrong

tell him off fury! “you have made me very disapoin-“ OH NVM HE SAYS DESPERATE IGNORE THIS

“uNlimiteD pOoWeRRRRR”

“let me know if real power wants a magazine or something.” good comeback fury. i think

“loki is beyond reason, but he is of asgard. and he is my brother” “he killed 80 people in two days.” “he’s adopted.” KSBSKSJSJSJSK

“that man is playing galaga. he thought we wouldnt notice, but we did.” TONYKANSKSHKSJSKSJ tony is a fucking legend. “finally someone who speaks english!” “is that what just happened?” steve stfu you’re a fighty man not a smart man

“i do! . . . i understood that reference.” steve nvm keep talking please. PLEASE THE MAN IS STILL PLAYING GALAGA SOSJSKSJSJKS

why is tony eating blueberrys- where the hell did he get blueberrys. “we have orders. we should start following them.” steve you tried to get into the army under fake locations for months AND broke into a german base when you were a showpony. stfu about following rules

“so you’re saying the hulk.. the other guy? saved me” yes. yes we are saying that, banner. aye steve go break into shit like you’re suppost to :D

oh hi again oldman, welcome back. yay shield saved padme, and awh oldman talked about thor alot. thor i love you alot. loki just tell nat where tf you left barton :/ oh barton was sent to KILL nat?? not hire her?? well that went downhill. whomst the hell is dreykov- sao paulo- the hospital fire???? hawkeye wtf why’d you spill it all to loki.

mewley quim wtf kind of insult is that- oh damn nat figured out the hulk is lokis next plan of attack. PHASE TWO IS TO USE THE GLOWY CUBE TO MAKE FUCKING WEAPONS? SHIELD WHAT THE HELL

HA FURY TRIED TO LIE IS WAY OUTTA IT BUT BC STARK HACKED INTO IT ALL HE JUST EXPOSED HIMSKHSKSJSKS

WAIT THEY WERE MADE FOR THOR AND ASGARDIANS? WHAT THE FUCK SHIELD- oh damn lokis staff is the reason they’re all at eachother. probably

“yeah. big man in a suit of armor. take that off what are you?.” “genius, billionaire, playboy, philanthropist.” well you’re not wrong

guys stop fighting, HAWKEYE IS BREAKING IN. “in case you needed to kill me. but you cant. i know, i tried.” awh thats sad, i wanna hug banner so bad :(

OHSHIT AN ENTIRE WING GOT BLOWN UP THE FLYING BASE IS GOING DOWN- HULKS COMING OUT THATS NOT GOOD. the transforming is scary- RUN NAT

loki stop smiling because the plan is going your way. “it seems to run on some form of electricity.” “well you’re not wrong” tony stop being funny this isnt fair

HULK JUMPSCARE JESUS CHRIST- NAT GOT BITCHSLAPPED THROUGH A WALL- YAY THOR TO SAVE THE DAY. HAMMER TIME BABYY

*B O N K*

hulk trying to pick the hammer up is funny. BRIDGE IS UNDER ATTACK. DO YOU THINK SHOOTING HULK IS A GOOD IDEA??? HE JUST TOOK OUT FIGHTER JET AND ALMOST KILLED THE GUY FLYING IT

CAP IS KICKING ASS- OH GOD NO THE ENGINES ARE FAILING. OHGOD LOKI IS OUT- THOR YOU DUMBFUCK DID YOU FORGET LOKI CAN DO MAGIC SHIT? NOW YOU’RE STUCK IN THE GLASS CONTAINER

COULSON SAVE THOR! SHOOT LOKI DAMNIT- COULSON NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO

glass cage go brrrrr

HA LOKI GOT FUCKIN SHOT BY COULSON BEFORE HE DIES( :( ) tony almost got minced by the engine thingys

im gonna cry coulson how dare your death make me sad :(( stupid heart breaking aftermath moments.

thor is stuck in a field, banner fell through the roof of a building. awh the security guard is so nice :) barton is a fucking mess right now “how’d you get him out?” “i hit you on the head really hard.” KSJSKKSSK

tony figured out lokis plan- ITS TAKING PLACE AT HIS TOWER? THE AVENGERS IS TAKING ACTION BABY LETS GOOOO

wait a fucking moment, the cards coulson has are covered in blood. so you’d think they were on him when he was stabbed- yet hill just said they were in his locker “they needed the push.” FURY YOU RUINED NEAR MINT VINTAGE COLLECTABLE CARDS TO MOTIVATE SUPER FREAKS???

o hi loki welcome to stark tower

“stalling wont change-“ “no no, threatening. no drink? ya sure? im having one.”

“i have an army.” “we have a hulk.” HE SAID IT, HE SAID THE LINE

HA LOKI CANT TAKE STARKS MIND BC HIS HEART IS SOME TECHY METAL CRAPKSJSKSJSKS- i guess choking and tossing him around works. so does throwing hik out a window

oh no the glowy cube just opened a portal for the army of seafood. they look like creatures from halo.

BROTHER FIGHT

CHAOS EVERYWHERE

PLANE DOWN PLANE DOWN

what the fuck just growled- HOLYSHIT THEY HAVE A SPACE LEVIATHAN. it looks badass ngl. loki redemption arc? nope he just stabbed thor.

SPACE BIKE GO BRRRRR

yes because arrows and guns will stop the, alien monsters with lazer arms. some how its working. “just like budapest all over again.” “you and i remember budapest very differently.” WTF HAPPENED AT BUDAPEST BARTON AND NAt, HUH?

cap just scared the shit outta some police men HAHA

“i have unfinished business with loki.” “yeah? get in line” barton is snarky right now. banner just rides up on a motercycle like “hi what i’d miss”

“im bringing the party to you.” stark says while being chased by a giant metal space whale who’s crashing and crushing everything in its path along a street

“thats my secret cap. im always angry.” FUCK YEAH BANNER MESS THAT SPACE WHALE UP. HE JUST PUNCHED A GIANT FUCKING WHALE THING.

the music, the avengers circling around. its amazing. well things are gonna get worse bc more space whales showed up

“and hulk. . . smash.”

LIGHT THEM FUCKERS UP, THOR. shield maybe instead of watching, maybe, oh i dont know. HELP THEM???

i dont know what else to say other then its alot of fighting and smashing alien faces into the ground

hulk and thor kicking ass on the back of a space whale is awesome. HULK WHY DID YOU PUNCH HIMSJSOSHSKJSKSJSKSKSKSK

i fuxking love when steve turtle shells behind his shield.

“director fury. the council has made a decision.” “i recognize the council has made a decision. but given its a stupid-ass decision, i have elected to ignore it.” fury never stop being awesome

loki thought he was so smug when he caught bartons arrow, then it blew up in his face. literally IKSKSKSKSKS

HULK FUCK LOKI UP! JSHSKSGKSHSJSHSJSJ HE JUST TOSSED LOKI AROUND LIKE A RAGDOLL “puny god.” “*pained wheezing from a smooshed loki*”

oh damn- OH DAMN, STARK. he just jonahed the fucking whale thing and blew it up from the inside. well now the city has a nuke coming for it :/

yall have a chance to shut the portal down, and tony, you want to go INTO that portal and throw the nuke in? wtf stark.

TONY GO BACK TO EARTH DAMNIT FUCKING BASTARD PASSED OUT. yay hulk saved his stupid ass. do cpr.? mayb.? or a hulk roar will wake him up KEJSKJSKSSKJS

tony. you just blew up a alien command center with a nuke, passed out and fell to earth through a portal. and you want, shawarma?

and now back to loki. “if its all the same to you, i’d like that drink now.” ISHSKSJSJSJSKSJSJ

STAN LEEE

the people love em. yey

council lady stfu about the avengers being a threat. they just said the earth and you’re worried about them going rouge??

“if we get into a situation like this again, what happens then?” “they’ll come back.” i mean theres three more avenger movies so i assume so. remodaling stark towers so its the avenger tower? neat!

NEXT MOVIE: IRON MAN 3

*MID CREDIT SCENE* oh hi again mr no eyes. do we get to see this HE? OH WE DO. o hi mr 10 chins

once again ignore the misspells it was three AM when i finally finished this and im just now rereading it

#artemis rants #the avengers #avengers #marvel #the mcu #marvel movies #marvel cinematic universe #glowy cube is back!#chitauri = seafood #LOKI #MAN IS PLAYING GALAGA EVEN AFTER BEING CALLED OUT #SHIELD IS A DICK #SPACE LEVIATHAN

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oflgtfol · 5 years ago

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got tagged by @yoursjuli thanks for the tag !! i love these things lol >:3

Are you named after someone?

yes and i fucking hate it. it’s a fictional character though and i can’t say who because that’s personal information i dont wanna give but god i FUCKING hate it so much. I MEAN its not really like my mom was like “i want you to be named after this fictional character uwu” it was more like she saw said fictional character when she was a kid, fell in love with the name, and sought to name her first daughter the same name so. im basically named after the character. my middle name is from my grandpa just ~the girl version~ though so that’s better.

Last time I cried?

UHM. maybe i’ve cried since then but the last time i can really remember is the night of my high school graduation, june 29th (LOL i have the exact date GOFIDHOS) and i was just kinda reflecting on everything that happened during high school and even just all 12 years of grade school and coming to terms with the fact that it was all ending and i was moving on with my life. mourning the loss of the few good things school has given me, yknow?

Do I use sarcasm?

not often! i mostly only do it with my parents, especially my dad cause we all poke fun at him so it’s acceptable. whenever i do it at my mom she throws a tantrum though so :)

First thing I notice about a person?

im not very aware of things. uhm. either their voice or their hair i guess, depends on whether or not im able to look at them directly. once i look at their face though i kinda focus on their nose for some reason idk. noses are very distinct and unique facial features and theyre my main way of identifying people and recognizing faces, but i wouldnt say theyre the first thing i notice

What’s your eye color?

medium-darkish brown. i think somewhere between t30 and t40 i think.

Scary movies or Happy Endings?

happy endings . i cant handle scary movies cause most of them rely on jump scares and i honestly physically cannot handle jump scares, i get chest pains after like 3, and it’s just SHOCK not genuine fright i hate it -_- genuine horror is cool conceptually but even then it’s not my cup of tea. i just prefer light hearted stories a lot more. even if the story itself is dark, so long as theres a happy ending it’s good :^)

Special Talent?

DONT HAVE ANY TALENTS BUT i do have a bunch of weird things i can do with my body! i have voluntary nystagmus which is probably the most impressive of the weird things i can do, it means i can vibrate my eyes on command. it freaks people out a LOT. i cant do it for longer than 5 seconds without seriously fucking somethign up though lol, i did it for 7 seconds once and my vision went white for like 30 seconds and left them aching for a few hours lol

Birthplace?

lawn guyland babey!!

Hobbies?

my default is always “reading, writing, drawing” but i dont do much of any of those anymore. uhm. i play a lot of video “games” lately but it’s mostly just One Game, minecraft lmfao. and i guess listening to music but its weird to me how people say thats a hobby when its only ever something you do when doing something else? i also enjoy just. talking. via incomprehensible tumblr posts ranting about the stupidest shit only i care about

Pets?

my dog, lola !!

Do/Have you played any sports?

NO LOL im so not athletic. ALTHOUGH if you count dance i guess i did that from when i was 3 till i was 9

Height?

5′6″ >:(

Favourite subject in school?

science baby! specifically earth science. literally my favorite class ever. history is also really cool

Dream job?

IDK. I’D LIKE TO WORK FOR NASA BUT I HAVE NO IDEA WHAT AREA OF ASTRONOMY/ASTROPHYSICS IM GONNA SPECIALIZE IN SO I HAVE NO IDEA WHAT SPECIFIC JOB. BUT I WANNA WORK FOR NASA PREFERABLY AS SOME SORT OF RESEARCHER. i think i’d like to dabble in some science writing too like i think it’d be cool to write about stuff going on in the field but i’d like to make it accessible for people outside of academia? i really enjoy ranting about stuff obviously and i tend to give way too much context + in depth explanations when not necessary so i think i could maybe put that to use in explaining things that normal people wouldn’t know about already, AKA areas where a lot of context IS necessary

EDIT: I FORGOT TO TAG PEOPLE. SORRY. im tagging @all-alone-in-a-daydream @sinistarrrs and @qotice i guess but no obligation to do it if you dont want to !

#brot posts #thanks for the tag !!!!#AHH ITS 2AM I FORGOT TO TAG OTHER PEOPLE. I HOPE THE NOTIF STILL GOES THROUGH LMFOA FDGIHDIFSGDFGH

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oppressiveliberator · 6 years ago

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What are things Ghetsis likes to do in his spare time? Does he have anything in particular that he really enjoys doing that most wouldn’t know about? (Like. Knitting or some hobby type thing like that.)

Hobbies, huh. . . .

Ghetsis is a very goal-oriented person. Back when he was Plasma Boss and all, he wasn't really one for many hobbies--he certainly enjoyed doing things in his free time now and then, but by the time he'd adopted N, he was putting most of his free time into Plasma and advancing his goals and such.

But like I said, he did enjoy things now and then!

((snip snip unless you’re on mobile in which case as always I am sorry--maybe i should start putting these into multiple posts instead of singular big ones? lmao

Also brief mentions of I think abuse, Pokémon abuse, torture?? i don’t think there was anything else triggering in there but i’m also too lazy to reread it lmao))

Ghetsis loves to read. He most enjoys nonfiction--true crime, history, religion, culture, Pokémon, human psychology, science, world news; Ghetsis really loves just about anything that can teach him something new. He's all about doing lots and lots of research, too, and he's actually well versed in old languages, too, especially old Unovan. He made a cypher for translating(and even taught Zinzolin how to read it a bit! In fact, Zinzolin is the one who has the Old Unovan linguistic work he's done atm because he can't let go of his boyfriend's old things) But he also likes a good fiction novel--crime, historic, alternate history, adventure, thriller, horror. . .he's picky about fantasy and science fiction and romance, but he'll read them now and then too.

While he's not really that into it, he does watch a lot of TV lately. He has days where he's pretty much immobile, so something he can just lie down and watch is nice to at least keep him from just sleeping all day. His taste in TV and movies is pretty similar to his taste in books. However, he's not much of a TV person and it's more something he just kind of accepts as what he 'has to' do nowadays. Sometimes he just. Doesn't have the energy to turn pages in a book. But entertainment is always better than boredom.

In his current state, Ghetsis doesn't really do much daydreaming or quiet contemplation, because ultimately it leads to a heavy slew of negative thoughts and emotions and makes him feel terrible. But in the past, he spent much of his time thinking about the world, plotting, planning. Lately if he does anything it's daydream or dissociate but. The latter isn't really, y'know, a hobby or something he really wants to do.

Music! Is one of his highest interests!! The Harmonia family is a very musical and artistic one, so he was surrounded by music and taught to sing and play instruments since he was in diapers. He doesn't think of himself as being able to play instruments nowadays. . .even though he still played now and then when he lost most usage of his arm, so long as it obviously didn't really require both hands or a need for both could be worked around. At present he's more into listening to music than anything--and his tastes are far more variant than you'd expect, as he's able to find some enjoyment in most any genre. He's started to sing more lately, too, although since his voice is often poor, he hates to do it and have to hear how terrible he sounds. But after Bede told him not to be discouraged over it and that some practice would surely restore his voice to its former glory, he's been singing to himself a bit more in an attempt to get his vocal chords back in decent condition.

(The unexpected part of this is when you find him singing old pop songs. . . . . . . .)

Ghetsis is, despite being antisocial as far as his personality/mindset/comfort levels, actually quite outgoing and enjoys people's company and talking to them, watching them. He loves social events and crowds and being around people--although he also hates it because, well, everyone is below him and the world around them is usually disgusting. But he quite likes company, especially from interesting and intelligent people, and he's playfully flirtatious too. While he prefers to do the talking and teaching, he's not against listening if somebody catches his attention and, again, Ghetsis has an insatiable desire for knowledge. Oh and socializing doesn't always have to be positive, either! He l o v e s to harass his protags. He likes to disturb people and make them afraid and uncomfortable and upset. He'd probably be an internet troll now and then if he bothered with internet socializing.

(Also, Ghetsis fucks to survive is a hedonist. So having people around means getting laid when he wants to. And how can he say no to being attended to and having his body worshipped and pleasured? To the power that comes with controlling someone else's pleasure, making their whole body respond with a mere touch, sometimes even less?)

As of late he also quite enjoys taking walks when he can--and while he's still beginning to accept it, he has started taking his wheelchair out(though, not in the regular world, only in the magic plane he’s hiding on) if he can't do his own walking and just enjoying the world outside. He. . .misses it.

He actually is very well travelled and he loves travelling, visiting new places, learning new things in person, going on expeditions and to archaeological sites and ruins and historic places. . .! Up until BW he travelled a good amount and enjoyed the bounties and interests his the world had to offer, practical or not. He likes himself a good time and experiences. Of course it lessened when he acquired his kids, especially N. And nowadays he hardly even leaves the house, let alone the region, though with the way his magic hideaway works(rather, doesn't work) he can wind up travelling by accident simply because it isn't stable enough not to move around.

And, of course there's magic. Ghetsis habitually draws little magic circles and things here and there, little spells to store magic or discourage nightmares or encourage remembering things. If he's idly tracing something on a table that's probably why. If he's idly tracing something on a person, that's probably why--in particular, he'd 'bless' N with safety when he went outside, or put magic on him that would ideally 'lock' his mind somewhat so he wasn't influenced by the outside world and had his plans ruined. Ghetsis does rituals every now and then(there used to be some cultish stuff in Team Plasma. . .maybe. . .but rituals aren't necessarily cultish, just like regularly done things) and magical cleanses, protection for his own spaces, charging the crystals and things he has around, and practices little bits of magic here and there just so he knows he can still do it. Now and then he tries to learn or develop new magic, but he's really not in the best condition for good magic usage. It certainly doesn't stop him but, y'know, tries to keep playing with fire to a minimum lest he burn his house down.

Of course, these are mostly things he does at present. . .with the strokes and the weakness in his body and the problems with his cognition and mind in general. . .his options are lessened in his opinion. His depression and lessened will to live make it hard for him to do even those things--let alone some of the things he used to do.

Sports are among the things he'd done in the past--namely basketball(just kinda happens when you're over 6ft tall.) He gave his old ball to N to teach him to play, but back then he could still play, one arm or not. Nowadays he has trouble even sitting up let along standing, running, and he's still accepting that he needs a wheelchair now and then when he can't get around so easily himself, so wheelchair basketball isn't something he'd even consider trying. Playing basketball? Tennis? Hell, any sport? He can't even consider it. He hates watching sports now. Whereas he used to love to do so because he could watch Unovan teams VS other regions and feel proud and cheer for Unova and so on, but now he can't stand it because it makes him think of how he used to be.

One of the things he did a lot up until the end of BWB2W2, was, of course, train his Pokémon, care for them, sometimes even play with them. They needed exercise and enrichment, and keeping them in fighting and killing shape was a high priority, both for enjoyment/entertainment and for the sake of having strong Pokémon. But now his Pokémon are all gone. . .and he resents all Pokémon for it and his hostility towards them all has increased. If anything at present, he takes even greater delight in hurting Pokémon than he had in the past.

Public speaking, debating, evangelizing, convincing people of Plasma's ways, giving and writing speeches was also a hobby he enjoyed. Usually, however, he winged his speeches, simply spoke from his cunning heart. Of course, if he tried to do something like that today. . .well, someone would call interpol and it'd be a whole thing. . .he does talk to himself a even more than he used to now, but it's not the same.

Punishing and teaching Plasma's members and anyone they decided to. . .host for a while, so they could learn the truths and come to know Team Plasma's might and perspective. . .being able to torment captives, seeing the hope leave somebody's eyes, god. He misses power. He misses victims. He misses taking out his frustrations on somebody locked in his dungeons, beating them and spitting on them and showing them how above them he was, torturing them--. . .expressing his power, he never really gets to do it anymore. . . . Harming others. . .even less. . .and what power, authority, strength does he have to at present anyways. . . . .

Training members of Plasma and their Pokémon, using the Pokémon they'd liberated for various behind the scenes work like building the castle, abusing people and Pokémon alike, really he found such bliss in it. Yes, it was something he kept quite quiet about or explained away until Neo Plasma--after all, nobody knew of his plans and intentions until he was defeated--but that didn't mean he didn't enjoy it.

Unexpected things. . .hm. he's pretty adventurous so I'm sure he's tried lots of things, but ultimately discarded them as things to do often for one reason or another. Knitting he can't see himself doing, one hand and all.

When N was younger, he actually took care of the human dolls and toys he gave him, since n mostly cared about the pokémon ones and was neglectful towards the human ones. Which was what was intended! But it irked Ghetsis's sense of perfectionism to see them all messed up, so he'd do their hair and dress them and so on just so they were in order and not a messy pile in the corner.

Ghetsis liked visiting dig sites and such, but he also enjoyed personally going on expeditions now and then too! He'd been planning one to the Abyssal Ruins for some time, but it never came to fruition. . . .

Since he was so well researched and did lots of discovering things himself, he’s written academic papers and things of that nature too. Spreading his knowledge is always great.

Sciences piqued his interests sometimes, although that may not be a surprise. It's probably even less of a surprise that he was interested in experimentation on people and Pokémon--he was usually eager to let Colress do as he pleased as a result.

OH RIGHT ALSO! COLLECTING STUFF!! In particular things relating to or supposedly relating to legendary and mythical Pokémon and extinct ones too and history/legends and other unique things--stuff like feathers from legendary birds or orbs or gems said to strengthen or summon them and stuff like that. . .! He has a raw keystone, but he's not super aware of what it is since Mega Evos only really have recently come into common knowledge and he wasn’t in Kalos to learn about that in particular at the time, so he just thinks it's a cool kalosian rock with a strong life energy.

Tbh idk about any unexpected hobbies for him. . .tbf i also have like. No hobbies of my own. So this is kind of a hard question for me because doing things in your spare time??? I can't even bring myself to do things when o have to do them! Lmao.

He's abandoned a lot of his hobbies and interests. It kinda comes with being old and disabled and depressed and losing your will to live. He's feeling a bit better as of the start of the blog recent--so he's getting a bit active again, but. . .he's still not used to being "incapable" and it gets between him and doing anything for fun.

But hopefully this answer satisfied! And if not, if you're curious about anything in particular, send another ask my way!!

#long post #Anonymous | If It Hasn't Learned Your Name You'd Better Kill It Before They See It #Asks | The Truth Won’t Save You Now #History | Who’d Ever Dream A Child As Sweet As I Seemed Would Be The Source Of So Much Pain And Strife #Headcanon | The Horror That He Brings The Horror Of His Sting The Unholiest Of Kings #((thank you very much for the ask❣))

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karenninaaa · 7 years ago

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Tony finding out Peter was his son before and during IM1 AU

Inspired by mamalaz’ post

After Peter was born, Mary went to Tony and told him about Peter, though she was already married to Richard Parker. She’s that kind to let Tony know.

Tony was shocked at first but he accepted Peter immediately, after all the insecurity with himself and thoughts that he wouldnt be able to be a good dad.

Because one look at baby Peter wrapped in a bundle, Tony instantly felt the connection, that this was his son and he wouldn’t let Peter suffer the same hell of feeling abandoned and neglected by a dad *coughs* Howard *coughs*

As young Peter was growing up, he was aware that he’s got two dads and he’s very happy with that. There were times he would stay at his papa Tony’s malibu mansion and watched his dad tinker.

It was one of Peter’s favorite times

And also listening to his dad babbles on and on about machines and science. Though he didnt understand yet some of it.

But come on, they were a family of genius people.

Peter also loves the bots and always play with them

JARVIS too. JARVIS would tell him random facts and show him kiddy videos that would fascinate little Peter.

the bots and JARVIS love Peter too and they would be an unstoppable killing arsenal just to protect Peter.

Peter was the reason why tony toned down the gambling, womanizing and drinking activities. He rarely drinks when Peter was around.

Tony did everything in his power to protect Peter from the media because Mary threatened him they wanted a private and quiet life for Peter.

A few handful people knew about Peter’s existence: Pepper, Rhodes, Happy, aunt May and Uncle Ben yes they exist here because i dont have the heart to ignore them and Obadiah Stane. i know it sucks that he knows but Tony trusted him that time

Peter was six when Richard and Mary had to go on a overseas business trip. that’s why he would stay Tony’s place for a duration of time

They promised to Peter that they would be back soon.

Except that they didn’t because of a plane crash.

Tony didn’t have the balls to tell Peter because he knew the pain of losing a parents.

He still broke the news to Peter.

“Papa what do you mean they’re not coming back?”

It killed Tony that the light on Peter’s innocent eyes got wiped away and replaced by sadness and tears.

Tony never left Peter’s side, even though Peter wouldn’t talk to anyone. Tony was always there telling him funny and random stories. One time, Tony showed him a tech toy that he invented himself, hoping that it would distract Peter from loneliness.

To Tony’s surprise, it worked! He could swear that his heart melted when he saw his son cracked a smile because of that tech and ever since the accident. Hooray! plus points for dad!tony.

That’s the time when they started to heal, the pain was still there but it became bearable for Peter knowing that his papa was always there for him.

There were times that he missed his dad and mom but Tony would always hugged him and told him that they were now in a happy place.

Peter was eight when Tony had to go on an inevitable business trip at Afghanistan.

It terrified Peter. triggered memories from his late mom and dad

Because that was the first time that Tony had to leave abroad ever since the accident. Tony refused to go so far away from his son anyway

Tony didn’t want to go either but he had no choice because it was an important business deal that would greatly affect the company’s profit.

And so to ease Peter’s terror, Tony promised that they would go to the Disneyland after he came back

“But what if, you didn’t come back papa, like mom and dad?”

“I’ll come back son promise, and since when did I ever break my promise to you? Pinky-inky promise.” Tony held out his pinky and gave his son a playful wink.

Peter knew that his papa never breaks a promise to him, it comforted him and the Disneyland too. It was his first time to go on a Disneyland. They didn’t go out of public that much because of the secret but Peter doesn’t mind. At the very young age, he knew how papparrazi could be so annoying, he witnessed that personally from afar when his papa got bombarded by the media. Peter decided then that he didn’t like them.

Anyway, so off Tony went. Peter stayed at his aunt May and uncle Ben

That’s when Peter saw the tv news that Tony’s convoy in Afghanistan got attacked and Tony went missing.

Peter demanded to go back at the Malibu mansion at once.

He ran straight to his papa’s bedroom and dove on the bed, inhaling his papa’s scent on the sheet reminding him that he’s papa had been there.

and it’s all coming back to Peter, the plane crash and the last memories of his mom and dad, the same promise that they would come back but didn’t.

Peter was crying angrily. They were all the same breaking a promise over and over again and leaving him behind.

Peter’s cry of agony was the most painful thing ever heard at the Stark mansion.

Peter refused to leave from bed for days

Though his aunt and uncle and Pepper and Happy were always coming to him mouthing words of comfort.

Rhodes was staring at the younger Stark by the door. He swore that he would find his bestfriend and wouldn’t leave this child orphan again.

And when Peter decided to go down to the abandoned lab of his papa, he went straight to the bots and hugged them. He cried again.

Peter wouldn’t admit it out loud but he was still hoping that he’s papa was somewhere doing something to get back to them because just thinking the otherwise was unbearable.

3 agonizing months.

So close that everyone would give up and Peter even heard his aunt and uncle talking with Pepper about the custody when Tony wouldn’t able to make it back.

Peter shouted at them, tears falling from his cheeks, that his papa would come back. Then he ran back towards his papa’s bedroom.

One morning, Peter got woken up by Pepper with tears in her eyes, Peter dreaded it for a second but then Pepper was laughing and crying at the same time, telling him that Uncle Rhodes finally found his dad.

All hell broke lose when two things had happened: Peter’s identity reveal and the shutting down of weapon’s manufacturing at Stark Industries.

Well, the first one was due to a lot of people had witnessed a kid running on a tarmac shouting dad at Tony and falling on his dad’s arms.

A lot of people was also shocked to see Tony crying clinging to his son.

No one had expected that Tony the rich, arrogant, megalomaniac and merchant of death Stark could be so human

The second they recovered from crying Tony demanded why Peter lost so much weight.

“They aren’t starving you while I was gone, right? Or you’re not eating the veggies again? We’ve talked about this, sweet pea.

“I missed you dad” Peter’s only reply.

And that brought tears again on Tony’s eyes bcos goddamn it how much he also missed his son while in that cave. Peter was one of the reasons why he stayed sane while he was kidnapped.

His son was the fuel in him that drove him to get out from that hellish cave.

“Huh, I now became a dad and you are being a smarty pants again and cleverly avoiding the veggie topic.” But he hugged his son again as tightly as he could, like he never hugged anyone so tightly like that.

“I missed you too so much, sweet pea.”

Peter was fascinated about the arc reactor on his dad’s chest more than scared.

He bombarded Tony about the schematics of the said arc reactor

And Tony patiently explained it to him.

Peter watched Pepper replaced the old arc reactor on his chest.

He decided that Pepper was the most reliable person he had ever met and she and dad were cute together.

Peter watched his dad built the Mark II prototype of an armor suit.

He had asked what the suit was for.

His dad’s only reply was “It was to correct the mistakes I had done.”

When Peter asked what mistakes, Tony just ruffled his son’s curly hair affectionately.

Peter gleefully asked how the first flight went donning the armor suit and was in super awe that his dad could fly like the cartoons he had watched on tv.

Peter was confused when the next morning, Tony was packing Peter’s things telling him that they would go somewhere. He remembered his dad going to a charity gala party last night and he fell asleep waiting for him.·

He asked where they would go.

“Son, I’m not coming with you. You’re staying with Aunt May and Uncle Ben on a very nice place-”

Tony saw how Peter’s eyes widen on thought that they’re going to be separated again.

“-temporarily.” Tony immediately assured.

“I don’t wanna go away without you!”

“Peter, listen to me. This is just temporarily and I wanted you to be safe. I promise before you know it, we are together again. Pinky-inky promise.”

Peter knew that his dad never break promises like how he came back from Afghanistan like he had promised before. So Peter relented.

And Peter was once again watching the tv, watching his dad revealed to the world that he was Iron Man. Astonishment were dancing in his big brown orbs.

His dad was a superhero.

#weew i finally finished it!#you know when your ancient laptop and tumblr wasnt cooperating with you #and you're on the verge #of pulling your hair out due to #frustration #that i had to retype everthing #struggles #tony stark #peter parker #father-son relationship #iron dad and his spider son #pepper potts #pepperony #karennina writes #peter & tony prompts #karennina prompts

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zebrasaursaylor · 4 years ago

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Yea like the fact you can opt your child out of class when we learn evolution is also fucked.

Like i went to a Catholic school for a few months. Like 4ish? Maybe more bc we had days off all the time. But point being i switched midyear bc that school was shit. It was like 1k a month. Yea. And all they did was teach religion. That's it. Oh they also made us do confession but like not ya know. In a confessional. Nope. They put you in a tiny room one on one with one of the priests (we had 2) and theyd demand you confess to them. After just staring at him for a while i finally just told the dude "im 10. What do you think ive done." It was awkward.

I came from public school, imo a shitty one, and was *still* the smartest kid on day one. And im not being an ass standardized tests proved it. * Every single person but me* got below or low average. I got very much above average. Normally id test high average in public school. 😐

And basically our school days went like this

-pray time where they have small children light candles on your class alter (thanks for teaching me how to use childsafe lighters when i was 10!)

-workbook, we would do 2 subjects a day and review it all on friday but you still had to bring ALL your books with to and from home everyday even if we didnt use them.

- every Friday meant spending a half day at church. (Oh girls also werent allowed to wear pants on friday, ever. 5th down had to wear jumpers (dresses) and 6th-8th could wear skirts.

When i switched back i was behind in all subjects but for the most part not too far.

Except science.

I was 500 pages behind. 500!!!! They had gotten halfway thru the book when we didnt even actually cover anything in the chapters we read. Like legit we were all of 200? Pgs in tops. And yes. We had the exact same science book sooo .

I mean our public schools need better shit too but they are *not* the ones teaching it and often dont have the chance to!

The one kid who opted out of the evolution days, i shit you not. Left the room to call up his mommy and tattle that the science teacher *mentioned* evolution. Mentioned it. Not talked about it in depth. Was letting ppl know thats whats up next week. The kid already knew we were doing that next week!! And mind you were in high school at the time. He then proceeded to do the "lalalalal i cant hear you" (literally) whenever it was mentioned ever for the rest of the year. Hed also demand you listen to his religious shit but like. Would do the above.

And it even happens outside of schools. Long story short i got tricked into going to a week long sleepaway camp that turned out to be Christian. Like cant bring any phones, read the bible everyday camp. By the 2nd day. Im going crazy and tbh a bit scared. I already knew i was an atheist at the time so i was ridiculously uncomfortable and was terrified theyd like. Murder me for not being Christian. Im not even kidding. Well eventuality i found out some other girls in my cabin were in the same boat so i started talking to them about it and the girl in the bunk over heard. Oh wow. By the way she shrieked and jumped over at us, you would have just said i like murdering small animals or something.

She started rapid fire questions about my beliefs and basically just asking how i can be so stupid and hateful(?) That i wouldnt believe in god. Eventually i got tired of her trying to bully me and just told her to fuck off. Which worked. For all of 5 minutes.

She went and told the counselors i was an atheist and next outing we did, the one i actually liked (before she did this) pulled me aside and made me sit with her for like an hr explaining to her why i believed what i do and her just trying to break everything i said down. Now. I say im atheist but really im Cant Even Be Bothered To Put That Much Thought Into Something I Just Dont Care About, so for me calling it a "belief" isnt really accurate but people dont get so i just say that. Anyways. That being said i try really, really hard to not be rude about peoples beliefs, like i will try to get out of the convo by just being like "well its great you believe that" or something. But this chick just would. Not. Stop. Eventually she started shit talking evolution and thats when i snapped and the convo was over.

TLDR; its not our public school its our relgious people. Like the public school cant teach their kids about anything evolution related without having religious extremist trying to kick down their doors. They have waivers they send home because of religious fanatics.

y’all I CANNOT

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viralhottopics · 8 years ago

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For These Women, A Period Triggers A Living Hell

For Hannah Lenehan, 33, every month is the same.

For one week she she feels normal. The next week she describes as a week of pain in her ovaries. The week after that she feels severely moody and agitated.

Some months I can control it some months I cant as well, she told The Huffington Post. During the moodyweek she is extremely sensitive to noise and gets angry for no reason, she said. Lenehan does not take long vacations because she uses up all the days she can be away from work as sick days.

People dont understand how it feels inside, she said. You dont want to act this way.

The last week of the cycle is the one when her period comes fatigue, irritability, severe breast pain, mind-numbing cramps, leg pain, diarrhea, she explained.

For Lenehan, thats what it means to live withpremenstrual dysphoric disorder, or PMDD.

Doctors have long categorized the condition as a severe form of premenstrual syndrome, since the symptoms come in a predictable cycle around ovulation and the days of a womans period. Some symptoms overlap with PMS, like bloating, headaches, pain, cramping and fatigue (though for most women the symptoms are exponentiallyworse).

But the other major difference between PMS and PMDD is that for the 2 to 5 percent of women who suffer from PMDD, crippling depression, anxiety or another mood disorder prevents them from going about their daily routines.

Researchers have long suspected that women with PMDD have a different sensitivity to the sex hormones they release when they are menstruating, and that causes the extreme symptoms they suffer. And a recent study provided some of the first evidence that a genetic irregularity may explain why some womens bodies are more sensitive to those hormones than others.

A lot of [women] think that doctors dont really believe in this and theyre kind of stuck with it because constitutionally theyre not able to deal with symptoms that other women are able to deal with, Peter Schmidt, chief of the Behavioral Endocrinology Branch at the National Institute of Mental Health, a PMDD researcher who led the recent study, told HuffPost.

The evidence suggests the exact opposite, Schmidt said. There is evidence that there is a biological explanation for these symptoms.

And thats a big step forward in better care for patients with PMDD, in terms of recognizing its different from PMS and finding the right treatments for patients.

Currently doctors prescribe several therapies for PMDD, ranging from hormonal therapies to antidepressants to painkillers.No one treatmentis considered a cure for the condition, however nor does any one treatment work for all women.

I just was always made to feel like I was crazy or weak because this consumed so much of my life. Hannah Lenehan, 33

Lenehan has been living with PMDD since she was 10 years old. Her doctors have prescribed drugs for anxiety and birth control,and she currently takes a prescription painkiller each month before her period is scheduled to start, which helps somewhat.

I just was always made to feel like I was crazy or weak because this consumed so much of my life, she said.

She emphasized the importance of getting support from others.Talking about it that is the best medicine of all.

HuffPost talked to five other women with PMDD. Here are their stories in their own words, including what they wish everyone knew about what its like to live with PMDD:

I needed to hide from everyone.

My symptoms began at age 11 prior to me starting my first period at age 12. My parents thought I was a normal, snippy, pain-in-the-rear teenager, but I always knew there was a darkness inside that I needed to hide from everyone.

I was formally diagnosed by a womens health psychiatrist with PMDD in my late 20s. I complained to my [doctor] that my monthly symptoms were preventing me from being social and normal and she referred me to the psychiatrist because she suspected PMDD. Her insight and referral saved my life.

I am an incredibly outgoing and active person with a love for people and animals. My sense of humor and need to protect everyone around me from my depression, anxiety and suicidal thoughts kept me going for decades. From the outside, no one knew I was suffering because I put on such a great show. Inside, however, I was always exhausted and relatively reclusive.

Cathy Adolph, 41

The pain is like childbirth.

I was diagnosed with PMDD just last year, but have had symptoms since my first period.

For two weeks out of every month I have severe depression. And on top of that I have about three days of pain. The pain is akin to the labor contraction pains I had when in childbirth. (Only I dont get an adorable baby out of these ones.)

The depression makes it difficult to function, to get out of bed, to shower, to care about anything. I am the sole earner for my family, so not going to work is not an option for me. I use all the energy I can muster to get myself ready and through the workday. When I get home, Im spent. I end up curled up on the couch with a heating pad. I often end up sleeping there because Im up throughout the night due to the pain.

Its just a really vicious cycle. Then I get two weeks of feeling like a normal person before doing it all over again.

I have been really lucky to have finally found a doctor that knows what this is, and diagnosed me. Ive talked about my symptoms with over 10 different doctors. Ive had one that listened. She didnt treat me like Im just complaining.

Catherine Bergstrom, 38

Im basically out of commission.

I feel great for 21 days out of the month, but I have to use that time to get everything done and prepare for that last week where Im basically out of commission.

Those days, I pretty much sit on my hands and dont leave the house. Not a good idea to do ANYTHING dont interact with anyone, dont drive, dont post on the internet, dont try to make sense of what is happening. Just sit quietly and wait it out or its a disaster. I call it trying not to blow up my life.

Shortly after behaving oddly, the thought often goes through my head: Why did I just do that? Thats not something I do. Thats not something I would say. I dont even care about that.

Mandie Cain, 31, who has had symptoms since her first period at age 12

They told me I was a woman suck it up.

I started having problems at age 14. Serious bloating, incredible pain that ached down into my legs. As the years went on, the problems became worse and worse and the emotional turmoil left me curled in a ball under the covers. This continued for years. Yes, I still worked and just figured thats the way things are. Went to numerous doctors (men) who basically said I was a woman and should expect that like, suck it up, buttercup.

Through the years, various doctors tried different hormone treatments. Birth control pills worked best. Progesterone made me insane.

Having a hysterectomy was the best thing that ever happened. Within two weeks I felt like a whole new person. Literally. Before, I had only felt good for two weeks out of four. I suffered like that for years and years, so to feel great all month was a miracle for me.

Karen Kohn, 65

Keep looking until you find the help YOU need!

My daily life [used to be] miserable during the two weeks before my period. I had unbelievably painful cramps. I was moody, crabby and bloated.

My first OB/GYN wouldnt take me seriously until I had my husband call her. The receptionist said that they could see me next Tuesday and my husband said that I would have killed someone by then.

She put me on Xanax for the two weeks before my period started, which helped, but only caused me to become dependent on the drug. That was bad, very bad.

I had PMDD for about 20 years, but it was not diagnosed until 2003. My doctors just thought I had a bad case of PMS. I wish other women would please seek treatment sooner than I did. If what the doctor prescribes doesnt work, tell him/her. Find another doctor if necessary. Keep looking until you find the help YOU need!

Karlya Ann Boone, 54

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