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#yeahhh i'm hitting y'all with the angst now because although i could EASILY talk about how horrible barton is for a while...
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have i ever talked about how barton is genuinely jealous of people who seem happy because he feels so hollow a majority of the time that even when he's 'happy,' he's not really happy? because i just 😭 yeah...
#OF MONSTERS AND MEN: musings.
#yeahhh i'm hitting y'all with the angst now because although i could EASILY talk about how horrible barton is for a while...
#he knows that he's horrible and he feels like a monster who exists on the outside of everything that is 'warm' and 'good' sometimes
#and although it doesn't haunt barton as NEARLY as much as it should be he does sometimes spend days on end just. In bed and crying
#because he feels like he physically CAN'T be normal like everyone else and that he has deserved every terrible thing that has happened-
#to him because it he legitimately believes it was too late for him since the beginning. that merely born as part of the mathis family-
#had pegged him for misery and causing people pain because that's what his father did as well as his father's father and likely-
#even further back. and i just... UGH i am of course allowed to feel sympathy for a fictional character at times but it's such a double-edged
#sword with some because even barton has these moments where he is not so bad and maybe even does something kind by another-
#person you know? but he is self-destructive and sabotages his relationships + his anger is just. out of control and it's kind of sad
#but also like... if you want something to change then you've got to do it for yourself. i don't think barton as a character right now KNOWS-
#how to change though and that is honestly tragic in and of itself
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