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cacodaemonia · 5 months ago

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5. what made you start your blog?

6. what’s the best and worst part of being online/a creator?

Hiii!

Well, according to this post (which should show you the date you joined Tumblr if you click on it - idk some coding magic), I joined Tumblr on March 20, 2007, so I don't actually have any memory of that XD My guess was going to be that I joined because I wanted to use the site as an art portfolio to promote my stuff, but I was still living in Japan at that point, so I'm not sure if that's accurate (iirc, I didn't start really freelancing until 2008). Lost to the sands of time XD

Hm, I think the best part is just interacting with people about the things I love, but that's totally possible without being a creator, so it's not really exclusive, haha. So I'll go with... it's really nice when people have thoughtful things to say about what I make! :D AO3 comments and anything nice that friends say about my stuff really do make my day! <3

The worst part for me is probably due to how some people see me as a BNF (hurrk🤢) even though I'm just a hermit goblin sitting at my desk writing and drawing stuff 🤡 But I've noticed that any time people perceive others as having some power or status (whether or not they actually have it), they tend to dehumanize the person. It's common to see people on the internet feeling entitled to what online creators do or say, and they get mad when the person doesn't make what they like or doesn't 100% conform to their notions of what is correct/moral/whatever. At the same time, many people put these creators on a pedestal and treat them like they're some kind of aspirational celebrities who can do no wrong—which is just as uncomfortable and dehumanizing to me as the behavior of the angry, entitled people. 😅 This is why I would never, for any amount of money, become actually famous. I literally cannot imagine anything worse XD

Thanks for the ask! These were interesting questions!

#asks #ask game #q&a #yeah i know - everyone says 'waaaah you poor thing being considered a bnf and getting so much attention'#and it is nice to get attention! but not all of it is good and i can't count how many time people have wanted to be my 'friend'#only because they want to get to me draw their characters or a scene in their fic or reblog their post or whatever #so being considered a bnf definitely puts a barrier between me and other people in fandom until they kind of 'earn my trust'#by just treating me like a real person #it's also really uncomfortable for me to get lots of comments on a fic that i KNOW is not as good as something a friend wrote #and they didn't get nearly as much love for it #it's so nice to get the comments but there's always a sense of guilt for me when i see fics or art that are way better than mine #with like 2 comments on them #so i try to at least share and recommend those but we all know sharing fic links on tumblr is going to get like 2 reblogs max :<#anyway #i'm just rambling now when i should be writing!

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