#y'all were right in calling him a nice guy™️

[transingthoseformers]

Mmhm and here we explore more how Optimus isn't exactly seeing the truth here, and can't make up his fucking mind on who he thinks Megatron is or when he thinks things went wrong.

I was remembering something he said/thought much much earlier in the fic, when the Decepticons first came about after Megatron's attempted assassination. At the time, Optimus expressed concerns that the cons were built upon corrupt foundations (thanks to it basically being Orion inheriting Overlord's crime ring) and Soundwave allayed these fears by saying they could add supports or something like that. Now at the time i exactly looked at that funny as correct me if I'm wrong but if the initial supports of a building are messed up the entire building is fucked.

Yepppp now I'm remembering very much back when Orion and Megatron first met face to face, Orion was clearly expecting a far different person than he found. He fell in love with the page, not the mech standing in front of him, and no! They never had that fairytale "alas, if only we can go back to then" relationship that Optimus seems to think they did.

He uses this term to refer to Megatron but ykw? It refers to Optimus himself //far// better.

Okay i was getting ready to wrap this post up, read a little further ahead, and saw this gem of hypocrisy as well

bae you are so damn oblivious to what is going on inside your own damn processor

[bullshit-bulltrue]

Hawk Talk

i didn't forget this time <3

so i was listening to rock full blast this morning and it was such a mood

didn't realize that i was next to michael and since i'm a nosy bitch i took one earbud out to listen

so yeah chill

and then i walked away because there was too many tall people and i didn't want to get trampled when the AP (i think it was the AP) let us in the hallways

and i ended up standing next to ANOTHER guy i knew a while back and holy SHIT he is TALL

he's in my broadcast class 👀

so yeah

and y'all he's gender envy frfr

ANYWAY-

i start walking and yk Michael? i went to my locker to put my lunch away and shit and my 1st period is right there and if y'all been paying attention that's the class i have with him

and there was a line starting to wait to enter the classroom and i was Brave Enough™️ to ask him if where he was was the back of the line and he said yeah and i smiled a little and said hi and he said hi back

if you know me, you know that talking to people i think are pretty is fucking difficult and you should be proud and give me a hug for this because i felt like my legs were going to give out from feeling so much anxiety at that moment

so yaeh <3

class went smoothly

Mr. M gave us a kahoot to play that was based on maps and stuff to test our memory and stuff

and he said we were allowed to to help each other (desk buddies) on the quiz and the kahoot bc they're formative grades and delaney (the cuntwad i sit next to) asked for my help so i gave her the wrong answers tehehe <3

and yeah i took notes today and they're legible bc if my friends asks to borrow notes i wanna make sure they can actually read 'em lol

and then i went to math and these dumb bitches talked about highlighter and lipgloss and concealer for a solid 20 minutes

my knowledge of makeup is widened to a completely different level than before

and when i say dumb bitches

i mean

the only way they got to this class (advanced btw) was by cheating on the state mandated tests

it was that bad

but that means i'm the smart one at yet another table so fuck yeah

and Mr. H (math teach) is super fucking awesome

i told him my last name for something bc i was having trouble signing into and application since i never used it before and he was like "what?" bc i always tell everyone the easy way of saying my name

and he's like yeah no that sucks and now he's the only teacher who can say it the right way and i'm excited because nobody ever does say it right !!

so after math ended me and lanie went to English and yk what that means

*drumroll*

are you thinking that means talking to the pretty guys?

well your fucking wrong.

we had to do state mandated testing.

and we have to continue on monday but it's okay because me, lanie, and D are about halfway done

oh and also so it turns out that D's name doesn't actually start with a D

it starts with a B

so we'll call him Delgado from now on because that's his last name

i think

whatever it's either his first or last name and fuck it

so yeah

oh back to testing

so throughout the test i had like science questions??

wtf i don't know why either it was literally an English test

so i had my scratch paper and he had some paper too so we kept writing little notes to each other to pass the time and like flipping the paper when Mrs. K (English teach) came around lol

and like at one point i wrote "fuck whoever created [insert teat name] they can go to hell" and he had the cutest little laugh and wrote "ong" on his paper

ik it sounds like nothing but you don't understand this is the only guy that willingly talks to me (well there's like 2 others but ykwim) and the girls are too hostile for my taste lmao

AND HE DIDN'T MAKE FUN OF MY ANXIETY

at one point i pulled out a lifesaver mint from my suitcase (not really a suitcase but i like to call it that. let me have my fun.) and he mouthed "what is it?" and i whispered back that it was a mint and since the teacher told the class to shut up (she's nice, i swear) i wrote "it helps my anxiety" and tapped my pencil on the desk to show him the note and he smiled a little and was like ohh

yes, i know, not making fun of a girl's anxiety is the barest of minimums, but everyone at my school that doesn't have anxiety makes fun of it, okay

and like baseball guy kept glancing at lanie, and i could sense the awkwardness between them, and every time he looked at her, me and lanie looked at each other, and we were the epitomy of the "👀😶" emoji combo

so yeah

and like i can't tell if she likes him more or if he likes her more but i'll keep you updated

OH AND FORGOT TO MENTION

i saw baseball guy in the hallway and i now know that he passes me in the hall while i wait outside the door for math on odd days (we have even and odd days at our school)

that was litetally the only thing i forgot, i used caps lock because i wanted to be dramatic

anyway

so we were all packing up for lunch and i had the Courage™️ to ask the boys if they wanted to eat lunch with us and two of them agreed

(Delgado and his Short Bestie™️)

so we planned to meet at the front of the mess hall, right? well wrong because apparently i'm too short for Delgado to see or some shit but Lanie is like 5'7 or maybe even taller cus i have to fucking tilt my head upward to SEE HER FACE

so me and lanes were just like fuck it

oh and i couldn't wait for them forever bc i had to give my lunch to a girl in broadcast

so like we sat down and ate and talked

and then Delgado got up to go talk to someone at a table behind us and we make eye contact so i just smile and wave

and he got caught off guard and was like where were you??

and i explained and he was like ohhh

so now we know where he usually sits and on Monday when we all have the same period lunch we'll sit together lol

i have to sit by myself tomorrow because my friend's lunch schedules are different than mine on even days :(