#writing gf so weird like what do u mean they aren't married yet. but they in fact would not be when she finally does this

[lingeringscars]

@terrifyingstories

let him sleep. it bounces around in her brain. he's in division more often than not these days, more than nikita or michael or alex or bellamy or her. called in on their days off, in charge of running everything and not just whatever nikita decided. he's there more than anyone, and he doesn't get enough sleep because of it. doesn't sleep there because it's division. doesn't sleep here because she keeps waking him up.

let him sleep. but she can't. because it feels like she's gonna burst out of her skin soon, and she can feel his arms tightening around her as she bounces around. he's gonna wake up anyway. she's not sleeping either. let him sleep. she pushes his chest. "i'm sorry. i'm sorry." dammit she's horrible at this girlfriend thing. she has more to apologize for, but she's rubbing his chest and apologizing for waking him. "you're okay. nikita's okay." it feels necessary to point out. "i just... i'm sorry. you were right. i never took you seriously when it came to your feelings for me, and that wasn't okay. i'm sorry about that. i...i treated them like a joke or like less than what they are, and i don't do that with you...but i did. i didn't listen. and when you tried to tell me that, i kept not listening. but you were right. you've been right. no excuses this time. i'm sorry. okay, you can go back to sleep now. sorry. just...needed to do that. it's.....a lot of months too late."