#with how chapter 24 is coming along some of y'all may not survive

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Omg😦 girly you have me screaming with excitement with the recent chapter, like the tension with Simon is crazy It feels like I'm there. I'VE BEEN WAITING FOR THIS 💕 I LOVE YOU KEEP IT UP POOKIE

Aww I love you too!!!

I know I've been keeping everyone on their toes with Simon 🤭 it'll be worth it though. I promise.

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january - march fic recs

this might be a long one, so hold on for the ride! below are some of my favorite, favorite, favorite fics that i’ve read so far in 2019 - some are new works, some are tried and true ones that I always come back to for inspiration, and some just make my heart so happy, that they made it on this list! 

all authors are listed by their AO3 name but linked to their tumblr, if I could find it!

:: J A N U A R Y ::

honestly, such a busy month for me! i spent most of that month focused on school and working on my own fics, but after having a look at my history, these were the works that stood out as favorites!

like an endless summer by objectlesson 

Or, Louis is a riding instructor at a summer camp, and Harry is a fellow counselor who he’s been successfully managing his crush on for the last two summers. That is, until Harry shows up this year leveled up and lethal, and all Louis’s formerly perfected veneer of nonchalance melts like a popsicle in the sun. 

OKAY. This story is wonderful. I’m such a sucker for summer camp AU’s, and this one is so drawn out and well done. At 87k, it gets slow burn right without becoming boring. Sweet and sexy moments about facing fears and finding love with all your best friends around. I’m also here to rec the sequel palms reflecting in your eyes because YES.

hymns for restless stars by turnyourankle

Every Holiday season Louis has his pupils write down their Christmas wishes for class. He's read almost every wish under the sun, but one girl's wish takes him by surprise. It's for her uncle not to be alone anymore. It's not a wild wish by any means, but Louis had no idea that former teen idol Harry Styles was lonely in the first place.

this is such a sweet, sweet work that is so near and dear to my heart. It touches on some themes that I feel are downplayed by the fandom (but that rant is for another post, haha) so it was lovely to see it done so well. I just love the characterization and how the whole thing flows from beginning to end. It may be ~38k, but as a 25-chapter fic, I’d consider it an easy read over time, and a story I fully recommend. 

:: F E B R U A R Y ::

a firm believer and a warm receiver by objectlesson

a few months ago, Louis had his first heat. It was no big deal, aside from it being awkward and weird and all the other things it was supposed to be. He figured he would present as an omega, so he wasn’t exactly surprised or anything.

But then, last week, Harry had his first heat, too.

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Or, the omega/omega sleepover fic no one asked for but y'all really, really need.

so - i’m all about non-traditional pairings, and the ABO verse has been full of amazing ones! While this story is shorter than a lot of my recs (at ~ 11k) it is wonderful and the characterization of H and L is wonderful. Highly recommend this one for anyone who likes ABO.

leave your mark on me by fullonlarrie 

When Chef Harry Styles’ unbonded Omega designation threatens to derail his career, he does the only thing he can, and goes in search of a black market bond.

wow. okay. so this is one of those stories that - it just blows my mind that more people aren’t talking about how amazing this is! it weighs a bit more heavy on the oppressive realities of ABO for omegas, and i love falling into a version of ABO that I could really envision being an alternate reality. I love the style of it, and the pace is exactly what it needs to be. About 32 k, nice slow burn. (if you haven’t seen a theme, I love a good slow burn!)

from, your secret admirer by flicker_album

Or the one where Louis is Harry's Tumblr crush so he sends him secret admirer messages for Valentine's Day

I really love the idea of fanboys!H&L. I loved the real-world touches, and I think the prompt is so stinking cute! It’s a nice, light read. I thoroughly enjoyed the style and just the dialogue set. 

fugue by iwillpaintasongforlou

Harry falls asleep a 17 year-old who lives in Cheshire and is probably rockstar Louis Tomlinson's biggest fan. He wakes up 24 with a wedding ring on his finger, two kids, and Louis Tomlinson attempting to wake him up with a blow job. The doctor calls it organic retrograde amnesia, says he might never get back the last seven years of his life. The only thing that feels the same is how he feels when Louis touches him, and maybe that's enough to make him fall in love all over again

i really think of this fic a lot more than i’d care to admit. there are a few (in my opinion) classics in the fandom that I think everyone should read, and this is surely one of them. there’s the perfect blend of angst and falling in love, dolloped with domesticity, learning to trust each other again, smut, and happiness. i often get so lost in this work that I imagine it’s much longer than it really is (at 17k) but it’s enough to really sink your teeth into and get lost inside of. when i need to be filled up as a writer, these are the kind of works i go to - the ones that have stood the test of time and still are wonderful every single time I come back to them.

:: M A R C H ::

somewhere between a minute and a lifetime by dinosaursmate

“Is your passport definitely in your bag?” “It’s definitely there,” Harry huffed. “I’m not stupid.” “I never said you were, love. I’m just asking from experience.” “It happened once.” Louis pressed his lips together and wheeled his suitcase towards the front door. “And… you really aren’t wearing a plug? You swear?” Harry finally cracked a smile. “I swear.” --- Harry and Louis go on their first big holiday, and they have a few surprises for each other along the way.

so I recommend the whole series, but this third installment is surely my favorite, and the one I come back to. i love holiday fics, and there’s something about this spunky couple that has me following every single word the author has written. I love how witty Harry can be in this, and how nothing about their holiday is picture perfect. all to say - for a smut-centered fic, it knows how to balance an amazing plot and really keep me wanting more. it’s also a nice length at 20k, that I feel satisfied but not like i’ve been reading for forever. i’m really hoping a part four is on the way!

the second hand unwinds by fullonlarrie

Louis Tomlinson is one of the first members of NASA's top secret Chrono Exploration Program. When things go wrong and he's sent further back in time than planned, he has no other option than to show up on his ex-boyfriend's doorstep.

this story fucked me up in the best way possible!!! I really read it all in one go, set it aside, and came back to it. Skimmed for the parts i needed to read again, read the entire thing again, and since I read it, it always comes to mind as one of the first fics I’ll recommend out to someone. i already babbled about my adoration for this fic in the comments, so i’ll let you go see for yourself! it’s ~52k of pure gold.

tell me this is paradise by quickedween

Harry Styles has been lucky in love but unlucky in the bedroom with all of her previous boyfriends. When her best friend Niall finds out that she's never had an orgasm, she knows just what Harry needs: Louis Tomlinson. Niall sets Harry up to get sorted out.

if you asked me five weeks ago if i’d ever have a girl!direction fic in my list, I would’ve laughed. for some reason, i’ve never been able to fully immerse myself in the plot, really get into it. I just - I couldn’t take it seriously. until this. this fic rocked my entire world. it’s the shortest fic on my list at ~ 5k, so i’ve read it multiple times and would seriously recommend based off the characterization, amazing smut, and the fact that it turned me into a girl!direction believer. (AND it inspired me to go on a similar journey to the one Harry has - but that’s for a different post!) but thank you for converting me to girl!direction, quickedween!

like a siren in the night by whoknows

“There is an infestation in my home,” Louis hisses, righting himself quickly and pushing his way past Harry, heading directly for the kitchen. He’s rather haphazardly dressed himself, a coat thrown on over a loose flannel shirt and black pants, slippers on his feet.

Harry resists the urge to sigh, closing the door and trailing behind him slowly. “What kind of infestation?”

For all he knows, Louis is going to claim that there’s a ghost infestation. Harry has no idea what the end game is here – all he knows is that Louis has found at least three complaints a week to bring up since he’s been living on Harry’s property, and he’s been living here for six months.

It’s way too many fucking complaints, is what Harry is saying. Especially when most of them are ridiculous to start with.

oh, my heart. i love this fic so much. it’s ABO, and it has the perfect level of angst, love, and everything in between. i love the imperfect relationship between H and L - and i’m sure you will too! such a darling, sexy, and wonderful work! (~25k)

salt and the appetite by sadaveniren

Aka Harry, a popular BDSM blogger, writes a negative review about Louis’ club. Louis wants to have a chance to make it up to him.

so i’m a huge fan of anything sada writes, but the no control club series itself is so amazing! i always come back to it for something that I know won’t let me down, that is steamy and perfect! this work that starts off the series is 14k of smut and all sorts of fun, sexy stuff that H and L get up to. if you haven’t already read it, you must be living under a rock. go check it out!

so, that’s the list! thank you to @sadaveniren, @becomeawendybird, @fullonlarrie, @dinosaursmate, @canonlarry, @flicker-album, @horsegirlharry, and @turnyourankle for writing such masterpieces! stay tuned for my next rec list! if you survived reading this entire post, you deserve a medal

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1-800-237-8522||Daniel Seavey||Imagine 5♡

Summary: You finally realize you aren’t alone

Words:1310

Warnings: Mentions of Depression, Anxiety and suicide.Yes they are strong topics but if no one talks about it than we just pretend they aren't real and thats something I refuse to stand by and do.

Requested: No

A/n:If you didn't watch the VMAs or you haven't seen logics performance or speech please watch this, it is so powerful

Taken from my Imagine book on wattpad, More people need to understand that they aren’t alone♡

This wasn't your first time at the VMA's as "Y/n" The youtuber with just close to 11 million subscribers but it was your first time going as Daniel Seaveys girlfriend and nothing felt more amazing that standing off to the side while he and the boys had their first VMA interview.

They had blown up in the last 11 months and you couldn't have been more proud of them, besides Daniel those four boys were your best friends and just seeing all that they are doing was so amazing.

You and Daniel were living the life right now, watching people you two blasted through the car speakers now perform live gave you such a rush.

"I think Logic is performing next" Daniel whispered in your ear over the loud music. You had actually met Logic a few times when you were working on a black lives matter campaign and the woman's rights movements, he was such an amazing and down to earth person and he happened to be on of your favourite musicians so your face lit up when Daniel said that.

You two always had a running joke, that no boy could ever steal you away from Daniel but Logic and he was married so that was out of the question, of course you never meant that, you wouldn't leave Daniel for the world but you always found it funny when Danny got jealous.

"Every so often a rare and important song in video comes along and let us know how true that is. The moving piece of film and music that is the video for "1-800-273-8255' brought me to tears.The truth is pricing and the truth is what matters and the truth is that no one is alone. It takes great courage to show the venerable side of being a human and we all have that side. Whatever you are going through no matter how dark it may seem there is an undeniable truth and strength in the fact that you are not alone. We all have struggles and as long as you don't give up on yourself light will break through the darkness. The national suicide prevention lifeline is available to you 24/7 if you are in crisis or concerned about somebody who might be.Just dial 1-800-273-8255" Kesha spoke(It took me 10 minutes to look watch a youtube video and type what she spoke but I love it), Your heart started to beat a little faster and that's when Daniel took your hand in his and squeezed it tight, knowing that at some point your tears would fall.

Suddenly the beautiful violins started playing causing your heart to melt, you were already loving every second of it and it had only just started.

Then Logics voice started, singing the words that had made your heart feel heavy as memories flooded back to you.

"I don't wanna be alive, I don't wanna be Alive"

You yourself were a suicide attempt surviver, and when you had heard this new song on his album you started sobbing and now seeing it live was even more powerful than the music video.

But the tears didn't fall down your face until lights fell on people standing around the stage in shirts with the number on the front and 'you are not alone" on the back. All of them being suicide attempt servers as well, you couldn't help but stand up with many others and stand there in shock as Khalid had started singing on the middle of the stage as more people in those shirts stood behind the three musicians.

"I just want to thank you all so much for giving me a platform to talk about something main stream media doesn't want to talk about : mental health, anxiety, suicide, depression and so much more that I talk about on this album,From racism, discrimination, sexism, domestic violence, sexual assault, and so much more; I don't give a damn if you are black, white, or any color in between. I don't care if you're Christian, you're Muslim, you're gay, you're straight, I am here to fight for your equality. Because I believe that we are all born equal, but we are not treated equally and that is why we must fight. We must fight for the equality of every man, woman, and child regardless of race, religion, color, creed, and sexual orientation. So I say here and now if you believe in of peace, love, positivity, and equality for all then I demand that you rise to your feet and applaud not only for yourselves but for the foundation we are laying for our children" Logic had said ending the song. By now the boys and everybody else in the stadium were on their feet, most with tears in their eyes and everybody clapping.

This night, more than every other night had shown you that you weren't alone, and that you still aren't. That although you had gotten better since the attempt that your mental health wasn't something to be taken lightly, no ones was.

It also made you want to talk about it more, maybe if someone heard your story they would feel more comfortable telling theirs.

Logics performance had moved you in ways you couldn't begin to explain and Daniel never once left your side.

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If you don't talk about things; they won't get better. But ending your life is never a solution to a problem, and I hope that everyone reading this book, anyone who struggles with anything, anyone that deals with something they feel that can't handle will call this number, or the number for your country and you will get the help you need. I love you all and I support every single one of you, but please never be afraid to pick up the phone and call that number.

If you ever want someone to talk to,weather you've had a bad day and your feeling down or you are feeling lonely or you just want an idiot to pass time with, MY MESSAGES ARE ALWAYS OPEN.

I will not be offended if you ask me personal things, I will go out of my way to help you or try to find you help, and I will do my absolute best to make that smile go across your face.

You are all so strong and amazing and talented, you are gonna kick ass in life and I know that, but you've come this far and Im so proud of you. Please never make the choice to make today your last day.

 I couldn't think of a better way than to tell each reader that they aren't alone. I want to thank each and every one of you for coming back, with every update and going to check my books out when I tell you I've written a new one 10000 times.

Before I started writing this book I was in a horrible place, and a large part of me still is, I struggle daily, sometimes worse than the last day, but writing this book, seeing all the positive comments, feeling like I belong somewhere has made a huge difference to me and I can't thank you enough for this.

To every single person who was commented,voted, even read half of one chapter, thank you. You've all changed my life in ways y'all won't ever understand and I hope that some how or some way I change yours.

Loving you with all of my heart.

-Coffeemarais