#wish me luck y'all I am going THRU it

[dontforgetoctober3rd]

ok I've taken some meds and gotten comfortable for the day

I am READY to finish that damn Addam Velaryon fic I said I was gonna do a million years ago!

I WILL FINISH IT OR SO HELP MEEEE

[seelestia]

IT DID SOBSOB literally it hates me because i wrote 90% of it and realized a typo, so i pressed ctrl + z and THE WHOLE FIC JUST DISAPPEARED. no trace whatsoever. redo does nothing. i was so devastated ;;;;;

i tried milo with hot milk and never went back ever since. it's super rich and indulgent and probably has more calories than one proper meal but man. it's so good....

i shall treasure his littol meteor 𒆙𒆙𒆙

it was great!!! act 3 was like watching an anime instead of playing the game bc of the number of cutscenes lol and act 4 really built it up for act 5. also loads of al haitham content so i am happy hehehe i like cyno, candace, and dehya a lot more after going through all that!!

lol you were starved and now you're fulfilled huh... i will let you know once i get to finish act 5 for sure!! and yes. that physics book scene was so slkdjflsjdf he's such a jerk. i love him. XD

yep that's an approach that i wouldn't have minded! just.. idk, add on another currency in-game and let us enjoy the lore-heavy event content in peace hyv >:|

pls it's the same for everyone else like i see people who can write AND draw at the same time and i am just. in awe. how are people so talented lskdjflksjdf

"you're the first person that came up when someone asks me for writer reccs"

anything that relates to zhongli will make me malfunction i love him too much and he's too blinding for words sdjflsjdfljsd your husband really needs to watch his sugar intake and use a darn tumblr ayato come on think of the turtles /j

dw he's fine i gave him lots of kisses we're good 👌🏻 i think our family is just attracted to e/intjs lmao-

I HAVE MISSED WRITING THESE MINI LETTERS INTO YOUR ASKBOX AAAA <3

now, isn't that just one way to dampen a writer's spirits <//3 if not writer's block, then it's definitely the 'your progress has not been saved' or when it just disappears 😭😮‍💨

HELP milo with hot milk is the embodiment of "too good, must resist" temptation. i think it's good to have for breakfast with some sandwiches?? or would that be too much calories hehhejfke speaking of, i drank some latte today and i finally remembered my long time vendetta with caffeine. i CANNOT drink it for some reason, the milk in the latte was the only thing persuading me to finish the drink 😭 coffee people, is this how y'all survive (/j)

act 3 was the one where we met dottore and first went to the desert, iirc?? i still remember when cyno swooped in to fight alhaitham as soon as we arrived at aaru village. i was just watching the scene like "what happened to hi? hello?" but it's still super cool LOLLL. it also reminds me of when cyno told us not to trust alhaitham and my suspicion on him grew a bit after that... but after playing thru act 5, all i can say that is you'll get to see alhaitham go "feral" ;D

my quest screen is so empty rn 😭 i even maxed the geoculus and anemoculus out of boredom, so i'm planning on maxing the electroculus soon (pray for me, inazuma is large large). the only thing i have left rn is the hangout quests! but i might start farming artifacts for all my five-stars and not just my main team too. the five-stars i have built who have their own artifacts are: heizou, kazuha, eula, ayaka, klee, zhongli, keqing, tighnari, and kokomi... which leaves about 6 other five-stars unbuilt. wish me luck <//3 (btw, i got so excited for ayato that i already have his build ready on xingqiu LOLLL anything for him! i think it has a 50/208 crit ratio?? fjwjkskd)

true, i also find it fascinating how everyone has their own writing styles like that is just so <3 to me. i'm writing my vaporize fic for your collab rn and i am super determined to finish it, hhhhhh. but hopefully, it'll come out well because this is gonna be the first time i write like a somewhat full-fledged fic 😭

too blinding, you say?? i agree, this is also me when ayato jfjejdjkjd. being in love makes them shine brighter in your eyes and all of a sudden, you need sunglasses (/j) AND THE POOR TURTLES. ayato, my dear, think abt those poor turtles in the sea making puppy eyes at you. i'm joining the turtles because i also happen to love resorting to puppy eyes, hehe. yeah, ayato is definitely pinching my cheek for this. (/lh)

[its-pmg]

...hey So this tumblr post, it's not gonna make a lot of sense. There's just a lot of things I need to get off my mind and I just need to talk for a moment. First. It's February 9th. By the time I post this, it'll be 2pm, and Seunghyun will begin his enlistment. I have....multiple feelings about this. First off, I'm proud. I'm proud that he's going to serve his country, and although he's seemed not ok (for lack of a better word) with leaving everyone, he knows as a Korean male he is obligated to serve his country. And I'm proud of him for doing this. But, I'm also...uneasy? Sad? I've gone thru tough shit, and if anyone had ever read my tags from like...2015 it's easy to tell I was not okay. And I admit it. I was in a horrible rough patch of my life; I was struggling with school, a best friend was getting closer to other people, and the latter really...solidified all of my insecurities and uneasiness and loneliness from my past. Not to get into it too much but when I was around 10 I went through a horrible time where a group of friends that I've knows since birth turned their backs to me and for a year, every Saturday for 8 hours I would sit in silence while they all talked and laughed around me. There are much worse parts of the whole story, but in a nutshell it really fucked me up badly. And when my best friend was getting closer to other people, everything from ~5 years back was coming back to me. I really struggled with it from the September 2015 to around this time last year, February 2016. Ironically, on this day one year back, my grandmother passed away. My only remaining grandparent. My support system for all these years. And it was harsh. But then, Seunghyun helped. Bigbang did in general but Seunghyun helped. Those Instagram replies from when he replied to the depressed fan? Yeah, that specifically. It helped me so much, because for the first time in god knows how long I had motivation to just, get better. It really resonated in me and I would not be in the position I am today if it weren't for that. Seunghyun's just...helped me overcome so much. When I'm going through off-days, i know I can smile by going on his Instagram or watching videos of him. It really helps me and it calms my mind, as delusional as it sounds. When I think back to two years ago, it makes me cry to think how fucked up my mind was. I would be in school every day thinking about how I wanted to just cry bc of life in general. And this is why him leaving is so hard on me (even tho it shouldn't). I'll be off to college soon, and I'll be independent for the first time in my life. I don't know how I'll survive, and knowing that I won't have Seunghyun's daily insta posts to help me out will be hard. I'll have to go thru college without a Bigbang comeback and it scares me to think about how I'll be an adult when Bigbang does come back. anyways. As much as I am sad and all, I truly am proud of him. And I really wish him luck good health and I'll stand by his side until whenever. Onto another topic....my hiatus from this blog? As y'all can see, I've not used this blog in a long while. Occasionally I'll come on to reblog some things until a post pisses me off and I leave the site again. Truth be told, I don't need tumblr as an outlet anymore. Tumblr now reminds me of all the shit I was going thru in the past, and I'm at a point in my life where I'm happy. I'm not 100% but currently, without all my recent off days, I'd say I'm 75-80% happy. And that's fine for me. I'll still keep this blog up, because I wouldn't ever want to delete this blog. I may come on time to time, who knows, but I've been spending my time on twitter now. I go on every day and I can just say what I want and I've recently been livetweeting a Hindi drama I love. It's called Kuch Rang Pyar Ke Aise Bhi and the last two times I came on I solely reblogged gifsets of it. While I haven't lost all interest in Kpop, within the last few months I've lost a lot of my multifandom-ness and I've been focusing on just being a VIP. Not to say I won't support my faves, but my focus is shifting towards Hindi dramas and Hindi music. Not entirely, but I'm getting back into it. Umm so. Yeah. I guess that's it. My twitter is @its_PMG , if anyone wants to follow. If I recognize your handle I'll most definitely follow back. Ps: idek if I'm gonna edit this for the future or not to make it more coherent but I'm leaving it for now tho cuz whatever tbh

[survivor-all-stars-blog]

EP 2: “That Was a Little Coo-Coo Crazy for Me” - Jack [ PART I ]

ALEX’S EXIT INTERVIEW

So, now I'm all alone in a game where everyone else knows one another and both people from the only season I've played were the first two to be voted out?  FUCK.  I think I'm screwed but I'm not going to give up all hope yet.  

Alex failed the idiot test by taking things in the challenge, and then he played himself out of the game. Good job, bro.

Well that worked out quite nicely huh? I feel bad for Nick, that real life got in the way for him and hope he's okay. From a game standpoint, there aren't any repercussions from that vote since Alex left. It does feel nice to get down to 23 people, or rather, 48. It leaves Ruthie, although a social butterfly I am sure, without any connections to her previous game. I didn't think Nick and Alex would work together anyways because of Alex believing that Nick's catfish was the reason he was voted out in Arabia, but, I'll take it anyways. It also means that people like Pat, JC, MJ and even Jack and Jessy to some extent, survived, which from a friend standpoint I'm happy. 

Owen was being weird yesterday with suddenly trying to get Emma out, but that was squashed pretty quickly. Pat told Logan that Nick was definitely going, and I'd already had Matt and Kait tell me that Alex was going in Game A, so it was easy to convince him to stick to the easy route and take out Alex. Logan suggested that Emma and Owen have some issues from a previous game? I don't know. I like my alliance with them though, it's not always about the game which is less stressful for me? Again, I don't know but here's an example:

Now in Game A, someone on my tribe needs to sit out. I think I can do this challenge, it's not a flash game, but if you sit out, you can't be blamed for a loss and still get to go to Adventureland if your tribe wins. Choices bro, they're killer. 

whew i dont know if ill make it far. I aligned with pat on my first tribe but will he probably not vote me off???? idk and right now i think logan trusts me. I feel like im gonna go early i wanna dont want to go early atleast higher than 22nd... Thinking about 22nd makes me think of olympics like ew! 

Man, that sucked. I hate that we went to tribal after all doing the right things. I suppose it couldn't be helped, since that tiebreaker was part logic but even bigger part luck. And the cards weren't on our side.

Regardless, I think this provided a great opportunity for Andaman to come together in uniting against Nick. I wish it hadn't gone that way. He didn't deserve that. He had no control over what was going on in his personal life. And I really hope things turn out okay for him. Unfortunately, the reality of it is that we're all self-interested players. And someone who isn't in a position to respond – for whatever reason – is out of necessity someone you can't include in your plans.

So, we've got our first two boots – a super kind and fun player who was the victim of bad circumstances, and a complete mess who screwed himself over then couldn't even fight for himself. AND HE VOTED LOGAN. Um, bye Felicia.

I THINK Andaman is pretty much on lock until a swap. Jack and I established a pretty solid pair from day one. We swapped info like we'd been doing it our whole lives yesterday. It was beautiful. I spoke a good amount with Abbey too, and as I suspected she's totally chill. And Emma and I formed an alliance, although in classic messy Pat style I don't have any intention of honouring it if we hit tribal again. Sorry, Emma.

During that last tribal, Abbey and I agreed we'd have each other's backs. And since Abbey had no problem cutting Emma last round except for Nick's inactivity, Jack and I pulled her into a three-person alliance. I think we might hit one more tribal before a swap, so in that case we'll be alright with Emma as a shield. If it goes any further than that, I'll have a decision to make. Right now, I'm keeping Jack... but anything can happen, right?

That's the latest haps on Andaman. Switching gears over to Kabru, I've got a bad feeling about hitting tribal there this round. I think I'm protected ish. Kait and I still have each other's backs and I think the same holds true with Wes and I. So that's three right there... but of course, no way it's that easy.

Wes made a mistake in the early going of this comp, which sucks. It's a very exponential comp, meaning we're far better off to take our time than rush at the expense of a quick drop. But hey., I understand. I've been there. That kind of mistake was a big contributor in my losing HvVII's final immunity comp. So I'm sure he's beating himself up more than any of us could.

And he provided a list of steps that he programmed, which is awesome. Makes the whole job that much easier. Just gotta do what we can to keep the pace consistent. I also decided not to share it with Andaman because that's the kind of thing that gets around. And when it benefits everyone, it really benefits no one. Not to mention that someone from Kabru would inevitably see it and call shenanigans. So if we can keep an advantage on Kabru, we're better off for it.

Here's where my dilemma comes into play: this comp is due by 10PM tonight. I'm spending some time with an old college buddy I haven't seen in a while tonight after work. I don't know if we'll be done before 10. So unfortunately for me, I'll need to do this at work. And the whole thing will fall apart if I get urgent work, a phone call or a coworker who needs me for anything. This is risky, but the alternative is not submitting, dooming my tribes and presumably killing any advantages offered by having good alliances. It's too early to be able to escape that kind of target.

Excuses don't mean anything in here, though. The stakes are clear – I just have to Step It Up.

did you see what i did up there seriously i thought it was pretty clever

guess who is a literal idiot and only got two points on the challenge lmao this guy. but its ok bc pat jack and i have a baby alliance so i should be safe if we go to tribal again so its whatever.  i told them i cant spell or read or count before we started so they cant be mad at me 

"Your score is 6"

FADSKSJHASKJFHDSKJHFDSKJHFKJHSDKJFHFDSKJAFHDSKJFHKDSJAHFKJDSHGFJGSDHFDGSHGDSFDSHGFHJDGSHJDGSDGSHSHDHSDDSHSH I LITERALLY CANNOT BELIEVE HOW SCREWED I JUST MADE MY SELF HOLY FUCKING SHIT PLEASE JAKEY PULL THRU BECAUSE I JUST FUCKED EVERYTHINNG UP FOR MYSELF AND I'M GONNA DIE AND BE VOTED OUT OF BOTH TRIBES I CANNOT BELIEVE I MESSED UP THIS BAD I WAS BEING SO CAREFUL WHAT THE FUCK HAPPENED SADKFJHSDKJHKSDF KILL ME

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i literally

i literally am gonna lose i i i i i i

my game just ended in four minutes fkjashds well it was fun while it lasted and there goes my chances of anythign GOOD IN THE WORLD now we won't get the idol and also i'm fucking DEAD GOD DAMN IT FSKDJFDSKFHJ

at least alex gave me the idol clue before he left so that's fun and two people lef tthem game but hust wow i'm gonna go cry now bye

That endurance challenge was satanic and gave my fingers arthritis I hate. 

Im so sad i know i am probably gonna go im so mad fuck... Well im not going down with out a fight.

YES!  I won't be seeing Tribal Council AGAIN.  I am so hyped about it too!  Also I'm waiting to go on my adventure and I can't wait to use the clue Alex left for me, unless someone gets there before me!  I still can't believe that I'm doing this all alone this time but I don't think I'll find someone like Alex that I can actually trust in this game.  I don't know... maybe?  But I highly doubt it.  I like that I'm playing for me this time though, I'm going to be a lot more careful and see how far I can make it without having to worry about anyone else! <3 

I am also tired of luck trying to punch my tribes in the face like go to hell i have a flight at 4:30am!! If i do go out well this was a good ts game and its a mockery at myself that i go lower then 22nd... Like down with emma why was her ass casted

ONLY I CAN FUCK UP IN AN ADVENTURE WHEN I HAVE AN IDOL CLUE UGH!!!!!!!!!!  I just hope everyone else has sucky luck too. 

Jules is making me learn an American accent y'all