#wish me luck y'all I am going THRU it

[dontforgetoctober3rd]

ok I've taken some meds and gotten comfortable for the day

I am READY to finish that damn Addam Velaryon fic I said I was gonna do a million years ago!

I WILL FINISH IT OR SO HELP MEEEE

[seelestia]

IT DID SOBSOB literally it hates me because i wrote 90% of it and realized a typo, so i pressed ctrl + z and THE WHOLE FIC JUST DISAPPEARED. no trace whatsoever. redo does nothing. i was so devastated ;;;;;

i tried milo with hot milk and never went back ever since. it's super rich and indulgent and probably has more calories than one proper meal but man. it's so good....

i shall treasure his littol meteor 𒆙𒆙𒆙

it was great!!! act 3 was like watching an anime instead of playing the game bc of the number of cutscenes lol and act 4 really built it up for act 5. also loads of al haitham content so i am happy hehehe i like cyno, candace, and dehya a lot more after going through all that!!

lol you were starved and now you're fulfilled huh... i will let you know once i get to finish act 5 for sure!! and yes. that physics book scene was so slkdjflsjdf he's such a jerk. i love him. XD

yep that's an approach that i wouldn't have minded! just.. idk, add on another currency in-game and let us enjoy the lore-heavy event content in peace hyv >:|

pls it's the same for everyone else like i see people who can write AND draw at the same time and i am just. in awe. how are people so talented lskdjflksjdf

"you're the first person that came up when someone asks me for writer reccs"

anything that relates to zhongli will make me malfunction i love him too much and he's too blinding for words sdjflsjdfljsd your husband really needs to watch his sugar intake and use a darn tumblr ayato come on think of the turtles /j

dw he's fine i gave him lots of kisses we're good 👌🏻 i think our family is just attracted to e/intjs lmao-

I HAVE MISSED WRITING THESE MINI LETTERS INTO YOUR ASKBOX AAAA <3

now, isn't that just one way to dampen a writer's spirits <//3 if not writer's block, then it's definitely the 'your progress has not been saved' or when it just disappears 😭😮‍💨

HELP milo with hot milk is the embodiment of "too good, must resist" temptation. i think it's good to have for breakfast with some sandwiches?? or would that be too much calories hehhejfke speaking of, i drank some latte today and i finally remembered my long time vendetta with caffeine. i CANNOT drink it for some reason, the milk in the latte was the only thing persuading me to finish the drink 😭 coffee people, is this how y'all survive (/j)

act 3 was the one where we met dottore and first went to the desert, iirc?? i still remember when cyno swooped in to fight alhaitham as soon as we arrived at aaru village. i was just watching the scene like "what happened to hi? hello?" but it's still super cool LOLLL. it also reminds me of when cyno told us not to trust alhaitham and my suspicion on him grew a bit after that... but after playing thru act 5, all i can say that is you'll get to see alhaitham go "feral" ;D

my quest screen is so empty rn 😭 i even maxed the geoculus and anemoculus out of boredom, so i'm planning on maxing the electroculus soon (pray for me, inazuma is large large). the only thing i have left rn is the hangout quests! but i might start farming artifacts for all my five-stars and not just my main team too. the five-stars i have built who have their own artifacts are: heizou, kazuha, eula, ayaka, klee, zhongli, keqing, tighnari, and kokomi... which leaves about 6 other five-stars unbuilt. wish me luck <//3 (btw, i got so excited for ayato that i already have his build ready on xingqiu LOLLL anything for him! i think it has a 50/208 crit ratio?? fjwjkskd)

true, i also find it fascinating how everyone has their own writing styles like that is just so <3 to me. i'm writing my vaporize fic for your collab rn and i am super determined to finish it, hhhhhh. but hopefully, it'll come out well because this is gonna be the first time i write like a somewhat full-fledged fic 😭

too blinding, you say?? i agree, this is also me when ayato jfjejdjkjd. being in love makes them shine brighter in your eyes and all of a sudden, you need sunglasses (/j) AND THE POOR TURTLES. ayato, my dear, think abt those poor turtles in the sea making puppy eyes at you. i'm joining the turtles because i also happen to love resorting to puppy eyes, hehe. yeah, ayato is definitely pinching my cheek for this. (/lh)

[its-pmg]

...hey So this tumblr post, it's not gonna make a lot of sense. There's just a lot of things I need to get off my mind and I just need to talk for a moment. First. It's February 9th. By the time I post this, it'll be 2pm, and Seunghyun will begin his enlistment. I have....multiple feelings about this. First off, I'm proud. I'm proud that he's going to serve his country, and although he's seemed not ok (for lack of a better word) with leaving everyone, he knows as a Korean male he is obligated to serve his country. And I'm proud of him for doing this. But, I'm also...uneasy? Sad? I've gone thru tough shit, and if anyone had ever read my tags from like...2015 it's easy to tell I was not okay. And I admit it. I was in a horrible rough patch of my life; I was struggling with school, a best friend was getting closer to other people, and the latter really...solidified all of my insecurities and uneasiness and loneliness from my past. Not to get into it too much but when I was around 10 I went through a horrible time where a group of friends that I've knows since birth turned their backs to me and for a year, every Saturday for 8 hours I would sit in silence while they all talked and laughed around me. There are much worse parts of the whole story, but in a nutshell it really fucked me up badly. And when my best friend was getting closer to other people, everything from ~5 years back was coming back to me. I really struggled with it from the September 2015 to around this time last year, February 2016. Ironically, on this day one year back, my grandmother passed away. My only remaining grandparent. My support system for all these years. And it was harsh. But then, Seunghyun helped. Bigbang did in general but Seunghyun helped. Those Instagram replies from when he replied to the depressed fan? Yeah, that specifically. It helped me so much, because for the first time in god knows how long I had motivation to just, get better. It really resonated in me and I would not be in the position I am today if it weren't for that. Seunghyun's just...helped me overcome so much. When I'm going through off-days, i know I can smile by going on his Instagram or watching videos of him. It really helps me and it calms my mind, as delusional as it sounds. When I think back to two years ago, it makes me cry to think how fucked up my mind was. I would be in school every day thinking about how I wanted to just cry bc of life in general. And this is why him leaving is so hard on me (even tho it shouldn't). I'll be off to college soon, and I'll be independent for the first time in my life. I don't know how I'll survive, and knowing that I won't have Seunghyun's daily insta posts to help me out will be hard. I'll have to go thru college without a Bigbang comeback and it scares me to think about how I'll be an adult when Bigbang does come back. anyways. As much as I am sad and all, I truly am proud of him. And I really wish him luck good health and I'll stand by his side until whenever. Onto another topic....my hiatus from this blog? As y'all can see, I've not used this blog in a long while. Occasionally I'll come on to reblog some things until a post pisses me off and I leave the site again. Truth be told, I don't need tumblr as an outlet anymore. Tumblr now reminds me of all the shit I was going thru in the past, and I'm at a point in my life where I'm happy. I'm not 100% but currently, without all my recent off days, I'd say I'm 75-80% happy. And that's fine for me. I'll still keep this blog up, because I wouldn't ever want to delete this blog. I may come on time to time, who knows, but I've been spending my time on twitter now. I go on every day and I can just say what I want and I've recently been livetweeting a Hindi drama I love. It's called Kuch Rang Pyar Ke Aise Bhi and the last two times I came on I solely reblogged gifsets of it. While I haven't lost all interest in Kpop, within the last few months I've lost a lot of my multifandom-ness and I've been focusing on just being a VIP. Not to say I won't support my faves, but my focus is shifting towards Hindi dramas and Hindi music. Not entirely, but I'm getting back into it. Umm so. Yeah. I guess that's it. My twitter is @its_PMG , if anyone wants to follow. If I recognize your handle I'll most definitely follow back. Ps: idek if I'm gonna edit this for the future or not to make it more coherent but I'm leaving it for now tho cuz whatever tbh