#will anyhthing fucking change ??? really

[missmonsters2]

Sharky here again. HII YOU TOO VANNN!! JADKAWEKAWJE YES I KNOW. It was long but not that long! The beach was really really close to the aquarium, and so did the place where we got icecreams, so we walked there, sat down and ate our icecreams and just.. I don't know. Chilled? (no pun intended) It was really nice. We took photos though it mostly was her because my phone is barely surviving at this point and it's camera is already none existant LOLL. (I love jellyfishes too!!!!!)

AND I KNOW. I just. I thought about what you said about food and going to nice places that give us space to talk! and my process of thought literally was: If we're eating, we have to get food and dessert because there's nothing better than getting food and dessert!! and there's also nothing better than icecream! honestly just food alone is enough to make me go feral, imagine having a date and eating in said date as you talk and watch fish and sharks and all kinds of pretty creatures swimming around and being tremendously cute. I ALSO ADORE SUSHI. And hey- she's.. supposed to be completely american, but I just texted her asking and she has an asian grandma?? 😰 VAN WH-

(also hello I also love noodles and soups in all their forms??? it would be so cool if I was asian please but- sadly I do not think so as I am completely latin/hispanic but sTILL INTeRESTING. We shall test this theory!!)

Also.. uh, as a poor somebody who still struggles with some words in english-- what does niche mean? I googled it and it said that it was a synonym for comfortable. Does it mean that.. sharks are comfortable?- and yeah!! she said so. I told her about how they give birth and she said she didn't know that there were so many kinds of sharks and differences between them when it comes to reproduction? said she also never had given so much thought to the fact that sharks are actually fish and not mammals, and the fact that they actually hatch eggs- which led me to explaining that do they not only hatch eggs, but there are certain kinds that are able to keep their eggs inside them for protection without having any direct connection for nutrition like humans do with, for example, an umbilical cord. The egg is perfectly equipped to nurture the lil' baby shark in all ways. But they stay in their egg, inside of their moms till they hatch!! which is really cool if you ask me, like having a backpack where you can put babies inside and it also feeds them while protecting them and you can take it anywhere? yeah, that's how it feels LOL.

vAN PLEASE DON'T SAY THAT I SWEAR I WAS. I WAS FUCKING SHAKING FOR MOMENT PLEASE AMNDWJEWENJAWED. I'm a disaster and this clearly shows JDAKed. Smooth operator, lalalala smoooooooth operator. Yessheis, whatamIgonnadowithmygaynesjeez.

AND YES. I'm so curious!!! I kind of tried to ask her what was she thinking but she only smiled and kept silent and I might or might have not tried to guess- Then I stopped because I actually realised that first, I'd love it to be a surprise, and second, I'm terrible at guessing things-- And.. I'm excited. I know this might sound kinda sad but I can't remember the last time I hanged out with someone. Probably when I was 14 or something, but yeah. It's a nice change of things. A fresh breath of air. It's good to have a.. friend? DJAKWEJMKWKDAJKWEJAWJEKEJKE

Okay can we please talk about how I literally didn't know you're asian and I've been following you for SO long now like please JSJSJSJDJAw.

Awww, Van I'm so ADJWKEJKWAEaw. I'm happy this worked out. I kind of needed this to work out. And yet again I have to thank you for encouraging me. I know it might seem like I'm exaggerating but you gave me that little push I needed!! and I'll be! gay is my full time profession. I'm gay all day, all night, all week and month (I bet you weren't expecting that!!)

Have a good night Van!! rest well, have a good week and I'll update you if anyhthing new happens!! Also I'm loving mirror mirror. It's literally my highlight of the week!

LOL that's so cute tho!! hopefully she sent you the pics <3

Straight up though, there's ALWAYS room for dessert. Dessert is a second stomach.

LMFAOSJDFLKS i just needed to check, you know 😂 she probably thought that was so random KSLDJFLSKD

I mean slay, that's perfect though. I feel like hispanic and asian cultures have a lot of overlaps so we're basically the same i'm js.

Niche in this context basically means your interests are very specifc to you or a small group of people, which is awesome! I honestly think the more niche interests someone has, the more interesting they are :) now i too am learning so many shark facts LOL just watch, this week my tiktok is gonna be about sharks now

just hang onto this sweet feeling bc we're all thriving bc of you. You're really out there winning for us LOL

I hope she plans something for you!! You deserve a nice surprise, esp since this is the first time you're actually excited to hangout with someone. It doesn't sound sad bc i literally only look forward to hanging out with like 3 people MAYBE. To this day, I hate meeting new people LMFAO

I always wonder what people think I am but i think there's a least a few people who know if they catch me posting a selfie at the right time once in a blue moon LOL

Aww i'm seriously so happy for you. I really hope it all works out and I hope you having fun on your next date <3

Can't wait for the next update kdsjflskdjsl i'll be thinking of you two as I write the next mirror mirror chapter <3

[old-memoria]

I just need to tell someone. My mental health has gotten so bad. I'm having panic attacks again and I want to hurt myself. I just moved here and am trying to make friends, but I keep getting rejected and I just can't figure out what's so wrong with me. I feel like a burden to literally everyone. I stopped looking when I cross the street so maybe someone will hit me with their car. I'm so sick of feeling like this, I don't know how much more I can take. Don't feel pressured to reply to this, I just needed to get it off my chest and picked a random blog. Sorry 😞

God I’m so sorry you’re going through this. I understand you, because I was in a pretty much the same situation a few years ago, my whole fucking life seemed ruined and worthless. As cliche as it sounds, but it’s not! It never is doom and gloom, I swear. Once I started to focus on my mental well-being and well, basically, on myself, it has changed for the better. Don’t blame yourself for what you feel, cut toxic people out of your life (it really helps!), block negativity out of your mind by finding a new hobby/ interest/ hyperfixation/ literally anyhthing to distract yourself (always works for me). There’s nothing wrong with you, you’re just going through hard times and it’s okay to feel frustrated, but it won’t last forever!

And please don’t hurt yourself. I used to do it too (and still want to do it at times, but if I’ve learnt to control this ideation, you can do it too!). It’s NEVER an answer to anything! Really. It won’t change anything and it won’t make you feel better. Take a piece of paper or a useless notebook and tear it, channel your inner rage into it, break a plate or a bottle if you want. But please, don’t hurt yourself. You’re not a burden, you’re not hopeless, you’re not doomed!! Take your time, relax, if those cunts rejects you - it doesn’t mean anything at all! Don’t put them on the pedestal, put yourself! You’ll meet plenty of other people, its fine! Don’t let yourself wallow in grief and self-hatered! You can message me if you want 💙💙💙 sending immense love and support to you!! Bad times won’t last forever, I promise!

P. S. Every time I feel like I’m about to give up, I listen to this songs. The lyrics are beautiful and truly inspiring