#who doesn't ask for anything while I have no steady income

[ipcearn]

Ruvik will absolutely drive me up a wall sometimes, where I have to repeatedly stop him from chewing on cables, climbing behind my monitors, pouncing on my face when I am trying to sleep, or when he pees somewhere he isn't supposed to

But then he will climb up into my lap and onto my chest while I am at my desk just to go to sleep there, or in bed curl up right beneath my chin to purr against my throat, or on my arm, just always wanting to touch some body part of mine and will even get up to reposition himself after I have shifted away from him a bit

(or like I said before, will wedge himself between my shoulder blades and the back of my chair to doze while I am busy at my desk)

I cannot put into words how much I love him, I didn't realize you could love somebody that much?? I have spent all of my formative years with cats but this is the first one that is mine, truly mine

[dana-chan-the-control-brain]

It's time for Bob questions 'cause he's the new blorbo in town lol

Did he always want to be a mechanic or did he want to do something different as a kid?

Does he have a favourite colour?

What does he like to do in his spare time? Does he read books, play games, watch tv?

What was he like as a kid? Was he less grumpy back then?

Does he have a favourite hobby?

Did he always like robots?

Bonus joke question:

On a scale of 1-10 how gay is he for dadler lol

BOBERTTTTTTTTT!!!! <3

Glad I'm getting Bobert questions. Lol I like the grump a lot.

Did he always want to be a mechanic or did he want to do something different as a kid?

I'm not for certain if Bob always wanted to be a mechanic or not. But I don't think he ever planned on working for Fazbar Entertainment. While Ted had childhood nostalgia for Foxy, and wanted to work with his robot blorbo, Bob doesn't have the same attachment for the place.

I don't think he went to college like Ted. If anything, the guy probably went to trade school or vocational school to get a practical job with a steady income and good benefits.

It wasn't really a "dream job" for him. It was more, "I'm good at fixing shit, and this is what I'm good at, so best to go all in than not"

I could see him being a guy who fucked around and modded with older cars a lot rather than invent anything himself.

He figured he would have probably worked as a factory mechanic fixing their automated machines but the Pizzaplex was hiring and he figured “working on robots would be cool”

Does he have a favorite color?

Pink...

Yes, really.

What does he like to do in his spare time? Does he read books, play games, watch tv?

He likes to read on occasion and watch TV about as much as the average person.

He likes watching crime drama shows and sitcoms. Sometimes those animal cop or I shouldn't be alive shows and documentaries.

He's more a casual gamer though. he doesn't own any major consoles or any major things on his PC or anything. He's more a guy who's into those little farming simulators he can have on his phone.... He avoids the monetary purchases tho.

He also likes to go on long walks and has recently taken up cooking a bit more.

What was he like as a kid? Was he less grumpy back then?

He was definitely MORE grumpy back then. Lol well, grumpy isn't the word for it.

More like, FULL OF RAGE.

He would often get into fights at school and had a lot of anger issues.

But he also had a magnetic personality that made you feel good being around him. Like if you were on his good side, and he liked you, he'd probably beat up whoever you asked or was picking on you. He usually beat up bullies and didn't hurt anyone for no good reason.

He was an alright student. His grades weren't honor roll or anything, but he passed by okay.

Does he have a favourite hobby?

Spoiler. :3

Did he always like robots?

He thought robots were kinda cool, but he grew a deeper appreciation working with Fazbear Entertainment and finding out all their little weird personality quirks.

It takes him a long time to start treating the Animatronics as people. (Like it's a multiple year long development that happens of screen) And you can see his dismissive attitude towards Sun and Moon in the first chapter of Lofi.

He gains a more deeper appreciation for the AI as time goes on.

On a scale of 1-10 how gay is he for dadler lol

Fucking 11.

[gregorygerwitz]

i am IN LOVE with the new cozy trio hospital au its perfect !!!!!! (does it have a nickname?)

if you have more hcs or ideas to share from this universe please please do i absolutely want to hear them !! (no pressure though ofc)

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[ AU moodboards ]

warnings for the moodboard post and below headcanons: drug use, addiction, depression, attempted suicide, abuse, hospital stays

The 2011 AU my beloved! Honestly, I did the math and realized Hailey was ~19 (by my birthday headcanons) when Jay was with Mouse in the hospital for his (also my headcanon) overdose in November of 2011. And for about... two weeks? This AU is one of the only things I've thought about. I have so many thoughts.

(and the only things I've been calling it are "the new cozy trio au" and "the 2011 au" it doesn't have an official tag or anything yet)

Hailey, who is still a teenager shows up to lunch that first day and Mouse's immediate reaction is to ask Jay why there's an infant in their booth (in his defense, he's still going through the worst of withdrawals and he's cranky, and he wasn't expecting a third person at lunch)

it wasn't Jay's plan to play host for more than a couple weeks - he wanted to give Mouse a comfortable place to get and stay clean, and he wanted to offer Hailey a warm, safe place to sleep until she can get her feet under her

then it's been three months and it doesn't look like that's changing any time soon, so they pool their money to get a bigger place, if only so Hailey doesn't have to keep sleeping on the couch

and, yeah, it's in a less great part of town, and it definitely feels as cheap as it is, but Jay's the only one between the three of them who has a steady income while Mouse and Hailey have minimum wage jobs without guaranteed hours, so they'll take what they can get while they try to save money

Hailey applies to the police academy the year she turns 21, both because she still remembers Trudy from her childhood and Jay is so excited about just moving up to Intelligence and she wants to be excited with him, to some extent

Mouse stays clean and sober after 2011, for the most part. there's relapses, and bouts of unemployment, and months where he misses his cut of the rent, but he has two roommates to catch him when he stumbles and offer the support he needs when he's struggling

of course, Jay helps him get into a rehab facility when he decides he wants to try the professional route of getting clean again, and helps him get the job with Intelligence once he's living in the apartment full time again

no one reenlists in this AU because as much as I love the parallels in canon the idea of splitting up the cozy trio when they're happy and stable makes me sad 💜

yes, everyone is tired of the trio agreeing each other and forming an automatic alliance during every case and disagreement, but there's nothing they can do to stop it

Voight tried to put his No Relationships Within The Unit rule into place but like... it's really hard to control them when they all live together and spend every minute away from work together? like he can try to enforce it but that's not gonna change the fact that their home has a huge bed that they all fit in and can lay around in every weekend to watch movies

it's just a lot of domestic chaos that comes from one shared traumatic week and the healing that comes after that, filled with a lot of unconditional emotional support

(bonus two of the three panicking and being protective of the other any time one of them is in danger, which, as in canon, is practically constantly)

[ancient-namess]

For the wip game: Figure you out

FYO is from the same era as Flip Me Upside Down, meaning it was an early erasermight hyperfixation fic and i definitely need to revisit it and do some restructuring & actual development </3 it didn't get anywhere near as much done as FMUD and i cruelly abandoned it quite a while back in favour of newer shinier projects, however i still want to come back to it at some point

this one is post kamino and toshinori centric and it's supposed to delve into his newly acquired civilian life and enhanced feelings of uselessness, and what that new life means to him in the context of nighteye's vision. it's also supposed to be a good old deconstruction of all might The Symbol and yagi toshinori The Person, with the fic starting more in line with the former and ending closer to the latter. there's a lot to unpack about this man's fucked up lil brain and i am endlessly fascinated

i had an idea at one point of the chapters each being the same sequence of regular events e.g. class, training midoriya, etc, playing over and over again to emphasise the Mundanity for lack of a better word, and gradually introducing new scenes alongside toshinori's perception & overall mental health improving with aizawa reaching out to him and repeatedly contradicting his self-imposed view that he is worthless and a burden. idk how we'll i'd actually be able to execute that tho so who knows

the title is from Figure You Out by FEEDER which was the initial inspiration for the idea re: toshinori being unable to parse why aizawa considers him worth his time, especially now. that title's been there since the very beginning and at this point it's set in stone as it is the backbone of what i want to do in a thematic sense <3

snippet incoming:

In the past, there was always some unspoken agreement: an understanding that, without All Might, things would be different. That Toshinori was second to the Symbol.  Shouta doesn't look at All Might with the same stars in his eyes. Shouta looks at Toshinori like he sees something extraordinary.  It makes his heart pound with trepidation. Slowly, Shouta breaks the kiss, eyelids fluttering open. Toshinori studies his face, looking for any sign of… regret? Misgiving? Truthfully, he's not entirely sure.  Shouta's face reflects the same steady apathy it always does - except for the glimmer of affection in his eyes.  Somehow, that feels worse than anything else he might have seen there.

thank you for the ask !!! <3

[onsunnyside]

hi friend! do you have anything new to share about the alternative version of your hcv? any spoilers or little scraps?? i'm TOO excited for all of arcadia's main boys to terrorize one unlucky omega. i stg you've done such a fantastic job with this au.

hi bestie !! I've been waiting for an ask like this so let's see: major spoilers, drabble-ish, general thots/ideas for the alternative version in HCV

I haven't decided if it's going to be naive!reader, but it isn't going to be that whole 'truth or dare' trope (although they may play the party game later hehe). overall, you're a new student at Howard College, having just moved to the city after living in the rural farmland with your grandparents. now, you're with your parents since they've finally got a stable and steady income to support you living with them and in college. this is where the innocence *COULD* come in, you haven't been to the city in years, so used to online school, weekly farmers market trips and hanging out at the old barn with your two close friends (who are hours and hours away now). you're thrown into the face-paced life of bus rides and subway trains, busy with long lectures and getting lost on the giant campus.

this new start also introduces you to the greek life at Howard College with sororities, fraternities and the hell weeks and parties you've only seen in movies. it doesn't take long for people to 'adopt' you into their groups, one in particular, a selection of friendly and funny girls from Kappa Phi, the sister sorority to Arcadia Phi.

this is where some major differences pop out bc we're going the 'omegas are rare' route !! for the sake of 3+ alphas mating with one omega bc yes, that's how it's going to end. (you're literally never going to get away from them👁👁)

the Arcadia Alphas, boy... do they prey on you like a sweet little rabbit in the middle of the forest.

one of the boys drop by the Kappa house, then see you sitting pretty on their couch, "New pledge?"

"New student. She doesn't want to join."

"Hey, that isn't what I said." You pout.

"Kappa would treat you good," the alpha flashes a charming smile, "It's basically the golden ticket for you girls."

"He's right." Natasha grins teasingly, nudging you gently, "Say hi, kitten."

"Kitten?"

You feel heat rush to your cheeks, "that isn't my name," then, you tell him your name, quickly looking away from his intense eyes.

"Why kitten?"

"It's an embarrassing story..." which is when you first met the redhead, jumping out of your skin as she sat down across from you in the library, knocking over your drink and getting a nasty bruise on your knee. just a jumpy, easily scared little kitten, and that nickname has spread among your friend group.

little do you know, that same alpha brings that nickname back to his frat bros, talking about the sweet omega that somehow flew under their radar. the obsession starts pretty quickly, you meet them soon after (haven't decided how) and boom !! fate sealed without your knowledge !!

they stalk you, creeping around, intimidating/even fighting other alphas/betas interested in you as the uneasiness crawls up your spine, but you chalk it up to the new environment. they have plenty of conversations about you, establishing a system of sorts to keep track of where you are, who you're with and even down to your clothes for the day. they collect info about you, soon enough they know everything 😳😳 including that white diary you carry around everywhere (hint: along with just general entries, you write about your crushes in there and fully gush the handsome fellas who always stop by the Kappa house). since omegas are rare and Howard College has only got a handful of them, the boys haven't 'had' one in a while, so they jump at the fresh meat which is you ofc.

the word on campus is that the new student is Arcadia property 😳 it's blatantly clear how unlucky this blessing of yours is. and everyone just watches as the unsuspecting omega is unknowingly courted by the baddest of the bad, campus gods with the most successful/brightest futures ahead of them.

I think this alternative version may be two parts for some world building, and character establishing. plus dark!alphas ?? the manipulation !! the toxicity and possessiveness !! the possibilities are endless.

please note that all of this can change at any time and so, when the actual fic comes out, it will be different !! nothing is set in stone. these are just general ideas that I currently have, and I want it to differ from the other fics of the HCV collection, so stay tuned bc I'm open to all ideas !

[niuniente]

Is being a Death-Head seen as a desirable job option socially since it's legal, or would people judge someone who wants to be one? Is it something kids in school might say they want to be?

It's not a desirable job. It's not something people would choose as their first option (at least not many, exceptions always exist). I think the reasons are that people are afraid of you, you always carry a certain stigma with you, you have to deal with lots of dark stuff, and it asks lots of guts and certain nature to be able to work as a Death-Head.

As with the previous answer, think about a mafia. Not a desirable job, asks a certain characteristics especially if you want to do well in that job - and a Death-Head is required to deal with their deals well and provide the client whatever they want with the deal, no matter what it is - and while they can refuse a deal, I imagine the boss of the fraction as well as the MAIN BOSS of Death-Head's HQ doesn't accept constant refusal. At some point, you need to do something "illegal" - but if you do well, the life in the mafia is a source of a steady income and sort of family bonding, too. Except Death-Head fractions don't fight each other and they're legally approved and followed by the government.

Perhaps indeed a governmental or military secret service is a good idea here. They do operate like mafias, yes? Can do anything they want without the law touching them, even kill and murder people if necessary, and never "get caught".

So far there's only 2 stories so I haven't been able to show this other side of the profession but it will come out more as I get to draw more stories.

Until then, these asks are the best way to dig into the world :3

[tabbytabbytabby]

Picture Perfect

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It's Peter's idea. They've been sharing the same tiny one-bedroom apartment for months ever since they got stuck in Peter's universe. They're getting by, but money's still tight. It couldn't hurt to have a little extra income. 

And this, Parker is used to. He's sold pictures of Spider-Man to the Bugle for years. But to be able to take photos of Peter and not try and set up the shots to try to capture himself, it's a lot better. 

And it's actually kind of fun. He can swing with Peter through the streets like they do all the time and get some incredible shots. 

Jameson has asked him how he's managed to do it, but Parker just smiles and says he can't reveal his methods.

Tonight, he'd followed Peter as he'd chased down a mugger, getting a few snaps as he'd gotten a woman her purse back, then they'd swung home together. 

Parker crawls into their bedroom window while Peter stays on the fire escape. He leans back against the windowsill and takes off his mask. His hair is a mess, but he looks happy. It's a look he's been seeing a lot more of lately.

"Well, you showed that mugger," Parker says.

"Yeah, I doubt he'll be messing with anyone again," Peter says.

"If only because he's afraid you'll find him and hang him from his underwear again," Parker teases.

Peter laughs, and Parker stares, mesmerized for a moment, before he raises his camera, snapping a shot of the moment. It catches Peter's attention, and he raises an eyebrow. "What'd you take that for?"

Parker shrugs. "Just because."

"You planning to sell out my identity to the Bugle?"

He's teasing. Parker knows that. But he still lowers his camera and scoots closer. "You know I'd never do that."

"I know, man," Peter says. "I was just teasin' ya."

"I know," Parker says. "But I need you to know you can trust me. With anything."

"I already do," Peter says softly. "I trust you with everything, Pete. Probably more than you realize."

Parker frowns. "What does that mean?"

"Nothin'," Peter says. "It's nothing. So uh… did you get any good shots tonight?"

Parker knows he's just trying to change the subject, but he lets him. He knows better than to push when Peter doesn't want to talk. 

"Yeah, I got some," Parker tells him. "Why don't you come inside, and I'll show you?"

"Is that your way of trying to seduce me into your bedroom?" Peter teases.

Parker feels his face heat up. He gets to his feet and turns his back on Parker. "What? No. Of course not. I mean, this is our room. And  I'm just… you know. I don't want to risk you being seen."

The window closes behind him, but Parker still doesn't turn. "You're just looking out for me," Peter says softly. 

Parker almost jumps at how close he suddenly is. How was he always so good at sneaking up on him? He supposes he always has been, ever since that night they met six months ago. He'd snuck his way into Parker's heart shortly after and has been there since. So yeah, Parker was going to look after him.

"I always will," Parker whispers.

A hand gently nudges Parker's side until he gets the hint and turns to face Peter, who's watching him closely, his face serious. "I'm always gonna look out for you, too. You know that, right?"

"Yeah, Peter, I know."

Peter nods his head towards the camera in Parker's hand. "Show me the picture."

Parker's suddenly nervous. He's never felt like this about showing Peter the other pictures he's taken. But this one feels different—more real.

He tries to keep his hands steady as he pulls up the picture and hands the camera over. Peter's quiet for a while as he stares at it. It could be only seconds, but it feels like hours as the silence stretches between them. 

"Wow," he finally whispers. He clears his throat. "Is this…? This is amazing, Parker. But how…?"

"How what?" Parker asks him.

"How did you get me to look like that ?" 

Parker frowns. He moves to Peter's side and leans in close as he looks down at the camera. "Like what?"

"I don't know, man," Peter says. "It's… you see me like this?"

Parker's hand covers Peter's where it's still resting on the camera. "Yeah, I do. But this is just you, Peter. You're…"

"What?"

Parker smiles. "Amazing."

Peter laughs and knocks their shoulders together. "Come on."

"You are ," Parker presses. "God, Peter. You have no idea. You always are, but when I saw you tonight looking so beautiful and majestic and happy, I had to capture it."

"You think I'm beautiful?"

Parker ducks his head. "Uh… yeah. I do."

"And majestic," Peter says. "You know, I don't think anyone's ever called me that before."

Which is a shame. Because he is. "Guess it's a good thing you have me then."

"I do, don't I?" Peter asks softly. "Have you?"

"Always," Parker says. It's a big promise. He knows with the lives they lead; they're not exactly guaranteed an always. Hell, they're not even guaranteed a tomorrow. There are still days Parker wakes up afraid that he's going to find Peter gone.

But it hasn't happened yet, and he's going to hold onto the moments they do have together. He's never going to take them for granted.

"Me too," Peter whispers. He kisses him soft and sweet, like a promise. "Me too."

[squirrelwithatophat]

Carver distinguished himself in battle at the age of 17 while fighting for King Cailan at the Battle of Ostagar, and yet Aveline has decided he’s unfit for a little guard duty? As Carver himself says, “We were both soldiers. Why won't they take me?” She tries to claim it’s because she was an officer and followed orders, but as he points out, the latter is bullshit - after all, her Act 1 personal quest involves her very much not following orders and then being rewarded for it because Aveline’s always right.

Why is he considered qualified for two different militaries (Cailan’s army, then Kirkwall’s Templars), but too “immature” for the city guard? You know, the same police force that can’t be bothered to stop a serial killer from murdering a little girl because they think it’s too dangerous to pursue him?

“I don’t make my guards fight gangs in dark corners. But if you’d like to help…” (triggers in all 3 acts, by the way) — Wow, Aveline, it’s not as if you would need anyone with the bravery and fighting skills to hold their ground in combat!

The way she tries to lecture Carver, after having sabotaged his first attempt to get a stable (and legal) job, is incredibly obnoxious too…

Carver: We were both soldiers. Why won't they take me?

Aveline: I was an officer. And I follow orders.

Carver: No you don't.

Aveline: I also think of others before myself. You seem tired of that, and that's dangerous.

Right, the guy who was ready to die for his country and now spends his time desperately trying to support and protect his impoverished family (including a sibling who has to live in hiding) definitely wouldn’t “think of others before [himself].”

Aveline: I don't like some of the people you've been associating with, Carver.

Carver: Talk to my brother/sister. He/She's the one in charge.

Aveline: This city's full of people who are dead set on ending badly. I don't want to see you end up the same way.

Carver: Would asking you to stop spying on me help in the least?

Aveline: No.

It’s not like lack of a steady income (for anyone in his family) has anything to do with why he has to work with criminals. Gee, I wonder if there are any jobs where skill with a sword might be put to good use…

Aveline: So, Carver, have you thought about what you'll do if your expedition doesn't pay off?

Carver: This is our only chance and you know it.

Aveline: You're so damned proud you couldn't pick up a trade?

Carver: And who would take on a Fereldan apprentice? Maybe in another year I could work my way up to pissboy.

Aveline: Fine, let's crawl down some holes. Good bloody luck for your sake.

Because there are just so many job opportunities for Fereldens! It’s not like most of the refugee population is packed into an old mine shaft, begging on the streets, eating sawdust, signing up to work in a mine in which the previous workers were killed by dragons, etc. It’s not like Carver just had to sell himself into indentured servitude to a criminal organization for a year in order to support his family. Because he’s just too “proud” to do anything like that.

What kind of job might a former soldier be good at? I guess we’ll never know…

EDIT: You know what Aveline really thinks would be a good solution to the crime problem? A freaking gulag.

We get this argument in Act 3:

Aveline: There's a lot of pressure to make the city guard more like the templars. Cage potential troublemakers just in case. Can't imagine you'd like that.

Hawke: You're not one of those "order at any cost" people, Aveline.

Aveline: And what would you know about it?

Or alternatively…

Aveline: There's a lot of pressure to make the city guard more like the templars. Cage potential troublemakers just in case. Can't imagine you'd like that.

Hawke: You'd be a fool to try it. People would revolt.

Aveline: Criminals would revolt.

Hawke: They aren't people? How big would your Gallows be?

Aveline: That's not fair. I'd never... not intentionally. Ugh! There you go again, seeding your little doubts. As If I don't have enough. Just.. leave, all right?

What the fuck, Aveline?

shout out to aveline for calling carver, an 18/19 year old, selfish and immature after he experienced the blood bath that was ostagar and the fifth blight and is always making sure his siblings dont get caught by templars, then claiming he wouldnt follow the law (even though she doesnt by helping hawke) and denying him a chance at honest work that could provide for his nearly homeless family (the same chance she got), while at the same time expressing frustration and disappointment at carver for not having a job

[opal-eyed-girl]

where i'm at

whew it's been a stretchy minute since i've posted on here. so where am i at? not that anyone cares or asked. i'm still mentally ill, surprise surprise, still living with my mom and sister (unbearable), still a cat mom to four little kitties (although i don't think i've mentioned much of this before). i've been in a great, loving, caring, healthy relationship with a marvelous man for a year and a month next month! that's going greeeeeaaaattt despite the very regular, very normal bumps in the road that come with being in a relationship with another whole human being with thoughts and feelings of their own. i have no idea how people expect for things to go extremely 100% perfectly in relationships, honestly. it *should* feel like a fairytale, but come ON girly, you understand a good plot has a bit more to that, right? right? anyway, i am so in love. sooooo happy with him.

for those wondering i'm saturn, a 21y/o she/they boss kween pussy gwirl. i'm upset that i still live with my family because bf & i (oh yeah, i'm in a str8 relationship) wanna live together soon and it's just really uncomfortable living with my family because 1) money is very tight and i am expected to go DoorDash-ing to pay for my car payment (which i have accepted to do, but i don't have a job or steady income, and asking my dad [who abandoned my family years ago for some hussy from ohio]) for money isn't always easy. so like, i'm using the very little money i do have from both him and from leftover financial aid for college (i'm about to finish after this summer) to pay for my own gas so that i can drive and waste the gas so that i can make money, in which all of it will go to my mom for my car, the car which i will drive again and again to pay this bill. I'M HIGHLY CAFFEINATED RIGHT NOW.

so here i am, bf working job at my college, we're sharing a car, he's living with me, we're living with my mom and sister--OH WHOOPS I DIDN'T FINISH SAYING WHY I HATE LIVING HERE--2) every time i cook something my sister (she's seventeen y'all) peeps into the pot/pan and looks back at either me or bf to make us feel bad (istg she's manipulative but she's bad at it). she won't attempt to cook anything else other than instant ramen or mac n cheese, not even scrambled eggs (she used to make herself eggs tho, she's just fkn lazy), and i cook for me and my boyfriend, sometimes just me, sometimes just him, point is i cook and i use the groceries that EYEEE BUY WITH MEEYYYEEE MONEY (and bf's money bc he lives w me so he likes to help) and she just fkn acts like a starving alley cat every time i'm cooking. she'll like walk in and sigh, and "look through the cabinets" bitch pleeeaaaassseee, anyway whatever. seventeen years old and can't even make a breakfast taco, girl's about to get out of high school and wants a job just so that she can have money to buy anime shit. BRO FUCK THAT, she doesn't even properly take care of the big beautiful ass husky her friend gave her. the hallway is ALWAYS smelling like shit and i have to live w that. i have four (4) cats and my room doesn't even get that bad.

my mom and i can't even have a conversation anymore. we just argue and she's there comparing me to my dad when i call her out on her bullshit. like i'm the eldest daughter in a hispanic household with no father, divorced parents, no job, hardly any money at all, using what money i can for cat food and cat litter and gas and sometimes groceries if we really need them and the food stamps haven't come in... like perhaps i have it better than some people. perhaps i do. but it's still fucking bullshit dude.

genuinely, i am not trying to make anyone feel bad for me. this is MY tumblr, MY blog post, idowhatiwantwheniwanttomotherfucker. i have depression (thankfully this has not been triggered in a little while), i have general anxiety disorder (which, in my humble opinion, is leaning more towards high-functioning and gets triggered every day), and i have a terrible relationship with food, disordered eating habits, a warped view on my body/body dysmorphia, i have been clean from purging via laxatives for four years and it's a decision i have to make every single day not to let the things that trigger me to tempt me to touch them again, i have just switched therapists bc my first one never was able to help me with my body/food problems. i'm trying. like this is me TRYING. i've been through other things that i simply cannot mention that were traumatizing to me, my body.

i'm still alive though. and yes i do feel like getting out of my house with my boyfriend and my cats will help me a lot. he's saving for his own car, saving for an apartment, i'm getting a job once i finish this final class this summer, then we both will be saving, and i'm excited.

don't know why i threw all of this up but yeh this is where i'm at.

[borathae]

Sibi, I was swooning so much the whole time😍 You couldn't make their first date more perfect. I loved it. And now I want to dive right into it.

So I can straight up say I really like Bratty. She is so straight forward. What a woman. She really cares about Lucky and I am really happy about it. Lucky deserves good friends who always support her. When she threatened Koo, I fully believed her. This woman will crush you if you mess with her.

Koo has handpicked flowers for her please this is so adorable. What a way to start a date. And the effort he made for Lucky. This man knows his dream girl deserves to be wowed. Even if Lucky is a bit overwhelmed. She is used to less so it's understandable on top of that she is trying to be cold. But please Lucky let him shower you in love.

I get the awkwardness at the beginning, this is different than the sex club. They need to get used to it. Furthermore she is really suspicious of the rich in general. She is not easy to impress and everything she despises is in front of her.

Nervous Koo is so cute. He doesn't know what to do with himself. Imagine going on a date with your dream girl. This is your only chance and screwing this up would lead to a lifelong regret.

I love the subtle affection with hand holding throughout the whole chapter.

Bowling is a great idea. It's casual but fun. They can talk and play.

Sibi, I love how you always make sure to set boundaries. Lucky, my woman I love you. A guy should always ask you before he kisses or hugs you. And after a fair share of creeps (those dates Lucky had), it's even more important.

Just imagine you have to fend for yourself the whole time. There was nobody to take care of her except her brother. She has to fend for herself so she knows exactly what to do. Her walls are very thick and it's her way to survive the ugly world she was born into. What a power woman. She has been through so much.

Her teasing is gold. Just imagine them as a couple👀

What makes me so proud is that Koo is sober and can enjoy the date fully. He can experience happiness without alcohol. Another step in the right direction. Koo, you don't need it. It's still a lot of work but he can remember this moment. He knows what to work for.

Can we appreciate their bonding over the smallest things? I can only agree, this is soulmate behavior.

And 80% of the income for the club. They really exploit the situation of the women. They are too poor to say anything against them so they will just silently take it. I hate it.

The chemistry between those two is amazing. Letting go with a person is such a good feeling. They deserve it.

And yes thank you Bunny for speaking the truth. Sex workers deserve the best just like everyone else. It's just a job so stop the disgusting prejudices.

I can't wait for the horror show date. Lucky would have a blast. I really need those 4 dates.

I also noticed as soon as Lucky is being complimented she shuts down. We need to work on that babe.

While being on a date, he is always learning. He asks about for permission to kiss her and is adapting his actions despite being nervous as hell.

The time at the karaoke bar is such a fun one. I am so glad for them.

Eating ice cream in the car while looking at the city is such a dream. I want it too.

In true Jungkook fashion he gets stuck between the seats. I crackled while reading it.

Their honesty with each other is one of their best qualities. Koo and Lucky being allowed to be vulnerable and healing little by little. My eyes are sweating. I love them so much.

I actually love that Koo thought about her. I mean it still hurts but it's the realization he has is so important. That oc ever felt comfortable enough to be with him. But Lucky wants to spend time with him.

I need to quote something from the chapter again. It's just so good. Wow

You rested on the backseat of his car with him because you wanted precious two on two time after growing tired from having to share him with the world.

And the paragraph about Lucky being vulnerable. This is a big step for her. She admits to herself how important he is for her already. (Not sure if she will keep doing that but it's a first). Now she only has to admit it to Koo but all in due time.

I can't emphasize enough how reassuring she is. And I repeat myself but she is the most important factor in his withdrawal.

And his way into addiction is a steady one. Really realistic. Nobody can blame him for it. He just found a way to not feel miserable. And I really don't know how much family cares about him. They seem to caught about in their own shit and don't want to go deeper into it. He seems so lonely.

What's even more heartbreaking is Lucy's story. Her situation is worse than expected. She literally had nobody except her brother. I am even more in awe about her.

Koo is such a gentleman. He really wants to bring her to her apartment. I hate that Lucky felt the need to lie to Koo about her apartment but I can understand. His is a fucking multi-millionar.

And Lucky wants a kiss in the rain too. Gosh, they are so romantic. I really really need them to do this.

Despite the angsty ending (seriously Sibi you love the angst don't you). I am glad she invited him. He is the first one to see it. She must be so embarrassed. But she tries to be open.

Koo is genuine with his intentions. He wants to see her apartment because he wants to know her like no one else does.

You're really evil to end this chapter like this. But I still understand it. Koo doesn't know what to say. He is nervous and chooses the wrong words. And I really don't blame Lucky for lashing out. I am all for eat the rich. But he is still trying his best. He doesn't want to offend her and I really hope they are able to clear this up.

And I really like that Koo calls Lucky out. He knows her and sees right through her actions.

I really don't know how what happens in the next chapter. But I am sure it will be great.

And I wish you a great week Sibi💗 Hopefully uni will go well. Take care of yourself. Lots of love❤️

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My beautiful star, you came through again omfg 😭😭 please catch me crying in the club 😭💜 the way I could relive their date through your review again, I am beYOND SOFT :((

What makes me so proud is that Koo is sober and can enjoy the date fully. He can experience happiness without alcohol. Another step in the right direction. Koo, you don't need it. It's still a lot of work but he can remember this moment. He knows what to work for.

THIS!! LISTEN I AM SO PROUD OF HIM TOO!! HE IS DOING SO WELL :(( I WANT TO SOB

I also noticed as soon as Lucky is being complimented she shuts down. We need to work on that babe.

omgmgm you noticED yes omfmg this is like such a subtle detail I wanted to include, which once again shows just how much she actually struggles when someone shows nice emotions towards her. I'm so happy you noticed that :(

I can't emphasize enough how reassuring she is. And I repeat myself but she is the most important factor in his withdrawal.

:( that's my comment just :(

Honestly your comments are so healing and yet motivating. Seriously thank you so much for always taking so much time out of your day to write them :( I love you so, so much 🥺😔💜💕

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Minseok the Fighter

Minseok was use to watching violence at a young age. His father was the champion of a fighting arena in the city of Harvilye. People from all around come to test their might against him. He taught his son how to fight and defend himself, using everything from a sword, a lance, a mace to even just his bare fists. Pain was usual and it meant you were learning. After one tournament, late into the night when Minseok went to get something to drink, he heard noises come from his father’s room.

Standing over the body of his father was a Pit Fiend. A huge, monstrous devil that belongs to the Nine Hells. Minseok stood there in fear, watching as this pale devil ripped the heart from his father and ate it. Minseok was furious, he ran in, swinging with his fist to the fiend, only for it to swat him away like a fly. It was impressed, letting the poor boy live. He told Minseok that one day, when he’s stronger, they’ll met again. He wants the matching pair of souls, after all.

From there, he trained. One day he would see that thing again. Until then, he got jobs fighting. He gambled, often losing what he won, but he couldn’t stop. The royal guards took interest, telling him if he joins, he’d have a place to live, food to eat and a steady income. He said yes.

Through his will and determination Minseok rose through the ranks until the King, Vyshra, hand picked him to be his personal protector. He went with the king everywhere. From other countries to other planes, his skill grew. He was earning enough that it didn’t even matter if he was constantly losing it playing cards.

One day, a Goliath came to town. They usually avoid cities as there is enough people to kill them, but this one was in mortal danger. Minseok took a liking to him, and pleaded with the King to help the poor soul. He was beaten, and without a Royal cleric, he would probably die. The king refused.

So Minseok left. He removed his king’s guard armor and left, helping the Goliath the best he could. The Goliath said his name was Kyungsoo, part of a tribe who was passing by. After a day, Minseok found a lower level cleric named Jongin, but by the time they got back, the Goliath was dead. Minseok was broken, asking the cleric if he knew spells to bring someone back, but he didn’t. Most clerics that do in the city are all part of the Royal circle, and won’t do such to an outsider of the city.

Minseok hear rumors of a Paladin and Druid who would come and go, hearing that they were here doing things for the Hell’s Horrors. He spent days looking for them, and then found them. He begged, asking for them to help. The druid nodded, looking at the paladin and saying he can do something.

Minseok doesn’t understand magic very well, but what he witnessed was something he’ll never forget. The druid cast reincarnation, and the person who was a Goliath was now an elf. Kyungsoo was alive and breathing.

Minseok learned that the young Druid’s name was Yixing, and the person he was with was Junmyeon. Minseok swore his life to the druid, telling him he would do anything to pay him back. Yixing smiled, patting him on the head before asking if there are any gardens. He was an odd one.

From there, they traveled together, the five of them. Later on, the five became nine and their adventure became even grander.

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Although Denise Richards and ex-husband Charlie Sheen are in the middle of an ongoing child support battle, the Real Housewives of Beverly Hills star doesn’t want their disagreements to negatively impact the relationship he has with their daughters.

On Wednesday night’s episode of the Bravo reality series, Denise opened up about her problems with Charlie, with whom she shares daughters Sami, 16, and Lola, 14. (She is also mom to daughter Eloise, 8, whom she adopted in 2011.)

Denise, 49, returned from New York City, where she attended and walked in Kyle Richards’ New York Fashion Week show along with her fellow Housewives. Back home, she updated husband Aaron Phypers about her trip, during which she learned that Charlie, 54, had responded publicly to her allegations that he owed $450,000 in child support.

“So, in New York, Charlie said something publicly about the document that I was court-ordered to file,” Denise told Aaron.

Referencing Charlie’s statement, in which he called his ex a “coward,” Denise asked Aaron, “A coward for what?”

“I had to file something for his filing,” she told Aaron, who added, “He filed and you had to like file an answer because he filed.”

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In August 2018, the actor filed requests to modify his child support payments to Denise and third ex-wife Brooke Mueller, claiming he couldn’t afford to make his monthly payments because he’s “been unable to find steady work, and been blacklisted from many aspects of the entertainment industry.” A little over a year later, Denise filed an income and expense declaration regarding his request, alleging that Charlie owed her $450,000 in child support. She claimed that Charlie “squandered over $24,000,000 from the sale in his interest in Two and a Half Men to pay his personal debts and to support his extravagant lifestyle at the expense of support payments for his children. During the time frame since our last stipulation/order in 2016 he has failed to pay $450,000 in support while diverting over $600,000 in assets to adult family members and converting thousands of dollars into cash for his own personal use.”

At the time, Charlie and Denise’s reps did not respond to PEOPLE’s requests for comment, though Charlie issued a statement to The Blast saying his “day in court is painfully overdue” and “the truth will prevail.”

In a confessional on RHOBH, Denise said, “I’m not going after child support. I did not file saying he hasn’t paid me. I wasn’t going to say a word. He’s the one that filed saying he didn’t want to pay me at all, even though he hasn’t paid me for quite some time now.”

Despite her hope to avoid court, Denise told Aaron, “So now I have a hearing set for November. But, I do not want to go through all of that. I just don’t. ‘Cause it’s not just a one-time thing where you just show up to court. It’s like an ongoing thing where you can have depositions, declarations from different people. And that’s something, you know, the girls are going to be able to hear.”

“I know you want to protect them,” said Aaron, 47.

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“If he doesn’t want to pay child support, that’s on him. But it would be nice to not say anything negative about me with the kids that hear about it,” she told her husband.

Denise and Charlie first met while shooting the movie Good Advice in 2000, but it wasn’t until the actress guest-starred on Charlie’s former sitcom Spin City in the fall of 2001 that a romance began to blossom. They married in June 2002. But by March 2005, it was over, with Denise filing for divorce while Charlie was in the midst of a drug and alcohol relapse.

When Denise left Charlie, she was six months pregnant with daughter Lola.

Last season on RHOBH, Denise said that she did not take half of Charlie’s money during the divorce, despite not having a prenuptial agreement. “Charlie and I didn’t have a prenup when we got married and when we got divorced, I could have asked for half of what he made,” Denise said in a confessional during the season. “And I did not, because I ain’t a greedy f—— whore.”

In a confessional on Wednesday’s episode, Denise admitted, “There’s a lot that the kids don’t know about their dad and I want to keep it that way.”

But in spite of the ongoing drama that Denise has experienced with Charlie, she’s chosen to not engage in negative commentary about the father of her two eldest daughters.

“Even though he’s Charlie Sheen, that is still to them their dad,” she continued. “I never talk badly about him and I want him to be part of their lives because I met a lot of the women that Charlie entertained and a lot of them had father-daughter issues. And I do not want that to be our girls.”

Also during the episode, Denise underwent surgery to have hernias removed after experiencing pain for at least a year.

Ahead of her procedure, while driving with Aaron to the operation, Denise expressed her fears about going under the knife.

“I don’t know why I’m so nervous going under. Obviously I was put under having my implants put in years ago, but being put under after having kids, I feel weird about it,” she told her husband. “God forbid something happens. I don’t want to leave them. I’m not ready.”

“S— does happen. I mean, there are f—ing mistakes,” she said. “I just don’t want to be a mistake today.”

“I think at this point where they are in their life, they still need their mom. And, you know, these are very tender ages and they’re influenced by so many different things,” Denise said in a confessional. “I want to make sure my kids are safe and that they’ll make good choices.”

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Following the surgery, Denise and Aaron stayed in a hotel, where she talked to daughter Sami on the phone.

“Everything went really good,” Denise told Sami. “They had to do a double hernia.”

“Why?” asked Sami.

“Because it was on the other side too,” the RHOBH star explained. “The surgery was longer and they had to give me more stuff.”

“Probably the best sleep of your life you’re ever going to get,” Sami told her mom.

“Thank you,” Denise said with a laugh. “And you’re going to Dad’s?”

“I’m already at Dad’s,” Sami said about staying with Charlie. “We watched Lola’s volleyball game.”

Wrapping their call, Sami said, “I’m glad the surgery went well.”

“Thanks honey. I love you,” said Denise.

“I love you too. Goodnight,” said Sami.

Later, while reflecting on the procedure, Denise admitted that “my surgery was much more invasive than I thought. It was six hours — not an hour to an hour-and-a-half.”

“I had four hernias, not one,” she explained.

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Aaron cared for her throughout her recovery, and Denise admitted that learning to receive and accept her husband’s acts of service has “been an adjustment.”

“My mom raised my sister and I: never depend on a man. It’s been an adjustment having my husband want to take care of me because I’m so used to taking care of everyone else,” Denise said in a confessional.

“Thank God I have a man that truly loves me, loves my kids and has my back,” she said about Aaron, who she wed in September 2018. “And, he still has that big d—.”

The Real Housewives of Beverly Hills airs Wednesdays (8 p.m. ET) on Bravo.

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