#which is so embarrassing bc I barely break 30hrs on a good week but I hateeee working I'm sick I'm over it just let me live

[katamarei]

man. I feel so terrible bc I keep buying stupid shit that I want but don't need and the only reason I can even afford to do that is bcmy mom is still helping me w my bills. and I've been meaning to offer to take over some of that stuff but I'm also trying to save for this trip and I don't wanna like. overcommit I guess. but the thing is I'm still spending a lot of money on dumb stuff even with the trip saving so like I literally CAN afford it but the weird little voice in my head is like 'ok but what if you CAN'T' and. idk. I decided I'd wait til after the trip to talk to her abt it but I feel so badddddd like everytime I buy something I don't 10000% need but its also not enough to actually stop me from buying this shit.. I just wind up with silly things I feel bad about