#when you see an abusive person playing an abusive character lmfao

[mourninglamby]

god it's so nice to see your takes on things genuinely

As flawed as it is, i think dsmp is still an incredibly interesting and unique narrative about abuse, how it affects different people, and how it's spread and normalised. It's not a satisfying or clean narrative by any means, but i still think that it approaches its themes in a way that's fundamentally different than any other form of media and it's still worth it to spend time analysing it.

i don't know if the fact that actual abusers worked on it has anything to do with it (i would hazard a guess and say yes, but i digress), but oftentimes it genuinely feels like a look into the internal machinations of abusers, and i think it can make people more aware of the warning signs. and good analysis is the #1 way to actually bring that lesson to the surface, since the story wasn't written with that moral in mind but just stumbled onto it.

so, thank you for giving this smpand its story the time of day, i think that it's genuinely something that's worth doing and it's nice to see someone put themselves out there like you do (since i know how a lot of fans are), have a lovely day!

Ugh this is all worded soooo perfectly. This story is truly the most unique look into abuse and it never even used to word …….forgive the long tangent I’m about to go on but it’s important!! I know there is a bigger conversation to be had, particularly about the meta and the way Tommy played ctommy/how he interacted with the adults on the server, which greatly influenced the delivery of the abuse plotline. Tom Simons played Ctommy epistemologically, so the characters’ knowledge, for the most part, extended only as far as his did. Which created a devastating story ! Especially concerning cwilbur!

I wanna actually talk abt how the word “abuse” was never used, despite it permeating thru the entire narrative. This was on purpose of course. Tommy The Guy was 16. His outlook on abuse and the nuances of it likely weren’t developed enough for him to ever really understand what was happening to his character until it was too late. And in that vein, Clayton Ray Huff and william gold also didn’t think harder about the harm they caused not just Tommy, but everyone else they hurt irl. And I’ll never forget Tommy’s cry for justice before that HORRIBLE ending, saying in his twitch chat that “cdream drove ctommy to suicide!” Or when he told his chat they were Also being manipulated by c!dream, after his first prison visit. It’s so complicated and so difficult to talk about, but it’s absolutely necessary when the story itself never really…. Understood the topic it was portraying. The level of abuse apologism and victim blaming present in this fanbase had such an awful effect on me and my friends, and again, that was intentional. Send the audience they curated to silence any conversation that might allude to blaring red flags. BUT! I’m in a better headspace to discuss the intricacies of its harm and how it failed, and simultaneously investigate how it managed to be so Real.

As for the story being written by a handful of actual abusers … well……. It’s no wonder it ended like a punch to the throat. Absolute horse shit spun from the mouths of men who know what they are, and want to keep being that way. Wilbur thinks he can just Leave for a while and everything would go back to normal. Dream thought he could Start Over so that no ACTUAL consequences would ever reach him. They learn NOTHING because they don’t believe they have to. It’s sick. But it’s always necessary to remember when analyzing the train wreck of an ending both men concocted. Dsmp failed as damage control because they played abusers in that story too. And abusers don’t think they’ve done anything wrong. Completely incapable of introspection.

Okay I’ve talked enough lmfao but . I’m rly thankful I get to receive anons like this … I do not think I’m the smartest person by a long shot and seeing other people articulate these thoughts and introduce me to new things has been very healing and validating. It’s much better than the ppl who would flat out deny it or harass me lol.

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hi i love ur writing!!! can u maybe do a fnaf sb kink/fetish headcanon thing? all characters pls 🥹🤍

OH MY GOD??????⁉️⁉️⁉️

DOING IT RN YES???⁉️⁉️⁉️

i’m going to try my best to put EVERY detail i possibly can in this and explain as much as I can, just give you guys a feast LMFAO.

FNAF SB CHARACTER KINK HEADCANONS (NSFW)

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GLAMROCK FREDDY

-fuck, y’all…

-i think he’s the most inexperienced of them all, but once you get him started, he knows EXACTLY what he’s doing for some reason. he just does it all right, and so good too???

- he’s oddly always horny though, but feels embarrassed when he does stuff to himself, and honestly isn’t a big fan of it

-he’s the sweetest in bed and mostly vanilla, but if you tell him what you’re into, he’ll immediately like it and do whatever you ask, he’s here to please you

-this even includes being nasty, mean, degrading you, surprisingly

-as much as y’all might roll your eyes at this next hc…uhm he be rolling his eyes back when you call him daddy, let’s be fr.

-he loves the idea of his “father figure” personality turning to a sexual thing as well and getting someone off.

-if you have daddy issues, freddy fazfuck is here to help.

-he loves being called daddy and seen as superior or in charge, never in an abuse of power kinda way, but a protective way, even though the idea does get him off.

-he loves receiving oral SO much, just watching the way his cock disappears behind your lips, he finds it so beautiful to look at.

-he finds you so beautiful to look at

-he also loves playing with your hair (platonic or romantic), like when cuddling, or holding it back prettily as you suck him off

-he’s obsessed with the noises you make, he loves hearing you moan for his cock, especially when you get so loud he’s forced to see the sight of your mouth being covered by his large hand.

-also he’s not the biggest possessive or jealous type, but he can’t lie and say he has never thought of possibly the others hearing you scream “daddy!” loud and clear from his greenroom.

-the vibrations of your moans on his larger hand almost makes him go completely feral, but he manages to keep his composure.

-he’s not very loud himself, but he does a lot of praise of how good it feels and he’s more of a talker

-telling you how well you’re taking him, calling you pretty names, always making you feel good

-“my pretty superstar, taking daddy so well…such a good girl”

-he’s does kinda grunt a lot though, he mostly just holds back on his noises so he could hear you

-he’s all top, you’ll never see him as a bottom and i don’t think you guys want that anyway

-you’d rather be calling him daddy as his fazcock stretches ur fazpussy

-he WILL beg you to ride him though, he’s obsessed with you in his lap, up and down on him, the way your hips move. reverse cowgirl is good too, still gives a great view of your hips.

-he loves your hips, GOD, he loves your hips.

-did i say he loves your hips?

-grabbing them with his big hands while you ride him, feeling you move and leading you as you take him.

-definitely a thighs kinda guy. hips and thighs.

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GLAMROCK CHICA

-OKAY UHM.

-i feel like she comes off all cute, girly and innocent and everything, but she’s into A LOT.

-and they’re “weird”, maybe even taboo.

-cunnilingus at its finest, she’s in love with women, even tho i hc she’s pansexual.

-she’s also a switch but more of a massive top.

-she loves when you can surprise her sometimes and be top, she finds it so amusing, but will slowly melt if you keep going, letting you take control.

-LOVES BOOBS

-she’s so fun during sex though, she giggles a lot and jokes around, it’s the best when you can fuck, laugh, and fuck again like nothing happened.

-with her love for eating, and food, and her being used for food representation for literally ever, i have this small (reallybig) idea that she’s indulged in the feederism community to a degree.

-i just have a feeling she loves the idea of getting you drunken and sleepy on eating a lot, then fucking you all drowsy.

-this goes for aftercare too, she also loves just snacking a lot with you or even feeding you, giving you snacks to try etc.

-this also goes for her obsession with squeezing all the right places (like her loving boobs, she’ll squeeze them constantly) but even with thighs or hips/waist, like love handles, or if you have the cutest tummy. she loves tummies.

-the idea of you begging her to let you finish, omg, she’s so into edging she’ll keep you going all night.

-she praises alot though, loves calling you “good girl/boy”, telling you how good you’re holding up for her, as it’s been almost 2 hrs of edging

-she just loves admiring you while she makes you feel good

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ROXANNE WOLF

-100% top, don’t fight me, im right.

-and she’s a lesbian LOL she loves pussy

-loves calling you pup, read my roxy smut RN.

-needs you to be begging for it.

-absolutely needs to be doggy style, no pun intended, she’s such an ass person, she has to see that RECOIL.

-rough as fuck, hard, fast, animalistic thrusts.

-she loves when your brain cannot keep up, she’ll call you her braindead little bitch.

-as you can see, she’s into degrading. her praise is extremely limited during sex, it’s very rare and when/if it does come out, it needs to be taken lightly, it’s all false sympathy.

-even though she’s extremely degrading to you, she needs you to praise her during sex. has you telling her how well she’s doing, how good she feels, who you belong to, etc.

-“tell me i’m the best, say it, now, filthy bitch” “you’re the best, you feel so good, fuck!”, “more please, im all yours! I belong to you!”

-“and this pretty pussy belongs to who? tell me, pathetic pup” “you! it’s all yours, roxy!”

-aftercare is very different, she uses sex to be absolutely disgusting to you, but she will do ANYTHING for you after sex to make you feel like a queen, she’s the sweetest and most caring ever.

-she knows that you know she means nothing she says to you during sex.

-she has every single toy you could think of, she’s a huge toy person. she probably has like 5 different sets of strapons and 20 different dildos.

-loves when you wear a remote control vibrator during a show and she can see you squirming right in the front row as she controls it, how you watch her perform, begging her with your eyes to either stop, or make you cum already.

-uhm she shows off a lot so she’ll leave marks all over you, more than likely using her teeth on your neck, so others know you belong to her and they know who’s marks they are.

-she’s not into choking much (unless you are), she’s more into grabbing a fistfull of your hair and pulling your head back while plowing you from behind. she needs you to arch your back inhumanely just for her.

-although, ironic, she does have a collar and a leash which is the closest you’ll get to being choked by her, using this is convenient since you’re more often going from behind. she loves the control.

-also never pull her hair. ever.

-she’s extremely possessive, she would never want to share you. you’re hers and only hers. don’t ever talk about being poly or having threesomes or anything. chicas joked about it before and roxy almost ripped her beak off. she’d never let chica join, or anyone for that matter. you’re hers.

-so she’d be more than happy to let anyone else watch her pound what belongs to her, and dream.

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MONTGOMERY GATOR

-lord help me.

-prepare to be destroyed, just like his greenroom.

-he’s so into the idea of seeing how big he is inside you. like

-tummy bulge>>>>> ,uhm yes

-will fuck and overstimulate you into a screaming mess, he wants you to make a mess of yourself

-he’s into bodily fluids and stuff, i don’t even know if i should say it all bc i’m sure you know, but he wants you to let it ALL out. make a mess of everything, everywhere. and he’ll fuck you until it all comes out.

-and just like roxy, he’s also mean during sex, and degrades alot. he’s not as nice as roxy during the aftercare though, but he still cares alot. he’s big and scary but can be a big baby at times.

-he’s into noncon, also somnophilia, just the idea of taking advantage of someone so little like you.

-this includes size kink too, he loves how small you are compared to him.

-face fucking and head pushing !!!

-all of this is also ofc WITH CONSENT he’s really not actually an asshole, he’s respectful.

-he’s the type that would have a threesome, probably with roxy, the idea of both of them using you like that has him feral. (roxy only agreeing to this in a world where you’re montys and not hers, cuz again, she’d never share you)

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SUN/MOON

-sun is submissive, moon is dominant, im just gonna start with that obvious point.

-sun is a begger 100%, and is always looking for attention, doesn’t matter how, but he will beg.

-SO good at finger fucking (it’s like the only thing he could rlly do tho, he can’t eat you)

-his slender fingers just curl and reach all the right places, and he loves praising.

-but his praise is a lil scary, it’s like overly happy praising, he’ll just be in complete awe constantly, thanking you over and over again for the experience and letting him touch you.

-lots of moaning, he’s so loud and won’t shut up.

-he loves when you take control and tell him what to do to you, yknow?

-also uhm call him a good boy for doing what you asked and see what happens.

-“put them in, now curl them-yeah, like that, good boy, sun, good boy”

-he’ll melt completely, he’ll giggle uncontrollably, his wires and gears clicking and twitching in excitement as you ride his fingers.

-he cannot ever keep his hands to himself like he’s always gotta be touching you, he’s OBSESSED.

-definitely obsessive type, clingy asf

-MOON, OKAY SWITCH THE PERSONALITY.

-some of sun is still the same with moon, like moon is definitely also OBSESSEDOBSESSEDOBSESSED with you.

-(like monty) somnophilia, next.

-this includes getting himself off to you asleep^ (consensually ofc)

-also good with fingers, same as sun, although is more driven by the look of the mess you’ve left on his fingers.

-always fascinated by seeing how many he can fit and how much he can stretch you out. and he thinks you’re so pretty down there, he’s a starer.

-he would most definitely try and keep an item of your clothing and always smell it, your scent never failing to get him off.

-into praise degradation, like calling you pretty, followed by something derogatory.

-his fingers, like i’ve mentioned, you’re both obsessed with them, not only when he fingers you, but he’s so into sticking them in your mouth and gagging you with them.

-fucking you in missionary, he loves watching your tongue swirl around his fingers, and when you suck on them

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DJMM

-this is so funny i even have to say this but he loves having music on when having sex, there has to be music

-I also feel like you can never tell when he’s being jokingly flirty with you, or if he’s genuinely trying to be suggestive and serious.

-because he jokingly flirts all the time, this is the reason you have every word to “Careless Whisper” memorized, he loves randomly playing it to be a goof.

-because of how big he is, there’s an obvious size kink, but he’s extremely gentle with you. not like monty’s size kink and the idea of taking advantage of someone so small, his is more like in a cute way, taking care of you, ur so itty bitty.

-I saw this around and on other posts before and i cannot help but agree that since he’s much bigger there’s not much he can do, but so his whole body vibrates? like when you play music so loud in a car, the sound waves and bass makes the car shake and vibrate. yeah like that so uh, he finds great pleasure in watching you rut on his finger as he’s vibrating.

-he loves this so much, he’ll even start messing with you by pausing and playing the music to fuck with the vibrations

-almost like edging you, honestly

-he’ll do whatever it takes to prolong your finish, just so he could keep watching you come undone

-the way your tiny body bounces and rubs against literally any part of him to get off.

-watching this, he gets a great view of your boobs.

-since he can’t really touch you or do a lot to you, he loves when you put on a little show for him while you use his vibrating body.

-making faces, fixing your hair, changing positions, all because he’s watching. he loves to just watch you.

-also uhm he calls you beautiful nonstop???? his fav word to use for you

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VANNY/VANESSA

-so vanny and vanessa i find different, almost like sun and moon but obviously vanessa is a person.

-i’ll start with vanny.

-vanny is very dominant, very cocky more than confident.

-vanny does not like being vulnerable at all, so she’ll always take control. this is because i feel vanessa uses vanny to be someone who’s stronger and better than how insecure she actually is, for explanation.

-during sex she refuses to take off her mask, but she’ll take off the rest of her outfit.

-with women, scissoring is a favorite. but she has to be on top, she has to be the one putting the pressure on you, thrusting into you, just be on top.

-more catering towards men (also women if strapon) she likes to ride if it means she’s still in that control.

-just, do not let her on the bottom.

-same goes for handjob (not blow since she refuses to take off her mask), she wants you to be a whining, crying mess for her to let you finish.

-so she’s literally the type of person to listen to whimpering and whining audios of guys LOL.

-same girl.

-huge tease too, she’ll make you actually feel shitty, but if you’re into that then you’ll like it in the moment, so who cares?

-big fan of JOI, she loves to just be bossy and tell you what to do. she’ll never let you take charge.

-also she’ll choke the shit out of you, way into choking/breath play, anything to have you lightheaded and gasping

-also if you ask her, she’ll tie you up too. more into handcuffs though secretly, since vanessa is a security guard type thing.

-so, yeah, vanessa now, uhm

-officer vanessa I-

-I believe you are a switch

-going for vanessa now, i think she’s still got some top in her if you get her riled up enough, she can definitely be a hot dom.

-maybe if you tease her when she’s had a bad day at work or in a bad mood in general, that’s when you’ll get dom vanessa

-and she’d love to be called mommy, oh lord, try that out.

-but that also goes for when she’s a bottom, she’ll whine and cry, “mommy! mommy…”.

-she’s very into oral too, more so into receiving, when it comes to girls

-when it comes to guys though, she’ll be on her knees, she is the headmaster (lol get it? head? master? yeaaahashahahah…)

-she’s like scarily good at giving head

-other than that, she’s quite vanilla, honestly

-she does like a little praise too, like calling her pretty and things like that, telling her how good she feels

-maybe a hair tug here and there

-also possibly the occasional security guard roleplay into sex

I HOPE THESE WERE GOOD‼️‼️

I tried to add as many characters as I could think of, but if there are any you guys would want to see specifically, just let me know!!

I like doing nsfw hcs LOL

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Could you do a Billy Loomis x Mommy issues! F!Reader? The readers moms a narcissist and mentally and emotionally abusive. The reader is unimaginably touch starved too? I just need some headcannons bc ✨coping✨ lmfao

Billy Loomis x MommyIssues!Reader Headcanons

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• Billy is going to seem very sympathetic when he finds out about your problems and the relationship you have with your mother, but he’s definitely putting it on. He’s mainly listening to get to know what weaknesses you have and how he can use them against you with a caring front. He’s pretty good at keeping this act up, and will still do it even if he cares about you genuinely in any way.

• After listening to you for quite a while, and maybe even seeing for himself where the problems are coming from surrounding your mother, he will use them as a way to get closer to you. He makes you feel sympathetic for him by playing on your problems while still keeping up the act of a person with good intentions, but he does also realise that he can manipulate you more and more as time goes on.

• Billy doesn’t want you around your mother more than you need to be, and go out of his way to convince you to go against what she wants. He refuses to have anyone else having possible control over you, no matter how much they demand it, so any time you give in to your mothers wishes out of fear or whatever other reasons she may use against you, it will make him incredibly angry and it may show you a glimpse of his anger problems.

• He’d use his influence over you to convince you to join his plans, manipulating you into aiding him without you even realising at first, or realising once it’s too late. Because he’s found you in a vulnerable position, he knows exactly how to get you to do what he wants while making you think that he’s genuinely there for you and being kind, even if his plans are absolutely cruel and morbid in some ways.

• He’ll definitely inflict at least one of his plans against your mother, and we certainly know that he isn’t opposed to inflicting violence or even killing people he wants to get rid of. By doing this, he’d want you completely reliant on him, unable to get away from him since he’s now dealt with your mother for how she treated you while also making sure you can’t expose him for what he does.

• Billy has a lot of issues surrounding maternal figures himself, so he tries to make you feel as if you both have a connection based on this, even if it is a distant one. No matter what problem you tell him, he will find a way to twist it and make it about himself, almost hoping that you’ll see the him as the one that understands you the most.

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I HAVE A NICKNAME HELLS YEA I’m using that on AO3 now lmfao

That answer is literally the cutest thing ever I could scream I love it so much

I love the fact that no one is aware of Vox’s actual ranking and the fact that Vox has no idea how much they actually like him. Do you think they, the sins, would ever petition for him to get to go to other rings? Especially since the sinners are put at the top ring to be easier to exterminate and they might wanna avoid that? Maybe they just try for at least a day trip? I can’t imagine it would be easy especially since Lucifer isn’t the most fond of him but I also imagine he wouldn’t break the rules, if it’s in his power, just for one sinner anyways

But also awwwwww I’d love to hear more about what each sin thinks- even if we haven’t met some yet. If you have time/feel like it of coarse! I’m just very curious and love this little universe 👀

I got an image in my head of Ozz as that meme with the guy holding the sword and the cat with the cat being Vox 😂😂 as an artist I feel contractually obligated to make that a thing now wait a minute-

I'm glad to hear you like the nickname 😭 I thought Obby was fitting for some strange reason

The sins want Vox to be able to visit other rings, but they're been unsuccessful in find a way to let him pass through the boundaries. They've never had a sinner like Vox before so they don't know which way they're supposed to go. Does he need special permission from everyone? Just Lucifer? From the whole Royal family or some type of blood sacrifice?

The reason they haven't really put in the effort yet is because Vox hasn't really expressed interest in travelling the other rings. They don't know that Vox isn't aware of his status , so they assume that he's content where he is. Vox, on the other hand, is very interested in exploring the other rings, but he assumes he isn't allowed too and he doesn't want to ask just in case it would be viewed as disrespectful

Once Vox discovers his high ranking, he will actually explore the other rings of Hell to see how his power is holding up and if he needs to change things. VoxTech would expand to the other regions, and Vox would supply jobs to the hellborn sinners. They would be under Vox's protection too- so the likelihood of them being injured or killed by others gets lowered. Papermint would also get an exception as Vox's assistant, but he would only be allowed to travel with Vox or with written approval from Vox

As for the sins!

Mammon views Vox as potential for money. Vox is incredibly rich and knows how to play into people's wants and desires to fuel his own powers and needs so Mammon respect him, but doesn't like him because Mammon things he should be the only one who is rich and in charge of people's money. Mammon doesn't mind Vox as a person. He views him as a cash cow, though, and wants to exploit Vox like a mini-attraction.

Levi likes Vox because Vox likes sea creatures and respects the creatures. When Levi discovered that Vox's favourite animal was a shark- he knew what he had to do. He created Vark by hand specifically for Vox, but also as a creature who could stand on his own in case Vox turned out to be abusive towards animals. When Vox brought Vark to the next meeting, Levi was pleased to see how well cared for the shark was and how much Vark loved Vox- it became clear to Levi that Vox was someone who deserved his powers and the pet. He likes to see Vox get jealous or possessive because he finds it humorous, and he sees himself in Vox. He uses Vark as a means of measuring Vox as a person since Vark is an excellent judgement of character.

Ozzy relies a lot on Vox for his factories, but he doesn't try to take advantage of Vox's powers. He likes Vox as a person and finds him rather charming and witty. Ozzy respects Vox as a businessman and appreciates how much Vox cares for his employees. They never talk about sex with one another because Vox gets uncomfortable quickly- but Ozzy knows about Vox's partner, and he can tell that the relationship isn't the best, but he's unaware of how bad it was. When Vox starts to date Alastor, it's a huge shift in personality and change, and Ozzy does get a bit sad because it becomes obvious to him that Vox was being abused and he blames himself for not noticing. He could sense a huge lack of lust rolling off of Vox but just fought he may not have been the most sexual. Ozzy knows now that there was a huge lack of consent, but he never brings it up to keep Vox feeling secure

Bee and Vox get along the best because they're both pretty outgoing. Vox does have some anxiety and can be bad at socializing. Bee finds him rather endearing and likes to hang out with him. Vox gets along pretty well with Bee's boyfriend, too, and the trio likes to have lunch together during the meetings. Vox supplies Bee with all the power she needs because she has helped him the most and was always there to comfort him when he needed it. Bee knew of Vox's relationship with Val, but she was asked to keep it private, and she respected his wish. Bee and Vox both like sweets, too, and sometimes Bee would bake goodies for Vox to try. Sometimes they're drugged, and sometimes they're not. After Vox starts dating Alastor- he tells her no more drugged ones- which she also respects

Lucifer finds Vox idiotic and clumsy, but he does like him. He's a firm believer that Vox could do way better than Alastor, but he doesn't meddle with Vox's personal life. Lucifer does his best to make sure that Vox is happy and content because he's worried about power outages all the time. Vox is a great source of anxiety and stress for him, but he doesn't say it outloud. He's the one that eventually tells Vox of his ranking because he finds out first that Vox thinks he's just an 'overlord.' Lucifer is embarrassed that he never told Vox, and eventually Lucifer gives Vox a charm that allows him to travel through the rings. Alastor doesn't like the charm, but he accepts it as a 'work-related item'

Satan and Vox tend to argue a lot because they're both rather hot-headed. Their arguments are usually lighthearted though and the two don't mind each other. They're not exactly friends though

Belph and Vox are mostly friends because of Bee, but they can hang out and socialize without Bee. They like to nap together sometimes, and Belph doesn't mind sharing her drugs with Vox.

I don't know a lot of Belph and Satan so sorry for the shitty explanation! As I come up with more I'll expand on it

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 Dissecting Character Scenes: Billy Hargrove

*I say that like he’s not the only character I analyze lmfao- anyway* 

His Hand Movements

The above movement is what I do when: 

I’m nervous. For one, it helps me calm down. Since anxiety is essentially unwanted energy, it helps deal with me being an overcharged energizer bunny by using that energy in a non-harmful way. 

I get too in my head, and I need to ground myself.

I’m thinking.

I’m about to talk to someone or do something. When you overthink, or when you have a lot on your mind, even talking to people is something you feel like you need some preparation for. Especially when you’re in a completely different environment, and you have to start over. 

I need to remember something, like the “script”. What am I going to say to Person A? What are they going to do? How are they going to respond? How should I respond? These scripts are like mental teleprompters. I play numerous scenarios in my head, and I prepare a bunch of responses to them, whether it’s physical or verbal. It’s an internal peptalk. Sometimes you cancel out the responses that you don’t think will apply, and you zero in on what you’re going with. Needless to say, it takes some time to always do this, which you aren’t always offered. 

When you live with an unpredictable abuser, you’re walking on eggshells. It can require you to apply extreme control over your tone, your volume, your facial expression, and your words. They nitpick at everything you say, so you learn to think before you talk. You have to take a step back somehow, collect yourself, and keep a level head, which is hard in an environment like that. 

The impressions other people have of you can get you in trouble with your abuser. Whether you’re late for a class or you don’t turn in an assignment, the last thing you want is for someone to call your abuser. 

They count on you to mess up somehow, so they have a “justification” to punish you. If you talk back or raise your voice, they can see this as a green light, because they’re making you react. And your reaction, no matter what, will probably piss them off. 

So, thinking things through, including your tone of voice and what comes out of your mouth, are things you tend to pick up in that sort of environment. 

Scene #2

How am I going to handle this? 

That’s what I find myself asking when I find myself in an unknown situation where I need to measure my response. The unknown tends to be borderline suspicious. Sure, living with someone like Neil can make you paranoid, but you’ve got some built in red flags in your court. You pick up things that others may not. To you, it’ll probably be common sense. In this situation, it IS common sense for Billy to be suspicious of Steve. 

Flying off the handle immediately isn’t Billy’s style. It takes a considerable amount of control to even talk to Steve. Neil had shaken him up, and then Billy dealt with Karen. Now he’s having to deal with Steve lying to him about where Max is. But he uses force as a last resort. So much happened to him before this particular scene, that he was most likely a bundle of emotions and anxiety by the time he drove up to the Byers’ house. 

While the audience knew what was going on, Billy didn’t. The fact that he actually tried to talk to Steve shows that he didn’t want for there to be a fight. He just wanted to get Max home. 

“I don’t understand” is quite literally his theme all throughout his life. The entire time he was in Hawkins, he did not understand what was going on. 

@ickypuppi3​ pointed out that he fidgets so much with his fingers, like that scene with Max in the car at school when he’s holding his cigarette. The anxiety really comes through when he’s about to do something.

Scene #3 

Like in this scene, where he’s prepping to face Neil, who’s banging on his door, signaling that he’s in a hotheaded mood. How Neil’s “temperature” is will indicate what Billy’s reaction will be. Here, he has to face Neil’s heat with as much of a cool head as he can. He also knows that no matter what he does, Neil will blow a gasket. 

GIF credit to @suledins

[do-you-know-this-queer-character]

hey i noticed an anon mentioned submitting a lot of arcana characters and i wanted to pop in to say that that game is a racist, fetishizing mess. not only do they have a brown character who is kept literally in chains and is a vessel for one of the writers’ thinly veiled bucky barnes slavery kink, one of the bad endings features their fantasy-jewish-coded character turning into a literal bird, not to mention his numerous bird motifs.

between asra, nadia, and julian, asra and nadia are clearly more sexualized throughout the course of the game, even when fans have asked them to tone it down and stop fetishizing their “exotic” brown characters.

the fandom is and has been historically overwhelmingly hostile to fans/people of color who try to mention these problems. fans of color trying to dissuade people from writing nadia as a step on me dommy mommy queen have been shut down by elle trying to spin it into a “women can be dommes too!” issue, when the problem is that nobody would be treating nadia like this if she was white. asra gets his paid scenes hijacked by the white LI and then is painted as the toxic one in his and julian’s relationship (of which is only there due to elle’s mlm abuse fetishization) because god forbid their favorite white boy isn’t a perpetual victim.

outside of the game itself, dana rune has run a fanzine about an incestuous fire emblem fates ship (corrin/ryoma/xander) and further information can be found at the relations_zine handle on twitter. she may have scrubbed her name from it but it’s clearly her art style lmfao, and iirc she’s still in the followers/following list on that account. elle has a long history of fetishizing mlm abuse/slavery/“yaoi” on their tumblr that they’ve since deleted, but like. i googled “elle thalassiq fetishizing mlm” and immediately found posts with thorough screenshots so it existed lmfao. and even if it didn’t, it’s very evident with how they treat asra/julian/muriel.

this is heated and not thorough, but i’d like to end this by saying that this is coming from a former fan who eventually had to leave the game and fandom altogether because of the compounded issues that were never addressed, brushed under the rug, or actively encouraged time and time again. do not play the arcana. there are better games out there. and the last i was in it, the fandom was a toxic cesspool that would attack anyone, especially fans of color, who ever voiced a dissenting opinion about anything in the game. i hold my queer media to better standards and you should too. this game does not treat dark, heavy topics with respect, it treats them as fetish fodder.

Okay, I figured something like this would hit this blog eventually. The point of this blog is not for me take a stance and say what media is good and what media is bad. I am not brushing off your concerns - that’s a whole lot of awful information, and from me posting your ask, people can make their own choice about wether they want to engage with the game or the fandom. But I am just one person, and I don’t know anything about 90% of the media that is submitted here. If I excluded every piece of media that someone said was below a standard, I wouldn’t have any media left. This blog is simply a recognition game, I’m not trying to promote these pieces of media. I’m not saying that because they have queer characters that they’re fantastic or anything like that. I’m not taking any stance on any of it, actually.

This isn’t about the quality of a media, the quality of a fandom, or the quality of the representation that a character represents. It’s just a recognition game.

I am not going to get into any of these debates myself, since I know almost nothing about most fandoms here, but if you have serious concerns with a particular media posted here, send in an ask like this detailing the problems and I will post it, so that people looking at this blog can see valid criticisms before diving into a new piece of media.

As a further note, racist and antisemetic comments or tags on any post will be blocked on sight.

I will tag all asks like this with “media critical”.

[fiddlepot]

You know guys, I really don't like some fanon interpretations all that much when it comes to kokushibo in specific

ive noticed a lot of the time he's deemed possessive, which is cool and all but the way it's executed will either seem rapey, codependent, or straight up abusive in a "romantic he means well" way. And that's the case for most kny men and i've seen it especially with self inserts in mind, lmfao.

That's not to say that canon-divergent interpretations are invalid. My say isn't the end all be all and it would be straight up ignorant/arrogant to say otherwise, for I am 1. only an adult on paper, and 2. one of billions of people on this big oxygen rock bubble we call planet earth. So.. to whom this may concern, If I don't like it, I don't finish reading it. I'm only complaining because there is a very small amount of content that caters to my tastes on this platform and nothing else.

anyway I'm gonna get rambley now so idk brace yourselves.

When it comes to the topic of possessiveness, especially with Kokushibo, I don't see a lot of people look too deeply into the why. It's just the what, and then behaviors that I personally find confusing. There are a few reasons why the trait "possessive" could work based off of his upbringing at the cost of concerning undertones.

becoming used to or accustomed to humanity again (a lot of ships/x reader works start and end with cracking that shell or finding a catalyst, and so are out of character/canon by default if not handled with that aspect in mind) and not wanting that to be taken away

His inferiority complex stemming from his past with yoriichi, or his childhood being based in who is powerful and most likely to succeed and who isn't

A sense of control and wanting to control (see, wanting to control his fate by becoming a demon or his assertiveness in sustaining the hierarchy)

With this in mind, his behaviors would proooobably, give or take be quite different from stalking since all of these factors are a stretch on their own. Like a lot of other traits he has, this aspect would be multifaceted and multi-layered as well because different factors constitute different lessons to be learned, and therefore different reactions.

Let's start with this: A lot of people forget that Kokushibo didn't grow up around love. We misconstrue Yoriichi's relationship with their mother for Kokushibo going through the same, but it was quite the opposite.

Their father was solely focused on the rate of success and nothing else. If you weren't strong or weren't interested in fighting, you were neglected while your brother received proper training, food, education, and overall treatment. Yoriichi might have been able to better develop emotional intelligence and empathy because he grew up with his mother, who very apparently seemed to care for him a great deal if she gave him a good luck charm while he was thought to be deaf. Kokushibo was never taught this. He saw how his brother was treated and was instead given the message that love and favor was conditional—which is why he was able to make the choice so easily to leave his wife and children when he learned Yori became a demon slayer.

Now factor in him becoming a demon and easily killing thousands in his 400+ year lifespan, and his humanity and capacity for reflection is close to none.

To him, based off of his upbringing alone, hierarchy is order, and control is the path to it. Centuries of serving muzan only adds to that mindset. So it makes sense as to why, as upper 1, he would have the least humanity left—he wasn't looking for love, he was looking for greatness because there was favor to be found in greatness, and power as well. That's why him and Yoriichi butt heads. When yoriichi says fighting to him is pointless and he'd rather play games, Michikatsu finds games stupid because he most likely never had the time for them. Not to mention, having a power as great as his brothers and casting it to the side/deeming it pointless would've pissed him off because strength meant everything if there were rewards to come out of it. It's like seeing someone with extreme wealth go "actually money doesn't buy happiness."

So.. With that part of his psychology in mind, how does it affect his behaviors? I believe he would be "possessive" in a more unconventional way. The message to be received is that sufficient power breeds respect and order. So if we crack the shell of his callousness and allow him room for humanity (much like sanemi did when allowing him to see what a monster he became), what do we have? He won't instantly become healthy. he's been conditioned for centuries to have the mindset he does—what will one moment do to untangle that mess? He's internalized what he's been taught over and over again. No doubt that should be applied to his love life.

Essentially, I think it would take a long ass time for him to "learn" and develop but I've found many people arent willing to explore that side of him. so i will with an upcoming project I'll (for the time being) call "Virtue"

happy new year by the way.

[99centsoda]

sorry for shoving that art i finished in your face over n' over I just don't have a lot of examples of miriam cuz i have these big ideas for art of her and then i have a hard time dong them!

Anyway, this is Miriam, Marion's twin sister, and she has already depicted herself as the calm and calculated and unemotional chad and you as the seething crying screaming wojak. Real talk she is an examination of the person who views emotions as illogical and bad and cynicism is intelligent, particularly a feminist lense on the 'im not emotional, i'm edgy and cynical and dont care about anything and im smarter and my life is better for it' and just the overall 'why girlboss-ism sucks' (cw for child abuse, suicide mention, sexism, substance abuse, and just a general blanket Heavy Stuff)

also this one is a long one, Miriam and her twin have been bouncing in my brain since 2015

The above is a bit of a joke but that boils down to a lot of her character. Miriam is twins with Marion, who I will write more in her own post. They're so interconnected story-wise as foils for each other and all that jazz but this post would be so long and rambly that I'll give them their own.

Marion is transfeminine (nb) and uses both she/he but not they!!

Miriam and Marion Price are fraternal twins to their very wealthy parents who get their dough from back in the days of patent medicine (snake oil salesmen and the like). Miriam was a pageant girl and growing up in that environment and tldr is that their childhood fucked both the twins up in different ways that intersect. Marion was for most of their lives extremely codependent. Their parents played favorites, Miriam was rewarded for participating in socially acceptable femininity while to Marion's confusion when she emulated the way her sister dressed, makeup, ect. she was punished. Miriam took on the role as Marion's protector, looking after her twin and felt strain in essentially parenting herself, Marion, and being unable to be a child as a result due to the neglect and the fact both kids were not given the grace and expectations behavior wise that one gives to kids. Kids yell, cry, scream, they can be impulsive and make bad decisions, ect. and thats ok! Mr. and Ms. Price were in a loveless marriage with infidelity and frankly, Evelynn (their mother) only had kids because thats what you're supposed to do as a woman after you get married and ain't no way were they going to get an abortion due to stigma. I'd like to touch more on Evelynn as a representation of someone who upholds, even to her own detriment, gender roles and how damaging they are that they reverberate down from generation in families. A lot of the inspo for Evelynn comes from Beatrice Horseman.

Anyway 99centsoda old heads know that these two originate from the fucking Reverse Falls Gravity Falls AU so if you see certain things that maybe look like the AU with serial numbers filed off thats why lmfao. I saw what the fandom was doing and thought I could do it better and then they became so different from the source material I could confidently break away entirely because to me a good fanwork exchanges with the source material in meaningful ways that i wasn't getting with a cartoon for tweens on disney xd. Which is fine, of course. In a way these two characters grew up with me. A few months after I came up with her and Marion i tried to kill myself. I love them, and with these two I realized that I could write original content and that everything that comes out of me is not inherently disgusting

ANYWAY growing up with Marion, who suffers from a litany of mental health issues (as do their parents, and Miriam does as well. Bipolar specifically for Miri.), their codependent relationship spiraled. Marion's BPD caused a lot of issues for both of them, and Miriam's way of going about it was to build a rift between them. Do whatever she felt was 'independent.' Everything she did had to be no-strings-attached, emotionless, easy-going, an above all Alone. No real relationships and only flings, dropping friendships if they asked too much of her emotionally. Attempting to flip the switches in her brain and heart to make her empty and thus free of pain.

Miriam is also, despite her claims of not really caring that much about anything, is extremely unforgiving and resentful. Marion has improved a lot, is managing his symptoms, and is generally in a better place, but Miriam does not forgive him for the shit in their teens (sabotaging relationships, reckless behavior, self-harm, ect. Marion was going thru it and not coping the best but I do want to emphasize that Marion was suffering and I have infinite love for those with PDs and frankly thats a lot of what her story is about). Anybody that challenges Miriam's cynicism is met with a lot of "Imagine caring this hard lol" type shit. We've all seen this individual online, hence why i referenced the crying wojak/nordic chad shit that goes around and the mentality behind it.

I see a lot of people who maybe are like Miriam. So I wonder why, what happened. The people who see people dying and can't talk about it without meme-speak. The kind of person who sees someone passionately defending what they believe in and chime in with "It's not that deep". I probably didn't explain this succinctly but Miriam's character is about that cynic and she got there from her foil, Marion, with unregulated emotional turmoil and simply becoming the opposite of that. Since Marion is suffering so much from feeling, Miriam decides she will be much happier as the opposite.

But it's tiring, and Miriam's story arc in my head is about shedding that and letting herself love and be loved. Also not supposed to be 'look at this moron its so cringe to be a cynic' because that too i find a bit callous and unhelpful but rather a 'feels better to care about stuff, its important to care about stuff, and to tell people you care'

[velkyr]

DUSK QUESTIONS MOMENT. 1, 10, 40, 52!! 👀

ON IT BOSS!!!! o7 (tysmmmm for letting me ramble mwah. I wrote more than I expected as per usual 💖)

(original ask game post here)

I've read more'd this because oops it got so long sorry orz

Why did you pick the race you did for your Tav?

the short answer is always just going to be I love tieflings, I am weak for tieflings, this is a universal unchangeable fact amen 🙏 I think 3 of the... 6(? I might be forgetting some other oneshot-only characters idk) characters I've played at a table have been tiefs or homebrew variants of them! they're very gender to me, I felt that way before I even really knew jackshit about my own gender. absolutely batshit that I still thought I was cis when I started playing d&d lmfao. also horns tails fangs and claws need I say more. I shan't, I don't have to

but yeah specifically for Dusk, I wanted to base them off of my first d&d character in particular, who was a tiefling homebrew to represent an au ra from ffxiv in our homebrew campaign based around the game. so it was important to me they were also a tiefling draconic sorcerer to match!

a lot has changed about them while I've reworked them, but many of the fundamentals have remained the same. gender, motivations, reasoning and general force of personality have been altered towards things that I find more compelling or more fitting, 6 years down the line - but race and class, the idea of them being nobility who left their home(land) and has a bunch of hangups around it, that's all as it was back then.

10. If your Tav didn’t become an adventurer, what else would they be doing?

this is an interesting one, I've been stewing on it a fair bit recently while I've been thinking about what they'd do post-bg3 shenanigans. the thing with Dusk is I've infused them with So Much raw adhd (to the point of it far surpassing my own, oops. this seems to be how I bestow love on my favourite OCs at this point), they Need enough outlets in their day-to-day life or they'll end up in an understimulated mess pretty quickly.

adventuring is obviously a solid option for that need! but without that on the table, I think it needs to be something that caters strongly to their interests and whims. I can see them working well in a profession involving enchantment and/or working with jewels and precious metals. enchanting things would be a good way to siphon off some of that raw sorcerer magic - if they don't use it often enough, there's a build up of sorts. with it being lightning based, it's a bit like having an unstable motor that runs way too fast, and it makes them incredibly irritable.

as for the crafting part of the equation, well, they're already fascinated by shiny things, they're pretty detail oriented and good with their hands, and it's the kind of skilled manual work that requires Just Enough focus to be stimulating. the only thing they'd probably end up hating about either of these would be dealing with noble clientele lmao, but I have no doubt they'd find a way to exploit that anyway. while they may not be the most book smart in the world, they're people smart by necessity. (something something insight proficiency)

and really, as an alternative or perhaps on the side, I don't think they'd be opposed to sex work if it were an environment they felt comfortable in, with a well-vetted set of clientele that they have full autonomy over.

40. What is the biggest mistake your Tav ever made?

welcome to 'pick a struggle' with Dusk, they have their fair share,,,

there's a couple of things that stick out, but I'll stick with one that's pretty fundamental to them. they deeply regret having lashed out at and pushed away the people that tried to help them when they were younger, still stuck living in elturel.

while they can't entirely be blamed for it - they were conditioned to think and feel a certain way, and those patterns were ingrained across a lifetime, all the hallmarks of the abuse they faced - at the end of the day, the friends they'd made after they started sneaking out at night were only trying to help them see how awful their living situation was.

by the time Dusk fled home, they'd burned all the bridges they'd tentatively built over the years. their best friend at the time was the one who made a sort of last ditch attempt to convince them, and it came at the right place, the right time to push them into leaving. but it was outright said that none of them wanted to see them again, after all of the vitriol.

with the distance of years and the gift of hindsight, they regret it all the more. they haven't really forgiven themselves for it.

52. What is your Tav’s worst fear?

oh you already know this one I'm sure 🤠 but I'll elaborate it into something a bit broader that pokes at the Theming more.

they fear being forced back into a gilded cage - whether that's being dragged back home to their family or pushed into a new one. they fear the loss of the autonomy they've carved out for themselves. they fear a loss of identity, and the concept of having it stripped from them, reducing them back into some (feminine) trophy to be given away for material gain.

at its core, it's a loathing of the idea of heteronormativity, really. that's what I always parallel it to, and it's pretty on the nose in that regard.

granted, it's kind of a paradoxical fear for them. they're so thoroughly weary after spending so long living with their guard up, molding themselves into someone who can take on the world alone, that in secret, there's a part of them that just doesn't want to fight anymore. that part would be tempted to give up - to let themselves be reshackled, so to speak - if the circumstances were dire, so long as there were the promise of them being safe and cared for at the end.

as a secondary but very much related thing, they've also come to fear and resent being alone, and the idea of being left behind by people they care about.

[theonlyadawong]

was tagged by beloved mutual @devilbrakers in this tag game :D

01. a character you love.

i shant go on about ada wong, the evil resident so instead i will talk aboooooooooooooouuuuut ummmm lucie jurin! from martyrs (2008) she murdered the family that abused her as a child and i think that's wonderful. she is also living with intense survivors guilt and she has a friend who is a girl (girlfriend?) who is by her side (for the most part)

02. your favourite food from your culture.

BAKED SWEET POTATOES MMM MM MM!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! DELICOUS!!!!!!! also carne guisada ❤️

03. what your dream apartment / room / house is like.

🤔 well, it has to have lots of open space. i absolutely HATE when my living quarters feels cramped. i would also like it to have greenery (even though i can't take care of a plant to save my life), and i would like some green walls and nice brown wooden decor. and all my decorations and knick knacks would probably be nature themed. oh!!!! and also, i would have a papasan :)

04. your personal style or aesthetic.

i wear lots of overalls, tank tops, turtlenecks, skirts, boots, and sneakers, and it's all neutral colors. not a very interesting answer but idk how else to describe it

05. a happy memory.

one time when i was a kid, i won the jackpot on that wheel of fortune game at a putt putt! it was especially cool because i didn't even know what i was doing, i was just pressing the buttons. also one time i won a minor prize playing the stacker arcade machine and it glitched, and it gave me all the carabiners inside.

06. your favourite way(s) to spend time.

drawing (digitally) which ive only been doing since october 2020!!!! aaaaaaaand also watching TV and movies. i recently watched the movie martyrs (2008)for the third time in a month and i just love it. the love between anna and lucie is so palpable and the actors are just stellar. i also love thr sopranos and i have the box set!! I've watched it all the way through 3 times over the course of last year (and a little bit into this year) and it's just so good (though i will day the racism grates at me lmfao.) i also love futurama but ONLY the first 7 seasons. but for the past month ive been playing re4r (which im sure my followers know by now lol) and im having lots of fun!

07. story behind your url / title / quote / description / icon.

obviously, my url is a reference to THEE ada wong buy it specifically comes from me being absolutely positive ada made some reference to her saying she was, "the only ada wong," in re6 but alas she says, "the real ada wong." so i was wrong.(fake fan moment 😔) but once i realized this, i didn't want to change my url bc it stuck with me. and my icon is canceled ada because i get such a kick out of it. it's so funny

08. something that comforts you or brings you joy.

SHELL COLLECTION!!!!! SHELL COLLECTION OF REAL SHELLS FROM REAL BEACHES THAT I REALLY PICKED UP!

09. what you’re looking forward to.

ik this is a tiny thing in the grand scheme of life but i just bought the infinite rocket launcher in 4r so im really excited to play a whole game with that! >:)

10. something else that’s important to you.

THEATRE! im sadly not much into it now but i love every single aspect of live theatre so much you don't even know. a chorus line, hair, and shuffle along are my favorite shows EVER!!!

uhhhhmmm idk who to tag! but it you see this and you want to do it, then pretend i tagged you!!! :D

[lioncunt]

so basically i’m just watching this as it’s own show now and not relating it to the books at all. i think it’s fucking dumb they didn’t put a domestic violence trigger warning - not because of the brutality itself, which is par for the course in the books, but because it was an intense level of physical abuse in a marriage.

i’m still maintaining: that wasn’t book lestat. NOT because he isn’t capable of that level of violence, because he absolutely is and he does it against armand. he is a terrible person and anyone saying he isn’t doesn’t actually like his character, they like a version of him they made up. BUT he just never does that against louis. and also, that’s not to say he isn’t abusive towards louis in other ways, or to negate the impact OF that emotional abuse. i’m saying that this was a level of torture against louis that is out of character for book lestat and in my opinion not necessary and in poor taste to depict against louis’ character. in all other versions of this story, louis never suffers like this. there are a couple of equally matched fights that louis and lestat have early on in the first book, but they’re both powerful white men and neither of them comes away with any injuries. lestat in the book is the same age as louis and has only been a vampire for ten years when he meets him, so there’s much less of a power imbalance. he even has his living father come live with him and louis. they also aren’t explicitly romantic in the first book. it’s not at all comparable to the situation on the show and i wish people would stop bringing it up as evidence to justify what happened.

all that to say, it’s become very clear to me that this is not the lestat from the books, despite their insistence it is. and that’s okay! i just wish they wouldn’t have said he’d be book accurate if they planned on departing THIS much from his character.

im coming into this series after having obsessively followed its development for a year. they said they’d be very true to lestat and loustat from the entire book series, so that’s why i’m really confused by this. it seems antithetical to what they were trying to accomplish by making lestat WORSE than he was at his very lowest in the books, when they said they wanted to make him more of the lovable antihero anne decided on in the second book onwards. again, im not condoning any of the fucked up shit he does in the books or saying he’s some misunderstood nice guy. this is a very specific thing that i think is ooc.

i think what happened to claudia was a fucking abhorrent joke. including sa to toughen up female characters and make male characters sad. it’s 2022 do better. again, it never happened to the character in any other iteration of this story.

anyone saying “it’s horror, they’re toxic, what did you expect” - come back to me when you’ve read lestat slaughtering 500 men because he’s mind controlled then wiping their blood on his hands so he’s marked as unclean. or louis beheading santiago and kicking his severed head across a burning theater. or armand cutting nicolas’ hands off to punish him so he can’t play the violin in his insanity. or armand (always armand lmfao) sewing claudia’s head onto an adult body. THAT is the horror of this book series. louis and lestat’s relationship, while toxic and emotionally abusive, is never depicted with outright extreme one-sided physical torture. i’m not mad about the violence, im mad about who it was against.

anyway, that’s my two cents. like i said im invested in this show and i am going to continue watching it and talking about it, albeit much less on here because i really dislike some of the takes i’ve seen. i understand if a lot of my fellow book fans fall off here, i was debating it too, but my love of amc louis and claudia and my curiosity to see how they’re gonna make people want to watch this version of lestat be a protagonist have won out.

[azzie-tangerine]

confession time. That matpat video literally changed my view of the Mario franchise forever and even if I don’t believe it anymore (with age comes wisdom and the realization you were a 10 year old with the media comprehension skills of a soup spoon) it’s like the sole reason I don’t actually like Mario as a character all that much. I was already a Luigi Stan and it just added More Fuel lmfao. So please hit me with the matpat rant I live to see people clown on it

Thing is, I don’t even blame you for that cause a lot of people were like that too 😭

And I would LOVE to write a 5 page rant debunking every point in that video. It’s my dream to. Unfortunately, I am a full time college student with a very small attention span so I hope a mini rant that summarizes my point works instead lmao. Maybe in the future I could do more mini rants to combine into that 5 page rant.

I don’t have anything personal when it comes to Matpat. I followed him at one point as well. But yeah, he does have a problem when it comes to his theories and making people take them too seriously. Yeah, he says “that’s just a theory” at the end of every video (does he still do that??) but when you have a young audience like he does they’re not gonna realize that it’s all good fun, and they’re going to believe any wild theory he makes. Especially when he talks about these theories in such a way that they are FACTS and not theories until the end, using only surface information that could easily be disproved with a good search.

I always thought Mario was the worst example of this. Because not only does Matpat accuse Mario of some really awful things (abusing his brother and yoshi are the two I remember to this day, I’m not going to watch that video again right now) but he also calls him some terms that could be seen as ableist based on how he says it?? Not saying he himself is ableist, this is a decade old video after all. But since I am only studying psychology and not fully educated yet, I’m leaving THOSE thoughts away for now.

The evidence he uses to criminate Mario is there, sure, but the context isn’t. Mario teases Luigi because they are brothers and siblings do that. And we see Mario caring for Luigi a lot, A LOT more than the teasing act. My favorite example is the crossover game between Mario and Rabbids. He goes out of his way to save Luigi first, Peach second. It’s a really sweet scene I recommend watching the opening to that first Mario and Rabbids game if you haven’t.

And him punching Yoshi? The evidence for that was from a pixelated game, and Nintendo staff have literally come out to say that this isn’t true. It was an idea at one point sure, but that idea never got to animating in that game and the art book mentions he is not punching Yoshi.

Anyways I’ll stop myself there, but you see my point lol. Doesn’t help that I am super biased for Mario, I played and still play his games all the time and as a kid genuinely looked up to him as an idol. So yeah, I am not perfect I am a 19 year old woman getting worked up over fan theories. I just love Mario and always have. I love his adventures with Luigi and Peach and Bowser. Nothing can stop me at this point.

[rv2xlga]

another rant: not persona related for the first time i think lol

ok so im back to rant on here as per usual, this time on my sister's computer which is where i do most if not all my websiting and not on my phone which is when you know it is very serious!

ok so as the title suggests, this rant ISNT! about persona 5 as ive been playing kingdom hearts and its been on my list for many, many years but my other sister finally got us a ps4 in nov of 2022 after so very long of us wanting one with her fafsa money and i managed to finish final mix.. now! very productive and not adhd-pilled of me whatsoever (i say incredibly sarcastically) but anywho, i finally finished final mix, as i've stated before and am now playing re:chain and i absolutely hate kingdom hearts' combat because it is so god damn unnecessary and pointless and horrible! but the long time hyperfixation and yaoi grind is so serious which i did not know soriku was so heavy in the game lmfao, my poor girl kairi she deserves so much better omg ToT but that's a whole different, much bigger conversation rant for another day..

but enough with long ass stupid intros, as a long time riku fan seeing his character and just how the overall story has played out so far aside from the ridiculous ass writinggg, i've been really impressed ngl! it has a lot of potential that it actually reaches, again, aside from the horriddd writing, the plot and ending in particular was very similar to revolutionary girl utena which is like. absolute peak everything for me lmfao honestly i wouldn't be shocked if it was inspired by it cuz they are soo many similarities, i kept even pointing it out to my sis (who HASN'T watched it yet very unfortunately!) cuz im such a nerd lmao. and especially with riku, im very happy he's even IN the game first of all cuz compared to most of my other sillies... like rip to my girl akechi you deserved so much better.. but anywho anywho, i really love riku's character and everything his character represents ESP from what i've seen in the com gba ver which i don't know if that passes to re:com, which is the ver im playing but i really hope so cuz i've seen some clips and he is, ugh such an amazing character so yes. im going to deep dive here with revolutionary girl utena, specifically anthy and akio as my basis for most of this lmaosdbhh (rgu spoilers and kh too of course)

i know im very crazy with how i jump to conclusions and try to "analyze" characters and all that, even from as young as i can remember myself i've always thought like. wayy too much its honestly very embarrassing but there's personally a lot of similarities between akio and anthy's whole dynamic that reminds me of riku and diz and ansem, whatever that whole mess is. i know diz isn't essentially a villain from what i've heard and seen and searching more about it now to double check what i'd be saying on here isn't complete nonsense, i forget kingdom hearts is legit nonsense and i clearly do not know much to anything at all about diz and ansem and whatever tf is happening there omglj ToT but but i will try my very best and to differentiate, ill be calling the actual ansem diz and the ansem in final mix just ansem so its easier for everyone involved lol and again ill mostly be focusing on parallels of rgu to final mix but overall, talking mostly about riku (my baby :3) yayy!

its so crazy how the final mix plot went to me, again im actually just very shocked with kingdom hearts' storylines and stuff in general. i imagine not much thought was put behind it as the writing. speaks for itself but it is actual very nuanced and again, has a lot of potential it actually reaches or could reach which is like. gold mine for me! we know that in rgu, akio is very blatantly harassing and abusing anthy in all forms, even the people around her, succumbing to the abuse he had endured throughout all his life really giving him no purpose or real reason as we see and are made to imply in episode 39 and the last scene with anthy as she leaves the school, he has nothing to really back up why anthy should stay, as of course they never will be any real reason to it aside from the abusive cycle that they're in specifically he is stuck in, having to make it everyone else's problem from lack of growth and realization (which still doesn't excuse any of his horrid actions, but was practically impossible for him to do but that is a pretty bigger conversation for what we have here to discuss today). it reminds me a lot of ansem and his connection with riku, how he used riku's body and how ansem's "motive" is never really mentioned in final mix, not that much can really be deciphered with all that darkness-hearts talk anyway but you know. and mind you, i know there's a lot more lore that goes into ansem and the reason for his existence, him being a heartless and all, same with diz and the actual ansem so again, i won't be really going into how ansem and akio are similar as individuals but just as their roles in the respective main storyline of final mix (ive stated that way too much times by now, curse you adhd) riku's body being used as just another vessel to ansem and the "darkness" that was inside of him was only really possible because riku was an easily susceptible child, as children are obviously going to be, and ansem used this position of innocence and hashtag childlike wonder lol to be able to use him and manipulate him to do his bidding, essentially. even after everything, when sora is inside that egg (for reasons i havent yet to know!) which can parallel what happens to utena at the end of rgu, riku/anthy are still in the shadows of their abusers to even save their loved one, as unfortunate as it is. it is just like the door scene with riku and sora which is extremely similar to the rgu door scene (which is when all these similarities really hit me lol), both riku and anthy are inside the door or coffin or whatever the case and they are the ones that have to be saved but it ends up being the other way around as again, the abusive cycle is continuous and unfortunately, ever affecting but it is a very big part to break free from this cycle that you try to grow, into a better person as riku and anthy did. again, they were still connected to their abusers, each to their respective cases but they were actively seeking freedom by putting love first and not just romantic love, but love at all, in all of its forms (such a nuanced thing, lol no pun intended but yes i do love that topic very much) which is something abusers do not have, as someone who is currently in a situation like this, a lot can be said from personal experience.

i think it's interesting to view how riku viewed the "ansem in his heart" as just an amalgamation of fear and abuse of all those unfortunate things. the ansem that he was scared of, not diz/the real deal, was a lot more of a disgusting type of person, someone who was "darker, more foul" as the ansem he knew was a literal heartless being, literally. and diz was able to use this fear to his advantage by being insanely creeping and threatening to him (which is where we can see abusers are still human at the end of the day) when riku could've "choose between darkness and light" or he could've realized his specialness, in a much nicer more peaceful way lol and i don't just say that cuz the combat is awful or as jokes, i genuinely mean it. and in all that, that is the literal definition of abuse! same as what akio did and even with akio's character as his prince self and his present self, we are made to believe they are two different ppl bc of how much he gave into that abuse and let it consume him, he became a monster, someone completely different in his entirety (which i fucking love that btw). and again, i know that is not the case with ansem and diz because they are literally two different people but you can't argue the general ideas are similar and the nuisances/themes are and could be there, i think it works really well for an abuse allegory. using sora, what he held very dear as anthy did utena or just the general idea of a genuine love and connection for them both which is obviously what the care and love stems from, to get riku to do his bidding, changing riku by almost entirely just to discard him later and only focus on what really threatened his power, or abusive cycle in reality (cuz ik the ansem drama goes a lot more serious and family oriented and all that lol), which was sora and in akio's case, utena (by keeping them in "eternal slumbers" in the places that they are situated in or around/familiar with). even to the way that riku treats sora in final mix, which i know isn't really him but his sort of detachment to him is very similar to anthy and how she would treat utena. which really isn't just comphet but it is something much, much bigger than that that doesn't really involve utena much when you really look at it. it is a very general sort of detachment and indifference that comes with abuse i really wished more people talked about because abuse is not just some funny little joke or something to be easily looked over! for the love of god, i am ating at so many things rn good lord. but his detachment towards sora was just his brain numbing to the abuse, losing that sense of love and almost sanity and even humanity to look at it that way, just as what happened to anthy and her barely-any-sense-of personality. like unfortunately it's still riku and it was still him, even if very little but he was still there and what we were seeing there was just the abuse and manipulation taking him over or the abuser and abusive cycle taking them over just as what akio became due to his abusers and cycle, once again as it is continuous, and what ansem's literal existence was and meant. they were or had just become amalgamations of the "darkness" in ones' hearts, the bad things and i think the game like com itself showing that you are a mix of them both and you have to balance them both is very beautiful because yes, unfortunately you can never be truly cured even more so when it has affected you even from childhood, you have to just live with it but you can grow and be a better person because you are human and you have broken free from this cycle and have control over your own life. hopefully this makes sense, i really don't wanna come off any sort of way. writing this all makes me realize it is a very messy and nuanced topic even to describe it which.. makes me love it even more lol.

ima attach some lines here i got from this website online of a let's play lmfao cuz im lowkey losing my train here ugh, fuck adhd omg. but update while writing. i am currently rereading after like an hour and it kinda came back to me. sorry if the next paragraph is kinda random and already has some topics i have already introduced previously I REALLY DO HATE ADHD but i wouldn't be here without it would i now....

seeing more of the lines now, the words and nuisances of the things he says are genuinely soo abusive oml. there's just a lot of potential like i've stated so many times at this point, within the game. as someone with a few personality disorders, black and white morality is such a big issue with me and i feel like the whole darkness and light thing especially with how they handle it with riku can fit really well into that too. i headcanon riku with ocpd, something i have because i was really shocked with how much i resonated with his character and how much i see him struggling with that. him not being able to understand how him and sora and kairi could've came to one (agreement terms i mean, lord) and taking such drastic measures with everything and being so avoidant with the things around him, even with how he had such a want for a bigger worldwide and viewed himself as if he had so much more hopes and dreams compared to kairi and sora due to the simplicity of his innate thinking and again, took such drastic measures to achieve that and even prove it, even if it was mostly unwillingly, he was able to be easily manipulated because aside from being a child, his "larger worldview" was easy to crumble because it is just built on excessive thinking and the constant need for answers (which very much reflects perfection and obsessiveness that is the biggest issues with ocpd) which is very unstable because life isn't really like that and when you can't snap yourself into this realization or have no one else to really do it for you, trust me if you don't suffer through ocd or similar things like that yourself, it is difficult asf lemme tell you that. obsession doesn't really get you anywhere and that even goes into abuse and abusers' obsessions with whatever their "motives" are. it's strange because it doesn't really make any sense as their "motives" are never really real motives and can never really be described but that is just its nature because it is nonsensical and is just a result of overdrive and it kills, as simple as that.

ok so i have a lot more kingdom hearts related-thoughts and analyses aside from all my various other cringe, nerdy thoughts (we don't discuss the intrusive or sexual ones my friends) but i think i've ranted enough for today, another mid-way update but lost my train again, but this is the longest i've ever ranted for, definitely had to get it off my chest that's for sure lol. but aside from the ranting, i hope to use tumblr more, just to be on my own but i hope to post more doodles and art related shit on here as i hopefully figure out how to work my tumblr around and all that so it's easier to post from my phone and stuff without getting the computer and eventually losing all my energy :P yes, i will be cooking up rgu au for kingdom hearts like just doodles is what is to take from all this. sorry if it doesn't make much sense i tried my best fhfdshk

[sparklecriticism]

i feel like in the areas that sparklecare could graze on is it's decreasing quality of characters that makes them less interesting and investing, or the fact they don't interact with the hospital or better yet other people that they would absolutely make some sort of chemistry with, good or bad

as the fans go on i feel like the characters lose their value, where characters like caroline and hemera have flaws and people reasonably hate them but enjoy the characters that are then like angels (which are not interesting as characters, more like people to blend in the background)

doom is unfortunately slowly losing his core meaning as a resentful and well hated (this hasn't even come into play?) person that has to do shit cause he has to do it, kind of just being a person to do backhanded comments instead of this huge asshole that is reasonably hated.

i love the idea of doom being a helpless romantic, but that throws away his character that other characters show a glaring lack of that he would have filled if he stayed that way. he could do so much more, yet just doesn't, and feels more like a person waiting to be awkwardly interacted with

there's so much you can do with characters like polly (i think polly would definitely have some sort of neurosis, that's so me) that just do too little or just straight up dont interact with the people that could do his character favors with, like doom, how do they interpret a character like that? so much chemistry and characterization to be done here while the characters feel degrading with meaning it's kind of insane to think about, which can probably just come to fanservice

i'd love to see the comic grow, but there's a lot to be done here on that part to make characters like uni not this glaring angel that everyone loves, so many people mistake her for this innocent person and it's just.. ugh

ps. your blog is horrid and is just babying about the little things instead of actual valid criticism (ex. "doomry being nonsensical because barry and doom barely spoke", bitch let them do their thang if kneeby is a believer in it) (pollarry is a shit ship lmfao)

it's criticism, not babyraging, if you wanna do that do it in a way that is not backhanded and hurtful, it doesn't improve shit if you're doing it anonymously, stop being a little bitch about some dumb shit like "WELL DOOMI IS PROSHIPPING BECAUSE ITS A VICTIM AND HER ABUSER!!!" like you're that fuckin guy who thought he was a prophet then fuckin made his name pocketcat (a literal pedophile) fucker (if you're that guy, keep babbling lil man, do your homework)

if you have shit to say, speak your shit, but you're being destructive if you're not doing it for valid reasons

likely bait will b likely bait tho

ok so I absolutely agree with everything you said but also on the ps: what? When have I EVER said that about Doomi. I’m pretty sure I said the opposite, but don’t quote me on that. This is for BITCHING, period. Not everything is super well constructed this is a blog for BITCHING, whether that be things you’d never say on main or genuine criticisms of the comic

[gen0c1de]

Request Rules

General Rules/stuff to consider

Specify which fandom a character is in for the ones in both Slasher and DBD.

Ex: If you want Michael Myers, then tell me if its Slasher or DBD Michael. If you don't tell me I will pick for you. I see them having different personalities for being a Slasher or being in DBD. I won't know how to make him react or interact with the reader if its not specified.

Be specific and detailed with what you want in your request.

I have Aphantasia, I lack an imagination, I can't just picture what you want me to do, if you don't give me details then what I create will not be what you want. I might not do it at all and just use you as a reminder to be specific.

Try to have fun or even talk to me a little.

It helps stimulate and motivate me, I have a hard time doing things if it ends up feeling like a chore or if theres nothing making me really push myself to get it done faster. I have ADHD and depression, no stimulation or motivation means it could be months or more before I even consider doing it. I like talking with people on this platform, I ain't gonna bite ya. I'm looking for moots and shit, like those "Emoji Anon" things or just others to talk to. I have like, no friends. Help a hermit out lmfao.

Don't be afraid to be you.

If you're "weird", so am I bitch. Let's be weird together lmfao. If you do the "*waves/hugs* ^w^" shit, then do it. I ain't afraid to play along, as long as it doesn't lead to the "*sexual stuff*" then were all good!

No need for formalities or the "Sorry to bother/bug you" stuff.

I'm guilty of it myself, but I'm letting you know now that you're not bothering me. You don't have to be anxious or nervous. You don't have to gently place your ask into my request box. Hypothetically, of course. I may have a short fuse, but a notification from Tumblr ain't gonna be what makes me blow my guy.

Below are things I do and do not accept for SFW and NSFW.

If you have questions for why I won't do something or if something similar IS okay, then feel free to ask.

If you're unsure if something you want to request is okay, then ask, no harm in it.

I accept requests for:

Just be respectful when you ask.

I do x reader stuff. I will do Character x reader x character, though.

SFW (Fluff, Hurt/Comfort, HC's, Drabble's, Prompts, etc.)

Drugs (not hard-core)

Alcohol (not drunk unless its Demoman)

Escaping abuse

Being saved from abuse

Angst

Anything, not picky

NSFW (Smut, Hurt/Comfort/Smut, HC's, Drabble's, Prompts, etc.)

Drugs (not hard-core)

Alcohol (not drunk unless its Demoman)

CNC

Anything, not picky

I don't accept requests for:

SFW (Fluff, Hurt/comfort, HC's, Drabble's, Prompts, etc.)

Smut or Sexual themes, its SFW ffs.

Hard-core drugs

Drug Abuse

Little space

Abuse by character I write for

Abuse by reader

NSFW(Smut, Hurt/Comfort/Smut, HC's, Drabble's, Prompts, etc.)

Characters that have "SFW ONLY" in my masterlist

Hard-core drugs

Drug abuse

Rape

Pedophilia

Zoophilia

Incest

Abuse

Scat

Anal

IGNORING safe-word, not hearing it at first is okay as long as it is heard.

Little space/Age-Play

Animal/puppy play

Feet

Armpits

[tiredbi-peach]

Obtaining Freedom

1.7k words and I did this a while ago, just never got around to posting it lmfao

Cw: Assault, mentions of abuse, character death. Long story short, it’s just a character getting beaten to death. Have fun reading!

Why is it that every time Ash thought she would be free, free from the torment and harassment, from the manipulation and lies, he always seemed to come back in and ruin everything.

The person in question? Well, Ash’s shitty ex boyfriend of course. That stupid ginger fuck named Hunter. He was a manipulative, conniving, deceitful, emotionally and physically abusive asshole who she had put up with for far too long. But after six years of hell, of his manipulation and abuse, she was finally free.

Or so she thought.

She had finally broken up with him and she was on her own. But she didn’t mind it. In fact, she quite enjoyed it. She lived in a small apartment with the cat she had stolen from her boyfriend when she burnt his house down. Now, I know this sounds bad but to be fair, he had been stalking her and harassing her after the two had split. And needless to say, she had hit her breaking point. So she kinda, sort of, maybe snuck into his house and started an electrical fire in order to make the whole thing look like an accident.

She had been playing with the cat, Marigold, the name given to the feline due to her golden, orange and white fur. It was storming outside, but she didn’t care. In fact she enjoyed this kind of weather, always finding it enjoyable.

After what felt like maybe an hour of her just messing with Marigold, she heard a knock at her door. Odd, she wasn’t expecting anyone tonight but she shrugged and got up from the couch, going to the door. She didn’t bother checking who was there, though this would prove to be her first mistake.

She opened the door, the smile on her face quickly dropping as she recognized the man. He was the last person on earth she had wanted to see.

“Hey there Ash. Been a long time since we last saw each other. Was it the break up we last saw each other? Or was it when you burned my fucking house down and stole my cat.”

The smile he had on his face quickly fell and was replaced by a look full of loathing.

Ash did her best to remain calm on the outside, but on the inside she was panicking. A shaky smile makes its way onto her face, it was the best she could do in this situation.

“Really? I don’t seem to remember that last bit happening.” The only thoughts that were running through her head as she spoke were, “Just play dumb Ash, he’ll believe it, or at least O hope he will.”

Hunter stared at Ash, not believing what she had said. You can’t lie to a liar apparently. He leaned his head close to her face, smirking as he did so.

“Oh Ash, poor, naive, sweet little Ash.” His smile quickly dropped as he grabbed her by the throat, throwing her into a table that was close to the door. Her back hit the corner which sent a joint of pain through her body before she fell to the floor. “Shit, that’s gonna leave a bruise.” Was what crossed her mind in that moment, but was quickly replaced by thoughts of trying to get out of the situation.

She desperately looked around for a weapon of sorts, anything to defend herself, her eyes landing on the bat she kept by the door. This was her second mistake. Hunter's eyes followed her gaze and a wicked smile spread across his face.

Her eyes widened and she tried to crawl toward the bat, hoping she could reach it before he could, considering he was outside. But her attempts were in vain as he waltzed in like he owned the place. He stomped as hard as possible on her right hand as she attempted to reach for the bat.

“Uh uh uh. I don’t think so, Sweetheart. But, thank you for showing me just what I wanted.”

He kicked her in the face, blood pouring from her nose. Her left hand quickly shot up to her nose, trying to stop the bleeding. While she was doing this, Hunter took his time approaching her, a menacing grin on his face as he held the bat in hand.

She did her best to move away from him, trying to get up and run further into her apartment but she slipped on the blood that had spilled from her nose onto the ground.

“Ash, you know I love you right?”

Hunter came up behind her, picking her up by the back of her shirt and throwing her into a wall. She managed to stay upright this time but he came up behind her, kicking her in the back of the knees, causing the girl to topple to the ground again. He put the bat down on a nearby table, walking closer to Ash once more.

“You're a clever girl Ash. But thinking you can break up with me and that I’ll just let you go? After all we have been through together?” His tone shifted from angry to almost pleading. It disgusted Ash since she knew all his little tricks.

“You mean the shit you put me through.” She spat. “All you’re abuse and cheating? All your gaslighting and manipulation.”

Hunter chuckles. “Gaslighting? Well now you’re just making up words sweetie.” He crouched down in front of her, holding her chin gently. “I only did all of that because I love you. All the following you around-“

“You mean stalking.” She interrupted.

His smile seemed to grow but his grip on her chin tightened, so much so that it could leave a bruise

“Don’t interrupt me dear. But as I was saying, all the following I did after we broke up, it was because I love you Ash! I always have. Please, let’s just put this all behind us and we can be a happy couple again.”

She remained quiet and he seemed to take this as a sign for him to make his move, his face moving closer to hers as he tried to kiss her. But she wasn’t planning on being trapped in this cycle of abuse. Not anymore. She spat in his face, and punched him in the stomach, though it didn’t do as much as she had hoped it would.

The smile on his face disappeared and he let go of her chin, standing back up and he looked over at the bat he had set down, letting out a deep sigh as he turned his back to her and grabbed it.

She had been trying to stand back up, thinking she had a chance to maybe get away while he had his back turned to her

“I didn’t want it to be like this Ash. But you’ve left me no choice.” He quickly turns around, swinging the bat as hard as possible at her ribs. A loud crack could be heard as the bat made contact with the girl's ribs. She let out a wheezing cough as falling to her hands and knees, clutching her right side.

He stood over her, raising the bat high over his head before bringing it down onto her back at full force. She let out a pained scream but Hunter grabbed her by the hair, leaning down and pulling her head up to his so they were almost eye level with one another.

“Uh uh. We don’t want any of that. Can’t have any of your neighbors hearing what’s going on. Though I doubt they can over the storm taking place outside.”

He was right, the storm had gotten worse and it seemed like no one was coming to help her.

He punched her in the face before letting go of her hair, deciding to just stomp on her face repeatedly.

“No one’s gonna come and help you, you little fucking slut! You’re all alone here.” He continuously stomped and kicked her face, and once he felt that had enough of that treatment, he moved on to kicking her in the stomach and ribs.

He laughed at the pained expressions she made, the life seeming to drain from her eyes with each kick.

“Why don’t you try and stand up again Ash? Are you not strong enough anymore? You seemed so confident earlier. What happened to all that bravado?”

She tried to speak, to snap back at him but Al legate could be heard from her was the sounds of her coughing up blood. She managed to push herself up to her knees, looking up at him, her heterochromatic eyes showing no emotions anymore. Tears were streaming down her face but she continued to try to be strong.

“How about-“ She was interrupted by a fit of coughing, blood dripping down her nose and mouth. She finally managed to find the strength to speak without coughing up blood.

A smile made its way onto her face as she looked at Hunter with her eyes partially closed. “How about you suck my fucking dick you goddamn cunt.”

And this was the third and final mistake that sealed the poor girl's fate.

Hunter roared in anger and with all the strength he could muster, he swung at the bat as hard and fast as possible at Ash’s head, a crack of lightning and thunder striking outside. Her body hit the ground, her head bleeding.

He stared at her body, nudging it with his foot before dropping the bat next to her body. It didn’t take long for the realization of what he had done to hit him. His eyes widened and he ran out of the apartment, slamming the door behind him. Cowardly of him yes, but that wasn’t anything new with him.

Her body lie motionless on the ground, her once ragged breathing coming to a stop. The final blow Hunter had struck cracked the poor girls skull, finally killing her and putting her to rest. Her eyes were wide open and lifeless, her body bruised and bloodied from his assault. All that was left from Hunter’s little rampage was the broken body of a girl whose future was ripped from her. But she was finally safe from his torment. She was finally free from him, despite dying in the process of obtaining this freedom.

She was free at last.