#whagever... hajime i will write u have a crazy breakdown and ill be satisfied then.

[spinecurlingmice]

everybody always makes hajime not like nagito's junko arm bc he's uncomfortable which is fine and good and fun because. well yes DUR! ! that man's uncomfortable with everything i do not doubt he'd be like "eugh h.. i cant look at that..." and stuff but. as a hajime is actually able to get a lot worse we just never see it believer, i think it'd just send him into an episode and not a gross feeling by looking at it. similarly to how mikan would react because Well. i think hajime is def affected by how close he and junko were , despite being izuru and not himself. despite in a sense being dead, it still survives because of course it does. the memories r in bits and pieces but they do exist, and most are positive which is really fucking with hajime.

junko gave hajime the filling he wanted desperately. he was empty and unsatisfied and she made sure to have him chase her around to find that violence would satiate him for a little while. and when it ran out? there was always more to be had. junko fed him the skills to give him what he wanted on a silver spoon, drizzled in fudge and said "if you follow me i can give you a purpose." in a way, hajime thinks of junko as a friend, he couldve relied on her. there is a reason she was able to snowball so many people's lives into destroying the whole world ynow? she got those who didnt have anything, or they did and that's the one thing that tied them to reality. hajime had given up everything so easily, all he needed was a finger to his chest and a "i can do it if you let me show you." and he was bound to follow her like a dog.

so i think hajime's left. not great.and it makes me SOOOOO sad nobody taps into the "he's actually not the Normal persona he puts up and being involved with everything fucked him up way more than he lets on" because there's no way any of these bitches came out normal in the slightest. he has to look away because if he doesnt he's going to try and get closer to whatever epsiode the mention of junko komaeda gets into and that's just a horrible fucking idea to have them both spiraling. So like. LOL!!!!! sorry i dont know i just know hajime cannot be the only dude who came out and went "actually i wasnt affected at all but i will help u guys" he needs that therapy too guys...