#we're talking TRASH BIOLOGY

[transprince]

U guys dont even know about what im up to rn...

[genderqueerdykes]

One time I saw a post where it was talking about like. “I’m tired of these people saying transfeminity can be just based on vibes what the fuck is an AFAB trans woman you are all a disgrace” or whatever and it reeked of violent transmedicalism (“being trans isn’t vibes” reading very much like ‘you need dysphoria to be trans’) but also horrible intersexism. transradfems and transmeds when people lie outside the perisex notions of gender or when someone’s identity is literally not based on dysphoria

oh yeah the part about these arguments that gives me the biggest portion of the headache they cause is literally that right there- people immediately trample right over intersex people to attack people assigned female at birth which is just. how do these people not see that they're literally attacking other women for no reason like how can you claim to be a feminist and your TWO largest targets- AMAB trans women and AFAB trans women- ARE WOMEN!

radfems, transmeds, etc. not only fail to realize that their #1 target for their hatred campaigns, bullying and indoctrination into their cult are women, but they also blatantly display that they have no fucking clue that intersex people literally exist. like we are literally left out of the conversation FIRST every single time, doesn't matter what we're talking about. that one just instantly hits the trash can. like especially radfems and terfs love to just violently ignore the existence of intersex people, they are never exposed to any intersex conversations, because many intersex conversations are trans inclusive. they hate to acknowledge that some people do not naturally fall into their assumptive, narrowminded, incorrect views on what men and women are. if they acknowledge intersex people, they must admit that they're dead wrong about human biology and biological sex, and they just can't have that.

also this reeks of racism because this is completely ignoring the experiences women of color have in white countries have. MANY AFAB trans women/fems are women of color, due to how absolutely vile whites have been toward people of color the entire time they've colonized other people's lands. black men and women in the american south used to be treated like and referred to as animals- white europeans were so rattled and disgusted by the fact that in many other cultures, there is less variation in facial/body features between AMAB and AFAB people, but also because specifically women in those cultures did not look like white women, which was just so frustrating for those poor colonizers.

i'm tired of seeing people bitch about this kind of shit, so thank you. it's just tired and it's the most petty bullshit to get upset about. i've met so many amab trans men. when you deny people with these identities exist, you are being transphobic. you're caught up on one size fits all dictionary definitions of what an identity "SHOULD" mean but it's just unrealistic. you cant possibly begin to fathom how another entire ass person has lived. humanity is too diverse to be shoved into whatever the hell else these other people think is right about biology and gender identity.

[cheesycatz]

The Apple's Worm

(Spamton AU reference sheet) 1 2

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- The last living member of the BIGSHOT computer worm species, this version of Spamton hides within the depths of Cyber City and its Trash Zone, skittish yet aggressive. He spitefully waits for the opportunity to restore his parasitoid species to its formal glory.

- He primarily walks on all twelves. He moves in short bursts, and can stay perfectly still. His body is rarely completely straight.

- He's 16 ft (~490 cm) long from nose to tail

- Spamton acts animalistic and unpredictable, as he grew up alone from both regular darkners and his own species. He feels uncomfortable about his own natural instincts.

- He bristles his fur and makes a rattlesnake-like hiss as a threat, and will attack if provoked.

- Spamton enjoys and feels much safer on ceilings, on walls, and in darkness.

- Despite living in the Trash Zone, Spamton still keeps himself clean, rubbing his legs together and rubbing his nose like a fly.

- As an invertebrate with no bones, Spamton's body is incredibly flexible.

- Still not beating the cat allegations

- Spamton is an opportunistic hunter who enjoys Cyber City's abundance of maice. He uses his extendable proboscis to impale prey and drink their souls.

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Wormton's design hasn't changed that much, as I mostly added onto existing lore with very few retcons. Though, I think I lean more into the insectoid elements nowadays. The longer segmented nose, compound eyes, and thinner limbs he has now definitely make him less like to be mistaken for a weird sergal. He's meant to look alien, but in a "weird animal from some far branching ancient linage that somehow survived several mass extinction events and has no other close relatives" way rather than an extraterrestrial way. His biology occasionally mimics the mammalian ideas we're used to, but they're always off. He has fur, but it's part of an exoskeleton. He has lungs, but they're 24 or so tiny pockets rather than two. He has eyelids, but they're actually nictitating membranes. He has a heart, but it's a set of five arches with no pulse. He has teeth, but they're detached parts of his mandibles that can move freely. And, uh, so on. God I love fictional biology

Despite being the size of an adult crocodile, Wormton acts more like a tiny spider. His twitchy movements and short bursts of movement are based on how bugs move, but they also fit the "Spamton" side of him. His behaviors are inspired by a variety of animals, but I'd say that spiders, wasps, and cats are the main ones. Additionally, a lot of his behaviors are based on the invasive species aspect of his design. These things are not at the top of the food chain. Their average life expectancy barely crosses 6 months. They'd rather hide than fight. Yet, they somehow become the most dangerous thing alive the moment they're brought to the surface web, spreading faster than lice in an elementary school. But, no matter how much of an advantage they have, they still hide and don't trust anything but themselves. God I love fictional ecology

Overall, I could talk for way too long about Wormton and malworms (his species). The only thing holding me back from massive info dumps is the fact that I want to actually finish the Wormton fic in a reasonable amount of time, whatever that ends up being. I fear I am quickly passing my estimated final length of 150k words and I might have 30% or more still left to write

[i-think-i-fncked-up-my]

I feel like me and Idia shroud(&Ortho) would get along not because of us both being fandom trash but because we would both nerd out together about actual science shit(and because we're both chronically online hermits) like b!tch I WILL tell you exactly every theory I have because twst isnt just another world- no, its another universe, even dimesndion from our own because the existence of magic is completely incapable with the laws of our universse(technoclogy might be able to replicate the desired effect but magic is natural- not man-made) and image being FIRST-CONTACT with aliens!!!

cuz thats what we are- aliens- an extraterrestial being who came from another planet, no matter how both are humans and share the same biology and no matter how similar the humans of twst are they wouldnt be the same to that level because humans as we are would not be able to wield magic and assuming souls and magic are counted as a part of someones biology, our inherent lack of could possibly cause catastrophic differences- minor examples being treys green hair and yellow eyes

that being said I, personally, would have terrible anxiety because even if somehow there is absolutely no language barrier between us I would act as if there is once I find out that NRC isnt some cult but a school on another planet because what are the chances of another planet in an entirely different universe would devolope language the same way when not even people on the same planet devoloped it the same way? let alone the written language? Idia would f#cking love teachin that sh!t

....I think a good way to get money would be to sign up for (ethical)experiments, I mean in a world filled with magic thats known nothing but how can you differentiate the line between magic and cold, hard scinece? as well as being what is basically the diplomatic representitive of an entire WORLD that would be fire(as in I have no idea how to talk to people and it would be a trainwreck) and if you wanted to go more businessy you could start up some sort of attraction in ramshackle the displays the different cultures and histories of our world!

[flapjacksfursona02]

TMMOF HEADCANONS

1. dr barber is trans (i will not hesitate)

2. I ABSOLUTELY ADORE CAPTAIN K'NUCKLES and i also adore how much of a coward he is, in a way. and that's why i kinda think that he is not much aware of what 'human morals' are, because he is more like a sea creature animal that at one point of his life just went 'fuck it, i'm human now'. he learnt human language bc previously he used to just communicate by barking and growling, he is able to go feral, he is able to do stuff that humans are sick of doing, like consuming raw flesh or feeling comfortable sleeping in a trash barrel. his biology differs far from human-like, so his skin is literally just. grey-blue. but he's not like a real animal like a seal, this variant is more like a fun theory (mine too lol), he's just a mythic beast that decided to turn alcoholic. flapjack doesn't see him as such, he still thinks he's an average great adventurer man due to his naivety, but he personally likes to think that k'nuckles is a dog man. a man that is like a dog. he bites

3. dr barber is trans and gay (still will not hesitate) and married to candy colleague. i like to think that colleague is still alive please let him stay alive

4. peppermint larry has anxiety disorder (but undiagnosed and considered just 'weird' because that's the middle ages setting we're talking 'bout)

5. talking about middle ages, dr barber probably was the first one to actually invent an idea of top surgery, and practiced it on himself. he included it in his surgeon book, but yet he is uncomfortable to actually come out to anybody, 1 because he prefers to keep his identity in private 2 he doesn't trust anybody lol, especially in stormalong & everyone already sees him as male and he doesn't have the need to overshare something like this that no one educated abt

6. candy colleague, on the other hand, knows about doc being trans, 1 because julius actually trusts him, 2 because uhhh y'know, 3 he is great at keeping secrets because literally no one can hear his voice except dr barber lol

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[theshyzombie]

I take a bite of my grilled chicken, "What do you mean I have vampiric blood in me? How is that even possible? I thought vampires couldn't procreate unless they bite someone?" I stare at my best friend and roommate, who is double major in Folklore and Mythology along with Biology, specifically the study of humans. "Look, you remember how I took that blood sample from you?" "You mean when I had accidentally opened a scab and you stole the bandaid afterwards?" I point my fork at her, "Disgusting by the way."

"You don't like needles! What was I suppose to do?"

"I.. don't know. But not steal a used bandaid out of the trash."

"I just... whatever. It doesn't matter, what matters, is that the reason you fit into our world so easily, other than because of family connections, is because somewhere in your family lineage, someone procreated with a vampire." My roommate responds in a hushed whisper, as we were in the food court and could get in trouble for talking of our world so openly that someone could overhear. "I haven't had my 'Mythology' class yet, so I haven't had the chance to ask Professor Venwynn about it yet," she puts air quotes around the word Mythology.

I sigh and lean against the back of the booth we're seated in, "Look. There is nothing special about me. I'm just an average college student, trying to make it through college without having a mental breakdown every 10 minutes. Just because I've been told I have ancient family connections doesn't mean I'm special."

"Okay, but think about it. You can't swim -"

"But I love rivers and the ocean. You know vamps can't cross running water, I have no problem doing it.

"You really like meat. Remember that summer when we were 15 and you tried to go vegetarian? You got so sick, the healers didn't know what was wrong."

"Okay, but I don't eat bloody steak. Mine are usually medium or so."

"You don't like religious architecture,"

"They stole it from other cultures and then claim it's theirs."

"And you get sunburned way too easily."

"I have a lot of European ancestry, and the biggest part of it is Irish.

"Exactly! It all seems normal, but what if it's normal because it's in your blood?"

I sighed, again, there was no way she will drop it, "Fine. Ask your questions. Make your speculations, but I refuse to believe it until you have solid evidence."

She perked up and clapped her hands. Sometimes she can be so smart and serious, I forget her child-like first impression, with her 5 foot nothing height. How I made friends with a fey always confuses me. The only reason I am part of our world is my family has elven ancestry on my mom's side, supposedly. But then great-great-great-great-grandma fell in love with a human, effectively making me 1/32 elven.

"Come on, we've got classes still." I stand up to my full 6 feet, pick up our trash, and walk it to the bin while she gathers her purse and sweater. Sometimes, blending into the human world is exhausting. But, as we have been doing it since high school, and we're almost done with our 4th year of college, it comes second nature. She bounces up to me and nestles herself into my side under my arm, "Let's go to class, Lily." "Of course, Ellie"

You have Vampiric Blood running through your veins. However, that blood comes from quite a few generations back, so all it really means is that you like eating meat, can’t swim, get mildly annoyed by religious architecture, and get sunburned really easily.

[sciencestyled]

Painting with Glowworms and Other Illuminating Nonsense: How Bioluminescent Bacteria Might Just Replace Your Childhood Crayons

Bioluminescence—the latest art craze that makes those glow-in-the-dark stars we plastered on our ceilings as kids look like, well, trash. I can see the confusion on your faces already. Yes, I’m talking about organisms, actual living beings, that emit light. You’re probably wondering, “Wait, what? Do we slap a few jellyfish onto a canvas and call it art?” Oh, ye of little imagination. But don’t worry, your intellectual horizons—currently resembling a TikTok video on loop—are about to expand dramatically.

Picture this: artists are no longer constrained by mere paint or charcoal; they are reaching for the stuff of nature’s nightlights—bioluminescent bacteria. That’s right, living, glowing creatures are becoming the Picasso’s new palette, replacing those mundane tubes of burnt sienna. Trust me, after this lecture, you’ll never look at the sea or your fridge mold the same way again.

So, what exactly is this bioluminescence I keep flaunting like it’s the latest Supreme drop? Well, to put it simply—because clearly, you need that—bioluminescence is a chemical reaction where organisms like jellyfish, fungi, and certain bacteria produce light. And not just any light, mind you. This is the kind of light that makes fireflies look like they belong in a middle school science fair. We're talking about the natural glow that ignites the deep sea, that underwater rave you didn’t even know existed.

Now, if you’re still struggling to keep up—and I know you are—imagine bioluminescence as Mother Nature’s own rave party, complete with glow sticks. Marine life like Photobacterium phosphoreum or Vibrio fischeri are out there, doing their thing, lighting up the dark in a way that your iPhone flashlight could only dream of. But here’s the kicker: artists have decided that these little critters belong on a canvas, and that’s where we jump headfirst into this fantastically bizarre world of bioluminescence in brushstrokes.

Of course, you’re all probably thinking, “Isn’t this just one step away from commissioning a YouTube channel to live-stream the growth of bioluminescent E. coli?” Well, congratulations, you’re only about 10% correct, which, given your track record, is frankly impressive.

Let’s start with the basics: biology in the studio. This isn’t your regular art class where you smugly compare brushstrokes with the person next to you while pretending you know who Rothko is. No, here, we’re dealing with living organisms, like bioluminescent bacteria, as tools. And before you even ask: no, you can’t just scrape a few moldy leftovers from your fridge and call it bioluminescence. Though, given your kitchen hygiene, I wouldn’t be surprised if you’ve been harboring an entire ecosystem of glowing organisms this whole time.

Anyway, artists have started using real bioluminescent bacteria, the kind that doesn’t just sit in a petri dish but thrives and glows under specific conditions. Think of it as Van Gogh’s “Starry Night” if the stars were, in fact, glowing colonies of bacteria that pulsated under UV light. Honestly, if Vincent were alive today, he’d probably be throwing out all his oil paints and screaming, “Where’s my bacterial glow palette?!”

And yes, it’s every bit as gross and fascinating as you’re imagining.

One artist, whose name you’ve definitely never heard of but will now pretend you’ve known for years, used bioluminescent marine bacteria to create live installations. Picture a room entirely dark, except for a massive, glowing mural on the wall, painted by bacteria that are quite literally alive and thriving as they illuminate the space. It’s as if someone took your weird aquarium nightlight obsession and decided to get all artsy-fartsy with it. So, what happens when the bacteria die, you ask? Well, much like the Kardashians’ relevance, their light eventually fades. A gentle reminder that all art, much like life, is fleeting. How’s that for a philosophical mic drop?

Now, let’s address the elephant in the room, or rather, the pulsating, glowing blob of bacteria. Some of you—those clinging to a moral compass as if it’s not utterly broken by now—might wonder if using living organisms for art is, I don’t know, unethical. And to that, I say: relax. It’s not like anyone is strapping a bioluminescent octopus to a canvas and forcing it to reenact The Last Supper. Although, now that I mention it, that would be a fantastic art piece.

But sure, let’s entertain your ethical quandary for a second. Is it wrong to harness the glow of bacteria for art? Well, if you’re the type who thinks it’s cruel to use bioluminescence, perhaps you should sit down with your vegan friends and debate whether photosynthesis is exploitation of plants. But, I digress. The point is, using bacteria in art is no more unethical than, say, using acrylic paints, except that these tiny light-up critters add an extra layer of life, quite literally, to the canvas. Honestly, it’s art and science holding hands, skipping off into the sunset together.

Besides, it’s 2024, folks—if we’re not painting with bacteria, then what are we even doing? How else will you make a statement on TikTok that says, “I’m both scientifically literate and artistically woke”?

Now, before you spiral into an identity crisis, let’s talk logistics. How does one paint with bioluminescent bacteria? Well, for starters, it’s not like dipping a brush in a glowing vat of E. coli. There’s a delicate process involved, one that requires nurturing the bacteria in petri dishes, waiting for them to reach their glowing potential (much like some of you waiting for that ‘aha!’ moment in this lecture). Once they’re ready, they’re carefully applied to a surface—sometimes with a brush, sometimes using more high-tech methods like laser projectors. It’s not exactly finger painting, people. It’s more like orchestrating a bacterial rave on canvas.

The art world is already saturated with installations where bacteria thrive, illuminating the surroundings. These are not just stagnant pieces hanging in a gallery; they’re living, evolving, and in some cases, dying right before your eyes. The work becomes a commentary on life itself—the transience, the fragility, and, yes, even the weird beauty of death. Like watching a Kardashian PR disaster unfold in real-time.

This leads us, inevitably, to the deep reflection you’ve been avoiding. What does it all mean? What profound message is encoded in the fleeting glow of bioluminescent art? Well, if you’re waiting for me to tell you, you clearly haven’t been paying attention. The real question is: Does art lose its meaning when its medium has a life span? Can you call a piece immortal if its very material is destined to die out?

I can see your confused expressions, and honestly, it’s adorable. You’re clinging to those last vestiges of understanding like a YouTube channel desperate for subscribers. But fear not! Here’s your takeaway: bioluminescence is more than just a cool scientific phenomenon. It’s an entirely new way to blend science education and art, creating a living masterpiece where the line between creation and creature is blurred. It’s a rebellion against everything you thought you knew about brushes and canvases. And yes, in case you missed it, it’s a glorious middle finger to conventional art.

So, next time you’re in an art gallery and see a glowing mural, resist the urge to call it “weird.” Instead, take a moment to appreciate the fusion of biology and artistry, where life itself becomes the medium. And if you still don’t get it, don’t worry—you weren’t really expected to.

[gelatinousfeline]

It's update time again! My last update was in August of 2021 and there have been some pretty neat adventures since then.

I haven't gone by Erinn in quite a while-- my new online name is Jelli! Short for jellicat, which is short for jellicle cat, which influenced my username of gelatinousfeline... yep, I'm still CATS trash. 🤣

In October of 2021, I went on an absolutely unforgettable date with a cute guy I was cast in a play with. We went out for dinner and drinks, then went back to his house and drank coffee while we watched Labyrinth. We talked about so many different things and I finally went home around 5:30AM. I guess it's fair to say we really hit it off!

In January of this year, he proposed to me at the Monterey Bay Aquarium and it was the easiest "yes" in my life. He's in school right now for marine biology, so we're planning on having our wedding in a couple of years!

We have been living together for a little over two years now. My cat fell in love with him right away and still absolutely adores him, and he dotes on her right back.

We're happy. I'm happy. This is the first time I have ever truly felt like I could spend forever with another person.

I still struggle with mental health and the general dystopian bullshit that is 'Murica, but I'm still here and I don't have any intentions of stopping any time soon.

I hope my old friends on here know that I still think of y'all pretty often and I hope that the world is gentle to you.

[cksmart-world]

SMART BOMB

The Completely Unnecessary News Analysis

By Christopher Smart

August 15, 2023

JESUS TOO WOKE FOR THE RIGHT?

Jesus was a Capricorn and ate organic food — that much we know. But was he woke? Some conservative “Christians” think so and say His teachings are too “weak” and “liberal,” explained Russell Moore, former top official for the Southern Baptist Convention. “Turn the other cheek,” is too woke for the Christian right. "When we get to the point where the teachings of Jesus himself are seen as subversive to us, then we're in a crisis." Amen. The family values folks have been preaching something besides brotherly love for a while now. Turn the other cheek? Maybe if they drop their pants first. “Evangelical” is a scary term for heathens, like Wilson and the band. It comes from the Greek “euangelion,” meaning “good news.” In times past “evangelical” referred to people and churches committed to the message that Jesus Christ is the savior of humanity. For some on the right it means something like, “Jesus Christ is the savior of MAGAtes,” others need not apply. Some 81 percent of white evangelical Protestant voters went for Trump in 2020, according to Gallup exit polls. After all, who is more Christlike than Donald Trump. “If you come after me, I'm coming after you.” Well, not exactly what Jesus of Nazareth would say. But then again, He keeps spouting those woke talking points: “Love your neighbor as yourself.” The dude is totally woke. “Love your neighbor?” Ha.

“TREETOP BARBIE” NO TARZAN

Nalini Nadkarni, professor emerita of biology at the University of Utah, was the impetus for a Barbie, known as Treetop Barbie. Nadkarni studies the canopies of forests and spent much of her career in the tops of tall trees where little-known ecosystems thrive. No Wilson, she doesn't swing on vines and call out “ungowa” to the elephants. Two decades ago the biologist put the idea to toy-maker Mattel to create a Barbie that climbed trees for scientific research, she told The Salt Lake Tribune. “I simply wanted to show little girls that being curious about and exploring forest canopies with a crossbow, ropes, helmet and instructional booklet about canopy plants is a possibility.” If Barbie can be an astronaut, a musician or a doctor, why not. But it was a no-go until 2019 when Mattel introduced it's Explorer Series with Barbies of various scientific professions. All told there are some 176 different Barbies with nine body types, 35 skin tones and 94 hairstyles. She does get around. And now Barbie is the star of a blockbuster movie that has over $1billion in ticket sales worldwide. They even love Barbie in China, but the movie has been banned in Lebanon, Kuwait and Vietnam because it “encourages unacceptable behavior and distorts society’s values.” They know trouble when they see it.

WOMEN'S SOCCER DESTROYING AMERICA

Unless you've been living in Iowa where Republican presidential candidates are eating corndogs and trying to be Mini-Trump, you know the Women's U.S. Soccer Team lost to Sweden in the World Cup. True patriots pounced — they knew too well why the U.S. lost: Because the team is a bunch of entitled woke communist losers. They hate this country and are led by the purple-haired Megan Rapinoe, an LGBTQ activist, who four years ago after winning the World Cup said, “I'm not going to the f---ing White House,” when President Trump so graciously invited them.“I'm thrilled they lost. Good. I'm glad you went down,” said conservative commentator Megyn Kelly. In 2016, the then-world champion U.S. Women's team began demanding equal pay. In 2022, they grabbed worldwide headlines when they got it! And if that wasn't uppity enough, they stood in silence during the National Anthem at the World Cup. Trump just couldn't help himself, writing on social media: “Woke equals failure... The U.S. is going to hell.” The internet echoed, “woke pieces of trash,” over and over again. Mike Freedman of USA Today summed it up perfectly: “We have not seen this kind of hatred since Colin Kaepernick took a knee.” It's so fulfilling to have someone to hate. It just brightens up the whole day.

Post script — That's a wrap for another strange week here at Smart Bomb where we keep track of AI (artificial intelligence) so you don't have to. AI, it seems, is everywhere. There's even a new app where folks can text back and forth to Jesus. We wouldn't lie about a thing like that. Maybe Florida's governor will give it a try after reading this headline: “Should DeSantis do mushrooms to be a cooler candidate.” The rapper known as Drake opened his L.A. concert with this: “Don't throw bras, my five-year-old son is here.” Throwing bras at Drake has become a thing ever since... well ever since women started throwing bras at him. It could be worse. Saying the political right is up in arms is like saying the sun also rises. Markers honoring Robert E. Lee's horse, Traveller, have been removed from Washington and Lee University in Lexington, Va. Yes, those damn woke commies have cancelled a horse. What's next? Donald Trump's first wife Ivana is buried at his Bedford, N.J. golf course. Sad. But recently sharp-eyed players noticed that tall grass has grown around her gravestone obscuring it. We have no idea what that means. Last but not least, Republican state legislators, who have been clamping down on abortion rights, think women in the GOP never get abortions. Clearly they haven't seen “Barbie.”

Well Wilson, the Christian right is at it again. But now it seems they're turning on Jesus for being woke and empathetic. It's a troubled world and Jesus probably had a good idea that people were always going to screw up. “Forgive others and you will be forgiven.” So Wilson, tell the guys in the band to put down the bong and take us out with some love and understanding:

Jesus was a Capricorn He ate organic food He believed in love and peace And never wore no shoes Long hair, beard and sandals And a funky bunch of friends Reckon we'd just nail him up If he came down again 'Cause everybody's gotta have somebody to look down on Prove they can be better than at any time they choose Someone doin' somethin' dirty decent folks can frown on If you can't find nobody else, then help yourself to me Eggheads fussin' rednecks cussin' Hippies for their hair Others laugh at straights who laugh at Freaks who laugh at squares Some folks hate the Whites Who hate the Blacks who hate the Klan Most of us hate anything that We don't understand

(Jesus Was a Capricorn — Kris Kristofferson)

[hwajin]

Preettyyy sure you're thinking of the right person🐈

Anyways I'm gonna give you more of lifestory dump now because things have changed and idk it's time to update you👀

First of all, I passed last year. Not with the best grades, but I passed. Meaning I'm in eleventh grade finally and I MUCH prefer it over whatever that was the last few years.

Getting to choose what subjects you wanns focus on and what subjects yoy just wanna dump in the trash (bye bye latin) is a great concept

My focus is on English, German and chemistry :)

I'm a lot more open and, not like the last few years, I don't try to not be seen or not exist anymore. In fact, I try to give myself a presence and just exist in other people's minds. I often casually talk with people I've never spoken to before and it's not weird or forced. I also made some new... friends? Probably wouldn't go that far yet but we're getting there for sure.

Yesterday, I met in the library with some friends so they can study for their biology exam tomorrow and I can get some books on one of the topics for my gfs

Btw, I got the best topics for my gfs's

In psychology I got schizophrenia and did, two things I've been interested in for years

I history I got something with Japan lol

And in English I got hamilton and I get to compare the musical to the real world history

My teachers are great for the most part and I haven't skipped class once yet and am not planning to do so either

I'm among the people with the most additional classes and on Wednesday, I'll get to go to the best university for psychology nearby and even get to attend one psychology and one jura lesson

My grades have gotten better. They're not the best yet, but I don't have to fear about passing anymore

Last Monday, we started a new topic in German class and our teacher made us play out a theatre script. We got to film each other. I decided to get revenge and wrote a script myself, following the same topic to ask him to play it for us. He did :)

He even said it was a prime example of that kind of text and that it was quite fitting for the topic pf that specific lesson. We were allowed to film him and he decided to make the text I wrote public to everyone in class

He actually puts effort into teaching and always gives us some great feedback for our homework and texts. I asked him if I could send him a poem I've written last year, simply because I want to know what I can do better. It's not about our current topic at all, but he still told me to go for it and even said on Friday that I will get feedback soon

And I'll go to London with the seminar course in February and might even get to see the Hamilton musical with some people :)

I still have depression and getting up everyday is an impossible seeming task... But I do it anyway and greet my peers. I don't expect them to say good morning back, but when they do, I do, in fact, have a good morning

when i tell you this made me tear up a bit i'm so proud of you bb!! legit thank you sm for like updating me this much, we barely talk lately which is mad sad jfjeifne but the fact you thought of me enough to tell MAKES ME SUPER HAPPY!!! i'm so glad you found some ppl that are somewhat close to you, even if you're not yet friends with em! also- having chemistry as your focus is CRAZY you smart smart. but english and german sounds mad fun!! i remember those two subjects being super fun as well, also defo update me about the london trip!! i didn't get to do a trip before graduation due to covid SO TELL ME HOW YOURS WENT 😤😤. again bub i'm mad proud of you for coming so far, i'm so so happy omg <333

[qu1nby]

hello! for ffwf: i hear you have many AU ideas? and maybe a skk fic in the works? wanna talk about those?

Sparrow! <333

sorry this is so long!

in no particular order, the AUs:

Journey to the Past - BSD, inspired by the Broadway version of Anastasia! In this AU both Oda and Chuuya died during the battle with Mimic (or so Dazai thought) chaos ensues when a man who looks a lot like Chuuya shows up at the ADA

this one does have a couple chapters up on AO3! I might make a some edits here and there when I get back to working on it :)

Beiguang Rival Business Owners - I've talked about this one a couple times! Ningguang owns and manages the Jade Chamber, a classy restaurant in modern-day Liyue. Everything is going well until a bar (The Crux) opens next door. One thing leads to another and Ningguang begins to lose money because her customers don't like how loud and unruly her new neighbors are. She goes to complain to Beidou, the bar's owner, but whoops! They like each other! I have almost everything planned out but still haven't written past the introduction yet 😅

A Tragedy in Two Acts - BSD, loosely based on Hamilton! This one is being worked on by both me and stray-trash. In this AU, Dazai is still an executive and chooses to join the ADA when the Guild shows up. He (as Hamilton) and Ranpo (as Burr) do not get along. There are 5 chapters up on AO3 and we're slowly but surely working on the rest!

VNC Twilight AU - This is exactly what it sounds like! Vanitas and Noé as Bella and Edward, cringe Biology scenes and all. I haven't worked on it in a while but I did watch the entire Twilight saga recently. That counts, right?

Bonnie & Clyde - BSD, inspired by the musical (can you tell I like musicals?) This one does not even have a document yet! I listened to the soundtrack recently and thought huh. I could put my blorbos in this. I'm still trying to decide which characters go where

NOW! skk! I wasn't planning on writing anything longer than a couple hundred words but then I started thinking about early partnership skk. and how Chuuya would react seeing Dazai seriously hurting (both physically and mentally). I should have it up tonight! I hope 😅

[reneeluvsheeseung]

Just to see you

A/N : for lexi, literally just fluff fluff and more fluff

Warnings : none :3

Genre : fluff (angst if you squint)

non idol!hoon x fem!reader

Me gusta escuchar cuando me hablas

on August 23rd, 2020. you came walked over to me during class. i wasn't paying attention and didn't notice the teacher tell your side of the room pick a partner. This was the 3rd time we've talked all year, it was almost spring break and I started needing you to talk to me more. You sat next to me, being completely patient with me knowing I hadn't been listening. Everything you said seemed more interesting than anything I've ever studied. Your voice more captivating than the night sky.

"Sunghoon, are you listening?" You asked me. I nodded. I wasn't listening to what you were explaining. You were too pretty for me to focus on only Biology class. I just couldn't. You smiled at me and continued.

" Cuando tu sonrisa ilumina tu cara "

January 24, 2020. The first day I had ever seen you. You were running a table during Freshman night, telling the lowerclassmen all about theatre. I couldn't keep my eyes off of you, I wanted to pretend I was one just so you could talk to me. Look into my eyes while you talked about your biggest passion. I wanted to be the one smiling and nodding at you. I wanted you to look at me with admiration.

Your smile was so beautiful. My heart swelled just seeing it. Your laugh and giggles filled my ears as I drowned everything else out. It was you, only you. That's all I needed.

" Se asoma el deseo y en ese momento te quiero besar "

January 4th, 2021. Our first kiss.

My favorite memory of us. You know I was so nervous my hands were sweating. We were playing hide and seek. We both knew the other people were found and probably forgot about us. But still, we stayed under the trampoline covering our mouths to hold our giggles. You were holding my hand, I pretended not to acknowledge it because I knew if I did I would've had a panic attack on the inside. I was never one for touch, but you made it my love language. The touch of you made me feel safe.

"Hoon?" You asked whispering, still with your head in the game.

"Hm?" I asked. You stared at me, the bright moon lightened your eyes beautifully. You were so beautiful in all angles. All of your imperfections you said you had, we're never there. I stared at you with admiration. The kind where your eye shimmered when you thought about it, where your hand started pounding just because. That kind.

"Can I kiss you?" You were staring at my lips now, then back to my eyes. I just nodded. Completely incapable of saying anything as I was so taken aback. And there it happened. Something I waited for, for what felt like forever. Just that fast it happened. The stars extra bright, shimmering against your skin. You hands wrapping around my neck, I wanted to stay like this forever. I felt such warmth. I felt alive.

" Porque la verdad es que me tienes tan enamorado "

February 6th.

"You don't get that I can be friends with whoever I want?" You yelled at me, picking up your trash off the table.

"I do, but why Jake?" I asked immaturely.

"You're so selfish. You can't even ask me out, yet you expect me to be yours?" You finished. You threw away your trash and walked towards the door. "I need a break from you, Sunghoon. Just. Don't call, don't text, don't find me." You said as you closed the door. My heart skipped a beat. Did I go too far? How could I let you go like that.

Hours went by. Then days.

It was the third day of our "break". I couldn't take it anymore. My thoughts were all you. You consumed my mind, my happiness. I felt alive when I was with you. I needed to hear you. I knew you said you needed a break. But I can't sit around and let you go.

I called. No answer. I called again, straight to voicemail. I knew that you only answered voicemails. So I left one.

"Y/N.. I cant go on anymore. I was foolish, I know that. I wanted to tell you that I liked you. But it's more than that, I love you. I cant fathom the idea of not being around you. Of you not being there for me when I need you most. I know you need space, you need time. I want you to take all the time you need. I want you to be happy before anything and I understand if I.. I'm not the one who makes you happy," I ended the voice message. Tears clouded my mind. I was so confused with these emotions. I didn't know how to handle myself with how vulnerable you made me. How protective I was of you all because I loved you.

My beautiful Y/N, I love you.

Your biggest fan, Sunghoon.

------

You wiped your tears. You missed Sunghoon. Your heart hurt, he only made it worse. He was so far away. Him being in Korea to begin his training for a tournament. You never needed him more than now. You wanted to kiss him, to hug him, to tell him how much he meant to you.

You

- I love you. Please, don't ever forget that I love you.

Hoon :}

- Did you like it? I made it for you, darling.

You

- I loved it.

Hoon :}

- :)

The end !!

[evilminji]

@ryoalouette has given me IDEAS and that was ill advised of theeeeem~☆ now I know how to make this MESSIER! >:Dc

It's like Super Villian Jerry Springer! Only the Justice League can't even enjoy this because these fuck ups are taking their EXTENSIVE LISTS of personal problems out on not just each other, but the general public AND important infrastructure.

PLEASE GET THERAPY!

From ANYBODY!

Just PUT DOWN THE SWORDS AND MECH SUITS!!! P-please! Oh god, not another library! Stop THROWING CARS AT EACH OTHER! *sobs in Heroics*

But! Slade Wilson. Deathstroke. Terrible, terrible Father but absolutely a Daddy. Bamf silverfox and awful person. Disgustingly competent in all that he does. Except, you know, BEING A FATHER TO HIS KIDS.

Here for a contract.

Kidnap a newborn, to deliver them, CAREFULLY to their Father. Well, second Father. No business of his, what genders are in play here, or the biologies behind it. Human, alien, or otherwise. Time to infiltrate a hospital.

Only to be stopped in the hall by the Trouble that is Dan Masters.

Pretty blue's colder then ice, jaw line sharp enough to cut, and GIGANTIC. All muscle, none of it decorative. Balanced like a fighter that knows how to bring buildings down.

Unamused to see him.

Well, now... that's hardly fair. He always HAS had a thing, for tough little shits that hate him on sight. It's how he met his ex-wife. Pity he's gonna have to smash this one's face in. But a contract is a contract.

Dan however? Feels nothing.

Get stomped on.

They destroy pretty much everything around them. Superman has to intervene. Dan calls him something unpleasant in Kryptonian. He was finally starting to have FUN. It's not often a human can keep up with him. The man's practically a halfa!

Not to mention... Dan was having a PETY sort of Fun, thwarting the man. Oh~ such a PITY! Your Poor Perfect Track Record! Would be a SHAME... if you happened to FAIL A CONTRACT.

Brat! Dan has Found His New Hobby(tm)! No, you CAN'T talk him out of it! *maniacal laughter*

Danny is? So alarmed? He's OLD, Dan! What are you...!? *frantically does soul searching to see if this a Dan Thing or a Them Thing* Wait. WAIT!! Is this because he can kick your ass?!

Curse you Fenton Comptency Kin-*cough*, I mean, ATTRACTION!!! Why must you be genetic!!!??

But why THIS GUY? *Dan shrugs* (I wanna break him) ..... we're sorry we asked! Never mind! We fucking HATE IT HERE. This family is awful.

Fine! You know WHAT! If Danny could rehabilitate ONE trash fire, he can do it AGAIN! ( ◇.◇)-- YOU(spoken as a threat). Get your Seducing Brothers With Violence Having Ass OVER HERE! Congratulations. It's a BOY.

My name is Karma, I am here for your kneecaps.

You are my God Father now. No, you do not have a choice. WELCOME TO THE FAMILY, WILSON.

You Know How There Are Those AU? Where SUPER Injured Ghosts Need To Retreat To Their Core?

No one seems to be USING that to its fullest potential! For SHENANIGANS! Because! Who?? Could POSSIBLY carry a Halfa's Core safely... but another Halfa?! A FULL ghost would KILL them. A human would be killed! What terribly precarious peril we find ourselves in! Oh nooooooo!

Well, no worry!

As much as Dani fuckin HATES this. That there is her brother. Her Template. Her Clone Daddy and Bestest of Bros. Like HECK she's gonna let him suffer for centuries and possibly DIE. She can take it, Doc! Pop him in! We'll go road tripping and-

What do you MEAN "No"?

Unstable??! Of course she's unstable! But the-.... Oh.

Turns OUT? Dani? Can hitch a ride in DANNY for Emergency Medical Aid... but NOT the other way around. Her body is too loosely held together. He would parasiticly consume her from within. Instead of feeding off her Ecto System like injured ghosts are supposed too, because she's a CLONE? AND an unstable one at that? His Core would just... see her body as free ectoplasm. All of it.

He'd eat her.

Which mean Frostbite can not and WILL NOT allow that.

But he's HURT! That big, off screen, cataclysmic Fight To Save Everybody From *cough cough mumbles* and settle us all in the DC universe, REALLY messed him up! What are we supposed to DO!? He can't STAY like this!!!

Enter-> My FAVORITE DCxDP Trash Ship! Vlad&Lex!!! *horrified screaming from the crowds, someone shouts "oh god, no! Please!"* Ha! There are no gods here, silly billys! Only two terrible, terrible HIGHLY Dramatic, self serving, incredibly damaged, gay peacocks. In Business Suits that cost more then your house is worth.

They're AWFUL~♡

And! Vlad was sent ahead to lay the ground work. Insure there would be no GIWs. Also because no one could stand him and his EXTENSIVE criminal record. But that's besides the point.

But!

You know what he found? A Business Nemesis. Who he routinely dates and/or Dramatically Hate Fu-*coughs* I mean, attempts a Corporate Take Over(tm) off. You know how it is. Business. He ALSO gets to make it no secret he's a "Meta", thanks to the INCOMPETENCE of one Jack Fenton, because that- *seething rant*

Yet? Dispite his STILL burning hatred for Jack? And his finally letting go of Maddie? You know what he STILL wants?

For Danny to be his Son.

*Gets a call from Frostbite*

...............soooooo........ what you're SAYING is..... I can be pregnant with Daniel.

You, Frostbite, need ME, Vladimir Masters, THE ONLY OTHER HALFA, to carry Daniel around inside my body, in what to all appearances resembles a pregnancy, in order to heal him. Because I am an Older And Stronger Halfa Upon Which He Relies.

:)

*instantly begins plotting*

Just? Imagine. Vlad is a FUCKIN LIAR. No one but him would even KNOW what was going on! He just? Rocks up one day, like? *falsely demure* "oh I couldn't POSSIBLY has any scotch, Lex! >:) I'm eating for Two~☆" and just? Deals the MAXIMUM amount of psychic damage he can.

Probably says it at their weekly, public, Veiled Threats Brunch.

It makes front page news. Luthor choked on his eggs. The paparazzi lost their SHIT. Vlad is doing the FULL Celebrity Mom Thing. The classes. The photo shoots. The Gucci sunglasses as he peruses high end strollers. All while HEAVILY suggesting that not only is "The Baby" Lex's.... but that he's going to withhold the child and deny Lex any access.

Danny isn't even aware. He's in a lovely lil medical coma. Dani is trying to find a good spot to plop down Amity. She just know Vlad is being... Vlad. Meh. He can handle it. Dan? He's not even IN the human realm and is not sure he wants to be.

But over in the LEAGUE? Everything's on fuckin FIRE.

Kon is losing his SHIT and Clark is thousand yard staring into the void. Kon's half brother is in the hands of a... Less Then Ideal... Meta that Batman is PRETTY sure is highly suspect. Might be a deliberate weapons experiment. Certainly is a hostage. And the DRAMA.

Lex has never been worse.

He might actually stab his...partner? Vlad. At the hospital. The SECOND the child is born. There are already long term kidnapping plans in the making. He's hiring lawyers. Getting VICIOUS. There have been talks with DEATHSTROKE. By BOTH OF THEM.

Clark wants to cry.

@hypewinter @ailithnight @nerdpoe @hdgnj @the-witchhunter @mutable-manifestation @babbling-babull

[uncloseted]

tw: transphobia😭 hi I'm a radfem cisgirl (I hate using "cis" and "trans" words but here I need to for the sake of the story) I've got a friend from ny highschool (we're in college now) who's also a radfem and is always sharing great feminist stuff. Yesterday, she shared the comment of a girl saying "this fight for abortion (it is illegal in my country) is for men/people with vaginas too!" and mocked it. I preferred not to make up any opinions about her because of one single post. But today, she shared a picture of Miss Spain 2019 (a trans girl) who talked about her experience with sexism, and mocked her too. This time, it was obvious to me she was just being transphobic trash. She received lots of backlash and deleted the post, but instead made a new post complaining about people caring about transphobia but not about sexism (a very stupid post, if you ask me). This time, along with some comments from other girls respectfully telling her to stop being cruel and mocking towards trans women, she received a lot of support from other TERFS (although these TERFS said they hate being called TERFS just for being honest and brave lmmfao). They said that transwomen don't belong in radfem because they just suffer from discrimination, not oppression, and listed some reasons why: according to them, trans girls don't suffer: obstetrician violence, forced pregnancy, feminicide, child marriage, genital femenine ablation, glass ceiling barriers, being implanted "maternal sense" while kids, getting their ears perfored while babies, among other stuff, and that differentiate ciswomen biological reality from trans women biological reality isn't transphobia. Other girls said they knew transwomen who were mean to them, using derogatory terms to refer to ciswomen and they were mean and cruel, using this argument to generalize about all transwomen smh.

I'm just so stoned that people could be so cruel to transwomen and set them aside from the feminist fight when they suffer from already being excluded from so many things. It sickens me that some people don't belive trans people exist and treat them that bad, specially trans girls. I wish I could debunk the info this TERFS are spreading because it's so dangerous and enables transphobics to keep harming transpeople and I find that unbearable, but I am not as informed as I should be to debute all their lies at once. Could you help me?

So starting with the question of transwomen in radfem spaces, I don’t think many (if any) transwomen would say that they experience the exact same type of discrimination that cis women do.  There’s often this idea that “trans people don’t believe in biology”, but that’s a bad faith argument.  Trans people understand biology very well, often more than their cis counterparts do, because it’s such a big part of their identity.

Yes, transwomen don’t suffer obstetrician violence, forced pregnancy, child marriage, genital feminine ablation, etc. (I can’t even find any articles on the ear thing).  They do experience femicide, at way higher rates that cis women do. Transwomen are women, and they’re discriminated against in their own way; sometimes that’s because they’re women, and sometimes that’s because they’re trans.  Transwomen are largely supportive of fighting with cis women to rid the world of discrimination for all women, cis and trans alike.  

By contrast, TERFs seem to think that because transwomen sometimes suffer a different type of discrimination than cis women, they can’t be “real women”.  But that argument makes no sense to me.  The vast majority of affluent, white, straight, cis women will never suffer the violence that is apparently so central to the cis female experience.  They’re extremely unlikely to experience femicide, child marriage, genital mutilation... and yet they can acknowledge that those issues are feminist issues, even though they’re not universal to all women.  Why shouldn’t the discrimination that transwomen face also fall under that umbrella?  And if they can accept that women who have had hysterectomies, or women who have chromosomal differences, or women who are intersex, or women who present butch are all women, why shouldn’t transwomen also fall under the umbrella of womanhood?

Further, is that really all that womanhood is to TERFs?  Experiencing the trauma and discrimination that so often accompanies being a cis women?  I don’t think inclusion to a group should be predicated on the amount that one has suffered or how many “oppression points” they’ve amassed. And I don’t think being a woman should be predicated solely on biology, especially given that we never really know what kind of biology a person has just by looking at them.  What “being a woman” is is a metaphysical question that derails the discussion of trans feminism, and it’s a question that I don’t think a lot of TERFs actually have a good answer to.  It’s just an easy way to put the burden of proof on trans people and trans allies and waste our time (but if you’re interested, I do have an opinion on this. I just think it’s best saved for a different time).

In terms of trans people being oppressed, there’s all sorts of data to suggest that trans oppression is very real.  In the US, trans people were banned from serving in the military under the Trump administration, a decision that was only overturned a few days ago, and the Trump administration also reversed the Obama- era Title VII policy that protected trans employees from discrimination.  Trans people are overwhelmingly lacking legal protections- there are no federal non-discrimination laws that include gender identity, and in some states, debates over limiting the rights of trans people to use public bathrooms are ongoing.  

About 57% of trans people faced some type of rejection from their family upon coming out.  Around 29% of trans people live in poverty (compared to 11% in the general population and about 22% in the lesbian and gay populations), and that number is higher for trans people who are Black (39%), Latinx (48%), or Indigenous (35%).  27% of trans people have been fired, not hired, or denied a promotion due to their trans identity.  90% of trans people report facing discrimination in their own jobs.  Trans people face double the rate of unemployment that cis people do (about 14%) and about 44% are underemployed. This is despite the fact that a reported 71% of trans people have some level of post-secondary education- actually higher than the general population, which is about 61%.  It’s often cited that women earn 77 cents on the dollar compared to men, but that statistic doesn’t even exist for trans women.

54% of trans people have experienced intimate partner violence (compared to about 24.3% of cis women), 47% of trans people have been sexually assaulted (compared to about 18% of cis women), and about 10% are physically assaulted in a given year. 

About 22% of trans people and 32% of trans people of color in the US have no health insurance (compared to about 11% of cis women), and 55% of trans people who do have insurance report being denied coverage for at least one gender affirming surgery.  29% of trans adults have been refused healthcare by a doctor or provider because of their gender identity.  In one study, 50% of trans people said that they had to teach their medical providers about trans care.  Trans people are four times as likely than the average population to be infected by HIV.  41% have attempted suicide at one point in their lives, compared to 1.6% of the general population.  

20% of trans people have been evicted or denied housing due to their gender identity, and trans people are four times more likely than cis people to be homeless.  Only 1/5 of trans people report that they have been able to update all of their identification documents, and 41% have a driver’s license that does not match their gender identity.  22% of trans people report that they have been denied equal treatment by a government agency or official, 29% reported police harassment, and 12% reported having been denied equal treatment or harassed by judges or court officials.

75% of transgender students feel unsafe at school because of their gender expression, 60% are forced to use a bathroom or locker room that does not match their gender, 50% were unable to use the name and pronouns that match their gender, and 70% of trans students say that they’ve avoided bathrooms because they feel unsafe.  78% of trans students report being harassed or assaulted at school.

And these are all statistics that focus on trans people at large.  The discrimination is worse for transwomen and especially transwomen of color.  All of that certainly sounds like systemic oppression to me.

Every person who chooses to be a TERF perpetuates this discrimination.  It’s just bigotry towards trans people, plain and simple.  And for what?  A reactionary fear that all transwomen are secretly sexual predators and all transmen are confused girls who don’t know better?  Unfortunately, men can be sexual predators just fine without having to jump through the convoluted hoops trans people go through to be recognized as their true gender identity, and transwomen are way more likely to be sexually assaulted than they are to be sexual predators.  There are no reported cases at all that transwomen are dressing up as men to assault women in bathrooms.  There aren’t even statistics on how frequently trans people are sexual predators. And transmen are just as capable of making informed, thoughtful decisions as cis women.  

TERFs shouldn’t be pitting themselves against trans people.  There’s just nothing to be gained from doing that.  They should be working alongside trans people to fight the patriarchy and the discrimination that cis and trans women both face, regardless of what that discrimination entails.

Last thought.  Not to be a stan or anything but if you’re interested in learning more about these issues, Contrapoints has a number of really good videos on the topic of TERFs (including one that just released today!). They delve a bit deeper into the actual questions that TERFs often bring up and provide some nuanced answers.

[aladylostintimeandspace]

"I don't know how you did this to me.. but it had to have been you. You had to have done something." Clara rambled as she spoke, her head was spinning. "This can't be possible.. We're both.." But there hadn't been anybody else. Clara ran to a trash bin and threw up. Without meaning to, she dropped it - a positive pregnancy test.

@thedoctorsboss

Missy leaned against the wall, her arms crossed as she just watched Clara ramble on and on. She looked Clara up and down slowly before pushing herself off the wall and walking over to her , picking up the item that she had dropped .

Now having a clear image of the item, Missy felt her hearts stop dead for a second, her breath getting caught in her throat. It took her a few moments before she could get both of them working again but when she did, she awkwardly placed a hand  on Clara’s back , trying to rub it in a consoling manner.

“Well... it’s not impossible... its just highly improbable... I mean us Time Lords/ Time Ladies have a different biology to humans... I am not entirely sure how to explain it... I mean its possible with Galifreyians but...”

Instead of finishing her response, Missy pulled Clara back from the bin and pushed it away so that the smell would affect them both less as she would rather Clara didn’t throw up again.

“Now...Clara...uh here... clean our yourself up a bit ... if you need to...” She said handing her a handkerchief that she had in her pocket.

“I think we need to have a little talk... i think you should start though.”

[transprince]

GODDDDDDD I wanna talk about it but also licherally no one is going to know what the fuck I'm on rn

U guys dont even know about what im up to rn...