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anonymouse-is-here · 1 year ago

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It's tiring. Having lived for so long that you forget what you truly want. When you're as old as I am, you find you don't know what your sense of purpose is. And so, you wish for death. Death, whom you have watched for so long, admired for millennia and hoped to one day embrace as you finally let go of all of your troubles and reunite with the souls you have so terribly missed. I do not wish for worldly pleasures and do not hold any materialistic desires. Yet the ever-cruel fate continues to be harsh and merciless. For there is but one who calls out to me. Wishes for me to listen to his prayers and sort out all that which troubles him.

Okay, enough bullshit. I'll get to the point.

Wait, hold the fuck on for a minute. What the actual- I cannot–I can't with this shit anymore. What the hell even!

He is the only one standing between me and eternal bliss. I have no choice but to help him. Stupid humans and their endless demands. Why is it always, 'O great Goddess! Let there be rain!' or 'O Goddess, I need more money! Please make me rich!'. It's never, 'Here, have some fruit that I offer out of sincere gratitude and appreciation I hold for you my dearest most beautiful otherworldly wise and gorgeous Goddess!'. They only care about themselves. So, out of the kindness of my compassionate and merciful heart, due to the lack of another option more like, I decided to help him. So I was like, "Tell me what it is that you desire mortal." I know, I know the high and mighty act is a bit unnecessary, but! It's not like I have much else to keep me entertained except for the voices in my head, quite literally.

"O Great Deity, on this day I approach thee with a plea that has lingered within me for a considerable span."

Yeah, yeah grant me this or that or whatever. Can he just get to the point already so I can just go ahead and kill myself?

"O Goddess, I stand prepared to welcome death with open arms; I beseech thee, grant me this request."

Seriously, 'Woe be unto me?' who even says that bullshit anymore? What is this Romeo and James or whatever the other human was called? These mortals can't go two days without asking for something. Always begging for more. And if he wanted to die, why the hell did he come to me? Of all people! The Goddess of life and growth is the last fucking person you want to approach for a wish like that! What am I supposed to do? These dumb humans, honestly. Maybe he asked other deities but they didn't pay him any mind so he's resorted to pestering me now. Ugh, I hate this. Why does everyone keep bothering me all the time? I don't go around bothering random people I don't even know.

"Bu- but why? Why would you," I point at his puny body as I say this, you know, for dramatic effect and to really get the point across. God knows these humans are dumb as all hell. Who even came up with them? Oh. Right. It was me. Whatever! "a tiny human, want something that not only will completely erase your existence but which you will receive in a bit anyway? Why not wish for money or whatever it is that interests you foolish humans?"

"In these days, a heavy burden befalls me, for life seems bereft of purpose! Woe be unto me, as loneliness engulfs my being. My beloved, pledged to another, yet I am certain her heart remains tethered to mine."

Oh shit, is it actually Romeo and James era? You see, we gods don't really experience the passage of time. Not like humans do. For us, everything is happening all at once and also, never. That's why we're always so bored but also so tired. Time is weird, man.

Come to think of it, I've only ever talked to one other god. That would be Astrid, she's the goddess of beauty and love. Absolutely stunning that one, I'm telling you. She even smells really nice. I'm not creepy I just spend a lot of time with her okay? I don't really have anything to do anyway. Oops, I'm getting sidetracked again, aren't I? "Alright, relax don't get all mopey on me, in case you weren't aware, I am Aetheria, Goddess of Life and Growth. You do see how I can't grant you your wish right?"

"I come hither, traversing from my abode, to entreat and beseech, and—alas—you deny to bestow such a humble plea? I had held lofty expectations for the purportedly benevolent goddess, yet thou art not as I envisioned. I take my leave!"

"Hey, no- wait! Fine, I guess I'll help you." Argh, this absolute dumbfuck! Couldn't he have asked for money or some other shit these idiot humans die for? I can't with this. "Since I cannot grant you your wish, I shall help you reclaim your rightful place beside your lover."

"I thank thee, kind and generous goddess! Thou art verily as they said. Thy grace knoweth no bounds!"

Now, how to get this idiot his lover back. Hmm. This is tiring. I can't. I give up. Maybe I should go to Astrid. Yeah, she'll certainly know what to do.

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A/n: Oof, this is going to be longer than I expected. I'll update it some other day.

A deity has had enough and is ready to die, however one tiny human still calls their name in prayer, forcing this deity to exist. The deity now attempts to help the tiny human in order to finally fade away.

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this-is-a-dystopian-parable · 2 years ago

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"i can call him up and tell him what i want!

Jesus.mp3"

This bit lives in my BRAIN. The idea that you can pray for what you want out of life, but Malloy just wants to live life. To enjoy it.

"i am goalless, theres just thump thump this beat, and merely attending to each new downbeat, thats what im going to do. after every hit of the drum there another one coming up"

"do i want more than this? im making a living at it now. im paying the rent on these outbursts now; and the people are good, everyones mind is reeling in another way and i love the laughs each one gives me. how can i ever come close to knowing them all? is there room for me? do i want more than them?"

"i dont want anything, i dont. god, please i dont. please let that be the truth. cause ill get so sad if i want it and dont have it and ive got so much right now that im almost blind. i can be what i want to be/i can choose whatever heaven grants. but i just want to be whatever heaven grants"

The goal for him isn't a big lofty thing, this is 2005 and the idea of a show of his hitting Broadway is still laughable. But he's making a living off what he loves and his life is filled with people and laughter and he had to get there to realize it. But maybe that's the new goal, to be able to live comfortably drumbeat to drumbeat.

Gah and I haven't even mentioned how the sections starts out, before he can go on his musings, starts out the first thing he would tell Jesus is to thank him for music. "first im gonna tell him, again, how i love glorious sound" yeah.

and the piece before it!

"these things happened, and now i am those things. im really growing up.

what will happen next? i dont know. but it is sure to be"

Oh late 20's Dave Malloy, cruise ship era Dave Malloy, we're really in it now

#pointless dave malloy

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pokefanbri · 5 years ago

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If I move on, even if we're not together anymore...it just feels like a betrayal & i dont know if I can bring myself to do it, Idk if I can! 😭 I was left like an unexpecting pet or even pokemon lol wondering where its owner went after it was abandoned without knowing why...i know that sounds silly...but it makes me wonder if I was left hanging in such a way with no closure...am i like left on a back burner or some shit. Its ridiculous I know, i shouldn't wait for a return when there's none deserved...but in my eyes, we both must work on ourselves including with self love & evaluating our faults etc, b4 jumping into something serious...like jumping the gun b4 we're ready..& I know he knows that too. He doesn't realize how awesome of a person he really is, fuck the bruised ego or what have u after everything, he doesn't like showing weakness i know him well...thats also a guy thing 😅 it doesn't make him less of the great person ive known for months.

But i don't know what to do, im at a loss, id be giving my heart to someone else when it was wide open for him if he wanted it...and the more I learn & understand by putting myself in his shoes, somehow my love grew even more so after the fact....which makes it even more of an agonizing pain. I don't need his validation, I would just like to speak 😔 It may or may not be painful for him to, but it is for me to not.

The whole relationship, all the events, everything karma,God or even Satan ffs is giving us thereafter....its all piling up without release. Right now at this moment as im sobbing again, id do anything for a proper chance to be redeemed in some way & maybe truly experience the relationship the way its meant to be 😭 but I know deep down its probably not likely even if granted we were brought together for a reason like fate for self growth for example. All I know is that I'd rather hear it from him, that everything is gonna be okay, & that he prays for me just as much as i do for him 😭😭😭 I don't care about the era of our relationship, I can move past the downs without forgetting the great positives.. id put that shit aside if it means i can just get my best friend back 😭 cuz losing both at the same time is whats killing me rn, i can't handle this shit, I just dont want to think about this anymore...it just hurts too much. I hope with time, things change & we're cool again if that would ever be a possibility.

Nothing like this has ever happened to me before, im so confused & scared its harder to trust with everything out to get me..this was not supposed to be how my life turned out..Im a hot broken mess. I ask myself everyday why, why did it have to be like this after all the good, what was it worth...was it worth losing someone in a blink of an eye to avoid dealing with it rather than confront & becoming better for eachother, was it worth sacrificing it all including our well being!? And why, why was i unwanted for a whole half a year!!!!! No, if anything especially MY time & energy was wasted, I did everything right, I damn well know what it takes to be in a relationship I thrive on long term...he made his choices & it ended up costing us both. If I knew the end result would ruin me in certain areas, I would've risked it to have gone in the 1st place...😔 Who chooses to close themselves off even more, not want to fix whats broken for greater things within, & instead runs away from it 😭 Who guards themselves from vulnerability so much so, as if they've locked themselves up from any1...makes me think who tf fucked his heart up in his past where he thinks he can't be close? Am I crazy or in the ball park I have no idea, me trailing off to theories is exactly why im confused, my mind is literally working overtime to figure it all out & i can't stop it...actually gives me a headache. Im not sure ill ever get my answers 😔 I just know Its harder to move on without knowing how I ended up here. A small part of me thinks its a cruel joke just to put us in a position to get our shit together on our own merits & everything would be fine between us again..but at what cost. I just don't know anymore.

Though i grew fond of him & my heart grew 3 sizes bigger..over time his became less & left cold, but throughout...we were still homies til the bitter end, that ill always cherish.

You will never know how to truly love someone & be given the glory of that life, if you're unable to love yourself first. Nobody is perfect, but when u look at the one u love...they're perfect to you. When i looked at him, I thought he was the most amazing person...flaws & all I didnt care, I accepted him for who he was. Like "see that person right there..their face brings me joy & is why I get outta bed just to see it in the morning" All i wanted was for him to feel the same 😔

Theyll always have a piece of my heart, the bond connects even if by a thread, it will always be there. The pieces of the past are a puzzle to my heart & it searches within those pieces for what it needs.. it will be sewn or put back together eventually & may swell again, by who I do not know. Idk if ill ever feel that way again or find someone who'd measure up to that same level as I again. Only time will tell, all i can do is pray...for them & myself that we find peace, to forgive & forget so we rest a little easier to better face today's challenges as they come. I pray they're alright & send any strength they may need to fight whatever battles they face as well. Thats all i can do

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letstalkshipping · 10 months ago

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no okay... I have some things to say.

[cw suicide mention below: not details just discussing the concept in christian belief] but, of course, just killing yourself to get to that holy reward faster is cheating, which is why it's a "sin" that (with the cruelest of irony) prevents you from ever reaching that holy reward of peace with god in death. you're supposed to be willing to suffer in life despite longing for death. you're supposed to be thankful for whatever suffering god "gives" you as a test to prove your worthiness before granting you death. and if you try to escape that suffering before god "wants" you to because you're not grateful enough, then you don't "deserve" peace

I understand these concerns, and maybe this is a valid take for many of the churches that are around. But I want to say that there is a lot of confusion that arises when churches don't teach Bible truth in the right spirit, and even more corruption of the narrative when other people look onto those churches with a mindset of criticism and dissatisfaction - something that is very easy to do, especially when you consume a lot online. So, I see your thoughts here, but I'd like to share some responses to a couple of them.

I'm not sure if you're confused or I'm missing something, but in Protestant (Non-Catholic) Christian belief, this idea of suicide sending you to Hell is not a thing at all as far as I am aware. It is rarely spoken of as a sin and never will it be said that the act of suicide will keep a person out of Heaven. The belief is that everyone already is on the wide road to Hell. Killing oneself isn't going to change which eternal destination you'll have. Catholics do preach this though, but that might have changed in their "modern" era, I'm not sure.

Secondly, the idea that we are "supposed to" or in other words "forced to" be thankful and willing in suffering is skewing the truth. Yes, we are told in the Bible to endure hardship as a soldier of the faith. Yes, we are instructed that everyone who lives a godly life and is saved by Christ will have persecution in their life, and yes, we are given the example to follow to preserve joy and make the decision to praise God in those hard times... BUT, true Christianity makes that a natural heart response. Of course it is hard, but when you walk in the light of God and let him be in your life for real, He gives you those things, even when You can't produce them. It's called the "fruit of the spirit". It's love, joy, peace, gentleness, goodness, meekness, patience in trials. These things actually appear in the life and heart of a Christian who is truly a child of God and who is making the decision to walk with Him daily.

I'll finish with this small note. You say this suffering is a "test to prove your worthiness" and I can see how you could come to this conclusion, but that's not really right. We are never worthy on our own of God's goodness no matter what good we do, so God doesn't want to give us challenges to see if we're doing all right or "worthy." Instead, these things can come from our actual enemies or if God brings them or allows them, He does so to help us grow and learn more of His working in our lives and what He can do with us to help others. The Bible says that all things work together for good to them that love God, to them that are called. He's not checking if we are good people: He's making us into good people.

keep thinking about that facebook post i saw one time about this mom mourning over her daughter going to college and getting corrupted by "The Liberals" and there was this other woman on the thread talking about how thankfully her son avoided being "turned liberal" because he got a factory job right out of high school and worked 6 days a week 10 hours a day in the factory.

you think he preserved his good republican "values" because of that? you think those are values? he hasn't grown beyond what you taught him because he doesn't have the energy or the time to explore beyond it, and you think that's GOOD?

#christianity

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nicegaai · 1 year ago

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breaking this into one shots hmmmm what would that look like hmmmm.

ok this is getting long maybe this isnt oneshots but the overall definitely not half assed timeline im piecing together of their lives mostly focused on iceland bc i know more ab icelandic history than norwegian

might recycle old ficlet of nor finding out ice exists. it doesnt gel w current headcanons anymore, so maybe not. in any case, i start by establishing their first meeting or first impressions or something like this. either in person, or via messenger. downplaying the psychic connection stuff.

nor and his collection of letters from ice and how he feels about the little guy. and some of ices life from his narration to nor in the letters. ive had this letter correspondence hc for a long time i think i could have fun w it. i wanna research rune sticks again

oh my god. wha t if i . what if i made this a part 2 of my vinsaga crossover oneshot i keep meaning to finish writing ........ anywayz nor comes to visit via bargaining w trading ships and den comes with him to meet ice for the first time. (this is denmarknorway's twin realms era) and i want to establish where and how ice lives on his own, if its on his own. all that. i have a few conflicting thoughts on his living situation. and ofc it changes over time.. but he is a lonely boy. and the two come w lots of gifts and he does his best to b hospitable. hes jealous that den knows his brother so well and sees nor more than he does. hes too loud. but hes really nice :'( denmark is like holy shit nor you have a mini me

kalmar era n5 living together cliche setting, something something iceland isnt strong enough (old enough) to be away from his home for long. long being a few years to a decade, time moves differently and all. he wants to stay but doesnt want to stay but knows he will miss everyone but isnt holding up well in mainland scandinavia. is granted permission to go home. cries about it. he plans to come back when he's well, but then the situation collapses politically while he's gone. he begins to write to norway again.

they spend a medieval midwinter holiday together. not for the first time or the last. i want this one to happen soso bad but research would b a whole thing and i havent done it so i cant even say much rn. its at denmarks house because a) he really cares about keeping their facsimile of a family together b) iceland belongs to him now post-kalmar so he'd be there either way. nor comes. sweden comes with him. finland also comes, because sweden wants him to + finland misses everyone too and its nice. theyre reconciling on a personal level / having a NICE FAMILY XMAS and we're NOT FIGHTING ABOTU POLITICS !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! TRUCE until new years!!!!! and ice spends the whole time ignoring the elephants in the room and going omg..... nor way looks so cool .... wow .......... and nor hangin out w him to avoid drama n being like iceee u got tallerrr i missed u i wuv u!!<- beaming these thoughts into his head but otherwise being like Hello.......... important to note that iceland is still a creepy child, this is important to me. finland is sick of the thick tension between den & su and goes over to where ice and nor are coloring and is like hi guysss what r u doingg and iceland turns around dead stare and is like this is my depiction of the end of the world in fire and blood. my medium of choice today: the humble crayon. hes like idk seven or eight. and they didnt have crayons then but whatever. and nor is like he has such an artistic soul ... im in charge of drawing the parade of demons. their resemblance is uncanny in both appearance and weird aura. and finland gets to be in charge of drawing something else and they 3 have a good time together while denmark and sweden try to amicably bake cookies together. greenland is outside avoiding everyone this-house-is-a-fucking-nightmare style and faroe didnt even show up btw. and sweden only brought norway ..... and finland. not because hes in love with him or anything

laki volcanic eruption ficlet. 1700s. (this might be too dramatic of a timeskip i might be missing some things). iceland is deathbed-ill and den sends nor in his stead to check on him. no den doesnt have any power over nor, he is worried as a father but isnt able to leave his duties and he knows nor is even more worried than him. he brings many gifts courtesy of den and some from him. food, supplies .. he doesnt know how bad it is yet. i have a whole thing for this. he stays through the first winter, at least. maybe a year. i dont think he can afford to be away from his own lands for long, the eruption aftermath is bad all over. but nor DOES believe for a while that iceland might die (he wont. maybe naturally, of poisoning, but he comes back.) and stays in iceland longer than he should. just in case. this is also ice's beginning of adolescence mayb??????? he had a very slow start of 700 years as a child but either shortly before the event, or after he survives this, he gets another growth spurt.

iceland is spending a Proper Christian Christmas / winter holidays / end of the year celebration at denmarks, some years later. specifics depend on what research will turn up. uhh the french revo happened the usa exists now. more importantly, norway and iceland BOTH come to christmas this year. and ice is around the age nor was when they first met (11? 13?) and nor is now late teens early 20s. aaaand this is where icelands crush rly starts to take off. 7 bullet points in, yes. he and nor havent seen each other in a while and nor is excited to see him again finally not just in letter correspondence! and iceland is excited to see him too! but when they SEE each other ice feels Strange and way more nervous than he should be and doesnt know what to do,, and avoids him and hides in his room a lot ... and nor is like Ohhh hes at That Age ... hes a big boy now he thinks hes too cool for his old man *cracks knuckles* time to be the most annoying guy on the planet. and hits him with like the "look who finally left his cave" when ice comes out for dinner ......... their perception of the situation is so mismatched but they survive the holidays eventually. (my gut feeling is iceland asks den for advice pretty quick, and denmark just Doesn't Get It because ice is too vague with the problem. he's like aw it's been a while since youve seen each other but you're brothers and he loves you, dont be scared haha! but you know when u have a crush and its unmistakable? iceland knows whats wrong pretty quickly. and hes definitely goign to hell. hes up in his room all day on that damn rosary praying for salvation) (actually maybe norway DOES pick up on what's happening. not immediately but maybe by the end of it all. he didnt need words) (and even with words denmark doesn't get it) the way he gets all flustered is so cute, he wants to spoil him more or tease him more or something. its too bad ice'll grow out of it soon and then he really WILL be too cool for his old man :(

norway invites him to his home for hunting season-- they can shoot some big game that iceland can't get at his home.. theyve done this before over the years, these days they use guns but they didnt used to. elk jerky is a nostalgic flavor for ice ... hes Nervous about this trip though. being alone..just him and norway. with no buffer or room to hide in. once there, iceland stops calling norway his brother. hed stopped in his letters a while ago, just talking around it, but now nor can TELL tell. ice isnt sure he ever understood what "brother" meant to him, but he doesn't feel good about using it anymore. nor is hurt but doesnt really say much about it beyond asking ices reasoning. ice might go so far as to confess to him, being 14 and insane. and nor is like yeah i know its a phase dw. and ice is like oh .......... and somewhere in here they have a little nor 'indulging him in a kiss after he insisted on it /instigates it' drama and then being like thats all you get. im not doing this with you, i see you as a son. and he really thinks thats fine and normal to say and theyll both move on but it really fucks ice up. the rest of the trip, theres some teasing thats lighthearted on nors part but ice Really Cannot Take it. his letters following this get shorter. and shorter

iceland is finally in high school. his growth is coming in fits n spurts and hes passable as a high schooler now (the babyface kept working against him) which is soooo awesome. its the early 1800s. he gets a high class education at a 3~5 year boarding school for proper young men near copenhagen. only the best for denmarks favorite stepson. iceland is a booksmart kind of kid hes always been destined for academia. but unfortunately hes a shortking fish out of water that gets moderately bullied. but i think hes good with cold words to fire back so earns enough respect to not get wedgied or anything stupid. he also would go insane in a fistfight given the opportunity. but yes he isnt really there to make bougie connections w danish kids, this is about him and having this experience thats so trendy and cool right now, all the other young guys at his house aspire to do what he's doing. education is so cool and hes not very concerned about much else. he doesn't write to norway anymore. norway hasn't written to him much either. denmark reeeeally wants him to come to his home for christmas holidays and whatnot but he insists on going Home-home on his breaks. sorry denmark he doesn't enjoy family gatherings he wants to be alone ....

they see each other again. its brief, a day or so, and not something they planned ahead. an overlapping holiday with denmark or a meeting with sweden over something. iceland wasnt meant to be there but hes shadowing denmarks government work. they meet essentially as nations, surrounded by officials and bosses and humans. iceland doesn't want to talk to him. nor gets them two a moment alone and iceland drops the professionalism and goes full teen drama mode. DONT TOUCH ME .... im still in love with you ... and norway is like. wtf come on. and then buys him lunch and tries to get him to be normal. because nor is like youre my brother so i love you anyway. okay. i dont hate you. just breathe

wwi. wwii. then icelands independence. that's a lot of ground to just Not Cover but idk,,, i could just not. im more interested in learning ab the industrial revolution coming to iceland. i know a little ab how there used to be One Train in iceland and i think thats funny. i digress. iceland does a lot of growing up in a relatively short period of time. theres so much i could say. i also love the story ab danish royalty attending the very first independence celebrations, i think denmark would come. and maybe norway .. ,???????? and he'd be awful about nor beign there. idk. time period stuff

theyre both independent countries now and have to meet on business and honestly the whole awkward troubled teenager thing is so oldddd nor just doesnt careeeee. nor is convinced ices crush is a phase of several hundred years and hes half annoyed half flattered, overall misses him since ice is all uuuu tormented about it. well, nor isnt even mad ab it he just wants to be close with his baby brother again. after work he invites him out for a drink. just to talk and loosen up a bit. ice is hesitant but gets a push from his boss / aide who are like this would be good for you!! just say yes! (they dont know anything) and ice is like ugh fine but im only drinking a little bit. he is of age to drink low percentage alcohol, no shots or anything. and they have fun and talk. nor is only good at talking when hes not sober and ice knows this. they talk ab a lot of nothing at all and it heals ices soul about 4%.

they drink after work more often. they only get that chance a couple times a year, usually with other people around. iceland is getting more comfortable with this, but hes still not around so often. hes far away and values his privacy and is still newly independent. he doesn't want to be or feel back under anyone's wing. he misses denmarks typical family christmas (now hosted every other year at swedens house) for a few years claiming to be overworked, needing the rest, and disliking travel around the holidays. those years are when den and nor show up on his doorstep on new years day breaking plates and shit. and they bring him leftover christmas cookies and presents. nations dont do xmas/bday presents every year to me, because thats way too much to think about when ur immortal and years go by quickkk ... but ice always gets presents because hes the youngest and they cant help themselves

part 2 of above. consider this!!!!!!: denmark has to leave right away and hes sad ab it but nor has the time to spend an extra night. they still have extra mulled wineeeeeeee ... and various alcohols. they drink together and iceland gets a little silly with it. traumadumps about having a thing for him how fucked up it was of him to kiss nor that one time and he feels so bad he violated him like that and nor is like *non sober thoughts* i know how i can fix him. and kisses him. et cetera see original post. they make out for a while and then go to bed but like literally. maybe theyre both in the same bed but fully clothed. they pass out. next day nor has a flight to catch and ice drives him to the airport. they dont talk about it. norway presses a kiss to his forehead before he leaves , confusing ice further.

i lost about , 4 hours of my life typing this i think. im cutting myself off RIGHT NOW before i lose my whole day off

if i was brave i would hammer out my ocs for greenland and faroe and give ice some siblings to throw some contrast between how they feel about norway and how iceland feels about him.

hey wait this is 99 percent gen fic what gives. another sad sad case of what if you took the ship material out to cast a wider net of interest on your insane niche project ????????????? but unfortunately the incest is vital to the experience and this iceland interpretation. plus i wouldn t be likely to finish or start this if it was strictly platonic whalebrothers

having nor/ice thoughtssssssssssssss sad sad whiny kitty cat noises. wahhhh. im thinking about them wahhhhhhhh. WAHHH

what if i took all my small canonverse ideas and compiled them into ONESHOTSSSSS........................................ and what if they were CHRONOLOGICALLY ARRANGED ..... and showed RELATIONSHIP PROGRESSION over the course of 1000 years ...... and it wasnt that deep but i pretended it was and called it something like "i was meant to keep you warm" because i love to steal fox/i/ng lyrics. maybe even id find a way to make this a 5 times + 1 time format.

if i can wrestle my way into figuring out what goes on in nors head i could do it. ive figured that i want ice to never ever see him as a brother. my vision is that nor is iceladns hot babysitter fantasy and first crush that never goes away. he wants to marry him when he grows up but then his feelings stay that way and it never ever ever ever ever goes away and only gets worse. u understand? do u see it

and UNFORTUNATELY nor knows ic/eland likes him from the beginning. he can tell from like ice's adolescence onwards and is like yeah idk about all that...... but the attention is flattering and he loves this little guy so much and thinks its sweet. he doesnt get to visit often but ice writes him a lot because hes in love with him ykwim and nor loves him so much too (platonic) and always writes back.

and yeah they go through periods of living together for various reasons. sickness unions famines etc etc. not ever for long and nothing ever happens. if adolescent iceland pushed boundaries, nor would humor him a little with like...a kiss, bc he spoils him, but ultimately he hard-shuts it down. and ice would be traumatized forever and block the memory out / be eternally tormented at night by the time he did such and such so is the worst person alive etc

and ice begins teen life with the whole he will never love me and i am a tormented soul shtick. now he writes to him less, tries to put more distance between them... so it hurts less and all that. hes not GOOD at pretending he hates nor or whatever but its easy to lose connection when messages are rare and visits are rarer

he spends much more time at denmarks than with no.rway. he sees den.mark as a proper older brother / uncle / fatherly figure. hes closer emotionally to him and lives with him more and all that. his tutors are danish and he goes to boarding school in cop.enhagen in the 1800s. idk how this ties into the romance necessarily but its timeline relevant. whether or not denmark picks up on the crush , i dont know. i could go either way lol. also, den + nors relationship is strictly brotherly btw. ironically. because theres not enough fics where theyre platonic and i really do enjoy them that way too

nor and ice remain distant for several hundred years. its once ice gets into his pushing for independence mixed with modern technology for better communication ..... somewhere between say, the invention of the airplane and landline phones, nor and ice repair their relationship. iceland is coming into adulthood (independence) for real, and is SO mature about his international relationships. he can be so mature and normal about norway. he can sit down with him and have lunch and discuss business and norway wont talk down at him for being young at all (lie) and he'll be so chill about that and not yell at him (he only does it once) (he only has to do it once)

all this isnt to say n.orway himself didnt attempt to stay close over the years, but ic.eland wasnt reciprocating, and even if they saw each other every year at christmas (doubt) that doesnt make them really CLOSE. but i think iceland was always particularly special to him bc of how close they were as kids. and they WERE both kids back then. little icela.nd sent him letters while nor was like 14 at best. i believe in teen mom norway and his eldest sondaughter icey. at least from nors perspective. even tho hes so absent so much of the time. when he comes around he showers him in gifts as a love language even way back when

anyway, ice.land still has an obvious crush on nor and nor finds it SO cute. like he could just pinch his cheeks and coo at him for it. ice tries to keep a lid on his emotions but can only do so much. nor doesnt SAY anything to point sus behavior out. but as soon as he notices,,,, its like there was no time apart, to nor. ice is so closed off and stiff and weird around him and nor wishes he would relax so they can connect properly and he honestly CANT

the solution is to drink otgether i think. at some point. maybe not immediately but they'll get to it.

icela.nd isnt like oohg im too young to drink, i think hes just lived long enough that hes a bit Over It / doesnt want to act like an idiot / really doesnt want to act like an idiot in front of nor. but nor could peer pressure him into anything if he really tried so they finally get tipsy together and i think that goes a long way to repair their relationship.

they do this many times and as long as ice is careful to not drink a lot he'll be fine. hes gotta keep his wits about him and still be able to feel shame. one time he indulges a little hard and i think ice trauma dumps on him and they kiss to make up for the time nor pushed him away and nor didnt realize he was still hurting so much about that. nor is tipsy enough to do it (not even drunk) and afterwards he goes ohh wait i kind of enjoyed that. and do it a few more times then make out for a while and it doesnt go anywhere, they fall asleep

the next day they completely remember kissing and know the other remembers it and just mutually dont talk about it.

icelan.d is VISIBLY struggling even harder around him for at least a few days until he gets a handle on his emotions. and nor has a lot to think about. in general.

i dont know where the dna stuff comes in. im falling asleep while typeing this

but icelan.d obvioiusly is like wtf? we arent related. thats impossible. i cant even fathom this. and nor.way is like you are the closest i will ever have to family and i am your biological father and icel.and is like what the fuck ew you can say brother as much as you want but never say father again im begging you and nor is like Bet.

and then they test and they're first degree related. father or brother would be appropriate. and nor is like yeah obviously (already believed this when he kissed him) and ic.eland is like (max harlow voice) SUICIDE !! SUICIDE !!

icelan.d sits with that information for a while but his crush still doesnt go away. nor gives him space and also sits with the information. he never thought he'd end up here but he decides that hes into it. its kinda hot. I Do believe in slutty n.orway supremacy i thnk hes slept with most of europe and doesnt have a strong internal sense of familial boundaries considering he is a landmass and is like yeah id do that again we're both adults hes cute whatever

next time they see each other nor comes onto him. and ice is squeemish about it but this is also everything hes ever wanted. whats he gonna do, say no?

at this point i fell asleep but im awake again uhhhh

ic.eland gets to cope with being a creep a weirdo and getting what he wanted in the worst way possible and nor gets to torment him with the brother thing not as a kink but bcz it makes him uncomfortable and he thinks its funny.

i forgot to talk about the actual oneshot ideas that inspired this in the first place didnt i. oh well

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The Robins (and Steph and Cas) break into Douxie's apartment to ask for help with their history homework (Diana in tow because she also has some questions about humans during times she was stuck at themascira)

They walk into all of the guardians of Arcadia in a big circle around his coffee table frantically typing or scribbling in a book while Douxie sits on the couch and talks about some random history thing.

Wordlessly the DC gang join the small spaces left from the coffee table. Obviously, they run out of room so some has their laptop sitting on Douxie's lap like a table and someone is leaning against his leg as they write.

Diana curling up on the only space on the couch not occupied carefully not to disturb a sleeping Archie or Nari as she does.

The assignments are on different events/eras and so there is a system (a very disorganized system) of people asking questions and either Diana or Douxie answering (The Guardians don't know her but they don't care, this assignment is due at midnight)

As such this means there are also stories told while the kids frantically work away at their essays

Diana tells the story of her punching a God in the face to stop World War 1 and Douxie tells the story of that time he punches Hitler in the face during World War 2 for the DC gang.

The fun stuff

And the scary stuff

Douxie was dreading when one of the kids would ask questions about the witch trials. Diana hadn't been there for this, she had no idea what it even was but it didn't take a genius to know it was bad when Douxie stiffened up and he seemed a little far away. He obliged to answer their questions but they could all tell it was getting harder the longer he spoke.

Torture was common and brutal when you were a suspected witch

And God help you if you actually got caught doing magic

Douxie was quick to excuse himself to "get a drink" after that was done.

He was hunched over at his kitchen sink trying to get his breath back to normal, trying (and failing) to fight the burning in his eyes. He could smell smoke and burning corpses. He could hear crying and screaming, people begging to be spared. He could feel iron burning his wrist and lashes cracking against his back, he could warm sticky liquid oozing from the wounds. He could see nothing but darkness in a cage of stone wall, he could see blue teary eyes pleading. He could taste the metallic rust of blood and the bitterness of bile.

".....Douxie", a voice calls softly although he's too lost to recognize them. They gently reach out to him just barely grazing his back before pulling away quickly. He's retching up all he's eaten in the past day until there's nothing left and he's gotten rid of some of his stomach lining.

Diana. Diana was there. She was talking but he couldn't hear a word she was saying. There was a pitchy buzzing in his ears preventing him from getting it.

Archie!?!

Archie was right there purring against his arm before the thought even struck him. " Douxie it ok. We're not there, we're home in the kitchen. They can't hurt us anymore. We're safe

It takes them a few more minutes to call him fully back to the world granted rather discombobulated. After taking a breather with Archie to calm his anxiety he grabs a glass of water and returns to the group helping them finish whatever is left.

Their assignments get in at exactly 11:59 pm before they all realize exactly how late they are. They run off home knowing exactly how much trouble they'll be in.

"Will we be seeing you at the next meeting Douxie? We have free food and coffee. And of course another opportunity to show up Superman"

He just chuckles nodding, "I thought you guys were friends"

"We are, but it's free entertainment"

He just muttered something she couldn't fully catch about bread and circus before closing the door and going to bed.

My dad and I were talking about superheroes last night and my sister chimed in with a, "Honey who do you think would win in a fight? Douxie or Superman?" And at first I was tempted to say superman because hes superman but then my dad asked, "Well first, isn't Douxie a wizard?" And we were both like, "yeah. Most powerful wizard in his world." And my dad nodded and then said, "Douxie would win. Superman's weakness is magic."

And I was like, "👀👀 YOURE RIGHT"

I find comfort in the knowledge that Douxie could kick superman's ass if he wanted to

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